Wonderful Triple Teasing and a Ruined Orgasm!

Following on from our wonderful Femdom last Sunday, on Thursday night Mistress again had me worship her delicious pussy and then teased me to another wonderful edge, I noticed her slaps were a little harder, her teasing a little more 'intentional'... perhaps it's all in my head but I have reason to be optimistic.

You see, at the start of the week Mistress and I sat down and reviewed our Femdom/Chastity contract. This was written in 2020 believe it or not, and probably hasn't been revisited since. We both realise now the folly of writing a contract and then shutting it away in a drawer. There is just zero point. In fact this contract was so out of date that we had to discard large parts of it and pretty much start over, so in future we have agreed to review our contract monthly.

This may be as simple as both of us reading it, agreeing that it is working and putting it away for another month. Or it may mean that we need to talk about something we think needs to change. The key here is not to take it for granted or think, this is pointless, we do this every month and it's fine so let's just not bother. Isn't it worth ten minutes of our time every month to ensure we're both happy? Of course, but it's so easy to just let it slide and if we don't put something in place to prevent that then that's exactly what will happen, and I do not want to end up there again. 

The impetus for all this was me deciding to copy the entire blog to PDFs, which took way longer than expected and also shone a light on the lack of progress we had made considering we'd been doing this for fifteen years. Over the course of several weeks this led to me getting rather depressed and withdrawn (as you probably noticed I completely stopped posting here), until eventually it got to the point where I couldn't keep it in any longer and Mistress and I had a difficult conversation.

I've written countless words about this, in several aborted posts, but honestly I think I needed to write it down and get it off my chest more than I needed to actually share it. As much as it may be interesting for you to know the details, I don't honestly think there is any need to post this now as we have agreed that we both need to make more effort to make this unusual relationship work and we're committed to that. Dragging it up and raking it over again could do more harm than good; much better to put it behind us and be happy that we're both feeling positive again I think.

 

So anyway, we're back and hopefully I'll have much more to post about now that things are back on track.

Last night Mistress and I were going to do the final review of our new contract, but then it got late and we were both tired so we decided to leave it until today (or possibly tomorrow as we are rather short on time today). I went up to bed first and as I was waiting for Mistress to come to bed I started to think about our Femdom session and how much I love that giddy feeling of 'submission'. 

It's really hard to explain to someone who isn't submissive, but it's kind of like when you first meet someone and you're excited to be around them... but way more intense, and the deeper you slip into that headspace and the more you feel you would do anything that person asks (or preferably 'orders' you to), the more 'intoxicating' it feels. I wish I could explain this better, I would love it if Mistress could actually 'feel' this and understand just how much 'power' she has over me when I am in this headspace. 

Anyway, as I was thinking about this I felt myself getting hard and when Mistress slipped into bed I cuddled up behind her, my cock throbbing and aching for attention, After a couple of minutes I asked Mistress for permission to touch my cock. She paused for a moment and then said 'Yes', turning over as she did so.

I curled the fingers of my left hand around my cock and slowly started to stroke and then felt Mistress's hand move between my legs and start teasing my balls. Soon she started dragging her long nails across my balls, over and over again. It felt fucking incredible... it was in that perfect sweet spot between just a bit more pain than you would apply yourself, but not so painful that it just hurt.

Mistress allowed me to stroke for a few minutes as she relentlessly scratched my balls over and over again. It was sooooooooooooooooooo good, I can't even tell you. But eventually Mistress told me that when the projection clock on the ceiling changed to 12:30 I would have to stop, and about twenty seconds later the time clicked over and I reluctantly let go. Amazingly I managed to get to sleep fairly quickly, which hasn't always been the case after late night teasing.

This morning I woke up hard again and lay in bed pondering on whether it was acceptable to ask Mistress for permission to touch my cock again, I mean it had been less than 8 hours and I'm sure when she originally allowed this 'requesting' she said that I wasn't to do it too often. There wasn't a time specified, but I'm pretty sure less than eight hours was 'too often'. 🤣

Later when we were downstairs I asked Mistress about this and she told me that I can ask as often as I like, and that she can always say no. She also said we will finalise this when we do the final review of out contract.

Fortunately for me, I think Mistress felt my cock brushing against her leg and she reached down and started stroking the tip, this went on for a while, gradually increasing in intensity until she was facing me and pumping my cock very hard and very fast. I thought her arm would eventually get tired such was the speed and force she was using, but Mistress seemed determined to edge me and eventually I had to warn her that I was close.

