If you haven't already twigged, I really hate this weather, and it keeps on finding ways to piss me off! For example, last night I returned home to find Mistress in the lounge wearing nothing but a vest top and some sexy panties... helloooo I thought as I put my work bag down.
But sadly Mistress wasn't 'dressed' (or undressed) like that for my benefit, it's because it was 30+ degrees and she was trying to keep cool! And while my overriding urge was to fall on my knees and worship her gorgeous feet, legs and pussy... I'm old enough and wise enough to know that any such displays of exuberance would be firmly rebuffed. Which would be super awkward.
It's just too hot. I get it. And while I'm not knocking that Mistress was wandering around half naked (something I absolutely applaud in normal circumstances), right then it just felt a little depressing. Like winding yourself up to start a diet and then winning a year's supply of Hotel Chocolat.
I suppose we could reframe it and call it 'tease and denial', but that really would be sugarcoating the situation. I just want it to cool down so I can make Mistress cum again. That's all.
Anyway, I completed another story yesterday. Which is crazy... I mean the story was 90% done so it really didn't take much to finalize it. Quite why I left it unfinished that close to being done is a mystery to me, no doubt I got distracted with another idea or something.
I was going to do some more work last night, but around midnight it got so hot and stuffy that I could barely think, let alone write. But I did do something useful, I made a long list of male and female names to use for future writing.
I always struggle with that and then end up changing the names later and making things more difficult for myself. For instance, when I started writing 'How to Break Your Man' the main chatcter was called Kelly, which became Holly and ended up being Amy. In future I hope to consult this list of names (with check boxes!) to pick names that I haven't used already before I start petting pen to paper. Or finger to key. I'm old school, but I'm not that antiquated!
Its funny, I keep saying how uncomfortable having Mistress read 'HTBYM' will be for me, but in the process of compiling my list of names I flicked through all my old stories to see which names had already been used and I noticed some stuff in some of the older ones that was pretty bad (pissing, forced bi, etc)...
But this is different, I think, because it's not just like 'more extreme' it's the way the relationship changes and the language used. I honestly think it's more 'awkward' for me than any amount of fisting would be (so to speak) because there are elements of this story that reflect me and Mistress, so it's more relatable I guess and feels more 'real'. I don't know.
I think when I write stuff that's a little more cliched 'Domme / slave' (like some of those older stories; Owned, Everything Has a Price for example) I worry about it less than when I write stuff like this, but then I think this kind of story is more 'affecting' because it's more 'real'. I'm just glad I didn't start writing this in the first person because that would have been really challenging!
Anyway, by 1:30 it was just too hot and I started to feel a bit ill, so I decided to go to bed as it was actually cooler upstairs than it was downstairs. And then I couldn't to sleep for another hour!
FFS
So yes, the list was a job well done, but I had hoped to work on another story that I'm really excited about, but that didn't happen and now I have another idea which might take priority...
And also...
I reread part two of 'HTBYM' this morning and realised there's a huge chunk of it that I'm not happy with. This is where Amy watches the second video, and although the video is only about three minutes long because there's so much packed into it the description goes on for two pages, which is really boring by the end.
I've got two solutions here, either I hack bits out to make it shorter or I cut it completely and change it so that Amy watches a different video. I'm actually heavily leaning in that direction, not least because the alternative video is very 'foot worship' and 'ruined orgasm' based (two of my favourite which of course I really like, but of course that does mean a good 30-45m writing is needed before Mistress can check the rest of it.
And it might potentially have ramifications throughout the rest of the story (say if I reference something in the video that's already there). Hmm.
I will give that some serious thought before I do anything rash. But I'm pretty sure I'm gonna change it and maybe add some more 'foot worship' and 'ruined orgasms' to the story somewhere (cos you can never have enough in my opinion!).
I wonder what skimpy clothing Mistress will be taunting me with tonight? I know she's having her pedicure today so her feet will look even sexier than usual... and they looked pretty fucking sexy last night (to this foot obsessed sub-slut). 🤣
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