Last night I went to bed before Mistress, but it was after midnight - we had watched the 1950 film 'House by the River' (which was very good) on YouTube - but Mistress stayed up until around 2AM. In the meantime I dozed and with our Femdom Session planned for this morning, well my mind did what my mind does.
I recall being awake(ish) shortly before Mistress came to bed and I was kind of visualizing us both in our session - Mistress standing in front of me, me on my knees, blindfolded*. I remember Mistress asking me if there was anything more I needed to confess to and me saying yes (I remember briefly touching my balls and maybe my cock while I was dozing) and then asking her if I could speak freely.
*I think the fact that I was blindfolded was quite significant as I think it would be easier to speak like this if I was blindfolded.
She said yes and... now this is annoying, because I can't remember half of the things I said, but I do remember two of them (I think there were four or five) and it started with me explaining what I meant by wanting her to be 'meaner' - you may remember last week I said in a post that I had wanted Mistress to be meaner, well more on that shortly.
Anyway, the other two things I remember saying to her were that I would love her to fuck me more often and not just in our Femdom sessions, and also that I didn't mind if she never granted me another full orgasm but that I would love it if she ruined me more frequently because I love being made to eat my cum and obviously if I don't cum very often then that doesn't happen much either.
I felt like I was awake, but I'm not entirely sure I was, really... it's all very vague and I don't think Mistress responded to the things I said (in this 'dream'... if indeed it was a dream?). But in the real world I remember hearing Mistress coming to bed and really hoping that she wasn't going to want to tease me because even though I wasn't really that hard, I felt like I might explode if she so much as touched me.
Thankfully (and I won't say that very often) Mistress got into bed and made no attempt to initiate teasing and I fell asleep fairly quickly afterwards.
So this morning we both got up very late, around 10AM I think, maybe even a bit later and we finally started our session about 12:30.
Oh, but before we get to that... following my post previously Mistress had asked for some clarity on what I meant by wanting her to be 'meaner'. I tried to explain, but it's quite difficult because it's not as simple as whipping me harder or digging her nails into my cock harder (though that's total valid and welcome) but what I was trying to get at was more nuanced than that... tone of voice, attitude, and being deliberately more 'self-centred'.
I'm pleased to say that Mistress pulled this off magnificently. My one huge regret for today was that I did not make an audio recording of our session because I would love to be able to quote directly some of the amazing things she said while I was down on my knees worshipping her beautiful feet. But it wasn't just what she said it was also the tone she used, it was absolutely perfect and it made it very hard for me to concentrate on the task at hand.
I do remember her idly suggesting that maybe one day we should have a session where all I did was worship different parts of her body, and in between she might take short breaks to slap my cock and balls. OMFG! So incredibly hot to hear that from her mouth. I just wish I could remember what else she said... I know she said something about teasing my cock until it was red raw, something about rubbing it with something rough and hard, but I don't remember exactly. She then said something about 'Cutting it off' which took me aback for a second, until I realised she meant 'stop teasing me' not, you know... 'cutting it off' for real! Or did she? Okay let's not dwell on that too much!
She also said something later about fucking me hard with her strap-on and making me kiss her cock afterwards..... uuuugh! So incredibly HOT!
But before that Mistress asked if I had anything to confess and I admitted that I thought I had touched my balls the night before and possibly also my cock. Mistress was not pleased at my lack of self control and began her regular punishment using the whip and the paddle. When she got to about fourteen strokes she paused momentarily and I thought she had finished but then she said 'Now we need to address last night's touching' and she gave me another eight with the hard side of the paddle.
She told me to kneel back up and then she reached down and took hold of my cock with her left hand, I'm not sure if she was stroking it or just holding it but then she started hitting my balls (which were trapped inside the Oxballs Cocksling with the built in ball-stretcher and so very tight) with the paddle.
Admittedly she wasn't hitting them hard and I suspect she was using the felt side to start with, but the dull thud against my balls felt amazing. Funnily enough using the paddle on my balls was something I was planning to suggest to Mistress but it was so hot that she did it without prompting from me. Just one more awesome thing about today's session.
Then Mistress had me turn towards the bed and she lay down and had me worship her beautiful feet (although I couldn't see them because I was blindfolded). Mistress talked to me as she played with her glass dildo, occasionally stopping to have me suck it and taste her delicious juices off it. This was when she really started to give me the 'mean' vibe and it was incredibly hot hearing her talk this way. One thing I distinctly remember her saying was something like 'oh well, it doesn't matter what you think, it's all about what I think and what pleases me isn't it?' or something like that.
I so loved hearing that, and especially the way she said it... like she really believed it and it wasn't just something she was saying. I genuinely LOVED hearing her say that.
