Toys, Stories and Teasing...

There was a very interesting post on Sub Hub in Phoenix the other day, about a prostate massage toy that they had bought and tried and not been overly bothered with and how they tried it again and this time read the instructions. So apparently Sub Hub and Mistress K assumed that they were supposed to use the 'handle' to manoeuvre it, but actually that's not the case at all - the 'handle' is just there to stop it getting sucked in. 

What you're supposed to do is insert it and then use it 'hands free' by squeezing your ass muscles. Sub Hub said it felt amazing this way, which is interesting since we have one of these that I think we bought at one of those Erotica convention things we went to about fifteen years ago. It's still in the drawer, never been used... maybe we should give it a try!

Could be a useful toy for when Mistress leaves me alone in our Femdom sessions perhaps? But I'd like to try it out first... just in case it's too good. Would be slightly awkward if Mistress came back to find me still tied up but with a pool of cum all over my stomach. 

I must admit I do find the idea of cumming solely from anal stimulation very hot, though I'd prefer it if Mistress was involved of course... maybe if I learn to do it with this then eventually she could make me cum by pegging me?

Literotica posted my latest story a few days ago and so far it's getting a good response. I have two comments, both positive, and currently it's scoring 4.7/5.0 after 61 votes, which is a great start and while it may drop back as the votes continue to come in, at the moment it is my highest scoring story! 

Which confuses me slightly, because I thought it was a nice little story, but hardly my best work. But then again, perhaps people like it because it didn't fall into the expected traps of 'chastity' stories, and also perhaps writing from the woman's perspective made it feel different and interesting?

I did start trying to write a second part, but... I don't know. It wasn't my plan to write a second part and I have no idea what Sammy's letters actually said. I mean, I have loose ideas... but I think if I wrote them into the next part it would probably then fall into the cliches that I've managed to avoid, so that's an issue.

I've added a couple more stories to the 'Stories by Other Authors' page... both multiple chapters so plenty to get your teeth into. 

We haven't got around to trying our new goodies yet. This evening Mistress used the new water based lube we bought to tease my cock though and that felt great. At one point Mistress's finger moved below my balls as if it was heading for my ass and I nearly edged immediately! However Mistress has very long (natural) nails so that's probably not a good idea! I never understood how porn stars with massive fake nails can stick their fingers in their ass, surely that's gotta be slightly uncomfortable? 

Mistress edged me three times tonight, which felt amazing. I can't tell you how good it feels now that I am refraining from touching myself again. It's been 18 days since our Femdom session and I have managed to keep my hands off, though it was very difficult this morning as I woke up very, very hard. But I managed and I'm determined to stick to the rules now.

A Bit of Internet Shopping...

As you know, our Femdom Sessions have been few and far between the last few years and when I look through our 'toy drawer' some of our stuff is starting to look a little shabby. I mean most of it is okay, the leather and glass stuff is fine, it's the other stuff that's starting to show its age.

There was a very large inflatable buttplug in there that I know we've had for at least 20 years (and probably haven't used for fifteen) it's very discoloured and unsexy looking... in fact I thought I threw that away a long time ago, so I was surprised to find it still in there. That went in the bin. And beloved as it is, my clear Oxballs Cocksling is also rather discoloured and yellow looking now.

So, armed with a discount voucher from LoveHoney (no, this is not a sponsored post) I went searching for replacements and found that LH do a very affordable butt plug in a more reasonable size that also vibrates. Sounds interesting! In addition I thought I would get a replacement vinyl sheet as again ours must be twenty years old and it's starting to wear where it's been folded and unfolded over the years. This one is a fitted sheet though so hopefully a bit easier to fit than the old one which was a massive pain in the arse until I taped extra material to the side to keep it in place!