Mistress let go and I clung to her, my cock throbbing like hell as I kissed and sucked on her beautiful, naked breasts (thankfully Mistress sleeps naked), until she finally pulled away to get out of bed. After she got up I put my hands outside the covers to prevent myself from doing anything silly... my poor cock still aching for attention and refusing to lie down for a good few minutes afterwards!

Well, after that amazing start to the day I couldn't really have hoped for more. But later that afternoon I found myself back between Mistress's silky smooth thighs, worshipping her delicious pussy and giving her another wonderful orgasm. Given I had been teased twice within the last eighteen hours I thought Mistress might be inclined to keep me 'locked up', but she decided to tease me again (which was fantastic) and I was even given a ruined orgasm, after which Mistress fed me my cum from her fingers...

We are rushing out tonight, but tomorrow we will definitely finalise our contract and begin our new chapter in earnest. 

FEMDOM SESSION - 16th November 2025

Last Sunday morning Mistress and I enjoyed our latest Femdom session, having unfortunately missed our 'October' session. Despite that we're still doing better than most years and once again the session was fantastic.

I started the session kneeling blindfolded and when she came into the bedroom Mistress wasted no time, standing in front of me and using her feet to get my cock hard before telling me to get on my hands and knees. A couple of days before this I had admitted to Mistress that I had completely forgotten about the fact that I was supposed to report to her any 'illegal touching', only realising when I opened her drawer and saw the 'Book of Corrections' sitting there. Eek!

I don't think I touched it that much honestly, but that's not really the point and so I knew I would probably be quite harshly punished (which is fair enough).

Mistress started with the whip, giving me about a dozen strokes before she picked up the paddle. I don't remember how many swats she gave me before she turned the paddle over onto the leather side, but it wasn't many... and I do remember counting all the way to twenty five before she finally threw the paddle onto the bed and returned to using her feet on my cock.

"That will do.... for now," she said, ominously.

Mistress used her pretty toes to roughly press and rub my cock, which I loved (of course), and the whole time I was secretly hoping for a gentle kick or two, but so far Mistress has resisted going that far.

Soon she had me back up on my knees, and I felt her glass dildo pressed against my lips. I opened my mouth and she pushed it into mouth, telling me to get it nice and wet for her. Once done she told me to worship her feet and soon she was rubbing her pussy with the dildo and taunting me.

I really love these moments, when Mistress lays above me, the glass dildo teasing her pussy as she gets into character and starts teasing me and asking me questions. She mused on how much I love her feet and how it's my favourite place to lick up my cum from. She asked me if that was still the case and then asked me to rank five different places on her body in order of preference to clean my cum from.

The first two (and the last one) were quite easy, I choose her feet, then her pussy... but then I had to think for a moment to decide between her legs and her ass, because when it comes to her gorgeous ass I'd much rather be licking her ass properly rather than licking my cum off her ass cheeks. But still I eventually chose her ass, then her legs and finally her fingers. Mistress didn't give me the option of choosing her breasts and it seemed to amuse her slightly that I had to think about it so hard... and the order I put them in.

The reason I hesitated so long was really because Mistress has gorgeous legs and I felt bad putting them in fourth place because I really do love her legs A LOT! In a way I'm glad Mistress's breasts weren't on the table because that would have caused me even more confusion and hesitation. Obviously licking my cum off her fingers was easy to put last, because it's by far my least favourite. But even then, if there's cum to lick up that means there was at least a ruined orgasm, so still a nice treat!

Satisfied with my foot worship, Mistress had me get onto the bed but told me to stay on my hands and knees. I felt her get onto the bed next to me and reach under me to stroke my cock. She continued to gently stroke it as she started to punish my ass again. 

It wasn't until after the session that I found out that Mistress had used the leather side of the paddle as I had assumed it was the crop, such was the level of sting! She said "No it was the paddle, I just used more force." I think it hurt just as much as the crop honestly, but the pain was more fleeting, whereas the crop lasts longer. But the crop would probably hurt even more if she hit me that hard with it!

Next I was tied down on my back and Mistress straddled my face to give me my first proper taste of her delicious pussy. Then she started teasing my lubed cock, which was wrapped in the original Oxballs cocksling. This went on for some time and felt amazing as she alternated between stroking, scratching, whipping, squeezing and slapping both my cock and balls.

