Thursday, 17 April 2014

Three hundred down...

Well would you look at that, Mistress R now has 366 orgasms to my 66, making me exactly three hundred down in just over three years! Actually, as I'm typing this I can still taste Mistress R's delicious pussy... and that's not all I can taste either. No I haven't been allowed to cum again, but after some pleading I was allowed to worship Mistress's gorgeous ass as she teased my cock. Truth be told I was throbbing before I even brought up the subject of being allowed to lick her asshole, so you can imagine how I felt after being given permission!
Well, it's Easter weekend at last and I'm looking forward to four days off work. I can't really claim to need a holiday as I've only just had one, but all the same, these last four days have seemed like the longest on record. Aside from all the fun things Mistress and I are intending to do together, I am hopeful of spending at least some time being creative this weekend. That means either writing music or writing porn, and I feel like the latter would be the better option. I already have an idea for a short story, so perhaps by Monday night you guys will get to read it. Well let's hope so anyway.
I actually looked at a couple of Literotica stories today and they were really poor. I mean, really poor. I actually left a comment on one because it started off promisingly enough, quite well written actually, but then it all went to pot. First the guy was a lawyer, then a former NFL player, then his cock was smaller than his wife's ex, then he was really well hung... I mean, for fucks sake! Mistress can't even abide punctuation misdemeanours (woe betide the author who brandishes a semi-colon inappropriately) so I can't imagine what she'd make of that.
Anyway, here's wishing all my readers a happy Easter.

Tuesday, 15 April 2014

You're not a 'real' slave...

An anonymous comment left earlier today reads...

Robert
Why does Mistress R refer to you as slave? There are people in the BDSM community who consider this very bad form. You are sexually submissive, but you are not a slave and as far as I can tell you certainly haven't earned that particular title. I suppose at least you haven't taken to wearing a collar. That really would be taking the piss.



Now I don't know whether this person is male or female, for some reason I think it's a female, though the odds are stacked against it. But I think it's safe to assume they are British, as I'm not sure the phrase 'taking the piss' extends much beyond our sunny isles? Or maybe it does, I'm not the most well travelled of people after all.
But anyway... I am aware that there are some people who feel this way, but the truth is Mistress R has referred to me as 'slave' for a very long time indeed, our Femdom sessions have been ongoing for nearly twenty years after all, and way before I was aware that this was in any way 'controversial'. It was never meant to have any truly deep and meaningful significance other than being the obvious thing a Mistress would use to refer to her submissive, I mean I've never once heard of any Mistress referring to their submissive directly as 'Sub' (sorry... should be a small 's', obviously, but lets not get into that here).
Perhaps in your eyes we are merely playing at this, and that I grant you, because we are indeed playing at this compared to some. In all honesty I don't actually wish to be a 'slave' as you might see it. I don't really want to spend whole evenings kneeling at my Mistress's feet (lovely as they are) holding her drink tray in my teeth while she amuses herself by stubbing out cigarettes on my shoulders. If that's what it takes to 'earn' the title of slave then good luck to those who get off on it, but it's not for us.
On the other hand, Mistress knows she is at liberty to demand my submission at any given moment, merely by addressing me as 'slave'. In fact this is in our recently signed contract. Now, I concede this hasn't actually happened as yet, but I have done all that I can to facilitate that outcome. I am essentially Mistress R's 'submissive' 24/7, but only if she chooses to utilise me. That is out of my control. Maybe in another year's time it will have become normal for Mistress to have me stroking and edging my cock for her amusement, or worshipping her ass at a moment's notice, I certainly hope so... and rest assured if it is then I shall take great pleasure in sharing it with my readers.
If anybody else takes great exception to my/our use of the word 'slave', well I am sorry but we are kind of used to it now, so... whatever!

Sunday, 13 April 2014

Fifteen new captions for you...

Fifteen brand new captions - just click HERE

Mistress Marie's comment on my Femdom Session post...

Mistress Marie said: Another fun session to read about. Hey did you ever share the details of the new weight loss program you two are doing and what the rewards etc are?

No I didn't actually. Basically what happened was the group changed venues and the new venue was bigger and the seats there were really uncomfortable to sit on for an hour and a half. So I ended up just going to get weighed and I was fine with that, until the last week I went. I had been weighing myself at home and wasn't expecting much, maybe a pound, or half a pound off, maybe at the worst a maintain. But instead they told me I had put on four pounds and I was really pissed off. Mistress R didn't believe it either, so I thought, the only reason to go (and pay £5 a week) was because they were supposed to have really good scales that I could rely on, but that totally killed that trust I had in them. So Mistress R and I decided that instead I would put that £5 a week in a jar and we can use it to go out for dinner or something when there's enough in the pot.
So now basically Mistress R is weighing me every weekend and every time I lose 'new' weight I get to choose a treat. If you remember, last week I chose the cock whip, which was great. Unfortunately, this week I put on two pounds (we've been off work this week, although I was still expecting to maintain) so I didn't get to choose anything, and tomorrow is Mistress R's birthday so it's not looking brilliant for next week either... but still, I'm still about 2.5St (35lbs) lighter than when I first went to Slimming World and it was cool today being able to buy some cool new Oakley T-Shirts in the Oakley Vault. There's also some milestone rewards, but I'm not sure exactly what they are going to be yet, so we'll see.


