Wonderful Triple Teasing and a Ruined Orgasm!

Following on from our wonderful Femdom last Sunday, on Thursday night Mistress again had me worship her delicious pussy and then teased me to another wonderful edge, I noticed her slaps were a little harder, her teasing a little more 'intentional'... perhaps it's all in my head but I have reason to be optimistic.

You see, at the start of the week Mistress and I sat down and reviewed our Femdom/Chastity contract. This was written in 2020 believe it or not, and probably hasn't been revisited since. We both realise now the folly of writing a contract and then shutting it away in a drawer. There is just zero point. In fact this contract was so out of date that we had to discard large parts of it and pretty much start over, so in future we have agreed to review our contract monthly.

This may be as simple as both of us reading it, agreeing that it is working and putting it away for another month. Or it may mean that we need to talk about something we think needs to change. The key here is not to take it for granted or think, this is pointless, we do this every month and it's fine so let's just not bother. Isn't it worth ten minutes of our time every month to ensure we're both happy? Of course, but it's so easy to just let it slide and if we don't put something in place to prevent that then that's exactly what will happen, and I do not want to end up there again. 

The impetus for all this was me deciding to copy the entire blog to PDFs, which took way longer than expected and also shone a light on the lack of progress we had made considering we'd been doing this for fifteen years. Over the course of several weeks this led to me getting rather depressed and withdrawn (as you probably noticed I completely stopped posting here), until eventually it got to the point where I couldn't keep it in any longer and Mistress and I had a difficult conversation.

I've written countless words about this, in several aborted posts, but honestly I think I needed to write it down and get it off my chest more than I needed to actually share it. As much as it may be interesting for you to know the details, I don't honestly think there is any need to post this now as we have agreed that we both need to make more effort to make this unusual relationship work and we're committed to that. Dragging it up and raking it over again could do more harm than good; much better to put it behind us and be happy that we're both feeling positive again I think.

 

So anyway, we're back and hopefully I'll have much more to post about now that things are back on track.

Last night Mistress and I were going to do the final review of our new contract, but then it got late and we were both tired so we decided to leave it until today (or possibly tomorrow as we are rather short on time today). I went up to bed first and as I was waiting for Mistress to come to bed I started to think about our Femdom session and how much I love that giddy feeling of 'submission'. 

It's really hard to explain to someone who isn't submissive, but it's kind of like when you first meet someone and you're excited to be around them... but way more intense, and the deeper you slip into that headspace and the more you feel you would do anything that person asks (or preferably 'orders' you to), the more 'intoxicating' it feels. I wish I could explain this better, I would love it if Mistress could actually 'feel' this and understand just how much 'power' she has over me when I am in this headspace. 

Anyway, as I was thinking about this I felt myself getting hard and when Mistress slipped into bed I cuddled up behind her, my cock throbbing and aching for attention, After a couple of minutes I asked Mistress for permission to touch my cock. She paused for a moment and then said 'Yes', turning over as she did so.

I curled the fingers of my left hand around my cock and slowly started to stroke and then felt Mistress's hand move between my legs and start teasing my balls. Soon she started dragging her long nails across my balls, over and over again. It felt fucking incredible... it was in that perfect sweet spot between just a bit more pain than you would apply yourself, but not so painful that it just hurt.

Mistress allowed me to stroke for a few minutes as she relentlessly scratched my balls over and over again. It was sooooooooooooooooooo good, I can't even tell you. But eventually Mistress told me that when the projection clock on the ceiling changed to 12:30 I would have to stop, and about twenty seconds later the time clicked over and I reluctantly let go. Amazingly I managed to get to sleep fairly quickly, which hasn't always been the case after late night teasing.

This morning I woke up hard again and lay in bed pondering on whether it was acceptable to ask Mistress for permission to touch my cock again, I mean it had been less than 8 hours and I'm sure when she originally allowed this 'requesting' she said that I wasn't to do it too often. There wasn't a time specified, but I'm pretty sure less than eight hours was 'too often'. 🤣

Later when we were downstairs I asked Mistress about this and she told me that I can ask as often as I like, and that she can always say no. She also said we will finalise this when we do the final review of out contract.

Fortunately for me, I think Mistress felt my cock brushing against her leg and she reached down and started stroking the tip, this went on for a while, gradually increasing in intensity until she was facing me and pumping my cock very hard and very fast. I thought her arm would eventually get tired such was the speed and force she was using, but Mistress seemed determined to edge me and eventually I had to warn her that I was close.

Mistress let go and I clung to her, my cock throbbing like hell as I kissed and sucked on her beautiful, naked breasts (thankfully Mistress sleeps naked), until she finally pulled away to get out of bed. After she got up I put my hands outside the covers to prevent myself from doing anything silly... my poor cock still aching for attention and refusing to lie down for a good few minutes afterwards!

Well, after that amazing start to the day I couldn't really have hoped for more. But later that afternoon I found myself back between Mistress's silky smooth thighs, worshipping her delicious pussy and giving her another wonderful orgasm. Given I had been teased twice within the last eighteen hours I thought Mistress might be inclined to keep me 'locked up', but she decided to tease me again (which was fantastic) and I was even given a ruined orgasm, after which Mistress fed me my cum from her fingers...

We are rushing out tonight, but tomorrow we will definitely finalise our contract and begin our new chapter in earnest. 

FEMDOM SESSION - 16th November 2025

Last Sunday morning Mistress and I enjoyed our latest Femdom session, having unfortunately missed our 'October' session. Despite that we're still doing better than most years and once again the session was fantastic.

I started the session kneeling blindfolded and when she came into the bedroom Mistress wasted no time, standing in front of me and using her feet to get my cock hard before telling me to get on my hands and knees. A couple of days before this I had admitted to Mistress that I had completely forgotten about the fact that I was supposed to report to her any 'illegal touching', only realising when I opened her drawer and saw the 'Book of Corrections' sitting there. Eek!

I don't think I touched it that much honestly, but that's not really the point and so I knew I would probably be quite harshly punished (which is fair enough).

Mistress started with the whip, giving me about a dozen strokes before she picked up the paddle. I don't remember how many swats she gave me before she turned the paddle over onto the leather side, but it wasn't many... and I do remember counting all the way to twenty five before she finally threw the paddle onto the bed and returned to using her feet on my cock.

"That will do.... for now," she said, ominously.

Mistress used her pretty toes to roughly press and rub my cock, which I loved (of course), and the whole time I was secretly hoping for a gentle kick or two, but so far Mistress has resisted going that far.

Soon she had me back up on my knees, and I felt her glass dildo pressed against my lips. I opened my mouth and she pushed it into mouth, telling me to get it nice and wet for her. Once done she told me to worship her feet and soon she was rubbing her pussy with the dildo and taunting me.

I really love these moments, when Mistress lays above me, the glass dildo teasing her pussy as she gets into character and starts teasing me and asking me questions. She mused on how much I love her feet and how it's my favourite place to lick up my cum from. She asked me if that was still the case and then asked me to rank five different places on her body in order of preference to clean my cum from.

The first two (and the last one) were quite easy, I choose her feet, then her pussy... but then I had to think for a moment to decide between her legs and her ass, because when it comes to her gorgeous ass I'd much rather be licking her ass properly rather than licking my cum off her ass cheeks. But still I eventually chose her ass, then her legs and finally her fingers. Mistress didn't give me the option of choosing her breasts and it seemed to amuse her slightly that I had to think about it so hard... and the order I put them in.

The reason I hesitated so long was really because Mistress has gorgeous legs and I felt bad putting them in fourth place because I really do love her legs A LOT! In a way I'm glad Mistress's breasts weren't on the table because that would have caused me even more confusion and hesitation. Obviously licking my cum off her fingers was easy to put last, because it's by far my least favourite. But even then, if there's cum to lick up that means there was at least a ruined orgasm, so still a nice treat!

Satisfied with my foot worship, Mistress had me get onto the bed but told me to stay on my hands and knees. I felt her get onto the bed next to me and reach under me to stroke my cock. She continued to gently stroke it as she started to punish my ass again. 

It wasn't until after the session that I found out that Mistress had used the leather side of the paddle as I had assumed it was the crop, such was the level of sting! She said "No it was the paddle, I just used more force." I think it hurt just as much as the crop honestly, but the pain was more fleeting, whereas the crop lasts longer. But the crop would probably hurt even more if she hit me that hard with it!

Next I was tied down on my back and Mistress straddled my face to give me my first proper taste of her delicious pussy. Then she started teasing my lubed cock, which was wrapped in the original Oxballs cocksling. This went on for some time and felt amazing as she alternated between stroking, scratching, whipping, squeezing and slapping both my cock and balls.

At this point she also used the vibrating (inflatable) butt plug to tease my cock and balls. It felt good, particular on that spot behind my ball, but being rubber it did ‘drag’ against my skin a little but. Nothing that a bit of lube wouldn’t sort out though…

Then she stood over me, teasing me that if I didn't have the blindfold on I would be able to look up and see her gorgeous pussy and ass. But still she didn't take the blindfold off and instead pegged my nipples and left me alone to calm down for a while. 

