Different Kinds of Frustration!

My story 'Saturday Night Picture' show has so far attracted eight user comments, all positive except one which said it was a great idea but 'weak implementation'. Okay, well they're entitled to their opinion. They also said I was too lazy to finish the story properly! Which is annoying, as I've since thought that I wanted to continue the story, but because I thought it was a stand alone piece I added a bit at the end to kind of wrap it up and now I wish I hadn't. 

I can probably get around it, but it makes it more awkward than it needed to be, or I suppose I could just put a disclaimer at the start of the next part to say 'please ignore the last two paragraphs of part one'... but that seems really weak. I guess I will either work around it or start a different story with the ideas I have for part two. 

Frustrating.

At least the story is scoring well, and it has retained it's 'HOT' rating. Something only one of the six stories I've published since has managed incidentally... I was on a great run there for a while, but still 8 out of 20 stories published this year have made the cut, so that's still pretty good.

Last night I went to bed about a half hour after Mistress and I couldn't get comfortable. My neck has been hurting (partly because I started swimming again) and my pillows felt too high and I also felt too hot and my shoulder was hurting, also my knee and my arm.... just everything basically. 

Frustrating.

So after a few minutes of wriggling about and trying to make my shoulder crack, I decided I'd be better off sleeping in the spare bed because I didn't want to keep Mistress awake with my fidgeting. So I went in there and then it took me about another half an hour to get to sleep.

At 3AM I woke up so fucking hard... I couldn't believe it, I honestly felt like I could cum just through the power of my mind and the covers rubbing against me was maddening (but fucking hot at the same time of course...). Honestly it was so fucking difficult to not touch my cock and again I thought this would be the perfect time to try that prostate massager thing that we've had for 15 years and never once used. If it didn't work then I can't believe it ever would! 🤣

Frustrating.

But of course, that would mean waking up Mistress to ask permission and I don't think she'd appreciate that at 3AM somehow. Nor do I think she'd likely give me permission to have a ruined orgasm, even a completely hands free one. 

It's now 139 days since my last proper orgasm, and while these middle of the night moments are of course intensely frustrating, it's the kind of frustrating that I will miss when Mistress eventually resets me to zero. Assuming she does of course.... I kinda hope she doesn't. But at the same time, I really want to cum too! 

How wonderfully frustrating!

Punishment and a New Record Every Day from Today...

Hard as it is to believe, my last 'full' orgasm happened on the 6th of April 2025... before Easter, before the summer... in other words, a VERY long time ago! In fact yesterday marked the point where I equalled my previous chastity record of 135 days, so every new day is a new record from this point onwards.

Last night, Mistress asked me how many days it had been since my last proper orgasm and when I relayed this information to her she smiled and said 'Do you think you can go all the way 'til Christmas'? Now I have no idea if Mistress will make me wait 'til the end of the year or not, but if that's what she decides then that's okay by me. 

To be honest, real orgasms are a double edged sword at this point; a momentary (often painfully intense) surge of pleasure, followed by days of regret... and I can think of several things I would choose instead (not least some prolonged ass worship or a ruin onto Mistress's gorgeous feet)! But of course that's not how this works, so if Mistress decides 'it's time' sooner rather than later then so be it. 

I'm actually not really that interested in exactly how long any new record is, I'm certainly not thinking I want to get to 200 days (23rd October) or anything like that... I'm just happy that Mistress continues to control my orgasms however she pleases, and if she decides she wants to take me to Christmas before allowing me to cum, or if she makes me wait until next Christmas, or if she just never lets me cum 'properly' again, then that is entirely up to her.

The other day I posted about some illegal 'touching' that happened a couple of weeks ago, and unfortunately due to the latest heatwave here in the UK this went unaddressed for over a week. However, thankfully the temperature has fallen the last few days and last night after she had a lovely orgasm on my tongue, Mistress picked up her paddle and her crop and 'corrected' me.

I got seven very stingy swats with the leather side of the paddle, followed by seven even more painful strokes with the crop... and right from the first moment I was wincing (I know, I'm such a pussy!). 

You know, it's times like these when I question my life choices, but you know... I asked for this after all, haha... and even though it (briefly) fucking hurt, I'm still glad Mistress did it. And honestly I'd much rather it hurt than it was too soft.