At this point she also used the vibrating (inflatable) butt plug to tease my cock and balls. It felt good, particular on that spot behind my ball, but being rubber it did ‘drag’ against my skin a little but. Nothing that a bit of lube wouldn’t sort out though…

Then she stood over me, teasing me that if I didn't have the blindfold on I would be able to look up and see her gorgeous pussy and ass. But still she didn't take the blindfold off and instead pegged my nipples and left me alone to calm down for a while. 

When she came back she got on the bed and knelt between my legs, playing with my cock as she yanked the pegs off my nipples (no doubt grinning as I winced in pain) then she sank down on my face again, then stood up and began teasing me some more before finally removing the blindfold and allowing me to look up at her beautiful body, clad in just a PVC bra and a leather skirt. She looked stunning and I couldn't wait to bury my head between her thighs and make her cum.

Mistress untied me and allowed me to take the Oxballs Cocksling off before settling back on the bed. I moved between her legs and sank down until my tongue was working between her lips and around her clit, eventually sliding a finger first inside her soaked pussy and then between her cheeks to tease her ass.

Mistress had a lovely orgasm and then she stood in front of me on the bed and had me lick her skin clean of any stray juices before ordering me onto my back once again. She stood over me, exposing her gorgeous pussy and ass to me as she reached down and started pumping my cock.

I begged to be allowed to worship her ass and she sank down onto my face four or five times, continually pumping and slapping my cock and balls as I lapped at her musky hole. God I love that so fucking much! 

Finally she knelt beside me and pumped my cock right to the edge of cumming before letting go and declaring the session over.

It was so good to get another Femdom session on the books and I can't wait for the next one.

The Vice is Finally Available on Literotica

Long term readers may remember that back in 2019 I wrote a story called 'The Vice' which Literotica declined to publish on the grounds that 'extreme sexual torture' was not allowed by their guidelines. Not that I would describe 'The Vice' in those terms at all, I mean yes it's a bit of an 'extreme' subject I suppose, although reading it back yesterday it didn't seem that bad... I mean, it obviously is 'extreme' by its very nature, but the way it's written it's more 'hot sex with a degree of pain and potential danger' than, you know... what you might call 'brutal sexual violence'. I don't know, but... reading it again it seemed even less 'extreme' than I sort of remembered it, which made me question all over again why Literotica refused to publish it.

Anyway, the other day someone left a comment on one of my stories, I forget which one, but it was the typical ass-hat comment you get when you publish anything to do with chastity or particularly cuckolding... and I don't know why but I decided to look at this person's profile to see if they had written anything themselves (nope, what a surprise) and to see what authors they actually followed and liked.

Well, I guess I should have known that was a bad idea, but I did it anyway and soon discovered what are known as 'BTB' or 'Burn the Bitch' stories.... which are every bit as bad as you'd expect and in fact worse. I read one or two of these stories, just marvelling at the levels of bitterness and hatred the author clearly has to spend the time crafting stories which are completely devoid of any eroticism and merely serve as 'revenge porn'. I'm not kidding, these stories are clearly well thought out (one might even call them elaborate!), but (ironically) clearly don't belong in 'Loving Wives' anymore then my cuckolding stories do. Perhaps I should start leaving comments on them telling them they should move them to 'Non-Erotic' just for laughs...?

Anyway, I kinda forgot about this until a few days ago when I was browsing the 'New Stories' section and stumbled upon another one of these types of stories, only this one was even worse than the ones I had read before. I didn't get that far into it, maybe the first page.... and when the guy started talking about having someone throw acid in his ex wife's face while he murdered her lover I thought, naaah this isn't even worth reading for laughs. And honestly I don't see what Literotica are doing allowing those kind of stories to be published, especially since they rejected my story (which is nowhere near as bad)!

But admittedly 'The Vice' was submitted a very long time ago (2019) and maybe they've changed their policies, I don't know. But I thought, fuck it, I'm gonna resubmit it and if they reject it again I'm going to ask them to explain to me why when they are allowing these awful stories on their site. But lo and behold the next day 'The Vice' was published without issue, so I didn't get a chance to argue with them.