When she came back she got on the bed and knelt between my legs, playing with my cock as she yanked the pegs off my nipples (no doubt grinning as I winced in pain) then she sank down on my face again, then stood up and began teasing me some more before finally removing the blindfold and allowing me to look up at her beautiful body, clad in just a PVC bra and a leather skirt. She looked stunning and I couldn't wait to bury my head between her thighs and make her cum.

Mistress untied me and allowed me to take the Oxballs Cocksling off before settling back on the bed. I moved between her legs and sank down until my tongue was working between her lips and around her clit, eventually sliding a finger first inside her soaked pussy and then between her cheeks to tease her ass.

Mistress had a lovely orgasm and then she stood in front of me on the bed and had me lick her skin clean of any stray juices before ordering me onto my back once again. She stood over me, exposing her gorgeous pussy and ass to me as she reached down and started pumping my cock.

I begged to be allowed to worship her ass and she sank down onto my face four or five times, continually pumping and slapping my cock and balls as I lapped at her musky hole. God I love that so fucking much! 

Finally she knelt beside me and pumped my cock right to the edge of cumming before letting go and declaring the session over.

It was so good to get another Femdom session on the books and I can't wait for the next one.

The Vice is Finally Available on Literotica

Long term readers may remember that back in 2019 I wrote a story called 'The Vice' which Literotica declined to publish on the grounds that 'extreme sexual torture' was not allowed by their guidelines. Not that I would describe 'The Vice' in those terms at all, I mean yes it's a bit of an 'extreme' subject I suppose, although reading it back yesterday it didn't seem that bad... I mean, it obviously is 'extreme' by its very nature, but the way it's written it's more 'hot sex with a degree of pain and potential danger' than, you know... what you might call 'brutal sexual violence'. I don't know, but... reading it again it seemed even less 'extreme' than I sort of remembered it, which made me question all over again why Literotica refused to publish it.

Anyway, the other day someone left a comment on one of my stories, I forget which one, but it was the typical ass-hat comment you get when you publish anything to do with chastity or particularly cuckolding... and I don't know why but I decided to look at this person's profile to see if they had written anything themselves (nope, what a surprise) and to see what authors they actually followed and liked.

Well, I guess I should have known that was a bad idea, but I did it anyway and soon discovered what are known as 'BTB' or 'Burn the Bitch' stories.... which are every bit as bad as you'd expect and in fact worse. I read one or two of these stories, just marvelling at the levels of bitterness and hatred the author clearly has to spend the time crafting stories which are completely devoid of any eroticism and merely serve as 'revenge porn'. I'm not kidding, these stories are clearly well thought out (one might even call them elaborate!), but (ironically) clearly don't belong in 'Loving Wives' anymore then my cuckolding stories do. Perhaps I should start leaving comments on them telling them they should move them to 'Non-Erotic' just for laughs...?

Anyway, I kinda forgot about this until a few days ago when I was browsing the 'New Stories' section and stumbled upon another one of these types of stories, only this one was even worse than the ones I had read before. I didn't get that far into it, maybe the first page.... and when the guy started talking about having someone throw acid in his ex wife's face while he murdered her lover I thought, naaah this isn't even worth reading for laughs. And honestly I don't see what Literotica are doing allowing those kind of stories to be published, especially since they rejected my story (which is nowhere near as bad)!

But admittedly 'The Vice' was submitted a very long time ago (2019) and maybe they've changed their policies, I don't know. But I thought, fuck it, I'm gonna resubmit it and if they reject it again I'm going to ask them to explain to me why when they are allowing these awful stories on their site. But lo and behold the next day 'The Vice' was published without issue, so I didn't get a chance to argue with them.

At least my story is now available for my Literotica readers who don't know about this blog... and so far it's doing quite well, having a score of 4.54/5 and two positive comments.

You can read 'The Vice' on this blog HERE or on Literotica HERE.

FEMDOM SESSION: 21st September 2025

As you may remember, while I was preparing the room for our last Femdom Session back at the start of August, I was visited by the inspiration for what became 'Freshly Squeezed' (still currently my most highly rated story on Literotica). Unfortunately since then I seem to have gone off the boil story wise, I finished another one at the same time and then decided it wasn't right, but I haven't done anything with it since. Maybe I will find time in our upcoming week off work to do a little writing... we'll see.

No such inspiration this time... in fact it was another one of those 'wake up feeling stiff and tired and not sure if this is actually a good idea' kinda Sunday mornings. But thankfully we stuck it out (perhaps largely because we knew we didn't have the option to delay until next week) and I'm so, so glad we did because this session turned out way, way better than anticipated!

Now, a few days ago I had an accidental ruin while Mistress was teasing me... it was really odd and happened a good minute after she'd stopped stimulating me, but nevertheless a punishment was required for it and Mistress decided that she would deal with it in this session... and so that's what she did. 

Incidentally, I don't know why, but it sort of seemed like Mistress was a bit more... aggressive is far too strong a word, but a bit more 'edgy' this time around, and I really loved it.

I was kneeling blindfolded and so I didn't see Mistress pick up the clothes pegs from my nightstand when she went to pick up the paddle, whip and crop. I heard her throw the paddle on the end of the bed and then the next thing I knew Mistress was in front of me attaching the pegs to my nipples. Then she told me to get on all floors and before she commenced my punishment she made sure to tell me to remember what transpired so that I could enter it into her 'Book of Corrections'.

She started with five strokes of the whip, which weren't too bad... she followed that with five swats with the leather side of the paddle, that was a bit more painful, and then five strokes with the crop. And then another stroke just when I thought it was over. And then.... she picked up the paddle again and gave me five more whacks that were (I'm quite sure) the hardest strokes I've ever endured.

Well it was supposed to be a punishment after all... 

It was a bit of a shock, but honestly I think actually it was a very good thing because it totally snapped me out of my earlier malaise and brought my focus back to where it should be, on serving and worshipping my beautiful Mistress (of course)!

Having carried out my punishment Mistress turned me towards the bed and within a few seconds I was worshipping her gorgeous feet as she played with her glass dildo above me. Three or four times during the next ten minutes or so Mistress had me stop kissing her feet and had me suck on and lubricate the glass cock... one time noting how much she loved watching me suck on it while blindfolded (another little turn of the screw there, how exquisite).

As she toyed with her pussy, Mistress asked if I was still conflicted about whether I wanted to be allowed to cum or not. I told her that I had thought I just wanted to keep going and going and going, but then I remembered the wonderful orgasm I had back in April (just a few days after the start of our new Chastity Year) when Mistress sat next to me and jerked me off onto her gorgeous feet before making me lick them clean. That really was something special... 

Mistress mulled over this information, enquiring how many days we were up to now (167!) before telling me that she might let me cum today, or she might just ruin me... or she might just 'lock me back up' without any kind of release at all. After all, it's entirely her choice and (of course) because this was exactly what I had asked for.

I felt her pull her feet away and I waited for her to tell me to get on the bed, but then I felt her moving down the PVC sheet towards me and moments later she pulled my head down between her thighs and I heard her say 'tongue out'. I had forgotten that she had done this in the last session (IIRC) and I really loved this, and I particularly loved the contended little sigh she gave as my tongue moved between her legs too. 

Again, this really drew me into that wonderful submissive headspace and made me think how much I really love just being allowed to worship Mistress's gorgeous body. I really do wish sometimes she would just use me to please herself, I would love to worship her feet, pussy and ass and then be left 'locked'... that would be so hot. 

After a few moments of this Mistress pulled away again and then had me get on the bed. She had me fit a cockring and then tied me down on my back before immediately kneeling over me and sinking her delicious pussy down onto my face. I have always loved it when Mistress kneels over me like this and as I worshipped her with my tongue I could feel my cock getting harder and harder.

Mistress then stood over me and had me beg her to remove my blindfold. As ever she looked incredible, and wearing her short leather skirt and cupless PVC basque she looked every bit the Goddess she truly is. 

Mistress soon set about abusing my cock and balls with her hands and her cock whip, stroking me hard as she stood over me and teasing me relentlessly with the sight of her pussy and ass. Mistress knows all too well how much I crave to worship her gorgeous ass and she even gave my balls a few squeezes too, which I really liked a lot and which I've been hinting at for a long time. I think it will be easier for her when my balls are held tighter (like in the Oxballs ballstretcher, or the Cocksling with the extended collar), but I was just really happy that she finally gave it a go.

Mistress had also inserted the glass dildo with the ring on the end into my ass, which fell out several times as she teased and tormented me. However, this wasn't actually a terrible thing as it meant I got to feel it being shoved back inside my ass several times rather than it just sitting inside me - which is actually fairly ineffective after a while really (unless it's being used as a warm up for a strap on or something bigger).