Wonder if you can choose a good hard long ass fucking sometime :) That would be very hot indeed.


Yes, I've thought about that. But since I only get to choose one treat (or rather toy) at a time, I'd really rather have the glass butt plug first for a while. Maybe I need to discuss this with Mistress R to clarify...


I was thinking one night when you are done worshipping her feet, she could have you stroke while she watches and then make you ruin your own orgasm over her feet and suck them clean. Maybe making you actually do it will alleviate some of her feeling mean!


Thanks for this suggestion MM, I have read it out to her and she commented that it was an 'interesting idea'. I do love cumming on her feet (and licking them clean), and to be honest it would be easier for me to ruin myself onto her feet than for her to do it, getting my cum on her feet while she's stroking me has always been a bit tricky, lets hope Mistress follows this idea up soon!

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Not much to report since the session if I'm honest. Mistress and I were away Friday and Saturday, a concert and a shopping trip meant two very exhausting days. I'm pleased to say that I didn't neglect my foot worship duties yesterday though, and I kissed her pretty feet for quite a while as she lay on the hotel bed yesterday! Right now Mistress has a bit of a problem with one of her eyes, I hope it doesn't spoil her birthday tomorrow.

Saturday, 12 April 2014

Mistress Marie: How Do You Feel About Orgasm Denial...

Right now Mistress Marie (HERE) is hosting a little discussion about denial and she would be interested to hear your comments, this is how I answered her questions:


'How do you think you would feel if your Mistress said that you would not cum for a year?'

I would be extremely surprised for a start as that would be a massive jump for us... But as I'm assuming by that you mean I would only be getting ruined orgasms rather than no orgasms at all, I would be happy to go along with that. I find often that while orgasms after a period of denial are very intense and powerful - too powerful to be enjoyable sometimes - if it was truly my choice I would probably choose a ruined orgasm or denial over a proper orgasm, simply because the crazy feeling of being so desperate to want to cum is so much better than the post orgasm deflation. That said, these days proper orgasms don't seem to satisfy me as much as they used to, I mean they don't knock me back so far, so the desperation returns quicker than it once did. 


'Or that you would never cum again?'

I really can't see the point of that, because it's surely better to hold that power over the slave even if there is actually no intention of ever allowing a proper orgasm. It would be far better in my opinion to offer a date for possible release and then when that arrives, review it and give another date, and so on... false hope has to be more effective. Or don't offer a date at all, and every time the slave gets close to release tease him that maybe this time it will be the one... only to ruin him at the less second. Honestly, any Domme that would do this would be diminishing her own power for no good reason, unless her slave has expressed an interest in 'permanent denial', but even then once he has that fantasy fulfilled then what?


Do you think it would improve your service or have a negative effect?

Well, on the one hand it would keep me horny, but on the other no more so than unspecified denial. The only way it might work would be if there was a lot of verbal teasing about it, like when I was getting close if she teased me about it, reminding me that it doesn't matter how close I get, how much I beg, etc etc... because every orgasm I ever have for the rest of my life will be ruined. But even then I think the effect would wear off, whereas just never knowing and/or being teased about it would wear much better. For example, say I went a couple of years without a proper orgasm, or even four or five... there would still be hope which could be encouraged and crushed at will by the Domme, which is bound to have a greater effect than knowing full stop that there will never be another orgasm. I know a lot of people fantasize about permanent denial and I understand that, but I think what they are craving is not the knowledge that they will never be allowed to cum again, I think they want the reassurance that they will never have to suffer the post-orgasm dip again, which isn't really the same thing. But I could be wrong, no doubt there are some people who would genuinely get off on the idea of being controlled to that degree.


'What is the longest you have ever been denied?'

42 days, twice. I am hopeful of breaking that record sometime in the very near future.


'How long would you like to be denied if you were allowed input?'

I'm not sure exactly, but I'm sure that when I got close to it I would probably not want it to come to an end, so actually I would rather not have a date, or know when it is going to be. I love the uncertainty of being close to the edge and wondering... what I would say is that if I was given input then I would like a lot more ruined orgasms and a lot less proper orgasms. I would quite happily have single figure 'proper' orgasms per year, but plenty of ruined ones as I love it when Mistress makes me lick my cum off her fingers or especially from parts of her body, but like most denial junkies I hate the post orgasm lull.