At least my story is now available for my Literotica readers who don't know about this blog... and so far it's doing quite well, having a score of 4.54/5 and two positive comments.

You can read 'The Vice' on this blog HERE or on Literotica HERE.

FEMDOM SESSION: 21st September 2025

As you may remember, while I was preparing the room for our last Femdom Session back at the start of August, I was visited by the inspiration for what became 'Freshly Squeezed' (still currently my most highly rated story on Literotica). Unfortunately since then I seem to have gone off the boil story wise, I finished another one at the same time and then decided it wasn't right, but I haven't done anything with it since. Maybe I will find time in our upcoming week off work to do a little writing... we'll see.

No such inspiration this time... in fact it was another one of those 'wake up feeling stiff and tired and not sure if this is actually a good idea' kinda Sunday mornings. But thankfully we stuck it out (perhaps largely because we knew we didn't have the option to delay until next week) and I'm so, so glad we did because this session turned out way, way better than anticipated!

Now, a few days ago I had an accidental ruin while Mistress was teasing me... it was really odd and happened a good minute after she'd stopped stimulating me, but nevertheless a punishment was required for it and Mistress decided that she would deal with it in this session... and so that's what she did. 

Incidentally, I don't know why, but it sort of seemed like Mistress was a bit more... aggressive is far too strong a word, but a bit more 'edgy' this time around, and I really loved it.

I was kneeling blindfolded and so I didn't see Mistress pick up the clothes pegs from my nightstand when she went to pick up the paddle, whip and crop. I heard her throw the paddle on the end of the bed and then the next thing I knew Mistress was in front of me attaching the pegs to my nipples. Then she told me to get on all floors and before she commenced my punishment she made sure to tell me to remember what transpired so that I could enter it into her 'Book of Corrections'.

She started with five strokes of the whip, which weren't too bad... she followed that with five swats with the leather side of the paddle, that was a bit more painful, and then five strokes with the crop. And then another stroke just when I thought it was over. And then.... she picked up the paddle again and gave me five more whacks that were (I'm quite sure) the hardest strokes I've ever endured.

Well it was supposed to be a punishment after all... 

It was a bit of a shock, but honestly I think actually it was a very good thing because it totally snapped me out of my earlier malaise and brought my focus back to where it should be, on serving and worshipping my beautiful Mistress (of course)!

Having carried out my punishment Mistress turned me towards the bed and within a few seconds I was worshipping her gorgeous feet as she played with her glass dildo above me. Three or four times during the next ten minutes or so Mistress had me stop kissing her feet and had me suck on and lubricate the glass cock... one time noting how much she loved watching me suck on it while blindfolded (another little turn of the screw there, how exquisite).

As she toyed with her pussy, Mistress asked if I was still conflicted about whether I wanted to be allowed to cum or not. I told her that I had thought I just wanted to keep going and going and going, but then I remembered the wonderful orgasm I had back in April (just a few days after the start of our new Chastity Year) when Mistress sat next to me and jerked me off onto her gorgeous feet before making me lick them clean. That really was something special... 

Mistress mulled over this information, enquiring how many days we were up to now (167!) before telling me that she might let me cum today, or she might just ruin me... or she might just 'lock me back up' without any kind of release at all. After all, it's entirely her choice and (of course) because this was exactly what I had asked for.

I felt her pull her feet away and I waited for her to tell me to get on the bed, but then I felt her moving down the PVC sheet towards me and moments later she pulled my head down between her thighs and I heard her say 'tongue out'. I had forgotten that she had done this in the last session (IIRC) and I really loved this, and I particularly loved the contended little sigh she gave as my tongue moved between her legs too. 

Again, this really drew me into that wonderful submissive headspace and made me think how much I really love just being allowed to worship Mistress's gorgeous body. I really do wish sometimes she would just use me to please herself, I would love to worship her feet, pussy and ass and then be left 'locked'... that would be so hot. 

After a few moments of this Mistress pulled away again and then had me get on the bed. She had me fit a cockring and then tied me down on my back before immediately kneeling over me and sinking her delicious pussy down onto my face. I have always loved it when Mistress kneels over me like this and as I worshipped her with my tongue I could feel my cock getting harder and harder.

Mistress then stood over me and had me beg her to remove my blindfold. As ever she looked incredible, and wearing her short leather skirt and cupless PVC basque she looked every bit the Goddess she truly is. 