Eventually after a few more minutes of teasing and face sitting, Mistress climbed off the bed and told me she was leaving me alone for a few minutes. She replaced the blindfold, re-pegged my nipples and then left me to stew for a while. When she came back she seemed to have refound the wonderful edginess she exhibited at the start of the session and immediately slapped the cock whip down onto my stomach and then roughly pulled the pegs off my nipples. Even though I was blindfolded I just knew she was loving how much I winced and flinched as she did that...

She removed my blindfold again to reveal that she had taken off her skirt and then told me she was going to untie me as it was now time for me to 'Worship her pussy until I made her cum!' 

I was more than keen and Mistress was already pretty turned on, but that was still no reason to rush it and I took my time bringing her closer and closer before eventually introducing my fingers, first to her pussy and then her ass. Mistress loves having her ass gently teased when I am going down on her and as you can probably imagine I absolutely LOVE being allowed to do that too! 

After Mistress came she told me to kneel up and then she stood on the bed in front of me before pulling my head between her legs and telling me to clean her. I licked up every delicious bit of pussy juice I could find, before she turned around and had me do the same again, which explicit instructions NOT to lick her ass without permission.

This done she ordered me back down onto my back and stood over me again, teasing me with the wonderful view of her pussy and ass. She asked me how much I wanted to be allowed to worship her ass and asked if I would give up being allowed to cum if she let me (definitely!), before stroking my cock and sinking down onto my face again.

I cannot tell you how much I adore worshipping Mistress's gorgeous ass. It is SO FUCKING HOT! I really hope some day Mistress will once again surprise me by having me do it outside of the bedroom it has been sooooooooo long (as you can see from the side panel, the last time was back in 2022!). 😢

Mistress allowed me to lick her gorgeous ass four times in all, originally it was three and then she allowed me to do it one more time... although of course that still wasn't enough for me; but I was still really grateful for what she allowed me.

After this I thought she would call the session, but she sat down on the bed between my legs (like last time when she rubbed her pussy against my tightly bound balls - that was awesome!) and placed her feet either side of my cock. She kept stroking me until I told her I was getting close. She continued and told me that she had decided that she was going to let me cum. At this point I still didn't know if she was going to keep stroking once I started to cum or not... and as the edge got even closer I warned her again and still she kept stroking.

She moved her right foot up towards my head and I kissed her toes as she stroked me until I finally reached the point of no return and I saw a rope of cum fly out across her left foot. Mistress kept going and as I imagined it might it quickly became very intense for me, but surprisingly very little cum was forthcoming. Sure it had been 167 days since my last full orgasm, but I actually had a ruined orgasm just a few days ago... even so it was surprising there wasn't more cum.

Mistress kept squeezing my now extremely sensitive cock, determined to get more cum that she could rub on her beautiful feet for me to clean (which of course I eagerly did). It was a wonderful way to end my longest ever spell in chastity, even if it wasn't quite as incredible as my previous full orgasm back in April (but then that was one of the best EVER in my opinion).

And so once again it transpired that the best thing to do, no matter how tired or achy you think you are, is get on with it, because once you're in the moment all that fades away and by the end of the session you'll feel amazing, which is exactly how we felt afterwards. 

So that's an astonishing seven Femdom sessions in eight months now. Wow, we really are smashing it this year aren't we! 😊

A Question from a Reader...

Today I received a question from a reader and I thought I would answer it in a post as it's a very good question and deserves a detailed reply. 

Jason B said: "I've been reading your blog for a long time, actually a very long time, maybe even since the start. And I've always wondered, deep down in your heart of hearts, do you wish you were properly caged? I know you've been doing this for over ten years so it must be working pretty well, but even so do you feel like you are missing out?"

First of all, thank you Jason for this intriguing question... this is a really hard one to answer and this is actually my third go at doing it! 

So, first of all, I think it would be odd if there wasn't a part of me that wanted to be 'properly' locked in a cage, wouldn't it? I mean, if you want 'orgasm control' as a lifestyle then that's pretty much the accepted way to achieve it isn't it? The cock is locked, the keyholder decides when and indeed 'if' the cock gets let out and while it is certainly possible to have a ruined orgasm in chastity, it's as good a method of control as you're going to get.

And you know, I'm well aware that being 'voluntarily' chaste is NOT 'the same' as being locked up. I know it isn't physically and perhaps even more importantly psychologically, it's world's apart. You only have to try on a chastity device for a few minutes to realise that it's a whole different ball game. Especially, if like me, you have a solid or opaque device which means that once inside you can't even see your cock. That's a real headfuck, believe me... and it must take quite a bit of getting used to honestly. 

So yes for sure I am not getting the 'full experience' and I totally accept that.

But, on the other hand, cages bring other issues and also part of the appeal of a cage is the whole fantasy element, the whole 'Mistress wearing the key around her neck as a constant reminder 24/7...'. I mean that's just chastity storytelling 101 isn't it? 

'The key to my cage glinting in the light as it dangles between her heavy breasts....' etc.

Yeah, sounds awesome. The thing is though, I really don't see that happening. If Mistress had me caged, I'd bet you a thousand pounds the key would either be lying in a drawer, stuck in a cupboard, or hanging on a hook somewhere; it certainly wouldn't be around her neck, because Mistress likes wearing nice necklaces and she wouldn't want a crappy looking key getting in the way. So that's that little fantasy shot to hell straight away...

And then there's the matter of late-night teasing... some of the best teasing I've ever had has occurred at 2:00AM when Mistress has been up late enjoying a glass or two of vino, do I honestly think she's going to come to bed and start fumbling around with a key to unlock me? No... I really don't. Too much hassle, especially at that time of night. Knowing my luck she'd give me the key and tell me to unlock myself... and by the time I had she'd probably have fallen asleep. 🤣🤣

So there are two very good reasons why I'm not sorry I'm not in a cage. There's also the difficulties of maintaining hygiene (especially as I am not circumcised) and possible discomfort/rashes etc to worry about. I know from reading chastity blogs that contrary to what you read in 'stories' most people who end up in long term chastity have to commit to a lot of trial and error (not to mention 'expense') to find a device that really works for them and I feel like you've really got to want to do that (and just as importantly I feel like your partner has really got to want you to do that too). 

I must admit the last time I tried my CB3000 on it seemed to fit better than it had before, probably because of the weight I've lost... but it's still not something I would consider suitable for long term wear. I think you'd pretty much have to take it off every day to shower and that to me kind of defeats the whole point of having it, because you're still essentially being 'trusted' not to jerk off in the shower aren't you? 

Sure, there are many who have bespoke metal cages (which by nature are more open, leaving room for cleaning etc) and it certainly works for them, but I think a big part of that is how invested their partners are in them having a cage. If you have a Mistress/keyholder who loves the idea of having the power to lock/unlock you then that's a great start. That kind of keyholder is going to be the one that enjoys wearing the key round her neck and dangling it in your face at every opportunity.... but if your partner is less than enthused in the first place then it's probably never going to work, even if you really want it to. I'm pretty sure the first time I got a rash or woke up in the night with a painful erection, Mistress would just declare it too much hassle and that would be the end of that.

But sure yeah... when I read (or write) chastity stories where devices are used of course I fantasize about being locked in a cage, especially stories where the keyholder cruelly fits the 'points of intrigue'... and I guess it would be okay to wear it for a few hours or something, maybe if Mistress was going out and she wanted me to be constantly thinking about her the whole evening. 😏

But ultimately Mistress R was never keen on the idea so we found our own path and clearly it works for us (and has for over fourteen years now). I'm sure our way wouldn't work for everyone and that's fair enough. I guess if anything the thing I do feel like we miss out on a bit is the power-play of it, as I do feel like me being actually 'caged' would make Mistress feel more 'powerful' and thus perhaps more likely to be more self-centred in the bedroom (since inevitably part of the 'game' of being caged is whether you get 'let out' or not). But there you are... 

So Jason, the answer is probably, yes of course, but.... maybe in reality no. 

162 Days and Still Counting...

Like last month, September got off to a bit of a slow start, but hopefully like last month we will be able to make up for lost time and maybe even get Mistress into double figures again by the 30th. That would be nice, but even an 8 or a 9 would be a valiant effort. 

Last week I took a couple of days off to redecorate our stairs and landing. Two days was barely enough time really, but I couldn't take the Friday off so it just had to get done. That meant fairly long days and then following that the inevitable backache...

Thankfully by Saturday things were sorted (although I was still quite worn out) and Mistress and I enjoyed some time in bed, with Mistress enjoying her third orgasm of the month before giving me the most wonderful teasing imaginable. This actually culminated in an intensely frustrating ruined orgasm for me, falling as it did on the 160th day since my last full orgasm (way back on the 6th April 2025). 

I don't know, it almost already feels like that date is becoming a landmark in my mind... could it be the date of my last full orgasm? Well, I don't know about that... as much as I would kinda like it to be, I have to keep reminding myself that nothing has really changed and it simply isn't up to me, just as it hasn't been up to me for the last fourteen years.