When I think about it as well I'm pleased that we've progressed from Mistress being hesitant to use the crop on me to using it and not being tempted to cut it short even though I was involuntarily wincing with every 'agonizing' stroke. I love to encourage Mistress's evil side to come out... it's so fucking HOT! 😍

After Mistress corrected me, she also gave my balls a good whipping too, which I'm sure was more intense than normal. I was certainly flinching as she did it, where I usually quite enjoy it! I mean, I still 'enjoyed' it.. as it was part of some wonderful teasing and edging, but it certainly seemed harder than normal.

Still, I guess it's my own fault, I broke the rules and I have to pay... and besides, knowing that Mistress enjoys inflicting pain makes it worth it. I'm just glad the crop is reserved for 'punishments' only! 

Oddly Mistress asked how my bottom felt this morning and it was fine, but this afternoon (after sitting down most of the day) I can definitely feel where the crop hit me. It's not painful, just a little tender and a nice reminder of last night's fun. :)

Hopefully there will be more fun tonight (and no cropping!), Mistress has only come four times this month which is clearly far from acceptable... and maybe one day soon Mistress will squeeze my balls like that girl in that GIF the other day. 😀

Webteases from Milovana

I have now screenshot all my 'Classic' webteases from Milovana and I've decided to post them here, gradually. I actually want to remake them (well maybe not all of them, but the best ones) rather than just posting screenshots. I've done one so far (Endgame) and it came out quite well I think. I managed to sharpen the images and spread the text over more pages so it's easier to read. I will post that one soon and do one every so often, I don't want to get buried in doing these as it's a few hours work to do each one and I still have a ton of stories to finish as it is...

As for the EOS/Flash teases, well I really can't do anything with those. If Milovana stops working altogether they will just have to be lost. For one thing they are designed to be run with a software that can handle linking pages to other pages and besides they were all originally Flash based, which no longer exists so I don't even have access to the teases anymore.

I notice several people in the technical forum complaining that they can't upload pictures and being told that they shouldn't expect a quick fix. Which seems a bit silly given that means a complete halt on new uploads. Oh well, whatever... guess there won't be any competitions this month!

Feels like I have come to a grinding halt with the stories... I wrote one the other day, but it wasn't a Femdom / Chastity story. I've posted it on my old 'Malibuman666' account at Literotica (it's not up yet) but I won't be posting it here.

Milovana Going to Shit? Story Update and a Confession...

I really don't know what's going on with Milovana at the moment. The site has been running dreadfully slow the last few weeks which makes it very difficult to create teases, and now it seems things have gotten even worse. You may remember I uploaded a new tease on the 1st August and for reasons I don't quite understand it seems to be scoring very badly compared to my other teases. So I decided that while I'm not going to rewrite the tease, perhaps the pictures I used to illustrate were part of the problem.

So I unpublished it and then set about finding some new pictures to replace them with. The only problem is that... now I can't upload them. In fact I can't upload any pictures at all. Even if I start a brand new tease and try and upload to that, it just goes on and on trying and never finishes loading. Which probably explains why eleven days into the month there is just one (other) new tease available.

As for the tease I published in July, well it did make it into the end of month vote, and it's currently running a distant third (out of five), so not too bad really. It should at least get a 'TOTM Nominee' badge. I did notice however that someone posted a new thread on the forum moaning about the lack of teases and that the teases that were being posted were too niche and strange, even going as far as to include my July tease by name in that little critique.

I mean, it's fine if someone doesn't like that tease, but I honestly think it's one of the most creative ones that I've done. And I'd much rather do another one like that and score low than throw together another simple, thoughtless one like 'Edge for Katie' just to try and win the 'Tease of the Month' competition. 

And given that Milovana looks to be on shaky ground I've started screenshotting all my teases so that if the whole website goes belly up then I can repost my teases here. Assuming that here is still an option of course... who knows (I'm still copying and pasting all of this blog into Word Docs as a back up, that turned out to be a bigger job than I thought - I've just got back to 2017)!

As for the writing, well... my last two stories are both currently sitting between 4 and 4.5 at Literotica, which is okay. I've started another story or two and I had another idea for another one today, but that's another potentially long story so that might not arrive for a little while. I counted up the other day and I think I've published 16 stories this year, some years I've struggled to do any at all!