Mistress soon set about abusing my cock and balls with her hands and her cock whip, stroking me hard as she stood over me and teasing me relentlessly with the sight of her pussy and ass. Mistress knows all too well how much I crave to worship her gorgeous ass and she even gave my balls a few squeezes too, which I really liked a lot and which I've been hinting at for a long time. I think it will be easier for her when my balls are held tighter (like in the Oxballs ballstretcher, or the Cocksling with the extended collar), but I was just really happy that she finally gave it a go.

Mistress had also inserted the glass dildo with the ring on the end into my ass, which fell out several times as she teased and tormented me. However, this wasn't actually a terrible thing as it meant I got to feel it being shoved back inside my ass several times rather than it just sitting inside me - which is actually fairly ineffective after a while really (unless it's being used as a warm up for a strap on or something bigger).

Eventually after a few more minutes of teasing and face sitting, Mistress climbed off the bed and told me she was leaving me alone for a few minutes. She replaced the blindfold, re-pegged my nipples and then left me to stew for a while. When she came back she seemed to have refound the wonderful edginess she exhibited at the start of the session and immediately slapped the cock whip down onto my stomach and then roughly pulled the pegs off my nipples. Even though I was blindfolded I just knew she was loving how much I winced and flinched as she did that...

She removed my blindfold again to reveal that she had taken off her skirt and then told me she was going to untie me as it was now time for me to 'Worship her pussy until I made her cum!' 

I was more than keen and Mistress was already pretty turned on, but that was still no reason to rush it and I took my time bringing her closer and closer before eventually introducing my fingers, first to her pussy and then her ass. Mistress loves having her ass gently teased when I am going down on her and as you can probably imagine I absolutely LOVE being allowed to do that too! 

After Mistress came she told me to kneel up and then she stood on the bed in front of me before pulling my head between her legs and telling me to clean her. I licked up every delicious bit of pussy juice I could find, before she turned around and had me do the same again, which explicit instructions NOT to lick her ass without permission.

This done she ordered me back down onto my back and stood over me again, teasing me with the wonderful view of her pussy and ass. She asked me how much I wanted to be allowed to worship her ass and asked if I would give up being allowed to cum if she let me (definitely!), before stroking my cock and sinking down onto my face again.

I cannot tell you how much I adore worshipping Mistress's gorgeous ass. It is SO FUCKING HOT! I really hope some day Mistress will once again surprise me by having me do it outside of the bedroom it has been sooooooooo long (as you can see from the side panel, the last time was back in 2022!). 😢

Mistress allowed me to lick her gorgeous ass four times in all, originally it was three and then she allowed me to do it one more time... although of course that still wasn't enough for me; but I was still really grateful for what she allowed me.

After this I thought she would call the session, but she sat down on the bed between my legs (like last time when she rubbed her pussy against my tightly bound balls - that was awesome!) and placed her feet either side of my cock. She kept stroking me until I told her I was getting close. She continued and told me that she had decided that she was going to let me cum. At this point I still didn't know if she was going to keep stroking once I started to cum or not... and as the edge got even closer I warned her again and still she kept stroking.

She moved her right foot up towards my head and I kissed her toes as she stroked me until I finally reached the point of no return and I saw a rope of cum fly out across her left foot. Mistress kept going and as I imagined it might it quickly became very intense for me, but surprisingly very little cum was forthcoming. Sure it had been 167 days since my last full orgasm, but I actually had a ruined orgasm just a few days ago... even so it was surprising there wasn't more cum.

Mistress kept squeezing my now extremely sensitive cock, determined to get more cum that she could rub on her beautiful feet for me to clean (which of course I eagerly did). It was a wonderful way to end my longest ever spell in chastity, even if it wasn't quite as incredible as my previous full orgasm back in April (but then that was one of the best EVER in my opinion).

And so once again it transpired that the best thing to do, no matter how tired or achy you think you are, is get on with it, because once you're in the moment all that fades away and by the end of the session you'll feel amazing, which is exactly how we felt afterwards. 

So that's an astonishing seven Femdom sessions in eight months now. Wow, we really are smashing it this year aren't we! 😊

A Question from a Reader...

Today I received a question from a reader and I thought I would answer it in a post as it's a very good question and deserves a detailed reply. 

