Sunday 30 June 2019

Getting Closer and Closer to the 100 Day Mark..

It's now 97 days since my last orgasm, and on top of that Mistress has now cum 33 times since the last time I did. Pretty amazing, neither of us ever really thought it would get so high... it's pretty warm today (not as bad as yesterday) and I thought I might struggle to get hard, but as soon as I started remembering yesterday, well let's just say I didn't have to worry about that any more!

Needless to say Mistress had a lovely orgasm on my tongue before she teased me to the edge, and as I kissed her pretty feet I was able to look up at her beautiful, wet pussy, glistening just a few inches away. Perfect!
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Saturday 29 June 2019

A Fantasy Finally Realised...

For as long as I can remember I've wanted Mistress to tell me to lick her ass. But more than that, I've wanted her to tell me out of the blue... when we're not in bed, when we're not in a sexual situation at all, I just wanted her to come up to me and say 'I want you to lick my ass', pull whatever she's wearing down and bend over in front of me. I have wanted that for so long, and today it finally happened.

Several months ago I got to a weight loss milestone, 1.1/2 stone (21 lbs) and that earned me three rewards off of Mistress's list. I had the first two ages ago, one of them was licking Mistress's ass while I was being teased and the other was 20 balls slaps, but the third... I kept hanging on to it, kept trying to find a moment where I could ask her to let me lick her gorgeous ass out of bed, but then there never seemed to be a good time and I would resolve to just accept that it would happen while we were in bed, and then I'd change my mind and so it went on.

A couple of weeks ago I told Mistress about this and explained that what I really wanted was not to ask her at all, I wanted her to 'tell me' at a moment of her choosing. As much as I love licking her ass when we're in bed, I wanted it to be an event in itself. One thing I've always fantasized about is Mistress using my tongue at a moment's notice, just calling on me to show my devotion to her body, without hesitation and without expectation of any reciprocation.

This applies equally to worshipping her delicious pussy of course, but in this instance the 'reward' presented me with an opportunity to try and make this happen, and hopefully it would make Mistress comfortable with the idea and hopefully she would do it again.

So earlier Mistress and I were on the sofa and she started kissing me and rubbing my cock through my pants until it was tenting nicely. After a little while she got up and said she was going to get a shower and I thought that was that. About an hour or more later Mistress suddenly walked up to me (I was sitting on the sofa using my laptop at the time) and said 'I want you to lick my ass'.

Well, my laptop was discarded in seconds as Mistress pulled down her shorts and panties and knelt on the sofa while I sank down onto the floor on my knees. Finally, this was happening! I buried my tongue in her ass as licked her while she leaned on the back of the sofa. It was so fucking hot, I absolutely loved it and my poor 96 day denied cock was rock hard... after a few minutes (which passed way too quickly for me) Mistress turned around and allowed me to kiss her mound before she pulled her shorts back up.

As much as I desperately wanted her to touch my cock, I'm so glad she didn't because this wasn't supposed to be about that, it was supposed to be me showing her how much I worship her and how I am always ready to worship any part of her body whenever she wants me to. Mistress said she loved it and I really, really, REALLY hope she will make this a regular thing for us, because I absolutely LOVED it.

Afterwards I spent at least twenty minutes worshipping Mistress's beautiful feet while she read her book. Obviously it wasn't quite as special as what had gone before, but I still really loved getting to worship her feet properly rather than for just a minute or two, I love to really absorb myself in submissive worship like that - I find it very relaxing and it makes me very happy. :)

Monday 24 June 2019

Sorry, Today is Day 91 not 101!

Apologies for the second post, I've made a total hash of this... so first of all I wrongly thought that today was day 101, when in fact it was day 91, and secondly I thought my previous record was 91, when in fact it was 81. So I have exceeded my previous record by ten days, but I am still nine days short of the magic 100. Of course it will be up to Mistress if she wants to deny me for another nine days or not, and also whether she wants to punish me for failing to keep count properly (as required by the recently signed Chastity/Femdom contract...

Sunday 23 June 2019

The Effects of Chastity

I noticed a thread at Chastity Mansion where people were invited to vote in a poll that asked 'After some time in Chastity, do you...'

