Wednesday, 28 January 2015

Seeking the perfect ratio...

As we got closer to the end of our fourth year, it's interesting to look at the stats and see the way things are going. It looks like Mistress will probably have slightly fewer orgasms than last year, while I am looking at something like a 25% reduction over last year's total.
I've dropped from almost two per month on average in year one, to about 1.2 per month this year. This year has definitely seen the sharpest drop though, I wonder what will happen in the fifth year?
Mistress and I agree in principal that a ratio of ten to one would be about right, but I think Mistress would rather move towards that naturally rather than trying to force the ratio upon us. In other words, she wants to let me cum when she wants, not when the numbers say so.
Of course, the other way to achieve the ratio is to increase Mistress's orgasm count and I'm 100% behind that! Hopefully I wll get to worship her delicious pussy again tomorrow night, as I did last night... I also was allowed to worship her gorgeous ass (after some begging), which was awesome, but as ever far too brief for me.
Needless to say I wasn't allowed to cum, and was left throbbing hard against my Mistress's heavenly body for the second night in a row.

Tuesday, 27 January 2015

At Sub Hubs Request...

Last night I added nine new ruined orgasm videos and I have another five to add later tonight, you can find them HERE!

This one is just crazy, she's enjoying herself waaaay too much!

Monday, 26 January 2015

Story writing (and the perils therein)....

I had an email yesterday from someone who I shall call 'J'. He said he very much liked my long stories: Owned, Everything Has a Price, Out of Your Hands, etc... and asked if/when I would be doing another really long and involved story like those.
Well, of course I would love to write another multi-chapter story like that again, but it's not that easy. Firstly, it's simply a matter of having the time. It takes a huge amount of time to write those stories,and if you've never done it yourself you just wouldn't believe how time consuming creative writing (and indeed most creative endeavours) can be.
Secondly for those kind of stories you really need a story worth telling, and it has to be more involved and involving to justify the length. I recently concocted a pretty detailed story outline in my head over the course of several days, but because I'm too lazy/stupid (you choose) I neglected to write it down and now I can't remember a damned word of it. Which is incredibly annoying, cos all I can remember was that it was a really good idea!
There is another element to this as well, which was far more unexpected and actually quite bizarre really. I can't remember which story it was that I was writing, but I think it might have been 'Everything Has a Price'... and I got so completely absorbed into the creative process that I actually became almost resentful (takes a deep breath, because I don't think I've ever actually confronted this before) that my life with Mistress R wasn't living up to the fantasy that I was writing.
I know in the cold light of day that sounds completely fucking ridiculous, but I was so absorbed in what I was writing that logic went out of the window. And it wasn't like I was actually sitting there thinking about it, in fact it didn't really occur to me why I was in such a bad mood all the time until I'd actually finished it and some level of normalcy was resumed.
It would make sense that it was 'Everything Has a Price' because that was the last long story that I wrote and it kind of put me off a bit to be honest. I can't actually remember much about that story but I'm sure if I read it now it would seem fairly ridiculous to be annoyed that my real life experiences weren't living up to what I had written.
I guess when you write a story like that, you can't help but unleash your own darkest fantasies onto the page, however troubling they may be (or however much you might like to pretend it's fiction). I'm sure there are writers who churn out erotic literature, who scarcely put anything of themselves into it, and that's probably why a lot of it is pretty uninspiring. I feel like, if you're writing something, no matter how dark it may be, if you are writing it as erotic fiction, then you can't help but gauge your own work by how much the ideas you're utilising turn you on.
Which if you've read 'Owned!' is quite troubling in hindsight. I remember reading that for the first time in ages, and being quite shocked at how hardcore it was. But it wasn't written to shock, everything in that book turned me on (at least when I was writing it) to some degree otherwise I wouldn't have written it. Then again, maybe once you absorb yourself into that process, maybe the things you are pulling out of your head themselves push you further to create more extreme fantasies that you maybe wouldn't normally think of? I don't know.
I think I was quite surprised how much 'forced-bi' there was in Owned! to be honest. Which isn't to say that I retract it in any way, but it does make me wonder what kind of depraved filth I would come up with now, eight years later! Actually I have a fairly good idea of the kind of filth I would come up with and I feel like having been blogging for several years now and having viewed an awful lot of blogs and porn in the process, it does worry me slightly what depraved fantasies my mind might spew onto the page.
I actually do have (somewhere) a substantial raft of notes for the purpose of writing another long story, but what I'd actually like to do is to write a proper novel. I really don't want to write 20,000 words and publish it as an e-book on Amazon or wherever. I would much prefer to go the whole hog and write 70-100,000 words and properly publish something (in paperback), of course whether anyone would think it worthy of publication is a completely different matter of course, but at least if no one did want to publish it I could always post it here (and on Literotica of course).