To find out how here other readers have answered click HERE to visit her site.

Thursday, 10 April 2014

Femdom Session 10th April 2014...

For as long as I can remember I have been printing this list out for my Mistress to fill in before each of our Femdom sessions. I'm not sure if she's ever ticked the 'Surprise Me' box before, I think she maybe has but it was an awfully long time ago. So I was pretty surprised to see this this morning...


I guess because this box never really gets ticked I've never really thought about what I would do if it did, and I didn't have an awful lot of time to think about it. I guess there's a number of more adventurous things I could have done, but what I elected to do in the end was wear the Oxballs Cock Sling and insert our older (4 ball style) glass butt plug. The thinking being that I was hopeful that Mistress would take the hint and use her strap-on on me, like I've been hoping for for ages!
When Mistress came into the room she noticed that I had the Oxballs on and said 'So you chose the Oxballs to surprise me then...'. I said 'yes' but didn't give away that that wasn't the only surprise. She found out shortly afterwards when she had me bend over on all fours on the floor and saw the glass ring sticking out of my ass, and was seemingly very surprised indeed!
Actually I did have another idea, ages ago I bought this ball stretcher thing, which is just like an inch wide strip of leather with press-studs to join it together. But I can't get the damn thing on, my balls are just too damn tight!
Anyway, Mistress gave me a short and mild whipping, not really punishment, just a little reminder, before having me worship her feet while she played with her glass dildo. I had to push the butt plug back in a few times as it started to slip out, but it wasn't too bad because I didn't go overboard with the lube.
When she was satisfied with my foot worship, Mistress tied me down on the bed, blindfolded me and started stroking my cock, once I was nice and hard she straddled my face and my cock a few times before teasing me with her ass. All the time she left the butt plug in and sometimes she grabbed it and played with it while she was stroking my cock. As the session progressed she abused my cock more and more, using a hairbrush and the cock-whip and stroking it hard and fast even though it was held tight in the Oxballs (no lube either!).
Eventually she clipped pegs on my nipples and left me alone for a short while, and when she came back she took the blindfold off, straddled my face and pushed her 'cock' into my mouth. She looked so hot in those awesome RodeoH strap-on pants, they were such a good buy, I just wish we used them more often.
Mistress removed my butt plug, untied me and told me take off the Cocksling (which was starting to sting a little by now) and then told me to turn over and get up on my hands and knees. Then she positioned herself on the bed behind me. I felt her spray a good quantity of lube on my asshole and felt her feed the head of her strap-on into me. I pushed back, eager to feel it inside me at last. As I did so Mistress reached down and grabbed my cock and stroked me as she fucked me. It was so fucking hot and it felt absolutely amazing. I think if anyone wanted to try anal sex for the first time I would really recommend using a butt plug for half an hour or so beforehand, it made such a difference. I have never enjoyed it as much, or been so comfortable being fucked before...and the stroking just topped it off perfectly. It was awesome! I would have loved to have cum like that, I really would, but sadly after a few minutes Mistress pulled out. Afterwards she said to me that she felt like she could have continued for a lot longer (whereas in the past it's often been hard for me to take, even though I've wanted to do it) and I really wished it had gone on much longer, but still. Hopefully Mistress will fuck my ass again soon!
After that Mistress had me lick her to orgasm, which was unusually quick and quite intense. She tasted so good, and it had been six long days since I'd been able to enjoy her with my tongue. Afterwards she had me lick all her juices off her skin and the sheet before tying me to the bed again and stroking my cock hard and fast again. She allowed me to tongue her ass a couple of times (very briefly) and then knelt beside me, giving me a good view of her pussy and ass. She kept looking back at me, smiling as she pumped my cock. I kinda thought she was going to ruin me, but when I told her I was close she told me she was going to allow me to cum.
It hit really hard, and each spurt had me bouncing on the bed. Not only that but each time Mistress stroked me it felt so intense I was bucking so hard... and I could feel my cum spraying everywhere and landing on different parts of my skin. When I stopped cumming Mistress gathered what cum she could find and fed it to me from her fingers. Finally she lowered her dripping wet pussy onto my face one last time, she tasted incredible!

Friday, 4 April 2014

Foot worship continues...

I'm pleased to report that four days in to our new arrangement we have had some foot worship every day. Tonight's was especially interesting as Mistress had me worshipping her freshly pedicured feet as she was stroking my throbbing cock! Which made it a little difficult to stay the right side of the edge... to say the least!
I actually thought Mistress R was going to ruin me earlier, which was a surprise just two days before our next session, but I misheard her. Such is life. Still, the teasing she gave me was fantastic, and I loved making her cum before that. :)