A - Get more and more horny?
B - Get bored?
C - I don't have time to get bored.
D - I can go long periods without activity and that's okay.

Options C ad D got zero votes, while A got 62.5% and B got 37.5%.

One poster really hit the nail on the head for me when he said: Yeah if nothing happens it is boring, it's not the lack of access that makes chastity exciting it's holding on to that frustration high because of the lack of access. If there's nothing to excite you then it's boring and possibly building resentment.

It's the teasing that keeps it working, it is so important to remember that. Without teasing, chastity won't work for long. The more you tease the more he'll want you and that's what it's all about isn't it?

One Hunded Days of Denial

The other day Mistress asked me how many days it had been since I had been allowed to cum properly and I told her it was up to 95 days. Mistress was impressed, and she commented that she never thought she would let it get that high. Well, five days later and I still haven't been allowed to cum - yes that's right, today marks 100 days since my last proper orgasm. I can hardly believe it myself to be honest... and still I'm not sure when I will be allowed to cum and if I even really want to (not that I get a vote in that obviously).

It's an odd thing, you'd think I would want nothing more than to cum, and I do... or at least I definitely will when I'm approaching the edge, especially if Mistress is going to let me cum on her pussy or on her feet and make me clean it up. Truth be told I think I want that more than the orgasm itself, which makes me wonder if Mistress couldn't have me ruin onto her and clean her without resetting me back to zero...

It's almost hard to get my head around how long 100 days is, but it's actually 101 days to our 26th wedding anniversary, and that seems a long way off, that's some perspective right there!

Wednesday 19 June 2019

Aroused...

We watched 'Aroused' on Monday, and it was okay... turns out I didn't know as many of the pornstars as I thought I did, out of sixteen I only recognised five or six. The documentary is presented in a very kind of 'arty' way, its aim is to present the women in a different light and I guess it achieves that, but it all felt quite 'surface level' somehow. Overall I think 'After Porn Ends' was more interesting, and the second one was definitely the best one of the three.

Today Mistress and I went for a long walk this morning and then this afternoon we went to bed for a while. As ever I warmed Mistress's glass dildo for her but she didn't ask me to use it. But after she had cum she picked it up and pushed the tip into her wet pussy and had me suck it a couple of times, and actually before I slid down between her gorgeous thighs she had me suck on it a little bit then too. I enjoyed it. A lot. :)

Mistress hasn't surprised me with my 1.1/2 stone reward yet, but she did let me lick her delicious ass again today while she was stroking and edging my cock, I really loved that, I can never get enough of her ass. She still didn't let me cum though, it's 95 days now... maybe she wants to get me into three figures? I must admit, while I really want to cum and lick it up I'm also slightly dreading going back to zero again... still it's going to happen sooner or later (presumably).

Sunday 16 June 2019

FEMDOM SESSION: 16th June 2019

Since Mistress and I signed our new contract things have been going really, really well. I've only forgotten to put her towels out once (and got my ass whipped for it) and I've worshipped her gorgeous feet every single day. And we've still only missed one Femdom session out so far this year, which is a huge improvement on where things have been the last couple of years.

As usual Mistress gave me instructions on how to start the session and so I was blindfolded, wearing the Oxballs Cocksling (such an awesome bit of kit, I only wish I was getting sponsored by them!) and with a glass ring-end dildo in my ass. Mistress asked me if I had anything to confess besides my one towel infraction, and despite the answer being no she still decided to give me a fifteen stroke 'reminder'.

After that she had me worship her feet while she started rubbing her dildo against her pussy while she laid back on the bed. Of course, being blindfolded I wasn't able to see any of what she was doing and as she rightly said, even if I wasn't blindfolded she would still have told me to keep my eyes focussed on her feet.

As I kissed her feet Mistress teased me about wanting to watch her masturbating with her dildo (which will be happening pretty soon since I have now got my two stone reward!). She said that maybe she would have to tie my hands to make sure I didn't touch my cock while I was watching her, but said that I would still have to lick all her juices up and clean the dildo for her. Good to know! :)

Mistress had me get on the bed, but told me to stay on my hands and knees while she paddled my ass a little more for being 'distracted' when I should have been focussing completely on worshipping her feet. Fair enough I suppose... I certainly was a little distracted hearing her talking about tying my hands and all that...