Anyway, just to get back to reality, today I am feeling a bit better, but Mistress and I are really not keen on the idea of having our Femdom session in the week, it will just be too much of a rush. So, what we are proposing to do is wait until this coming Sunday. We are going out on Friday night, and then we are going to London on Saturday to see a band (Mesh) which has quite an early curfew so we should be at home again by 1AM all being well.
In the meantime, we took the opportunity tonight to take Mistress's orgasm count for January into double figures, and all being well we shall add to that total tomorrow and on Thursday night too. I still think it's going to be tough to get Mistress up to last year's total of 132, but it is still possible. At least it's pretty much guaranteed that the ratio of Mistress R's orgasms to mine is going to increase dramatically, whatever happens over the next couple of months.
Mistress certainly did a number on me tonight, at one point she was kissing me and completely unexpectedly she landed a slap square on both balls. It felt fucking amazing to tell you the truth and straight after that I could feel my cock pulsing harder than ever. Of course Mistress didn't let me cum, and when she called a halt (marked with a final few slaps to my cock and balls) I begged her to stroke me just a little more. She gave me a look, but further begging weakened her resolve and I was stroked hard and fast for a few seconds more, which left me harder than ever. So fucking frustrating, I was rubbing my cock against her leg, aching for more as we cuddled and kissed... but to no avail.

Sunday, 25 January 2015

Everything Has a Price (fixed)...

I've just realised that if you followed the link from the front page to my story 'Everything Has a Price', then there was no link on the first chapter page to chapter two. From chapter two onwards there was already a link to the next chapter (up to chapter 15). So if you read the first chapter and didn't realise there was more, there's a hell of a lot more!

Random Post Button Added...

Well here's a slightly 'redumbnant' post... I've just added a Random Post Generator button on the left hand side, you can't miss it, it's BRIGHT ORANGE! I'm not terribly conversant in things HTML to be honest, but I've managed to make it bigger and it still seems to work...

NB: You have to click on the text 'Random Post', it doesn't work to click on the background.

Bah...

Once again, things never seem to run smoothly for us... last night I started to feel a bit ropey in the tummy department and this morning I am still feeling less than brilliant. I have no idea what's brought this on, but I don't think there's going to be any Femdom session today, the thought of lying on my front for any length of time is unappealing to say the least!
Problem is we won't be able to do it next weekend, because we are going to London on Saturday, so I think we're going to have to find time this week. We don't usually do it in the week, and when we have it hasn't been quite as good (although that doesn't mean it can't be just as good). But if we don't then it's going to be February, and neither of us want to wait any more.

At least I have done something useful with my time this morning (between chomping Antacid pills), I've been wanting to change my header for a long time and I've finally done it. As much as I really like that other picture of Mistress R, it does rather give the impression that I am locked in a device (which I'm not) and sometimes people comment without reading further and I have to point out that I don't have a device (well I do, but I don't wear it).
Personally I think the new picture is much better, it's a much sharper photograph for a start and shows off Mistress R's gorgeous legs and feet beautifully. Mmmmm... sucks that I'm not worshiping them right now! :(

Saturday, 24 January 2015

Impatiently waiting...

Tomorrow Mistress R and I are scheduled to have a Femdom session. This has been put off the last couple of weeks for reasons of illness, a period and post-Christmas malaise, but we are determined that it will happen tomorrow. However, I am unusually impatient.
It's not the session I am impatient for (although there's obviously some degree of impatience for that), so much as simply the opportunity to worship Mistress R's gorgeous pussy. It has been three days since Wednesday, but it feels so much longer. I want to feel her cum, and I want to feel it now! Dammit.
Oh well, only another 18 hours or so. I'm sure it'll be worth the wait.

As some of you may have noticed, I've lost another two pounds this week, so again I get to choose a toy to play with. Mistress has given me the option of choosing something to be used in the session, or keeping it for a few days. I will be keeping it for a few days, since whatever I choose may be used in the session anyway, in which case I get to choose something else, or to play with that toy again.

It's nice to see a few new followers, I seem to have been stuck on 262 for ages. I hope you are enjoying my blog and finding plenty to entertain yourselves with. Please leave a comment if you wish.