The Right Kind of Hot!

This week has, as expected, sucked pretty bad. With temperatures in the 30s every day Mistress and I have not been feeling remotely 'sexy', indeed we've barely even sat on the same sofa since Tuesday because it's been so fucking hot and humid.

Thankfully the temps have fallen back to what we here in the UK consider 'hot',,, 24 degrees, not this insane 30+ bullshit that leaves us fratchety and exhausted and Mistress and I have even been sitting on the sofa together today.

Which of course meant that Mistress put her beautiful feet in my lap and instantly sent me into a trance of lust. I'm not even joking. Not even a little bit. A few days without Mistress's gorgeous feet and I'm like a horny teenager again. 🤣

Furthermore, now that the temperatures have come down a bit and we've managed to get some cooler air into the house, finally today we managed to spend some time 'together' in bed, and this was also the first time since Mistress and I reviewed our Contract that I put my glass dildo on the bedside table.

In case you forgot, or didn't read that post, it was agreed that I could put that toy out if was receptive to using it and then it would be up to Mistress to decide if she used it or not. It wasn't a case of putting it out 'when I wanted to use it' it was a case of if I feel comfortable using it then it's there and it's up to Mistress if she wants to use it or not, because the reality is that Mistress is never going to start teasing me and then think to stop and get a dildo out of the drawer to use it.

So this was the first time and Mistress decided she wanted to use it on me. So the first thing I didn't think of was that when she usually does things like this it's usually in the session (I'm sure she has occasionally used a dildo on me out of session, but it was probably a long time ago and I can't remember it) and we have the PVC sheet on the bed to cope with the lube going everywhere. So we got a towel and then Mistress decided to put a condom on the dildo too.

Sometimes condoms are a pain in the arse (literally) because they are rubber and they drag much more than glass which is very smooth and usually slides in with the minimum of friction. But this time it was fine, I presume Mistress must have put a lot of lube on the condom. It didn't really seem to want to go in at first (it's quite decent size and I haven't had anything in my ass since... the Session before last, which was nearly two months ago) until Mistress gave it a shove and then it went in fast. WOW!

Jesus Christ it felt huge for a few seconds, but after the initial discomfort subsided and Mistress grabbed my cock and knelt next to me stroking it, it started to feel incredible. My cock was rock hard and I reached around the back of Mistress and caressed her ass, feet and pussy. It was amazing and I really loved that feeling of her stroking me while my ass felt so full.

Mistress kept up the pace and I was constantly feeling like I could edge soon, and then I did and Mistress let go, but it really felt like I was going to cum anyway. Mistress peered at my cock for  a few seconds and then seeing that nothing had happened she started gently teasing it again. This continued a while until she stopped a second time and then started again. 

She stopped again (I had my eyes closed at this point) and asked me 'What do you say?'

I was a little confused and said 'Thank You,' because I couldn't think what else she could mean. But then she prompted me again and I looked down to see that my cock had leaked some cum which Mistress was now collecting from my cock and offering to my lips.

"Thank you for ruining my orgasm Mistress."

Ruined, I didn't even know I'd cum. What an amazing Mistress she is... MIND+BLOWN.

I swallowed the cum from Mistress's fingers and she teased my cock some more, milking out more cum for me to eat. I still couldn't feel it though, which was odd. As she gently massaged the cum out of my cock I pushed down on the dildo in my ass, and that felt fucking incredible. I will definitely be putting that out regularly and I hope Mistress decides to use it.

Thinking about it I 'usually' (but not always) have this dildo in my ass after I first have the ring ended dildo in there first (which is considerably smaller). But I have to say, apart from the initial shock of entry I loved every second of it and was kinda disappointed when Mistress took it out; I was secretly hoping for a second ruin, but well, I guess that's kinda greedy of me, eh? 