Then Mistress tied me down and stood over me. She asked me if I wanted to be allowed to see her, and when I said I did, she said 'what if being able to see me meant you wouldn't be allowed to cum today?' I hesitated for a moment, but eventually said that I wanted to be able to see her and Mistress reached down and removed the blindfold. She looked amazing, with her cupless PVC top and leather skirt.... especially from that angle her breasts look absolutely incredible.

Up until this point I'd only got hard briefly while I was worshipping Mistress's gorgeous feet, but as soon as she sank down onto my face and I got my first taste of her delicious pussy, my cock got very hard very quickly! And Mistress was soon at it, slapping and whipping my cock and balls, over and over, then sliding down onto me and taking me inside her for a short while, riding my cock before more slapping and whipping while teasing me with her asshole, pulling her cheeks apart and stretching herself, knowing how much I want to tongue it....

At one point Mistress knelt beside me and allowed me to suck on her gorgeous nipples, then she lifted her foot up and placed it against my cock and balls. She said she loved how her foot looked against my very red cock and balls and I told her how much I wanted to feel her feet crushing my balls. Mistress smiled and commented how much I had loved the ballcrusher and how she was sure we would be 'using that again'. Me too, but I'd still love to feel her crush my balls under her foot, and especially with the ballstretcher on, that should make it really easy.

Then she put on her exfoliating glove and stroked my rock-solid cock with it, which felt really good, but quite intense, before more whipping, slapping and riding. And all too soon we were half way through our session! Mistress blindfolded me again and pegged my nipples, then left me alone for a few minutes with the dildo still inside me and the Cocksling starting to sting as my cock started to gradually soften.

When she came back she used the cock whip (I think) to swat at the pegs, which I wasn't expecting and which was quite painful, before she plucked them off with her hand. Then she straddled me again and removed my blindfold, presenting me with her strap-on right in front of my face. She ordered me to suck it and pushed the rubber cock into my mouth, which I willingly sucked before she got up again and released me from the restraints. She told me to remove the Cocksling and then told me to get up on my hands and knees again.

It seems like it's been a really, really long time since Mistress had fucked me properly and I really needed her to do it this time. It's just one of those things that niggles me if it doesn't happen for a long time, so I loved that she did it. It felt pretty good too, not uncomfortable at all really, but still very intense. Mistress slapped my ass with her hands as she fucked me and then once she'd pulled out she got on the bed in front of me and (having dispensed with the condom) had me show my appreciation with my mouth.

Then it was time to use my mouth again, as Mistress allowed me the privilege of worshipping her gorgeous pussy until she came. It was the first time in a session that she'd had me use her glass dildo as I licked her and combined with my finger teasing her ass, Mistress came very hard indeed, which of course made me super happy.

As soon as Mistress stopped cumming she ordered me to clean her dildo and I lovingly sucked every drop of her gorgeous juice of the glass cock, before lapping up the remainder from the PVC sheet. Then Mistress stood up on the bed and had me lick her clean too, even her ass... before she had me lay down on the bed again.

As she stood over me and started stroking my cock again I reached up and used my hands to part her cheeks so I could again look up at her beautiful pussy and ass. I begged Mistress to let me lick her ass some more and she let me do it again several times, which I really, really loved. As always, Mistress stopped me before my lust for her ass was completely sated... but she knelt beside me stroking my cock and slapping my balls as she slowly brought me closer and closer to the edge.

Once I reached the edge, Mistress told me that I wasn't going to cum today, even though yesterday she kind of hinted that she was going to let me, even asking me where I'd like to be allowed to cum. So now it's 93 days since I've been allowed a proper orgasm, and also Mistress has had 29 orgasms since my last orgasm, which is another record (up from 24) and who knows how many more she might enjoy before allowing me to cum properly... maybe I won't get to cum until our next session in July? Of course I love being kept chaste, but at the same time I am really craving the submissiveness of cleaning up my load from her body with my tongue... which is why I love that it's not my decision any more.