Other than that Mistress and I are suffering from the heat again, with just two orgasms for Mistress in eleven days so far this month. We were hopeful of one at the weekend, but we were out late on Saturday night and then slept badly and felt like crap all Sunday and honestly Monday hasn't really been any better. Maybe Tuesday will be the day, well probably not as it's going to be even hotter than it was today. In fact the weather is forecast to be hot all this week and I am going to a concert on Wednesday night, so that's out the window. 

Unfortunately, when we do get back to it there will be some 'correcting' to be done as I did have a slight mishap on Saturday night / Sunday morning. We ended up getting home at 2AM or something after spending the night at Mistress's cousin's house and went to bed at 3AM, and probably got to sleep at 3:30AM. Only for me to wake up ROCK HARD at 4:10! Gah...

However, I suspect Mistress was already asleep (due to the heat I was sleeping in the spare bed) and I wasn't about to go into the main bedroom to see if she was awake so I could ask permission to touch my cock! Disappointingly I did give it a bit of a stroke (and my balls a bit of a squeeze) but managed to get back to sleep fairly quickly.... only to wake up again at 5:30. FFS.

This time my cock felt like granite. It was absolutely ridiculous how hard it was, almost like it would be with a really tight cock ring on! And it was absolutely NOT going to be ignored. So 'reluctantly' I proceeded to stroke it gently while remembering how awesome Mistress's legs and feet had looked when I had been stealing glances at them all the previous evening. 

To be honest, anything more than gentle stroking could have led to a whole lot of problems, because I think I could have got to the edge pretty damn quick - but thankfully I managed to maintain a modicum of control. Still I have written it into Mistress's 'Book of Corrections' and so I can look forward to some punishment for that in the near future. Hopefully... :)

Dirty Dreams Chapter 2 (written August 2025)

This story is set several years after part one, maybe not seven years as it is in reality, but still a good while!

It wasn’t until about three weeks before my 39th birthday that I realised that if Mistress Karen didn’t let me cum beforehand, then I was going to hit exactly one hundred days of chastity on the actual day. I knew then that something was up and that this couldn’t just be a happy coincidence. Could it? 

Of course she never told me she was aiming for my birthday, she just kept ruining me every so often and teasing that she wanted me to wait 'a little bit longer' and since she has been controlling my orgasms for quite a while now, all I could do was wait and see...

I awoke quite early on the morning of my birthday, which luckily was a Sunday (so no need to rush out of bed and get ready for work). As usual my cock was hard and aching for attention, so much so that I could even feel some pre-cum lubricating the tip.

I rolled onto my side and cuddled against Mistress Karen’s back, my swollen tool pressing eagerly against her gorgeous ass, while my hand slid over her side and up towards her heavy breasts. Mistress continued to doze, but slowly ground her sexy ass against me, increasing my already pretty intense level of desperation.

I grunted pleasurably. This was exactly what I signed up for after all, when I gave my wonderful wife complete and total control of my orgasms, and this was what I got. I certainly wouldn't change it for anything...

Eventually Mistress reached back and cupped my swollen balls. 

"Mmm," she said, "these feel so full of cum, I bet you can't wait to empty them?"

I groaned in agreement as she turned over and faced me.

"You know what today is, don't you?"

"My birthday..."

"Yes, but that's not all. Do you remember ages ago when I was teasing you and I said I should get you to a hundred days and then... well, do you remember what I said I should do once I got you there?"

Tired, But Not Too Tired for Pussy Worship!

This week I am feeling very tired for some reason. This tends to happen every few weeks... I go for weeks where I can stay up really late (usually writing) and function just fine and then it flips and I'm tired and want to sleep a lot. Maybe all this writing I've been doing has played a part in that too. Constantly buzzing around my brain, badgering me to get it down on paper...

Well.. that seems to have come to a halt now. I've still got plenty of stories to finish and I had a new story I started (the one with the ball squeezing) but now I'm thinking that might have the potential to be much longer and more than just a quick scene, so I'm kind of resisting the urge to force it and leave it to fester a bit instead.

Last night I wanted to go to bed early but I also wanted to worship Mistress's gorgeous pussy... and more importantly she wanted me to do that too. So we went to bed just before ten and honestly I wasn't thinking about anything beyond doing that. Mistress had a really nice orgasm on my tongue and I loved feeling her cumming underneath me. So hot!