Mistress may decide to keep this going for another week, another month, another year... but she will still always have the power to bring it to an end whenever she pleases. Oddly it already feels like something she could 'threaten' me with... which is a peculiar state of affairs to be sure. I never considered that one day I would be kind of dreading being allowed to cum properly...

Anyway, later on Saturday evening I went to bed first and when Mistress came to bed sometime later I was still awake. Mistress eagerly reached for my cock and proceeded to give me even more wonderful teasing. Having already ruined that day and been fed my cum by Mistress it surprised me how horny and desperate to cum I still felt... which is exactly how a ruined orgasm should leave me after all.

The next morning when I woke up Mistress was already out of bed and dressed, she was wearing black jeans and a black long sleeve T-shirt but she still looked as sexy as fuck and my cock was fairly hard again... I thought I was pushing it a bit asking if I could touch my cock, but Mistress lay on the bed next to me and said I could touch it for two minutes.

It was a very hot CFNM scene, which I found surprisingly erotic - I'd definitely enjoy more like that. I cuddled against Mistress and kissed her gorgeous breasts through her T-shirt as I stroked my cock, but all too soon Mistress called time and told me it was time to get up. 

Both of us were pretty tired (perhaps our late night), and our plan to return to bed in the afternoon came to nothing (we had already moved our Femdom Session from this day back until next Sunday) but thankfully on Monday night Mistress got her 4th orgasm of the month. It was a really nice one and she tasted amazing as always.

As I gently kissed her feet afterwards, I somehow got the feeling that maybe this was to be the first night when Mistress decided not to 'unlock' me. I don't know why I thought that really, and it turned out to be wrong in the end, it was after all 'just a feeling'. But instead Mistress grabbed the lube out of her bedside drawer and with a little prompting from me told me that I was indeed to be 'unlocked'.

It's not that I don't want to to be teased, of course I do... and Mistress teased me wonderfully well and brought me extremely close to another ruin before calling time, but I'd still like her to have that power to decide if I get teased or not and for me to feel uncertain about whether it will happen or not each time...

Once she told me I was to be 'unlocked' I grabbed the Oxballs with the built in ballstretcher and put it on. I've been sticking to the basic (X-act fit) cock ring of late to so I'd slightly forgotten how much the Oxballs pulls on my balls and holds them tight, making Mistress's ball smacks that much harder to take!

I still enjoyed the pain though, even as I was flinching and wincing (which I'm sure Mistress enjoyed immensely) and Mistress also used her nails to inflict even more suffering on my poor, tightly bound cock, even after she'd edged me very hard. 

Mmmmm, what a truly gorgeous and magnificent Mistress I have! I truly loved every second of my 'suffering'.

It's funny, I thought the ruined orgasm I had on Saturday might take the edge off a bit, but it doesn't seem to have done much at all. I still feel desperate to cum, albeit deep down I really just want Mistress to ruin me again. But that's not up to me of course... so we will just have to wait and see what transpires, won't we?

This is So Much Better Than Cumming...!

Over the last few weeks I've been copying and pasting pretty much every post from this blog onto Word documents (and then PDFs) to safeguard against any future problems with Google/Blogger and/or the UK Government's policy on porn. So far it seems that everything has quietened down but I don't want to risk my blog being removed without notice and losing it all. Yes I have backed it up, but even so... where will I be able to restore it and do I really want the hassle?

Now obviously a lot of this is very old and it does make me smile when I read about things like my first 'cum free calendar month', being that I haven't come since April 6th 2025 and all... LOL.

I only have two more years left to copy (honestly, it's been a lot more work than anticipated, I've been doing about one year per week...) but my intention is maybe to read it all the way through from the start once it's been completed. But obviously as I've been going through it some parts have caught my eye, such as this excerpt taken from the blog in May 2012...

Tuesday 12th May 2012

"Do you need to stop... or is it already too late?" Asked Mistress R.

I continued on a little while longer, not wanting to give in, but Mistress placed her hands on my chest and pushed my back, my signal that it's time to stop. She didn't look upset that I hadn't been able to continue longer, more amused that I was struggling so hard not to cum.

After I had made her cum with my tongue we lay in bed together and she started stroking my cock again as we talked. Soon I was rock hard again and I said to her "This is so much better than cumming."

Mistress raised her eyebrows and said 'Better?'...

I confirmed that that was indeed what I had said.

"But you wouldn't never want to cum again though would you?"

I thought for a moment, as my cock throbbed even harder...

"No, possibly not." I eventually said. This last orgasm may have been a bit too intense to be pleasurable, but I'm not quite ready to give up on the idea altogether just yet. But like I said in my last post, I have to admit that these days being left denied and throbbing gives me more pleasure overall than being allowed to cum. Which is weird. Isn't it?

It's funny how much has changed over the last ten plus years, but also how much hasn't. Even then it seems I was keener on staying denied, even if I wasn't quite yet ready to give up being allowed to cum altogether. I find it interesting that in this instance it was Mistress who brought the idea of permanent denial up, though I'm sure she wouldn't think of it in those terms. 

Punishment Time Again

As I mentioned recently I've been waking up very hard a lot lately... so I guess it was inevitable that sooner or later I would succumb to temptation and one morning last week I did in fact touch my cock for maybe 30-60 seconds before I got up to go to work. It wasn't like hard stroking or anything, just lightly touching my cock with my fingers and enjoying the sensation of being rock hard and aching to cum.

Anyway, on Thursday Mistress and I got together and so I wrote down my transgression in her little book of corrections, actually kind of thinking it wasn't that serious. I mean the previous entry in the book had been for two instances of stroking plus several minor infractions, and that garnered me 7 strokes each of the paddle and the crop. This time I thought probably the paddle would suffice. In fact... I even wondered if Mistress might say it wasn't worth punishing me for such a minor offence...

However, I'm very pleased to say that Mistress didn't say that at all. In fact as soon as she saw the book open by the bedside she told me to get the crop for her! She then dealt me six pretty stingy blows with the paddle and 6 fairly light hits with the crop. I mean they still hurt a bit, but actually the paddle was worse and I was curling my toes between blows which seemed to amuse Mistress quite a bit!

Honestly on the one hand I felt I had been treated a little harshly in comparison to the previous time, but at the same time I was really, really pleased that Mistress didn't let me 'get away with it'; in the past this was always kind of what I feared - that we would agree rules and then Mistress wouldn't punish me if I broke them. It's really heartening to feel like Mistress is more in control now and she will punish me when I deserve it. 🧡

To be fair to Mistress, we never set any definite punishments, it was always up to Mistress to decide based on what I did and how long it had been since the previous offence. But it definitely feels better to feel like I've been punished a little harshly than not at all and wondering why I bother trying to stick to the rules.  

My latest story 'Freshly Squeezed' is still doing well, with a score of 4.69/5.0 on Literotica currently., which makes it my highest scoring story so far. I mean, I'm sure it will gradually slip - they all seem to start off with 5's and slowly slip down the order. I just hope it stays above 4.5 and keeps it's 'HOT' rating. I've also had three very positive comments, which is always welcome. 

I haven't had a chance to look at the other story again, or any of the myriad others I have on the go... Mistress and I were out all day yesterday and we ended up going to bed extremely late this morning, so today has been a bit of a write off to be honest. 

Freshly Squeezed (written September 2025)

I’ve been dating my girlfriend Jo for a few months now and it’s been going great, but recently I’ve noticed she’s become more dominant towards me. Not that I’m complaining you understand, it’s definitely a turn on for me… I’ve just never had a dominant girlfriend before and it’s all a bit new and strange. Exciting, but ‘different’.

I met Jo at the Judo club we both frequent. When I first joined I immediately noticed her, she is half Japanese, pretty small but super tough and so sexy with it. She had already achieved a brown belt before I even started and she’s also nearly two years older than me which made her very intimidating.

I became quietly obsessed with her and would always watch her when she was practicing or fighting. One thing about Judo is that obviously you can see a girls feet when they fight, which I always really liked… and Jo had really pretty feet and her nails were always perfectly painted red. I can’t tell you how many times I jerked off thinking about those gorgeous feet before I started dating her, but it was a lot…

Eventually Jo noticed me watching her and one day she decided to talk to me, which is just as well because I don’t really think I would ever have had the balls to approach her. We hit it off straight away and within a few weeks went on a date. I was a complete bag of nerves, but we had a great time together. After that we were pretty much inseparable.

As you can imagine though, with two martial arts freaks dating… it can be intense. She loves to sneak up on me and grab me from behind or challenge me to arm wrestle her. I mean, the truth is she could easily kick my ass if she wanted to… I’m enthusiastic about the Judo, but Jo takes it very seriously and her fitness is next level compared to mine. I just can’t keep up with her.

One night I was at her flat when she told me she wanted to ask me some questions… I said, “Okay”. 