After our session, Mistress and I watched a fairly risible documentary on BBC3 about 'Sugar Babies/Sugar Daddies', which 'shockingly' revealed that in these scenarios women are expected to have sex for money. No really. One particularly ridiculous interview involved a woman who agreed to persuade a female friend to have a threesome with her and the guy she met online who then cheated them of the promised payment, the presenter completely failing to pick up on the fact that the woman was distraught not because she had sex but because she didn't get paid. If she'd have said she was a prostitute and she didn't get paid, well... shocker. But because she found this guy on a Sugar Daddy website it's somehow the website's fault, even though it says you aren't supposed to use the site to meet people for one off experiences for money. And, to be fair, when the owner of the site is put on the spot he rightly says, don't use my site - go and be a prostitute if that's what you want to be. And, as he says, Bumble and Tinder aren't for prostitutes, but is there prostitution on those platforms - of course there is! It wasn't the first time this woman had done it either, and the first time she did get paid and she thought it was wonderful, again, seemingly oblivious to the fact that she'd sold sex for cash like a prostitute.... the mind boggles.

The whole documentary seemed to be determined to out the whole scene as a front for 'prostitution' and awfulness, but it all fell rather flat. She tried to contact the guy involved in the non-payment scam, which it turned out he had done several times, and then when he texted her back 'Who is this?' she was completely shocked and appalled. As if that was an outrageous reaction to have to some random woman leaving a missed call on his phone... She also met a girl who had seven Sugar Daddies and was raking in thousands of pounds a month, for 2-3 times a month meetings (which obviously include sex).

Then the presenter (inevitably I suppose) created her own profile on the site and tricked a guy into meeting her. He was offering her £250 for sex so she met him in a café or somewhere similar with a view to going to a room in hotel. She talked to him for a while and then obviously needing to extricate herself from the situation fled to the toilet to talk to the (hidden) camera about how scared she was and what an awful situation she was in. So she went back out and told the guy that she was sorry but she couldn't do it and offered to pay for the hotel room and the guy was perfectly fine about it, told her not to be silly, kissed her on the cheek and told her if she changed her mind to call him.

THE BASTARD!

I guess we should have known better really, BBC3 is notoriously overdramatic about these sort of things, next up we are going to watch 'Aroused', another documentary about porn stars (and unlike 'After Porn Ends' most of these I've actually heard of...) so that should/might be interesting..

Wednesday 5 June 2019

This Video is Extremely HOT!



The last couple of minutes you can take or leave, but this video is extremely hot all the same. I love the way she holds his head and even uses her feet to pull him in. HOT! :)

Tuesday 4 June 2019

Something New, Plus Some Other Bits and Bobs...


Tonight we tried something completely new, something which we both really enjoyed, which was me giving Mistress a mini-manicure. Mistress gets her beautiful feet manicured professionally about every six weeks and you remember I was supposed to redo Mistress's nail varnish a while back when she had to remove it for a medical procedure. In the end that didn't happen, which I was quite disappointed about... but never mind.

So tonight Mistress had me run a bowl of warm water, and then put some soaking crystals in it. Then after she'd had her feet in there a little while she had me scoop some scrub out of a jar and use it on her feet. Once I'd done that I rinsed her feet and dried them off, before moving on to the file, then it was Mistress's favourite bit, me massaging her feet and lower legs with peppermint foot lotion.

I couldn't resist pointing out the big creamy mess all over Mistress's feet... not quite the creamy mess I was perhaps hoping for but hey! :) Finally Mistress had me fill in the varnish on one of her toes which had chipped off. It was a lovely way to spend 40 minutes or so, although next time I need to find a better way to kneel as my legs completely went to sleep and I could hardly walk afterwards!

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On Sunday evening we were planning to go to bed, but then Mistress decided she wanted to have a couple of drinks first and then have me go down on her before she went to sleep. So come 10:30pm Mistress told me she was going to get ready for bed, a few minutes later I came up the stairs to find her in bed, reading porn stories and (I suspect) starting without me. 