Once she was satisfied she tied me to the bed and immediately sank down on my face. Her pussy was so wet and it tasted absolutely amazing. Clearly, I thought, this is a sign that Mistress enjoys being meaner too, because her pussy is really, really creamy right now.
Mistress straddled my face several times, and every time her pussy got wetter and wetter. I was absolutely loving it, there's something so special about having your beautiful Mistress straddling your head and planting her pussy right over your mouth - I wish she did that between sessions too. :)
Eventually Mistress removed the blindfold and as I looked up she stood over me looking absolutely incredible. She was wearing a leather skirt and her cupless bra which looks amazing, especially from below! God Mistress's breasts are so gorgeous.
She taunted me with her ass several times, sinking right down onto my face, but I knew she wouldn't allow me to lick her gorgeous ass yet. Inbetween times she knelt beside me, stroking, slapping and whipping my cock and balls. And later she grabbed the paddle and hit my balls (and cock) with it again - which felt amazing. Mistress also dug her nails into my cock pretty hard too, definitely harder than she has before I think.
Time must have gone really quickly because then next thing I knew Mistress was applying pegs to my nipples, both of which were quite painful right off the bat. Living up to her part Mistress removed the right one and re-applied it making me wince a second time before she left me alone, my cock still throbbing for at least a couple of minutes.
Sometimes in the past I have become so relaxed during this break that I almost completely forget that my nipples are pegged, but not so today. They hurt the whole time Mistress was out of the room and when she re-appeared her skirt was gone, but she still hard the cupless leather bra on. She looked so incredibly sexy, especially with that smirk she had on her face knowing that she was about to take those pegs off and cause me a lot of pain.
She made me beg her to remove the first peg and smiled broadly when I hissed and writhed as the pain coursed through me. Then she made me beg again for her to remove the second peg. Making sure to do it before I could grit my teeth for maximum discomfort and smiling with pleasure as I writhed beneath her a second time - I love this new meaner Mistress sooo very much.
Now it was time for me to worship her pussy and make her cum, which was wonderful and she tasted so fucking amazing. After I had cleaned Mistress's pussy and licked up her juices from our PVC sheet, she had me put the Oxballs back on (I had asked to take it off before I made her cum because my balls were starting to burn and I really needed a break).
Then she stood over me, facing away, and started stroking my cock and digging her nails in again, while she made me beg for the privilege of worshipping her delicious ass. She said that she thought I would agree to just about anything right now and she was so right, I would have done just about anything to taste her.
As Mistress hadn't restrained me this time I asked for permission to touch her. She agreed and slid my hands up the back of her amazing legs to her ass. I gently parted her cheeks so that I could see her sexy asshole while Mistress continued stroking and hurting my cock in equal measure.
Mistress allowed me to worship her asshole twice before she moved off and knelt beside me. My cock was so hard now and she leant forward and had me suck on her nipples before stroking me harder, her nails also digging in. She paused now and again to strike my balls until eventually I warned her that I was getting close.
I thought she would let go, but she kept stroking and said 'If you really are close then come on..', she stroked me a few times more and then as I started to cum she relaxed her hand and then removed it completely. As I looked down at my, red, angry cock she dragged her nails up and down the sides, causing me more pain as my poor cock leaked onto my stomach.
Honestly it was one of the best ruined orgasms I've ever had. And once I stopped cumming Mistress fed me my cum from her fingers, which just topped the whole session off nicely. It was so, so good. And Mistress was just incredible today, I am so unbelievably lucky to have such an amazing wife and Mistress.
Later I asked her if she was happy being 'meaner' to me. I mean, her pussy was soaked so clearly she was enjoying it, but I still wanted to ask her to make sure, because I didn't want her to feel like she had to act this way for me if she wasn't comfortable with it. She said she was happy doing it as long as she could act as she felt, so I guess if she wasn't feeling 'mean' she could act as she wanted to in future.
But honestly I think Mistress totally has this in her, I think maybe she is worried to really let her mean side out, perhaps she is afraid to hurt me. But I could not believe the difference in her and how naturally it came to her. Her tone of voice was so incredibly sexy and hot to me, and the things she said, particularly when I was worshipping her beautiful feet were making my head spin.
After we finished our session and held each other close for a while, Mistress got out of bed and commented that she never even got round to using her strap-on. Normally I would be disappointed, because I do love it when Mistress fucks my ass, but today was so amazing that it really didn't matter.
Later we finally got round to reviewing our contract, and decided that in future we would do it after our sessions, because we are in the perfect head space to do it. We made a couple of tweeks, including provision for me to ask for certain toys to be used between sessions. For example, the inflatable butt plug, which I bought sometime last year and hasn't been used yet, and also my glass dildo.
What an amazing afternoon that was. Thank you Mistress, you are truly incredible and I love you more every day.