“But not here…” she said.

She got up and I followed her into her bedroom where she slipped off her joggers, got on the bed and leant back against the headboard. 

“Strip and lie on the bed with your head down there,” she said, pointing to the bottom of the bed.

I nervously stripped off my T-shirt and shorts and jumped onto the bed… it never entered my head to object or resist, if anything it felt very exciting and I was eager to do what she wanted.

“On your back,” she ordered.

Once I was there, with my legs bent up and over hers, she reached forward and started to play with my cock and balls. We’d had sex a few times already and it had been great, albeit she definitely liked to go on top. Again, I’m not complaining, I’m just used to girls being more passive in bed… and Jo was anything but passive.

“Now,” she said, once my cock was hard and aching for attention. “I’m going to ask you some questions, which I’m sure you’re going to answer truthfully… but if for some reason I think you’re lying or if I don’t like the answer you give me then I’m going to squeeze your balls, okay?”

“Huh?” I said, lifting my head to look at her.

She smiled at me wickedly.

“It’s okay, I know you don’t want that, so answer truthfully and everything will be fine.”

Her fingers felt so damned good pumping my cock that I probably would have let her do whatever she wanted anyway, and I really had nothing to hide, so…

“Okay, first question. How many partners have you had before me? You told me eight, but I think that’s a lie… isn’t it?”

“Fuck”, I thought to myself. It was a lie.

“Truthfully…. three.” I said calmly.

“I see,” said Jo. “So why did you tell me eight?”

“Because…. well, you’re a bit older than me so I felt a bit, like… I didn’t want you to think I was inexperienced or too young for you.”

Jo’s fingers continued to slowly stroke my cock.

“Okay, I can understand that,” she said. “But… you lied to me, and I can’t let that go, can I?”

I looked at my gorgeous girlfriend, she looked amazing…. so pretty and sweet. She was wearing her favourite T-shirt with Manga characters on it, and her shoulder length black hair was tied back in a ponytail. She looked adorable and honestly I would have let her do whatever she wanted to me… 

“I guess not,” I admitted and waited for the punishment to begin.

I thought she would slap my balls or something, but instead she took both hands and put them round my balls, pulling them away from my body and then slowly but surely applying pressure through her palms. It wasn’t exactly painful, but it was an intense feeling and bizarrely as soon as she let go I wanted her to do it again, but harder.

I groaned softly and Jo picked up on it…

“Oh you like that do you? Most guys hate it when I do that to them… that’s really hot. I love squeezing guy’s balls, especially if they can take it really hard.”

Jo let go of my balls and started to stroke my cock again, it was much harder than it had been before and we both noticed.

“Look how hard your cock is now, you fucking loved that didn’t you?”

“Yes…. actually I did!”

“You’re making my pussy very wet….”

“Good,” I chuckled.

Jo slapped her hand hard across my cock.

“Oww!” I cried out… it wasn’t painful, I just wasn’t expecting it!

“Next question,” she spat. “Have you ever fantasized about me fucking anyone else?”

“What? No! Of course not…” 

Jo stroked me harder… 

“Oh really, you never fantasised about watching me getting railed by a bunch of big-dicked guys or anything?”

“No…” I spluttered. “I really haven’t. Why would I… I want you all to myself.”

“Good, I’m pleased to hear it. And for the record I want you for myself too. But if you ever cheat on me I will kick you so fucking hard… they’ll have to dig your balls out of your stomach.”

“Okay… okay, well don’t worry I’m really not the cheating kind.”

Jo stroked me some more and then spat on my cock before holding it at the base and twisting her other hand around the head.

I started to pump my hips and Jo gave me another hard slap to the cock.

“Don’t even think about cumming yet, I have a lot more questions for you.”

I groaned in frustration.

“What was the first thing that you noticed about me… or what made you want to start sitting and watching me like a little stalker?”

‘Oh fuck’, I thought.

“Errr…. do you really want me to be honest?”

“No I want you to lie so I can squeeze your balls….”

I chuckled and closed my eyes…. Fuck!

“Okay, well, if you really want me to be honest… then I’d say it was your feet. You have VERY pretty feet.”

Jo stopped stroking and closed her hands around my balls again.

“I’m telling the truth,” I pleaded.

“Don’t believe you,” she replied, her palms already coming together and crushing my two orbs against each other.

“Oooofff,” I winced as she applied even more pressure than the first time. It kinda hurt, but not in a bad way and my cock was like granite when she let go again.

Jo leaned forward and sucked the tip of my cock for a few seconds, swirling her tongue around the head. Then she sat up again and licked her lips.

“I love sucking your cock,” she said. “especially when it’s really fucking hard like that. It’s so HOT.”

She grasped my meat lightly and gave me the slowest, lightest strokes imaginable, her fingers gliding up and down my shaft. It felt amazing but also slightly maddening.

“So you’re a foot boi are you?” she said. “That’s interesting… I never realised. So what… do you think about my feet when you’re jerking off?”

“Well…actually, yeah I have.”

“Reeeeeally….” she smiled, “…what do you think about doing to them?”

“Kissing them, licking them… sucking on your toes.”

Jo smiled at me now, jerking my cock firmly. 

“Anything else?”

“Like what…?”

“Like… have you ever fantasized about shooting your load all over my pretty feet perhaps?”

I looked away, taken off guard by her question. 

“Umm…”

Jo let go of my cock and quickly grabbed hold of my balls again, squeezing them tightly until it started to ache.

“Yes… yes, okay I did…” I squealed.

Jo let go and curled her fingers around my cock again.

“It’s so funny, every time I do that your cock gets harder and harder… I think if I squeeze hard enough you’ll just explode.”

I moaned as she stroked and taunted me.

“But not yet! Not until I say, understand…”

“Yes… okay. I’ll try and hold back.”

I felt her left hand slap down onto my balls.

“Owww!” I cried, bending at the waist with the shock. 

“NO, you WILL hold back. Won’t you?”

Jo slowed down her stroking and released her grip significantly.

“Yes, yes… okay, yes. Whatever you say.”

Jo smiled, how could she look so sweet and cute and at the same time be so dominant and sexy?

“So…. when you fantasized about cumming on my feet, was that it… or did anything else happen?”

Fuck, why did she have to keep asking these questions.

“Umm….”

“Tell me,” she warned, “you know I’m gonna get the truth out of you one way or another.”

“Okay! Okay…. Yes, I… er….”

Try as I might I couldn’t bring myself to tell her what I had done in my fantasy. Thus far into the relationship I had done my best to maintain the illusion that I was pretty vanilla, afraid that if I exposed my kinky nature she would run away and probably tell all the guys at the Judo gym into the bargain.

Jo stopped stroking, her hands moving down between my legs and wrapping themselves tightly around my ballsack.

“5…4…3…2…”

“Okay, okay… I fantasized about… about….”

I felt Jo’s palms pressing together hard and I heard my tone rise slightly as I blurted out my secret.

“That you made me lick them clean!”

As soon as the words left my lips I cringed inside and closed my eyes, waiting for everything to come crashing down. I felt Jo release my balls… and exhale loudly. Why did she have to do this, everything was going so well with us and now she’d ruined it.

Finally Jo spoke… 

“Is that something you want to do for real?” she asked.

I honestly wasn’t expecting her to say that and my mind raced, trying to work out the best answer to give to prevent the imminent implosion of our budding relationship. The seconds ticked by until Jo gently took hold of my cock again and started to stroke it.

“Okay, well I think we can assume from that pause that you do…”

I screwed my eyes up tight, wishing we could just go back to pretending I was ‘normal’, but the cat was out of the bag now…. and yet she was still stroking me, 

Jo fired her next question at me.

“Have you ever fantasized about being sissified?”

“NO!” I answered. “Definitely not…”

“Really… you’ve never wanted to be dressed up like a girl and fucked in the ass with a strap-on?”

“No,” I assured her. “I swear…”

Jo continued to softly stroke me.

“Good, because I don’t want a girly-boy for a boyfriend… although I would love to fuck you in the ass and make you my bitch!”

I couldn’t believe what I was hearing.

“Will you do that for me? If I want to… will you let me fuck your asshole?”

“Yes,” I whispered. “I’ll do anything you want…”

“Ooooh…. really, that’s SO fucking hot. You know I’m going to fuck you hard don’t you? You know I’m not gonna stop until you beg… God I’m so fucking wet right now.”

I felt Jo pulling her legs out from under mine and then her feet appeared by my head.

“Kiss them,” she said.

I craned my neck up so that I could reach and started to gently pepper her soles and toes with light kisses.

“That’s nice… I think you will be a good foot boi for me.”

She pulled her feet back and then climbed up on top of me. She reached down and pulled her red panties to one side and then gripped my aching cock. She rubbed the tip against her wet lips and then slowly but firmly pressed herself down onto it. 

Jo’s pussy is definitely the tightest pussy I’ve ever fucked and it took every ounce of willpower not to erupt inside her as soon as I felt her wet pussy touch my balls. 