Jason B said: "I've been reading your blog for a long time, actually a very long time, maybe even since the start. And I've always wondered, deep down in your heart of hearts, do you wish you were properly caged? I know you've been doing this for over ten years so it must be working pretty well, but even so do you feel like you are missing out?"

First of all, thank you Jason for this intriguing question... this is a really hard one to answer and this is actually my third go at doing it! 

So, first of all, I think it would be odd if there wasn't a part of me that wanted to be 'properly' locked in a cage, wouldn't it? I mean, if you want 'orgasm control' as a lifestyle then that's pretty much the accepted way to achieve it isn't it? The cock is locked, the keyholder decides when and indeed 'if' the cock gets let out and while it is certainly possible to have a ruined orgasm in chastity, it's as good a method of control as you're going to get.

And you know, I'm well aware that being 'voluntarily' chaste is NOT 'the same' as being locked up. I know it isn't physically and perhaps even more importantly psychologically, it's world's apart. You only have to try on a chastity device for a few minutes to realise that it's a whole different ball game. Especially, if like me, you have a solid or opaque device which means that once inside you can't even see your cock. That's a real headfuck, believe me... and it must take quite a bit of getting used to honestly. 

So yes for sure I am not getting the 'full experience' and I totally accept that.

But, on the other hand, cages bring other issues and also part of the appeal of a cage is the whole fantasy element, the whole 'Mistress wearing the key around her neck as a constant reminder 24/7...'. I mean that's just chastity storytelling 101 isn't it? 

'The key to my cage glinting in the light as it dangles between her heavy breasts....' etc.

Yeah, sounds awesome. The thing is though, I really don't see that happening. If Mistress had me caged, I'd bet you a thousand pounds the key would either be lying in a drawer, stuck in a cupboard, or hanging on a hook somewhere; it certainly wouldn't be around her neck, because Mistress likes wearing nice necklaces and she wouldn't want a crappy looking key getting in the way. So that's that little fantasy shot to hell straight away...

And then there's the matter of late-night teasing... some of the best teasing I've ever had has occurred at 2:00AM when Mistress has been up late enjoying a glass or two of vino, do I honestly think she's going to come to bed and start fumbling around with a key to unlock me? No... I really don't. Too much hassle, especially at that time of night. Knowing my luck she'd give me the key and tell me to unlock myself... and by the time I had she'd probably have fallen asleep. 🤣🤣

So there are two very good reasons why I'm not sorry I'm not in a cage. There's also the difficulties of maintaining hygiene (especially as I am not circumcised) and possible discomfort/rashes etc to worry about. I know from reading chastity blogs that contrary to what you read in 'stories' most people who end up in long term chastity have to commit to a lot of trial and error (not to mention 'expense') to find a device that really works for them and I feel like you've really got to want to do that (and just as importantly I feel like your partner has really got to want you to do that too). 

I must admit the last time I tried my CB3000 on it seemed to fit better than it had before, probably because of the weight I've lost... but it's still not something I would consider suitable for long term wear. I think you'd pretty much have to take it off every day to shower and that to me kind of defeats the whole point of having it, because you're still essentially being 'trusted' not to jerk off in the shower aren't you? 

Sure, there are many who have bespoke metal cages (which by nature are more open, leaving room for cleaning etc) and it certainly works for them, but I think a big part of that is how invested their partners are in them having a cage. If you have a Mistress/keyholder who loves the idea of having the power to lock/unlock you then that's a great start. That kind of keyholder is going to be the one that enjoys wearing the key round her neck and dangling it in your face at every opportunity.... but if your partner is less than enthused in the first place then it's probably never going to work, even if you really want it to. I'm pretty sure the first time I got a rash or woke up in the night with a painful erection, Mistress would just declare it too much hassle and that would be the end of that.

But sure yeah... when I read (or write) chastity stories where devices are used of course I fantasize about being locked in a cage, especially stories where the keyholder cruelly fits the 'points of intrigue'... and I guess it would be okay to wear it for a few hours or something, maybe if Mistress was going out and she wanted me to be constantly thinking about her the whole evening. 😏

But ultimately Mistress R was never keen on the idea so we found our own path and clearly it works for us (and has for over fourteen years now). I'm sure our way wouldn't work for everyone and that's fair enough. I guess if anything the thing I do feel like we miss out on a bit is the power-play of it, as I do feel like me being actually 'caged' would make Mistress feel more 'powerful' and thus perhaps more likely to be more self-centred in the bedroom (since inevitably part of the 'game' of being caged is whether you get 'let out' or not). But there you are... 