I also got a replacement Oxballs product, though it's not called a 'cocksling' anymore it's called an 'Atomic Stretchy Jock Cock and Ball Sleeve' or something, which doesn't quite have the same snappy ring about it... but it's the same thing. This time I got it in black. And finally I got a pair of Love Honey silicone nipple suckers. I'm not 100% sure about those. I tried them for a few seconds and they didn't seem terribly effective but maybe you need to leave them on for a bit? One of the reviews said you should use a little water or lubricant to make them more sucky, so we'll see.

As it stands we haven't tried any of these products yet, so I will report back when we do. But it feels very positive to be adding to and replacing parts of our toy collection... 

Oh, now that I look at the packaging I see that it is still called a 'Cocksling', or rather a 'Cocksling 2 - the original', which seems rather counter intuitive...

Discovering Denial (Written February 2025)

This is a different kind of story for me, still based in the usual tropes (minus the cuckolding) but told from the female perspective and, well... it's just different from any story I've written before. I have an idea for part two, but we'll see how that pans out. 

You know, sometimes I look back and wonder whether everything I’m about to tell you was a set-up? But honestly I really can’t believe that. I just don’t think Sammy is that clever or that devious. But, well, maybe I should ask him sometime…?

Okay, so it all started about five years ago, give or take a few months. My boyfriend Sammy was going down on me… and I was just taking waaay too long to get there. Sometimes that’s just how it is, you know. But I was slowly getting there and he gave up on me! Said his jaw was hurting and his tongue was sore… what an asshole! He didn’t even offer to get me off with his fingers, he just got up and left me to finish myself off. I was pissed!

Okay, I know I was taking a long time, but come on! Then it happened again a few weeks later. That time we had a bit of an argument about it and the third time it happened I was really fuming. In fact the minute he stopped I pulled my vibrator out of the nightstand and told him to get the fuck out. We didn’t talk for a couple of days after that, but eventually we got over it… and everything went back to normal. 

But I was still very annoyed about it and I was determined that he was never going to do that to me again. So I let it lie for a couple of weeks and then I hatched my plan. I told Sammy that I wanted to give him a treat, but first I wanted to tie him to the bed. Like an idiot he agreed and I soon had him leaning back on the pillows with his wrists securely tied. 

“Are you sure you can’t escape?” I said sweetly.

“Don’t think so,” he said, his cock already starting to get excited.

“Okay then,” I smiled.

Getting Back to My Old Self...

Well it's been two whole weeks now since our last Femdom session and I haven't touched my cock once. Honestly, I'm not telling you this because I'm so 'proud' of my 'incredible achievement' and require your applause, but it is interesting how different things have been this last couple of weeks and this week in particular. Removing any kind of self-stimulation has done exactly what it was supposed to and made me feel much more eager for Mistress's touch. Not that I wasn't before of course, but definitely more now. And even more importantly I've also noticed a change in how hard I am when being teased.

As I said the other day, Mistress edged me on Friday morning without any cock ring or anything like that and I was really hard - which was as surprising as it was unexpected. Yesterday afternoon Mistress and I went to bed and I put the Oxballs ballstretcher on and I was so hard it was ridiculous. It felt like Mistress could hardly even move my foreskin back and forth and after she'd edged me once she lay next to me using her fingertips and nails on my desperate, throbbing cock... which felt absolutely amazing. I don't know if I could have reached the edge like that, maybe if Mistress said something really nasty at just the right moment I could... and it would be an incredible way to be ruined, but it kept me in a very high state of arousal all the same.

*For reference I think the Cocksling offers the most 'assistance', then the rubber cock and ball ring and then the ballstretcher... because all that does is pull your balls down and make the skin tighter, it doesn't physically trap the blood in your cock like the other two do.

Feeling so positive and excited about chastity once more means I also finally feel like posting here again regularly and yesterday evening I wrote a brand new short story, which I will be posting just as soon as I'm done spellchecking and whatnot. It's quite a different kind of story, it's still in the usual vein, but different and there's no cuckolding in it. It's also written from the perspective of the female character and I think some people will jump to conclusions that don't end up playing out. I have to say though, some of you might find it a little 'light'... oh well, hopefully there'll be some proper filth along before too much longer. 🤣

Oh, and I see the 'Orgasms' page has been reinstated again... FFS. 