“Fuck!” I groaned loudly.  

“Yes,” smiled Jo, lifting up her T-shirt to expose her toned stomach and gorgeous little tits. “Fuck me. Shoot your cum in me… fill me up. You don’t need to hold back now, don’t try and make it last, just shoot it deep inside my hot, wet pussy… DO IT NOW!”

Jo started to ride me and despite what she said within a minute I was instinctively trying to hold back. 

“I’m gonna…” I panted.

“Yes, shoot it in me… give me everything you’ve got.”

“I’m gonna…” I repeated, my legs starting to tense up as my balls contracted hard.

Jo slammed her cunt down onto me faster and faster, harder and harder, until finally I bucked beneath her and shot my load deep into her sodden pussy.

“Yes…” she moaned, leaning down to kiss me hard as her pussy continued to suck every last drop of cum out of my balls.

We kissed passionately for a minute or two before she pulled away and lifted herself off my cock. I watched as she put her hand between her legs and quickly scooted up my body until her legs were either side of my head. She took her hand away and once again pulled her (now very messy) panties aside and I could already see my cum starting to drip out of her beautifully smooth pussy.

Without a word, Jo sank down onto my face and I felt her sticky cunt rubbing against my lips.

“Clean me,” she ordered, grinding herself against my mouth. 

I cautiously stuck out my tongue and tasted our combined juices for the first time. I felt almost dizzy with lust for her and soon I was eagerly pressing my tongue between her lips, trying to search out more of the delicious mixture… this was easily the hottest thing I had ever done and if I was ‘curious’ before, now I was well and truly hooked.

Jo moaned above me as she watched me cleaning her used pussy. She dug a finger into her slit and a fresh stream of cum and pussy juice trickled out of her stretched out hole. I swallowed it and stuck my tongue out again, desperate to catch every last drop.

Eventually she lifted off me and slid back until her pussy was resting on my spent cock.

“You fucking LOVE that don’t you?” Jo said, looking down at me with her eyes full of wonder.

I could only nod.

“Good because in future whenever I want you to clean me up, you will… won’t you?”

“Yes,” I offered meekly.

Jo looked so happy in that moment, it was almost like she was holding back tears. She bent down and nuzzled against my neck, her mouth close to my ear.

“I love you,” she said. It was the first time either of us had said it and it couldn’t have been better timed.

“I love you too,” I replied sincerely.

Our lips met again and we kissed a while before Jo slid down the bed and sucked me hard again, then she flipped around so that her pussy was right over my face. By this time she had pulled her red panties off and I buried my tongue in her delicious pussy while she sucked me enthusiastically.

As I licked her I used my fingers to tease her ass and she eventually exploded on my tongue. She briefly let go of my cock, moaning and clenching her thighs as she came. Then she grabbed my cock and pumped and sucked until I emptied what little cum I had left in my balls down her throat. 

One Hundred and Fifty Days in Chastity

The other day (I (think) I mentioned that I'm really not hung up on 'records' as such, like I'm not aiming for any particular number of days in chastity or anything. But I still couldn't really let today pass without noting that I had reached a new record of 150 days without a proper orgasm. Of course every day is a new record now, since I've never, ever gone this long before... and on Sunday when she'd finished teasing me, Mistress asked how many days it had been and when I told her it was 148 days she said 'Now you're locked back up... maybe for another 148 days!'.

She didn't mean I was 'locked up' for another 148 days, she was inferring that she might not let me cum for another 148 days, but even then she quickly clarified that she was only joking and that she wasn't committing herself one way or another. This is perfect, because the more I think about it the more I see the flaw in the idea of committing to 'permanent' chastity.... for one thing, it takes away some of Mistress's control (after all she can easily enforce 'permanent' chastity simply by not allowing me to cum, she doesn't need to commit to it or actually say anything), and while it's hot to think about that kind of thing, and while I hope she does keep me denied for a VERY long time (even permanently) I still want there to be uncertainty when she edges me. I still want the possibility of a real orgasm to be there, even if I don't actually want it to happen.

Read that again, what a bizarre statement? 🤣 

Why? Because more than ever I am reluctant to return to zero. Every morning I wake up rock hard and aching for attention (which is a challenge in itself since I am not allowed to touch my cock without permission) but I love it. Still, as we know, it simply isn't up to me and whatever I may want Mistress will decide when and if I eventually have a proper orgasm or not - which is exactly the way it should be. 

Last night Mistress read one of my stories and gave me some corrections to apply. I was far too tired last night to concentrate on doing it and I probably won't get it done tonight either, but it will be coming soon. The other story I'm still not quite satisfied with, so it may need more work before it's ready to be published. At the moment it seems to be a bit disjointed and contradictory. Hopefully I will get time to sort it some time, though I'm not quite sure when as we have a busy Saturday ahead of us this weekend.

Look But Don't Touch!

Can you believe it's the weekend again, that came around quickly didn't it? At least it's been a bit cooler this week, which is very welcome. Last night Mistress and I convened in the bedroom for some more teasing and another orgasm (for her, naturally)... and it once again showed me that even if you aren't really feeling up to having sex beforehand, by the end you tend to feel a lot better and a lot happier. 😊

Despite it being cooler, we still had a fan by the bed... and funnily enough we're still sleeping under an empty duvet cover. Which is weird because Mistress usually feels the cold (much more than I do). I had printed Mistress a new book of stories (two that I had written and two from Literotica), and she had a very lovely orgasm on my tongue reading those and as ever she tasted divine.

Speaking of stories, I have almost finished two more stories, I just need to read them through once more and then get Mistress to proof read them for me. One of them is about a guy in a relationship with a half Japanese girl and who share a love of Judo... and describes them starting to explore a Femdom relationship. The other one is more conventional wife/husband Femdom fare, but still hopefully an engaging read... and something I haven't touched on before.

Anyway, after Mistress had her orgasm she 'unlocked' me and I slipped the Xact cock ring on again. So easy to put that one on, and does the job without being as intrusive as the Oxballs products. Don't get me wrong, I love having my balls stretched, but the tighter my balls are held the more intense Mistress's slaps become, and Mistress is getting pretty intense with her slaps lately! Not that I'm complaining you understand. I LOVE it when she hurts my balls. 

Mistress quickly had me hard and throbbing and I was feeling so much better than I had earlier in the evening already. Then Mistress got up on her knees and stood over me, turning so that I was looking up at her gorgeous ass. I was immediately excited and hopeful, but as my hands reached up to pull her cheeks apart she told me firmly 'I'm not going to let you lick my ass today, but you can look at it as long as you don't cum'.

While I was obviously deeply disappointed by what she said, I loved that Mistress used her gorgeous ass to tease me even more and I really loved looking up at her enticing hole and wishing I was allowed to plunge my tongue into it. Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm! 

Mistress ramped up the pressure by dropping down until her ass was about two inches from my face, I was so close that Mistress could almost certainly feel my breath on her delicious asshole. But each time she made sure to tell me in no uncertain terms NOT to touch. Gaaah!

So mean, and yet so wonderful... this submissive life is full of contradictions eh?

Well anyway, I loved every second of it, but eventually Mistress climbed off me and knelt next to me, pumping my cock until she got me to the edge. But unlike last weekend Mistress didn't stop once she'd edged me once and after a brief respite to allow me to cool down a little, she slowly started working on me again, beginning with gentle teasing and then graduating to ball slapping and eventually digging her nails hard into my aching cock. So fucking good.

After my second edge Mistress told me that was all for today, but being a greedy puppy I continued kissing her and pressing my throbbing cock against her thigh until she finally relented and teased me a little more. This culminated in perhaps the hardest nail torture she's ever given me, it was really painful, but my cock fucking loved it and I eagerly fucked her hand until she finally took it away and told me that that really was it and I was now 'locked' again.

It amazes me that her nails can cause so much 'pain' and yet there's almost no physical marks on my skin, I'd half expect it to be red and sore but the pain (while intense) seems very fleeting. I really love that she's embraced this new way of hurting me as a regular thing, it's just one more reason why my Mistress is absolutely amazing (as if her gorgeous body wasn't enough already) and I thank my lucky stars every day for my tremendous fortune. 🙂

Wow, What a Weekend That Was!

Bank Holiday weekends are usually a bit of a disappointment for Mistress and I, it's either raining or hot and everywhere you might want to actually go is overrun with people... today has certainly been hot (please let this be the last really hot day of 2025) but overall this BH weekend has been pretty awesome. Most importantly (as far as this blog goes) Mistress had orgasms on Saturday, Sunday and Monday, something we haven't done for four years!

And on top of that I have been teased and edged four times over the last three days, and each time quite differently. They've all been fantastic, and today was also wonderful... Mistress getting a little rough with my stretched cock and balls, and giving them both some lovely hard slaps. Additionally, after Mistress edged me and I begged her to touch me some more, she really dug her nails in as I fucked her hand, which was painful but SO FUCKING HOT! 