So Jason, the answer is probably, yes of course, but.... maybe in reality no. 

162 Days and Still Counting...

Like last month, September got off to a bit of a slow start, but hopefully like last month we will be able to make up for lost time and maybe even get Mistress into double figures again by the 30th. That would be nice, but even an 8 or a 9 would be a valiant effort. 

Last week I took a couple of days off to redecorate our stairs and landing. Two days was barely enough time really, but I couldn't take the Friday off so it just had to get done. That meant fairly long days and then following that the inevitable backache...

Thankfully by Saturday things were sorted (although I was still quite worn out) and Mistress and I enjoyed some time in bed, with Mistress enjoying her third orgasm of the month before giving me the most wonderful teasing imaginable. This actually culminated in an intensely frustrating ruined orgasm for me, falling as it did on the 160th day since my last full orgasm (way back on the 6th April 2025). 

I don't know, it almost already feels like that date is becoming a landmark in my mind... could it be the date of my last full orgasm? Well, I don't know about that... as much as I would kinda like it to be, I have to keep reminding myself that nothing has really changed and it simply isn't up to me, just as it hasn't been up to me for the last fourteen years.

Mistress may decide to keep this going for another week, another month, another year... but she will still always have the power to bring it to an end whenever she pleases. Oddly it already feels like something she could 'threaten' me with... which is a peculiar state of affairs to be sure. I never considered that one day I would be kind of dreading being allowed to cum properly...

Anyway, later on Saturday evening I went to bed first and when Mistress came to bed sometime later I was still awake. Mistress eagerly reached for my cock and proceeded to give me even more wonderful teasing. Having already ruined that day and been fed my cum by Mistress it surprised me how horny and desperate to cum I still felt... which is exactly how a ruined orgasm should leave me after all.

The next morning when I woke up Mistress was already out of bed and dressed, she was wearing black jeans and a black long sleeve T-shirt but she still looked as sexy as fuck and my cock was fairly hard again... I thought I was pushing it a bit asking if I could touch my cock, but Mistress lay on the bed next to me and said I could touch it for two minutes.

It was a very hot CFNM scene, which I found surprisingly erotic - I'd definitely enjoy more like that. I cuddled against Mistress and kissed her gorgeous breasts through her T-shirt as I stroked my cock, but all too soon Mistress called time and told me it was time to get up. 

Both of us were pretty tired (perhaps our late night), and our plan to return to bed in the afternoon came to nothing (we had already moved our Femdom Session from this day back until next Sunday) but thankfully on Monday night Mistress got her 4th orgasm of the month. It was a really nice one and she tasted amazing as always.

As I gently kissed her feet afterwards, I somehow got the feeling that maybe this was to be the first night when Mistress decided not to 'unlock' me. I don't know why I thought that really, and it turned out to be wrong in the end, it was after all 'just a feeling'. But instead Mistress grabbed the lube out of her bedside drawer and with a little prompting from me told me that I was indeed to be 'unlocked'.

It's not that I don't want to to be teased, of course I do... and Mistress teased me wonderfully well and brought me extremely close to another ruin before calling time, but I'd still like her to have that power to decide if I get teased or not and for me to feel uncertain about whether it will happen or not each time...

Once she told me I was to be 'unlocked' I grabbed the Oxballs with the built in ballstretcher and put it on. I've been sticking to the basic (X-act fit) cock ring of late to so I'd slightly forgotten how much the Oxballs pulls on my balls and holds them tight, making Mistress's ball smacks that much harder to take!

I still enjoyed the pain though, even as I was flinching and wincing (which I'm sure Mistress enjoyed immensely) and Mistress also used her nails to inflict even more suffering on my poor, tightly bound cock, even after she'd edged me very hard. 

Mmmmm, what a truly gorgeous and magnificent Mistress I have! I truly loved every second of my 'suffering'.

It's funny, I thought the ruined orgasm I had on Saturday might take the edge off a bit, but it doesn't seem to have done much at all. I still feel desperate to cum, albeit deep down I really just want Mistress to ruin me again. But that's not up to me of course... so we will just have to wait and see what transpires, won't we?

This is So Much Better Than Cumming...!