This Whole Bad Dragon Thing...

You know, I am getting on a bit now... 55 at my last birthday, so I'm not really in tune with what the 'kids' are doing these days. But it seems like the latest 'thing' is girls (...and some guys, obviously) collecting these huge 'Bad Dragon' dildos and shoving them up their butts! 

Oddly, the way I found out about this was through Instagram. Which is kinda strange because I don't think I've ever actively searched for anything 'sexual' on there, quite the opposite actually as my phone is owned by my employer! 

However I did one day get shown this post and it made me laugh so much* that I took a screenshot so that I could forward it to a friend. Clearly the Instagram algorithm took this as a green light and within a week I was seeing endless ladies backlighting their see-through skirts in one of the most pointless memes ever.

* I think it's the look on her face as much as anything.

This is what I truly hate about Instagram and why I delete it every so often (actually I would say it's deleted from my phone way more often than it's installed because every time I reinstall it within an hour I remember why I deleted it), it's so mindless and derivative. Oh that girl took a photo of herself in a thin skirt with a strong backlight so you can see her pussy lips hanging down, cool - I'll do that too.

Well done. Bravo. Give yourself a pat on the back for your... 'creativity'.

Like everything though, that seemed to die off relatively quickly and I'm not sure whether people just got tired of it or Instagram clamped down on it (or maybe I stopped looking at Instagram for a few days and the algorithm panicked itself into thinking that I was offended and stopped showing them to me), and to be honest I really don't care. But the algorithm also sent me these odd posts, usually of very young looking girls with blue hair and prosthetic elf ears sitting in front of shelves full of impossibly big 'Dragon Dildos'.

Back in my younger days 'anal sex' wasn't something that most girls welcomed (at least openly... although given my limited experience perhaps I was just talking to the wrong girls - haha) so this intrigues me, that in what... 30 years we've 'evolved' to the point where this Dragon thing is not just an oddity but a monetizable 'trend'.

I mean how many people are actually into this I wonder? Because clearly 'Bad Dragon' is a viable company. I don't actually know how much their products are but I'm guessing they're not cheap and some of these people seem to have more than a few in their collections.

And really once you've seen one tiny Furry-girl impaled on a dildo the size of an elephants trunk haven't you seen them all? Or is this generation so fucked up by Manga and computer games that this is what they actually perceive as normal? 

Okay, I don't mean to come across as 'judgemental', after all glass houses and stones etc... but it all seems rather performative. Like it doesn't seem on the face of it like these women 'enjoy it' so much, as they like the attention and (presumably) the money they make on Only Fans? Maybe I'm wrong about that, but none of the posts I saw indicated that there was actually anything fun about it, just 'look at the size of this - OF link in the description'.

But surely there's easier ways to make money, rather than sticking something the size of a fully grown man's arm up your butt? Well, maybe not judging by the picture above and maybe if I thought people would be willing to pay big money to watch me wreck my arsehole with these things I'd feel differently about it... 🤣

But I can't help wondering if this is healthy? I mean, how is there room up there? Where the hell does it go? I sometimes feel slightly 'disturbed' when I get my butt invaded and even our biggest plug or dildo is only marginally bigger than my own very average sized cock, I can't even begin to imagine taking 18" of gnarly looking dragon cock up my arse!

But I suppose one man's kink is another elf's paradise and perhaps these Dragon loving ladies (and gents) do enjoy having their 'guts rearranged'* and would find tease/denial and Femdom 'weird'. Or maybe they're into that too? Seems to me like if you're into that you're probably pretty open-minded about most things... but who knows?

* A charming description to be sure, but common parlance amongst the younger generation apparently.

Valentine's Day...