Oh my God I love it. The thing is I just never want it to stop... 

Every single teasing session this weekend has been sublime, I can't believe I made it through all that without an 'accident'.... but I did! I don't want to say any of the teasing I had this weekend was 'better' than the others, but Sunday morning was something truly special for me, perhaps because it was so unexpected and so incredibly FRUSTRATING. 

It could not have been more perfect really.

Thank you my gorgeous Mistress for a truly wonderful three days, you have made your slave's 'poor' 141 day denied cock very, very happy this weekend! 🙂

Blog Was Taken Down Again Today...

Some of you probably noticed that Google removed my blog again today... I really don't know why they keep doing this. The blog was totally locked down, I couldn't even access it other than to request a review, which of course I did. Thankfully it was fairly quickly restored and I received an email telling me that the blog had been put behind a warning for readers.

This is the part I don't understand, because my blog has ALWAYS been behind a warning for readers as all adult content blogs have to be. So what triggered the take down? Fucked if I know, but if this happens again then I will move to www.chastityfemdom.blogspot.com, so you might want to bookmark that now.

I resisted the urge to start setting it up this afternoon as I had a feeling the blog would be restored. But if it does get taken down then I will move there and probably operate it without all the external links and images (which seem to be the thing that triggers the bots and causes problems). That would be annoying as I put a lot of work in to make my blog look good and easy to use on a phone, but I can only do what they let me so...

At least we're back for now, hopefully they will leave me alone for a bit!

I Was Just About To...

Last night Mistress had another lovely orgasm on my tongue and then after we kissed and she got me hard she moved down the bed and started to suck my cock. I was wearing the ballstretcher and Mistress sucked me for quite a while before she sat up and started to stroke me and slap my balls. It was wonderful and Mistress didn't let up until I reached the edge. Actually at one point we both thought I had ruined, because I felt something on my skin. But then maybe it was just one rogue drop of cum or something because I didn't ruin - though I was incredibly close, and when I took the ballstretcher off there was a small amount of cum on the tip of my cock. Talk about one stroke from failure.

After that Mistress and I watched/listened to a YouTube concert video for a band we are seeing in a couple of weeks (we don't know many of the songs very well) while I continued to copy and paste my blog into Word docs (more on which, anon... probably) while Mistress searched Literotica for new stories.

As it's finally cooled down a bit here, Mistress and I decided that we would get up and go for a long walk in the country this morning, so Mistress set her alarm for 8AM so that we could be out of the house by 9AM and hopefully we'll be home before the sun comes out. This becomes important in a minute... trust me.

So like Friday night I woke up in the middle of the night (actually 4:25AM) with a hard cock, but unlike Friday night it wasn't a raging 'please God touch me before I fucking explode' kind of boner, more the regular 'you might want to get up and visit the toilet' kind of thing. So I did, and thankfully I managed to get back to sleep without too much problem.

Then this morning I woke up about 7:45AM or something and again I was hard, but this time a little more than just hard... it was definitely hard and needy. Mistress was also awake and I rolled onto my back and... I was just about to ask Mistress's permission to touch my cock, when I felt her reach over and trace her fingers up and down it. It felt soooooo good. 

Mistress continued her light teasing for a while, using her fingertips and nails to tantalise me while I slowly began pushing my cock higher, desperate for more. Eventually she grasped my cock in her (left) hand (Mistress is right handed but she sleeps to my right and she was also lying on her back) and started to pump me hard. Fuck me that felt amazing.

But she soon went back to the light teasing and I helplessly fucked the air, trying to maximise every little touch, oblivious to the time, even though it was projected on the ceiling above me in red light. 

Mistress reverted to a firm grip and started pumping my cock again, even harder this time and I felt myself getting closer and closer to the edge. I was just about to open my mouth to warn Mistress that I was close when the alarm went off and she let go of my cock to turn it off.

I momentarily wondered if that had been Mistress's plan all along, to stop when the alarm went off, but once the alarm was silenced she turned back to me and grabbed my cock again, this time with her dominant hand (though if ask me, both her hands are pretty dominant) and picked up where she'd left off. 

It didn't take too long before I was approaching the edge again and I just about managed to gasp 'I'm close Mistress' before it went too far. Mistress let go immediately while I strained in frustration. I knew I was closer than close, in fact I thought it might have gone too far already; I really was just waiting to feel the warm drip of cum landing on my stomach, but it never came.

After a few seconds Mistress placed her hand against my balls and just left it there, not squeezing them or anything, just resting on my balls. Interestingly, this just prolonged the agony, and I genuinely thought that alone might be enough to push me over the edge, because I really was still teetering. But thankfully the cum stayed in my balls (just about), though God knows in that moment I wanted her to let me cum. I was SO. FUCKING. CLOSE, it was way beyond merely frustrating.

I mean, of course, ultimately I'm glad she didn't let me cum... because it means I can continue feeling this desperate, frustrated and submissive. But in those seconds where my cum was preparing to fire itself out of my poor, denied balls and high into the air... well that was a different matter. Good job I have a Mistress with a level head who knows what I really need.  

As Mistress swung herself out of bed I wrapped my arms around her and kissed her breasts, but Mistress was not to be swayed from our plans so a walking we will go and hopefully later I will get to worship her beautiful pussy again and make her cum. 

- - -

Well we did indeed go for a six mile country walk, which we managed in a pretty decent (given the number of hills involved) 72 minutes. The sun was breaking out from behind the clouds for the last quarter of an hour so we were happy to get back to the air conditioned car.

After lunch I did indeed get to worship Mistress’s delicious pussy and make her cum and given that Mistress had edged me so beautifully first thing I wasn’t necessarily expecting more teasing (though obviously I wasn’t going to turn it down if Mistress offered it!)

After I had worshipped Mistress’s beautiful feet she told me that I was ‘unlocked’ and that I could put a cock ring on if I wanted to. I elected to put the new stretchy one on and hopped onto the bed where Mistress was already laying; completely naked and utterly gorgeous.

As we kissed, Mistress started to tease my cock with her fingers and once hard she held my cock with her left hand, just gently squeezing it and stroking it while she teased me with the fingers and nails of her right hand. This felt absolutely amazing and I really hope Mistress does that again soon!  

Eventually Mistress started to stroke me properly, but then reverted to the gentle teasing… then she got up on her knees and I thought for a moment she was going to straddle my head and allow me to worship her perfect ass… but she didn’t, she just knelt there, stroking my cock and looking as sexy as Hell. 

I reached up and gently squeezed her left breast (I so love it when she doesn’t wear her bra in bed) before asking permission to worship her wonderful ass. Mistress continued pumping my cock and said ‘Not today slave’. Obviously I was a bit disappointed… but on reflection, perhaps it was just as well, because it didn’t take Mistress that long to get me to the edge again and having my tongue buried in her delicious ass would only have made it happen even quicker!

Just like this morning I thought I might have waited one or two seconds too long to warn Mistress and as I lay there kissing Mistress I waited expectantly for the drip of warm cum to hit my skin. Thankfully it never came, although when I took the cock ring off there was a small amount of cum released. Honestly, it feels like it’s only a matter of time until I have another accidental ruin, the edge just comes so quickly now… no doubt Mistress will enjoy ‘correcting’ me if/when that happens!

Oh, and before I go, just to let you know I added another story to the 'Story Links' page. Another cuckolding story, this time written by 'Cutecouple102', it's pretty long and I'm not too sure about Chapter 4, but up until then it was well written and pretty good. I hate to agree with the comment trolls, but on this occasion the observation that 'even the author realised that they couldn't write chapter five without completely humiliating themselves' seems to ring true as the promised chapter five has not materialised after several years. A pity the author hasn't written anything else though...

Different Kinds of Frustration!

My story 'Saturday Night Picture' show has so far attracted eight user comments, all positive except one which said it was a great idea but 'weak implementation'. Okay, well they're entitled to their opinion. They also said I was too lazy to finish the story properly! Which is annoying, as I've since thought that I wanted to continue the story, but because I thought it was a stand alone piece I added a bit at the end to kind of wrap it up and now I wish I hadn't. 

I can probably get around it, but it makes it more awkward than it needed to be, or I suppose I could just put a disclaimer at the start of the next part to say 'please ignore the last two paragraphs of part one'... but that seems really weak. I guess I will either work around it or start a different story with the ideas I have for part two. 

Frustrating.

At least the story is scoring well, and it has retained it's 'HOT' rating. Something only one of the six stories I've published since has managed incidentally... I was on a great run there for a while, but still 8 out of 20 stories published this year have made the cut, so that's still pretty good.

Last night I went to bed about a half hour after Mistress and I couldn't get comfortable. My neck has been hurting (partly because I started swimming again) and my pillows felt too high and I also felt too hot and my shoulder was hurting, also my knee and my arm.... just everything basically. 

Frustrating.