What a brilliant end to a shitty, horrible, exhausting week. Earlier I had another 'cock touching' punishment (as I mentioned, sleeping apart for sake of better sleep does not help me be good) and Mistress had her first orgasm since last Sunday (which seems a lot longer ago than that, honestly) and that was also wonderful, She tasted so damned good and I so loved kissing her beautiful feet afterwards.

That means Mistress has had nine orgasms this month, and we still have two to go so maybe we can beat the heat and get to double figures anyway! 

Frantically Productive!

It's crazy how much I am writing at the moment, I got up early this morning and wrote for two or three hours and I did much the same yesterday. Or was it Friday night? I forget, but whenever it was there are some huge numbers of words getting typed in this house at the moment.

So currently I have seven stories that are on the verge of being finished;

Before Christina

This one is about a guy whose new girlfriend meets and befriends someone he really wished she hadn't, because it threatens to expose the 'unusual' relationship he had with his ex.

Blind Date

This is one that's been rumbling on for years, it's largely complete but is the least likely of these to appear soon. 

Kelly's Bitch

This is the infamous story with the 'crossdressing' element in it. This has a lot of potential and I really want to get this one dead on, but that doesn't mean I want it to stay unfinished forever.

Now What?

This one I literally just wrote this morning, and it's shorter than most of the others and maybe a little comedic too, which I don't usually do.

On My Knees for Mistress Rebecca

This one will almost certainly have a better title than that before it's published, as will most of these stories. This one is more traditional, Mistress, Chastity, Tease and Denial fare.

Opening Beth's Eyes

This is another one that's been kicking around for years. There are two parts to this but I found the second one a little ridiculous when I re-read it so I will probably not finish that. It works as a stand alone piece anyway so no big deal.

The Letter

This is the shortest of the seven I think, and is basically a letter from a woman to her husband, explaining how she sees their future together.

As I said before, these titles will probably change, but these are the seven stories I am focussing on trying to complete right now, and while some of them are the typical 'First Chapter' stories that I said I wanted to move on from, I think a couple of them are pushing things a little harder.

I also have dozens of other ideas ready to start on and some of those have been set aside exactly because they are a bit more 'challenging', so definitely more things in the pipeline and hopefully I can stop putting fences up for myself to work within. 

Too Damned Hot!

Yesterday Mistress told me that she'd read my post and that I shouldn't worry about anything I write in a story and want her to proof read. Which was great to hear. She did qualify that by saying 'But just for the record I would not be okay with it if you wanted me to feminize you'. Which is fine, because I honestly have zero interest in that and besides I would look fucking ridiculous dressed as a woman!

Anyhoo, with that out of the way (at least until the next time I get all 'in my head' about it) I set about finishing the story with the small amount of cross dressing in it. Actually there was a lot more left to do than I initially thought and after three hours straight I finally went to bed at 1:30AM last night (again).

I haven't even read back what I wrote yet, so maybe it's not as near to being finished as I think it is, but I already have three other stories printed out for final checking, so there's definitely going to be some new stories published soon.

Actually one of those stories was half of a story that was in two parts (and made no sense), so I took the other part and joined that to another story, where it did make sense, so that's worked out quite well I think... 🤣

It's miserably hot here in the UK today, and will continue to be until the weekend. I imagine sex and sleep will be in short supply, thankfully Mistress has already enjoyed eight orgasms this month so we may still get to double figures if it cools off on Saturday. I hope so.

But right now, it's 26deg at 10:09PM, which is absolutely ridiculous!

Musings of an Insecure Femdom/Chastity Author...

Last night Mistress and I visited her cousin for the evening and got home quite late. Inevitably the house was warm when we got back and we opened all the windows to try and get some air in before we went to sleep. I think Mistress eventually went to bed about 2:30AM or something like that but I foolishly got involved in trying to finish a story and went past feeling tired... 

I eventually forced myself to go to bed at 3:50AM, just as it was starting to get light! F.F.S.

Great idea. Not. So not only is my back hurting today but I am also incredibly tired too!

On the plus side I did pretty much complete one of two stories that I'm focussing on trying to finish, albeit I woke up this morning thinking 'maybe I should rewrite it', which is annoying because I was planning on posting it here today. Gah.