How was your Valentine's Day? Mine was pretty damn good, it started with me getting edged before getting up to go to work (can't remember the last time that happened), a very enjoyable and unexpected start to the day. And when I came home Mistress and I had a nice evening together, including a nice meal with cards and gifts.

I know it's fashionable to poo-poo Valentine's Day as commercial nonsense, but I don't think it's a bad idea in principle. I mean sure, when I see a bunch of roses selling for £20 in the supermarket I can see why it pisses some people off, but there's no reason you have to go that route. 

This was our 33rd Valentine's Day together and when I woke up I wasn't even thinking about sex... I didn't even have any morning wood! But Mistress started playing with my balls and before you know it I was rock hard. She was really teasing me this morning, stroking me with just two fingers, then her nails, then barely moving her hand so that I ended up fucking her hand.

Eventually Mistress started pumping my cock hard and fast, but then she would abruptly stop... then start again, it was hot as hell! Ultimately there was no release and after another very sudden edge, Mistress called a halt. Just as well really as I only had about ten minutes before I had to leave for work.

When I got to work, my colleagues were asking each other if they did anything for Valentine's Day, neither of them did... I was dying to say 'Well maybe if you did then you would have got lucky this morning!' 

But I refrained... haha.

Two More Stories by Other Authors

I'm still adding links to stories by other authors to the blog as I find them, most recently the incredibly lengthy 'She Deserves It' by Cactusaur. This is a good story, but I honestly much preferred the first part to the second. As is often the way with these stories, the author feels the need to ramp things up and up and it gets a bit much by the end. 

They also have an odd habit of jumping from one scene to another without explanation, which to me reads like they wrote all the scenes and couldn't be bothered to spend the time connecting them properly. Maybe that won't bother you as much as it did me though... I just feel like this is a very good story that could have been a great story. Still worth a read, but it is extremely long! 

On the other hand 'David and Sarah' is much more straightforward (and a lot shorter), again I thought this was pretty good and it kinda reminded me of the 'Feeling Cucky' story that I reposted from an old copy of Forum magazine a very long time ago; 2011 in fact!

I was hoping 'Cactusaur' might have written some other Femdom / Chastity / Cuckolding stories, but sadly not. 'Lockedsissysubmissive' does have some other similar stories, but I think this is the best one. 

The 'Worst' Kind of Ruined Orgasm

What could I possibly mean by 'the worst' kind of ruined orgasm, do you think?

Well, if you're imagining the kind where you're given 'permission' to cum and then stimulation is withdrawn at the very last second, leaving you helplessly watching as you leak a steady pool of cum down the side of your poor, aching, desperate cock... then no, that's absolutely NOT what I'm talking about here. 

Perversely I really like that kind of ruin... partly, of course, because I love feeling helpless, submissive and deliciously frustrated and partly because it's 'intentional'; it's what Mistress wanted to happen, it was a conscious decision on her part.

The kind of ruin I'm talking about is when you're being teased end edged and even though your Mistress stops teasing you right when you warn her you're close, you can't help but feel like maybe it wasn't quite soon enough. Maybe you feel 'something' as the cum refuses to retreat back into your swollen balls like it's supposed to, but you really can't be sure. It's so vague... it's 50/50 and you just can't tell. 

And then you feel the tell-tale warm drip on your skin as your cock gradually softens and allows its load to slowly release itself. No pleasure, no frustration, no straining, no helpless submissive feelings... none of that, just a mild sense of disappointment and failure.

But there is always a risk when being edged by someone else, maybe they don't stop quite as suddenly as you hope. It could be just half a stroke, but that might be the difference between success and failure. But then if you never lose control are you just playing way too safe? Ultimately it's probably inevitable now and then (especially if like me you don't have as much feeling as you should)... but it's still something I would like to avoid. 

Perhaps when Mistress and I re-appraise our chastity contract we can include some sort of 'penalty' or 'punishment' for unauthorised ruins. At least that would give me a chance to atone for my behaviour..?