I was totally happy and satisfied with what we'd done to be honest, but it was so lovely to see Mistress completely naked with no bra covering her beautiful breasts, so when Mistress asked if I wanted to be 'unlocked' I thought sleep can wait!

I snapped the Xact fit ring on and Mistress soon had me hard with her teasing touches while we kissed. I really love those delicate touches, in fact I think I mostly prefer that kind of frustrating stroking to being really pumped hard now. Though of course that's still enjoyable in small doses too.

(Of course if, when and how I get stimulated is totally up to Mistress; if she just told me to rub my cock against her silky smooth thigh for 20 minutes I'd still be happy!)

Mistress interspersed some ball slapping too which I really loved and then after she edged me once Mistress told me that was it for the night. Of course I wasn't thinking about sleep anymore and Mistress's hand was still gently teasing my balls so.... I begged for a little more and Mistress graciously started to tease my cock again. Sometimes using her nails and sometimes just holding me while I fucked her hand. I really love it when she does that.. it feels very submissive to me, which obviously I really like. 

Finally she gave my balls a volley of hard slaps which left me aching for more teasing, but Mistress said that was all I was getting for tonight. And surprisingly I still managed to get to sleep really quickly... but annoyingly, though I didn't need to get up until 8:10 I woke up at 7:10 and didn't get back to sleep until 7:50. Just as my dream was starting to get interesting as well. Absolutely bloody typical!

New Year's Eve (written August 2025)

My wife Jenna and I met at a New Year’s Eve party several years ago and since it’s something of an ‘occasion’ for us we’ve always made sure to attend a NYE event somewhere since then; either at home, a friend’s house or a more formal ‘do’ at a hotel. But for some reason this year we never got round to confirming anything and to be honest most of our friends had either tired of the parties or now had young children to think about. So for the first time since we met we found ourselves at home and alone on the big night.

Despite having nowhere to go and no one to entertain, Jenna and I decided that we should still dress up, it was still New Year’s Eve after all (and obviously the anniversary of our meeting). I did my best to look the part while Jenna, of course, looked amazing. Her long blonde hair was perfectly straightened and cascaded down onto an extremely short burgundy dress that clung to her athletic body seductively. Her well toned legs caught my attention every time she moved and she was wearing my absolute favourite black patent sandals, which gave me an enticing view of her pretty feet and painted toenails. Just wow! 

And on top of all of that, perfectly framed between her small but gorgeous breasts hung the key to my chastity cage.

FEMDOM SESSION (3rd August 2025)

Once again we've reached the first weekend of the month, which means it's time for another Femdom session. Sweet! 

Now before I get into it, I just want to tell you something funny. On Sunday morning I reposted that GIF that I found on the blog from back in 2018, the one with the guy getting his balls squeezed. Mmmm, looks just as fucking awesome now as it did back then if you ask me! Anyway, as I was prepping the room for our session I was thinking about that GIF and pondering how I could incorporate that in a story.

Well, true to form, once that idea was planted in my head the ideas were flying at me one after another, and so what I ended up doing was putting the vinyl sheet on the bed and then going and writing some notes. Then getting the strap on out of the drawer and then going and writing some notes. Then getting the lubes and the paddle out and going and writing some notes... and so on and so on, until I had a page and a half of pencil scribbling!

Honestly, it's like an affliction or something! I am cursed with story ideas that need expunging lest they torment me all day and night! Hahaha.

Anyway, those notes will soon be rewritten into a Word document and ultimately there'll be a story. Could be next week, could be in three years time, I have no idea. But one day there will be one. 

Probably. Haha.

I mean I hope so, cos it's quite a 'different' story so it may find itself at the front of the queue. We'll see.

As it is Mistress has, this afternoon, proof read another two of my stories, one which was started back in March ('New Year's Eve) and one which I wrote in the last couple of days (Dirty Dreams CH2). Thankfully those are both pretty much just 'Chastity' stories with no cuckolding or other dubious content, so that was easier for everybody!

And now that Mistress has seen that GIF again I am hopeful of some ball squeezing in my future! I'm sure she'd enjoy it once she got past worrying about hurting me. I mean, she was a bit tentative about pegging my nipples once upon a time I seem to remember...