As I return to my folder of unfinished work, it continues to surprise (and somewhat baffle) me that I find stories that are 95% complete and almost ready to be published. But on the other hand, I read parts and wonder whether I never quite finished them because there's things in them that...

Okay, I've mentioned before that I usually get Mistress to proof read my stories, because she has a really good eye for detail and a misused apostrophe, whereas I, well I'm more 'creative', I guess. Not that I can't spell, you understand, I think I have a decent grasp of the English language, but Mistress reads a lot of fiction and also I think it's easier to check something you didn't write because your brain doesn't 'make sense of it' the same way.

The thing is, and I've mentioned this before here, that for a long time I've been 'trying' to change my approach to writing because I have a tendency to 'hold back' when I write. Not always, admittedly, but most often I tend to write what feel like 'first chapters' of longer stories that never get written... because progressing the story would mean changing my language from 'fantasy' to 'reality'.

Like for instance, in a lot of my Femdom stories, the woman will 'tell' the submissive male that she's 'going to do this and that', but it's quite unusual for me to actually write about that threat being followed through. And I can't help thinking it's because I'm uneasy about Mistress reading these stories and putting two and two together and making five.

Which is stupid because we've had this conversation many times where Mistress has assured me that she understands that stories are not reality, and just because I write about something doesn't mean she thinks I want that to happen in real life. But then again (obviously) there are a lot of quite extreme (by vanilla standards at least) things in these stories that do turn me on, otherwise I wouldn't write them. So it's... complicated.

For example, hard CBT can be as hot as hell to read (or watch), but I know I have a fairly low limit on what I can actually take (how that guy in those Femdom Empire videos can take being kicked in the balls for ten minutes straight I do not know, he must really love his job 🤣). Still if Mistress was to whisper to me that she was going to crush my balls with her beautiful feet I would probably edge in seconds! And in our Femdom sessions she's occasionally said some really dirty things that made my cock throb like hell (like telling me she would make me clean another's cum out of her, or make me suck a cock that had been in her ass, things like that) so it's not like she's remotely prudish!

By contrast, there is a story which lives in my 'project folder' which contains an element of cross dressing, something I have zero interest in in real life. It's hard to explain why without basically describing the whole plot of the story, but basically this results in an incriminating photo being taken and, well I'm sure you can guess the rest...

Crucially, the cross dressing in this story (which is actually very brief) is simply a means to an end, a device which transfers the power from the male sub to his wife and removes his control. So while I don't have any interest in cross dressing itself, the fact that his wife can make him do whatever she wants because she has this compromising photo of him (and he knows it) is really hot.   

But again, I am cautious about finishing this story and passing it to Mistress for proof reading because even though I know she knows I have no interest in being 'feminized' I still kinda worry that she will wonder why I am writing about this.   

It's curious because when I read my older stories (the ones I wrote as Malibuman666 particularly) I find them to be harder in their content, and yet I know Mistress proof read those for me back in the day, so quite why I gradually imposed these limits on myself I'm not really sure.

Perhaps as our sex-life changed from being vanilla with a sprinkling of Femdom and Chastity, to full time chastity and now pretty much full time Femdom too, I've become more sensitive about scaring Mistress off and making her retreat. After all we've come so far now and when I wrote those older stories the boundary between how we were living and what I was writing was much more clearly defined.

Yeah, maybe that's it. Like I suppose if I wrote a story about taking heroin, then Mistress (knowing that I've never even smoked a joint) wouldn't give it a second thought, but let's say if I was already dabbling in cocaine at the weekends she might be a little concerned.

Anyway... I'm sure most of this is me fretting unnecessarily and pointlessly navel gazing (yet again), and I really just need to finish these bloody stories and if Mistress has concerns about them we can talk it over. Honestly it feels like I've written this post a hundred times already... so apologies for boring you with my insecurities yet again.