So after a few minutes of wriggling about and trying to make my shoulder crack, I decided I'd be better off sleeping in the spare bed because I didn't want to keep Mistress awake with my fidgeting. So I went in there and then it took me about another half an hour to get to sleep.

At 3AM I woke up so fucking hard... I couldn't believe it, I honestly felt like I could cum just through the power of my mind and the covers rubbing against me was maddening (but fucking hot at the same time of course...). Honestly it was so fucking difficult to not touch my cock and again I thought this would be the perfect time to try that prostate massager thing that we've had for 15 years and never once used. If it didn't work then I can't believe it ever would! 🤣

Frustrating.

But of course, that would mean waking up Mistress to ask permission and I don't think she'd appreciate that at 3AM somehow. Nor do I think she'd likely give me permission to have a ruined orgasm, even a completely hands free one. 

It's now 139 days since my last proper orgasm, and while these middle of the night moments are of course intensely frustrating, it's the kind of frustrating that I will miss when Mistress eventually resets me to zero. Assuming she does of course.... I kinda hope she doesn't. But at the same time, I really want to cum too! 

How wonderfully frustrating!

Punishment and a New Record Every Day from Today...

Hard as it is to believe, my last 'full' orgasm happened on the 6th of April 2025... before Easter, before the summer... in other words, a VERY long time ago! In fact yesterday marked the point where I equalled my previous chastity record of 135 days, so every new day is a new record from this point onwards.

Last night, Mistress asked me how many days it had been since my last proper orgasm and when I relayed this information to her she smiled and said 'Do you think you can go all the way 'til Christmas'? Now I have no idea if Mistress will make me wait 'til the end of the year or not, but if that's what she decides then that's okay by me. 

To be honest, real orgasms are a double edged sword at this point; a momentary (often painfully intense) surge of pleasure, followed by days of regret... and I can think of several things I would choose instead (not least some prolonged ass worship or a ruin onto Mistress's gorgeous feet)! But of course that's not how this works, so if Mistress decides 'it's time' sooner rather than later then so be it. 

I'm actually not really that interested in exactly how long any new record is, I'm certainly not thinking I want to get to 200 days (23rd October) or anything like that... I'm just happy that Mistress continues to control my orgasms however she pleases, and if she decides she wants to take me to Christmas before allowing me to cum, or if she makes me wait until next Christmas, or if she just never lets me cum 'properly' again, then that is entirely up to her.

The other day I posted about some illegal 'touching' that happened a couple of weeks ago, and unfortunately due to the latest heatwave here in the UK this went unaddressed for over a week. However, thankfully the temperature has fallen the last few days and last night after she had a lovely orgasm on my tongue, Mistress picked up her paddle and her crop and 'corrected' me.

I got seven very stingy swats with the leather side of the paddle, followed by seven even more painful strokes with the crop... and right from the first moment I was wincing (I know, I'm such a pussy!). 

You know, it's times like these when I question my life choices, but you know... I asked for this after all, haha... and even though it (briefly) fucking hurt, I'm still glad Mistress did it. And honestly I'd much rather it hurt than it was too soft.

When I think about it as well I'm pleased that we've progressed from Mistress being hesitant to use the crop on me to using it and not being tempted to cut it short even though I was involuntarily wincing with every 'agonizing' stroke. I love to encourage Mistress's evil side to come out... it's so fucking HOT! 😍

After Mistress corrected me, she also gave my balls a good whipping too, which I'm sure was more intense than normal. I was certainly flinching as she did it, where I usually quite enjoy it! I mean, I still 'enjoyed' it.. as it was part of some wonderful teasing and edging, but it certainly seemed harder than normal.

Still, I guess it's my own fault, I broke the rules and I have to pay... and besides, knowing that Mistress enjoys inflicting pain makes it worth it. I'm just glad the crop is reserved for 'punishments' only! 

Oddly Mistress asked how my bottom felt this morning and it was fine, but this afternoon (after sitting down most of the day) I can definitely feel where the crop hit me. It's not painful, just a little tender and a nice reminder of last night's fun. :)

Hopefully there will be more fun tonight (and no cropping!), Mistress has only come four times this month which is clearly far from acceptable... and maybe one day soon Mistress will squeeze my balls like that girl in that GIF the other day. 😀

Webteases from Milovana

I have now screenshot all my 'Classic' webteases from Milovana and I've decided to post them here, gradually. I actually want to remake them (well maybe not all of them, but the best ones) rather than just posting screenshots. I've done one so far (Endgame) and it came out quite well I think. I managed to sharpen the images and spread the text over more pages so it's easier to read. I will post that one soon and do one every so often, I don't want to get buried in doing these as it's a few hours work to do each one and I still have a ton of stories to finish as it is...

As for the EOS/Flash teases, well I really can't do anything with those. If Milovana stops working altogether they will just have to be lost. For one thing they are designed to be run with a software that can handle linking pages to other pages and besides they were all originally Flash based, which no longer exists so I don't even have access to the teases anymore.

I notice several people in the technical forum complaining that they can't upload pictures and being told that they shouldn't expect a quick fix. Which seems a bit silly given that means a complete halt on new uploads. Oh well, whatever... guess there won't be any competitions this month!

Feels like I have come to a grinding halt with the stories... I wrote one the other day, but it wasn't a Femdom / Chastity story. I've posted it on my old 'Malibuman666' account at Literotica (it's not up yet) but I won't be posting it here.

Milovana Going to Shit? Story Update and a Confession...

I really don't know what's going on with Milovana at the moment. The site has been running dreadfully slow the last few weeks which makes it very difficult to create teases, and now it seems things have gotten even worse. You may remember I uploaded a new tease on the 1st August and for reasons I don't quite understand it seems to be scoring very badly compared to my other teases. So I decided that while I'm not going to rewrite the tease, perhaps the pictures I used to illustrate were part of the problem.

So I unpublished it and then set about finding some new pictures to replace them with. The only problem is that... now I can't upload them. In fact I can't upload any pictures at all. Even if I start a brand new tease and try and upload to that, it just goes on and on trying and never finishes loading. Which probably explains why eleven days into the month there is just one (other) new tease available.

As for the tease I published in July, well it did make it into the end of month vote, and it's currently running a distant third (out of five), so not too bad really. It should at least get a 'TOTM Nominee' badge. I did notice however that someone posted a new thread on the forum moaning about the lack of teases and that the teases that were being posted were too niche and strange, even going as far as to include my July tease by name in that little critique.

I mean, it's fine if someone doesn't like that tease, but I honestly think it's one of the most creative ones that I've done. And I'd much rather do another one like that and score low than throw together another simple, thoughtless one like 'Edge for Katie' just to try and win the 'Tease of the Month' competition. 

And given that Milovana looks to be on shaky ground I've started screenshotting all my teases so that if the whole website goes belly up then I can repost my teases here. Assuming that here is still an option of course... who knows (I'm still copying and pasting all of this blog into Word Docs as a back up, that turned out to be a bigger job than I thought - I've just got back to 2017)!

As for the writing, well... my last two stories are both currently sitting between 4 and 4.5 at Literotica, which is okay. I've started another story or two and I had another idea for another one today, but that's another potentially long story so that might not arrive for a little while. I counted up the other day and I think I've published 16 stories this year, some years I've struggled to do any at all!

Other than that Mistress and I are suffering from the heat again, with just two orgasms for Mistress in eleven days so far this month. We were hopeful of one at the weekend, but we were out late on Saturday night and then slept badly and felt like crap all Sunday and honestly Monday hasn't really been any better. Maybe Tuesday will be the day, well probably not as it's going to be even hotter than it was today. In fact the weather is forecast to be hot all this week and I am going to a concert on Wednesday night, so that's out the window. 

Unfortunately, when we do get back to it there will be some 'correcting' to be done as I did have a slight mishap on Saturday night / Sunday morning. We ended up getting home at 2AM or something after spending the night at Mistress's cousin's house and went to bed at 3AM, and probably got to sleep at 3:30AM. Only for me to wake up ROCK HARD at 4:10! Gah...

However, I suspect Mistress was already asleep (due to the heat I was sleeping in the spare bed) and I wasn't about to go into the main bedroom to see if she was awake so I could ask permission to touch my cock! Disappointingly I did give it a bit of a stroke (and my balls a bit of a squeeze) but managed to get back to sleep fairly quickly.... only to wake up again at 5:30. FFS.

This time my cock felt like granite. It was absolutely ridiculous how hard it was, almost like it would be with a really tight cock ring on! And it was absolutely NOT going to be ignored. So 'reluctantly' I proceeded to stroke it gently while remembering how awesome Mistress's legs and feet had looked when I had been stealing glances at them all the previous evening. 

To be honest, anything more than gentle stroking could have led to a whole lot of problems, because I think I could have got to the edge pretty damn quick - but thankfully I managed to maintain a modicum of control. Still I have written it into Mistress's 'Book of Corrections' and so I can look forward to some punishment for that in the near future. Hopefully... :)