When I walked into the bedroom Mistress continued reading her stories, but kicked her gorgeous legs out from under the thin duvet. It was extremely hot, something about the way she did it and not even bothering to put her book down or saying anything, just kind of 'here's my pussy - I know you want to lick it and make me cum, so do it!'

Well I wasn't going to complain, so I sank down between her legs and licked her delicious pussy until she came, and then kissed her feet for a short while before she asked if I was going to bed or getting up again. I said I was going to bed and she gave me one brief kiss and told me she was going back downstairs for a glass of water. 

So that's what she did, leaving me in bed and struggling to get to sleep (as usual on a Sunday night). Ah well, I said I wanted her to use me whenever she wanted to, and I loved it!

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Long time friend of the blog Alex Jordaine has a new book out, I haven't had the opportunity to read it yet so I don't know anything much about it other than that it's out. You can check it out on Amazon here: https://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/product/B07SJ6ZKQ7/ref=dbs_a_def_rwt_hsch_vapi_tkin_p1_i0

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Well, my latest Milovana tease 'Valentina's Message' didn't make it into the end of month poll, from what I can tell it was equal fifth in the standings but got passed over because the other tease had more score ratings. Ah well, them's the rules I suppose!

Saturday 1 June 2019

The Ballcrusher Arrived...

Last night I got home to find a parcel waiting for me, I opened it up and sure enough it was the Perspex ball crusher from China. It looks fine and I wouldn't honestly think that if I'd paid £60 for it from a sex toy site that it would have been any better. However (and again, this is by no means a given that this would be any different for a £60 version), the corners while not sharp are not as rounded as they could be. Not the edges of the plates, but the edges of the holes which your cock and balls go through and, as I suspected, the holes are a bit on the small side for me.

Still, I suppose better too small than too big (for my ego anyway!) and I did try... but basically I could only get one ball and my soft cock through the larger hole. My (soft) cock just fitted through the smaller hole, but I fear once it got hard it would be very tight and as I said, those corners need rounding off. So unfortunately we weren't able to try it out last night, and now I need to find a way to make the holes bigger. I think maybe a deburring tool might work, although it might take a while, but if not I guess I'll have to resort to a couple of holesaws and then a lot of wet and dry paper!

Still, Mistress made the best of it, teasing me about how disappointed I was that she couldn't crush my balls as she edged my rock hard ball-stretchered cock! That was fucking HOT! I can't remember exactly what she said, but it was awesome, something about 'seeing how far we could take it...' OMFG:YES!
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Then, this morning, totally out of the blue, I woke up hard and Mistress noticed and started stroking me again, which resulted in a very intense ruined orgasm for me... which leads me to think that maybe I won't be coming so soon after all. Today is day 69, my record is 81, so that's a week on Thursday to 'equal' it... we have a week off and a Femdom session planned the week after that, so maybe that's when it will happen - or is that too obvious? Or will I be making it to three figures?

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I've noticed this time that once I got over fifty days or thereabouts, that's when the chastity really seems to be at it's most effective. It's funny, from what people say you'd think that long term chastity results in a constant erection, but that's not my experience at all. Maybe that's a lot to do with my age though, maybe if I was 30 it would be different. No, what I find is that it's more a sort of 'mellowness' a kind of low frequency 'high', or what I would think was a high since I've never been 'high' in my life!

Like the other day when I said about how I spent half an hour just rubbing Mistress's gorgeous bare feet and the effect that it had on me. It would still be nice if I'd recently been allowed to cum and I would still enjoy it, but it isn't the same. I think that's why people always say about how they regret having an orgasm, because although they do want it, it's over so quick and it takes so long to get that deeply felt 'submissive' feeling back up to full power.

That's why you need to give control over to someone else, because otherwise that 'responsibility' is too much, plus once you get close it's hard to make the right choice and stop. Even though you know you will regret it... but then again, like I said the other day, there's nothing quite like licking up a load of cum from your Mistress's feet/pussy/ass/legs/breasts/etc when it's been pumped out good and hard.