Okay, now that I've got that off my chest... Literotica posted my latest story 'Charli's Devoition' yesterday and it's already had 1100 views and currently sits on a score of 4.65/5.0 (which means it has a HOT rating), it's also attracted one lovely comment which I will leave you with now...

by PerfectBoy7719  (11 hours ago)

Wonderful. I love the recognition that what Charli desires most is to serve and be denied her own pleasure. And I love that that's the very thing that Elise considers denying her, and makes her beg for. And even when she grants it, it's with conditions. True domination.

MISTRESS R's TOTAL ORGASMS SINCE 1st APRIL 2011 (1668)

CHASTITY YEAR #16 (27 ORGASMS 1642-1668)

APR 2026 -8, 12, 14, 22, 25, 26, 28. 30 (8)

MAY 2026 - 3, 7, 11, 13, 17, 19, 22, 24, 25, 27, 31 (11)

JUN 2026 - 3, 4, 8, 10, 14, 17, 19, 21

 

ROBERT ANTHONY's TOTAL FULL ORGASMS SINCE APRIL 1ST 2011 (178-179)

CHASTITY YEAR #16 (2 ORGASMS 178-179)

APR 2026 - 19 (1) (Handjob in Hotel, POT, no cum eating)

APR 2026 – 30 (1) (Cum after ruin, cum fed to me from Mistress’s fingers)

 

ROBERT ANTHONY's TOTAL RUINED ORGASMS SINCE APRIL 1ST 2011 (97)

 

CHASTITY YEAR #16 (2 RUINED ORGASM 96-97)

APR 2026 - 30 (1)

JUN 2026 - 14 (1)

Frustrating Morning Teasing...

Last night was not quite as warm as expected and so Mistress and I managed to sleep in the same bed. We left the windows open to try and keep ourselves cool but around 5AM Mistress got up and shut the one in our bedroom because the birds were making too much noise. 

Anyway... I woke up about 8.20 facing away from Mistress (warm but rock hard) and debated whether to get up right now or stay in bed a little longer.

After a few minutes my morning wood had calmed itself down and I turned over to face Mistress. I wasn't angling for anything you understand, wasn't even thinking about it (otherwise I would have turned over straight away, while my cock was still throbbing...), mainly it was just because I'd been lying on that side for quite a long time and my body needed a change of position.

Anyway... a few moments later I noticed Mistress's arm reaching back towards me and felt her fingertips touching my not very hard cock. I silently cursed myself for waiting, but enjoyed the sensations as Mistress moved onto her back and gently played with me.

You may remember that a while ago I posted about some 2AM teasing that I said was the 'most frustrating' ever (I think it may still be the featured post if you're reading this on a PC, which of course barely anyone is). That was truly AMAZING... I was rock hard and Mistress just barely held my cock while I rubbed myself against her hand, constantly on the verge of cumming for what seemed like hours. That one was truly one for the history books!

This morning was also very frustrating, but in a different way...

First off Mistress was using her left hand (she sleeps to my right, if I'm laying on my back) so it means she's not quite as dextrous..  but also she would stroke me a little and then practically stop and so I would start moving my cock against her hand (well fingertips and nails to be more precise).

But then just as I would start to get into a rhythm she would start stroking me again so I would stop and she would speed up and I would think okay I can stop moving but then she would slow down and stop again and I would have to start trying to fuck her hand again.

It was maddening. Honestly. Which I guess was the idea... after all, Mistress can tease me however it pleases her, not me. And of course, I still loved it, frustrating as it was.

A couple of times I started to think I was getting somewhere close to edging but then Mistress would change tack again and I would be back at square one. Aaargh!

I tried thinking about all sorts of things, including cumming on Mistress's beautiful feet and licking them clean (of course) but nothing could overcome the broken rhythms. I honestly think Mistress could have teased me for half an hour like this and I still probably wouldn't have got close to edging (in fact I probably would've lost it altogether by then).