Over the last few weeks I've been copying and pasting pretty much every post from this blog onto Word documents (and then PDFs) to safeguard against any future problems with Google/Blogger and/or the UK Government's policy on porn. So far it seems that everything has quietened down but I don't want to risk my blog being removed without notice and losing it all. Yes I have backed it up, but even so... where will I be able to restore it and do I really want the hassle?

Now obviously a lot of this is very old and it does make me smile when I read about things like my first 'cum free calendar month', being that I haven't come since April 6th 2025 and all... LOL.

I only have two more years left to copy (honestly, it's been a lot more work than anticipated, I've been doing about one year per week...) but my intention is maybe to read it all the way through from the start once it's been completed. But obviously as I've been going through it some parts have caught my eye, such as this excerpt taken from the blog in May 2012...

Tuesday 12th May 2012

"Do you need to stop... or is it already too late?" Asked Mistress R.

I continued on a little while longer, not wanting to give in, but Mistress placed her hands on my chest and pushed my back, my signal that it's time to stop. She didn't look upset that I hadn't been able to continue longer, more amused that I was struggling so hard not to cum.

After I had made her cum with my tongue we lay in bed together and she started stroking my cock again as we talked. Soon I was rock hard again and I said to her "This is so much better than cumming."

Mistress raised her eyebrows and said 'Better?'...

I confirmed that that was indeed what I had said.

"But you wouldn't never want to cum again though would you?"

I thought for a moment, as my cock throbbed even harder...

"No, possibly not." I eventually said. This last orgasm may have been a bit too intense to be pleasurable, but I'm not quite ready to give up on the idea altogether just yet. But like I said in my last post, I have to admit that these days being left denied and throbbing gives me more pleasure overall than being allowed to cum. Which is weird. Isn't it?

It's funny how much has changed over the last ten plus years, but also how much hasn't. Even then it seems I was keener on staying denied, even if I wasn't quite yet ready to give up being allowed to cum altogether. I find it interesting that in this instance it was Mistress who brought the idea of permanent denial up, though I'm sure she wouldn't think of it in those terms. 

Punishment Time Again

As I mentioned recently I've been waking up very hard a lot lately... so I guess it was inevitable that sooner or later I would succumb to temptation and one morning last week I did in fact touch my cock for maybe 30-60 seconds before I got up to go to work. It wasn't like hard stroking or anything, just lightly touching my cock with my fingers and enjoying the sensation of being rock hard and aching to cum.

Anyway, on Thursday Mistress and I got together and so I wrote down my transgression in her little book of corrections, actually kind of thinking it wasn't that serious. I mean the previous entry in the book had been for two instances of stroking plus several minor infractions, and that garnered me 7 strokes each of the paddle and the crop. This time I thought probably the paddle would suffice. In fact... I even wondered if Mistress might say it wasn't worth punishing me for such a minor offence...

However, I'm very pleased to say that Mistress didn't say that at all. In fact as soon as she saw the book open by the bedside she told me to get the crop for her! She then dealt me six pretty stingy blows with the paddle and 6 fairly light hits with the crop. I mean they still hurt a bit, but actually the paddle was worse and I was curling my toes between blows which seemed to amuse Mistress quite a bit!

Honestly on the one hand I felt I had been treated a little harshly in comparison to the previous time, but at the same time I was really, really pleased that Mistress didn't let me 'get away with it'; in the past this was always kind of what I feared - that we would agree rules and then Mistress wouldn't punish me if I broke them. It's really heartening to feel like Mistress is more in control now and she will punish me when I deserve it. 🧡

To be fair to Mistress, we never set any definite punishments, it was always up to Mistress to decide based on what I did and how long it had been since the previous offence. But it definitely feels better to feel like I've been punished a little harshly than not at all and wondering why I bother trying to stick to the rules.  

My latest story 'Freshly Squeezed' is still doing well, with a score of 4.69/5.0 on Literotica currently., which makes it my highest scoring story so far. I mean, I'm sure it will gradually slip - they all seem to start off with 5's and slowly slip down the order. I just hope it stays above 4.5 and keeps it's 'HOT' rating. I've also had three very positive comments, which is always welcome. 

I haven't had a chance to look at the other story again, or any of the myriad others I have on the go... Mistress and I were out all day yesterday and we ended up going to bed extremely late this morning, so today has been a bit of a write off to be honest.