Then, part way through my teasing Mistress pushed the covers off her body (I really don't know how she sleeps under covers in this weather honestly, but anyway...) and exposed her gorgeous breasts. That sure did help (A LOT), but I still couldn't get to the edge with these random sensations...

After a minute or two I asked if I could please touch Mistress's breasts and she said yes. Hallelujah!

That also helped, but try as I might I still couldn't get close and eventually Mistress gave my balls a few gentle slaps. A-ha I thought, now we're getting somewhere! As soon as she slapped my balls I could feel myself getting harder, maybe now I would get to the edge.

But no. Mistress gently stroked me a few more times and then let go completely. 

"That's it" she said, "You're locked back up."

Nooooooooooo!

😭

God I love my Mistress so much, she is truly amazing!

A New Kind of Punishment

This week, since our Femdom session has been genuinely amazing. It feels like Mistress has really embraced the idea of being 'meaner', and you should have seen her face light up earlier when she read my post and realised she had a 'reason' to punish me again. It was quite amusing to witness. Not that she needs a reason of course, our contract clearly states that she can whip and paddle me at any time for her own amusement.

And so, after Mistress had another wonderful orgasm on my tongue, and after she stood on the bed and had me lick her clean I found myself on my hands and knees again, awaiting my punishment. Mistress began with seven strokes of the whip, followed by five slaps with the red side of the paddle and finally five with the black side of the paddle.

The whip is fine, the red side is kind of a warm up and the black side is admittedly momentarily painful, but once it's over the pain doesn't last long at all, which doesn't really make it the best deterrent... actually in a way the awkwardness of having to admit to touching my cock is worse than the actual punishment.

I suppose the severity of the punishment administered really depends on whether Mistress genuinely wants me to not touch my cock or whether she simply likes having a 'reason' to punish me? If she just likes having a reason to punish me then maybe she doesn't actually want to 'stop' me doing it... 

Anyway, after my punishment was completed, Mistress told me to put my new ball stretcher on and then she started gently teasing my balls as we kissed and I gradually got hard. Then Mistress told me that since I had touched my cock without permission she was only going to tease my balls and not touch my cock at all. Which is interesting because I was thinking earlier that if she did genuinely want to 'dissuade' me from touching myself in future then there are probably more effective ways to do it than physical punishment.

And so began a very frustrating teasing session, where my balls were teased very lightly (apart from a few slaps and some occasional whipping - that was the best bit) until Mistress decided she had had enough. I must say I really loved that Mistress thought of this punishment herself, without any prompting from me at all. It really adds to the wonderful feeling of being 'controlled' and just makes Mistress hotter and hotter in my book!

 

I Am Obsessed With Mistress's Perfect Feet!

 After last night's fun Mistress and I decided to sleep separately because of the heat. We don't like doing this of course but we've come to realise that it gives us both a better chance of actually getting to sleep and not waking up insanely hot in the night. But of course, it also means that if I wake up 'alone' in the night with a throbbing cock then I am perhaps more likely to break the rules and touch it.

And so we come to this morning... I woke at 7AM to the sound of Mistress closing our front gate. Clearly she had got up early to get a walk in before it got any hotter (very smart) and I dozed off again until 7.25... then when I woke up again I was rock hard and foolishly gave in and curled my fingers around my cock. It felt so good, even though I know I will have to confess to Mistress later.

As I stroked my desperately hard cock I thought back to last night, about Mistress lifting her beautiful feet to my mouth and having me worship them and later how she unexpectedly slapped my balls through my shorts... that was so hot. The stuff fantasies are made of.

But really I cannot look past Mistress's gorgeous feet. When she puts them in my lap I immediately feel different. Needy. Submissive. Often light headed. Truth be told I am completely OBSESSED with Mistress's perfect feet and I wonder what she could convince me to do just by teasing me with them... or promising to let me cum on them*. Shudder.

(*Probably the ONLY thing I would EVER choose over worshipping Mistress's delicious ass honestly... and the flaw in my assertion that I would be happy if Mistress never let me have a proper orgasm again. So let me rephrase that and say I would be satisfied if I was only ever allowed to cum properly if it was on Mistress's perfect feet.)

I really shouldn't have to clarify this but when I say 'obsessed' I don't mean 'obsessed' like the morons shilling products on TikTok. No, I mean genuinely affected by and can't stop thinking about. I really hate how words are being degraded by incorrect use, over use and hyperbole!  

Anyway... I've been bad again so I guess I will be punished for it however Mistress pleases.

On the upside thinking about Mistress's gorgeous feet all day has given me an idea for yet another story... or maybe two!🤣

I Love It!

Last night Mistress and I had some more fun together. It was quite warm and we had the fan by the bed, and for some reason I had this feeling that after Mistress came on my tongue she was going to leave me locked up. But I was, thankfully, wrong. Mistress allowed me to choose which cock ring to use and I chose the basic Xact-fit ring (so damn easy to put on, but sometimes it does feel like it is coming off - maybe it is already stretching?).

We started to kiss and Mistress gently teased me until I was hard and then she slid down the bed and started using her mouth on me, which felt wonderful. And of course then she slid back up the bed and started kissing me again (so hot!) and stroking me hard until I edged. She paused for a moment and then started stroking me with two fingers which was soooooo frustrating, but of course I loved it.

At times she would barely be moving her hand and so I started rubbing my cock against her, desperately trying to get some stimulation. Then she was alternating between frustrating light strokes, stroking me harder and slapping my balls until finally she started stroking me fast until I could feel a second edge building... but then she stopped before I got there. Ugh!

I thought Mistress was done, but after a few moments she sat up next to me and gave me about four good balls slaps before telling me I was 'locked up' again. Afterwards we cuddled and I spent several minutes admiring her gorgeous, silky smooth legs.

Fast forward to this evening and Mistress and I were sitting on the sofa watching The Traitors India. Mistress likes to lay on the sofa with her feet in my lap, partly because it's comfortable and (I'm sure) partly because she knows what that does to me.

As we watched I rubbed her gorgeous feet and at one point she lifted her right foot up near my face so that I could kiss it. I supported her pretty foot and peppered it with kisses until she let it fall away and then she offered me her other foot. I got really, really hard while I was doing this but it wasn't until after she had taken her other foot away and thanked me for worshipping her that I thought about asking for permission to touch my cock.

The funny thing was that while we were watching the show I was thinking that after it had finished I would go and have my shower and when I came back down I was going to ask to worship her beautiful feet. Anyway... a little while later Mistress lifted her foot up again and I eagerly kissed the soft, smooth skin all over again until the show finished and Mistress got up off the sofa.

My cock was kinda hard, but not quite as rock hard as it had been the first time... but then Mistress stood in front of me and leaned over me. I reached up and caressed her gorgeous breasts through her T-shirt and then lifted her up with my legs so that she was kind of on top of me.

After a few more kisses she stood up and perhaps because I was now almost lying down on the sofa she suddenly slapped me between the legs several times (something she'd never done before; that kinda surprised me - but in a very good way!). 🙂 

Afterwards Mistress lay on the sofa next to me and kissed me some more until I finally asked if I could please touch my aching cock. Mistress seemed slightly surprised at my request, thought for a second and then said 'No'. Which of course is her right.

I must say it seems like our Femdom Session is having some really long-lasting, positive effects on us this week (we've been cuddling and kissing so much), and my assertion that I would like Mistress to be meaner certainly seems to be paying dividends! 

I LOVE IT!

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As you've probably noticed I posted a new story last night. This wasn't one of my many half-finished projects, it was one that I just blarted out onto the page a couple of days ago. I've also submitted it to Literotica and it looks likely to go live any time soon. So we'll see what reaction that brings...

I re-read some of those half-finished projects late last night and again I can't believe how complete some of them are. There's one I'm itching to finish but I'm in two minds about how to end it. There's a kind of obvious way to end it, or a cleverer way to end it. Maybe I should write both?