Punishment Time...

Over the last few days my back improved to the point where Mistress was able to administer my outstanding 'punishments'. On Wednesday night she gave me seven swats with the paddle (4 on the soft side, 3 on the hard side) for briefly touching my cock while I was half asleep. It wasn't really harsh enough to deter me, but then since I was half asleep I don't think it would matter how hard she punished me because I didn't realise I was doing it and as soon as I did I stopped. 

Then last night Mistress punished me for my accidental ruin the other day. This time she gave me four swats with the paddle on each side and then three hits with the crop. The paddle wasn't too bad, though the first one caught me by surprise a bit and so I got a bit jumpy. The crop is quite stingy though, I don't know how hard Mistress actually hit me with it but it was quite painful and I can still feel it a bit the next morning.

It's quite confusing to me because I don't enjoy the pain of being punished, but I like being 'punished'... like when she's hitting my ass with the crop I'm not thinking 'this is so hot', I'm thinking 'Oww! That stings!'... but I like the feeling of submissiveness and afterwards I enjoy feeling the slight soreness on my asscheeks for the next day or two and thinking back to it. 

Mistress decided that in future she would administer my punishments before I go down on her, which makes sense since it clearly helps gets her in the mood... and after I had been punished to her satisfaction she lay on the bed and I kissed her and thanked her for punishing me before moving down between her legs and worshipping her delicious pussy. 

After Mistress came she allowed me to worship her a little while longer before eventually pushing my head away and as she pulled herself more upright I moved down the bed to kiss her feet. After a while Mistress pulled her feet away and got off the bed and I stood up too, then moved round to my side of the bed and commenced my now familiar hover, waiting to hear her tell me if I am being 'unlocked' before I got back into bed.

If you didn't read it, then in this post from the 13th March I detailed our discussion where we agreed that in future if she didn't tell me I was being 'unlocked' then I was to presume that I wasn't, the idea being that I didn't want her to have to consciously tell me that I wasn't getting teased until she got used to the idea.

The plan was a good one, or so I thought. Hearing nothing from Mistress I got into bed and presumably sensing my hesitation she immediately asked 'Do you not want any teasing?'. I explained that I was waiting for her to tell me if I was being 'unlocked' and she said she had forgotten about that, and that anyway she thought I would know because she had put the lube on her bedside cabinet. I hadn't noticed that to be honest, I guess here we see another way that a proper cage is 'superior' in that it cannot be 'forgotten' about. 

To be fair, me hesitating and waiting for her to tell me isn't really 'presuming' that I'm not getting teased either, but on the other hand I was pretty sure Mistress was intending to tease me so I was confused why she wasn't telling me so. It wouldn't matter so much if I wasn't putting a cock ring on as I have to stand up to put one on. So I guess in future unless she says anything I will just get into bed and if she does want to tease me I will get out of bed again. 

Anyway, I quickly put my old original Oxballs Cocksling on and Mistress soon had me very hard with her wonderful fingers. She teased me gently for a while as we kissed, while my cock throbbed and ached... (I love this kind of teasing sooooooooo much) and then she scooped a large dollop of lube into her palm and started stroking me hard.

Mindful of my recent punishment I was definitely more cautious about not getting quite so close to the edge - as much as I kind of enjoy being 'punished' it is not my intention to deliberately seek punishment and Mistress has already indicated that repeat offences will lead to harsher punishments. Given how lenient she has been so far I am not minded to give her a reason to increase the severity of future punishments and the whole point of this is for me to behave as expected not for her to need to keep punishing me over and over again. 

The Cocksling is weird in that it does seem to make the edge come suddenly and there is a risk of continued stimulation (from the Cocksling itself, it's designed to feel like your cock and balls are being squeezed by a hand) pushing you over the edge... so I need to find the point where I'm approaching the edge but not exactly riding it, because even if Mistress lets go immediately I need to be able to withstand the added pressure from the Cocksling.

Speaking of the cocksling, I mentioned that the new one I bought didn't seem quite as good (in some circumstances), so I ordered another two different versions yesterday; one is supposedly based on the original version but has more ventilation so it can be worn for longer more comfortably and the other has a wider base section to it which means it's more of a Cocksling and ballstretcher in one. I'm interested to see how these two perform, and since the only way to know is to try them several times I decided to just go for it.

In other news, I haven't really made any progress with my stories this week, I haven't felt like writing at all... and in addition to that I thought of a new story, which I've been making notes for and which is distracting me from finishing the other four! 

Oh and 'Danni and Mike: The Anniverary' has climbed back up to 4.5/5.0 and is now rated HOT on Literotica again, so thanks to anyone who went there to vote. 

Here We Are Again: Our 14 Years of Chastity In Graphs...

It's been a couple of years since I've done any 'end of year' graphs, largely because the last couple of years haven't been the best for us. But with our Femdom sessions back on track now I thought I would make the effort this year, and hopefully we'll see some good results come next March.

So we start with the most important graph of all, and that is of course Mistress R's orgasms. We started the year poorly and a month and a half of decorating hell definitely took its toll on both of us, without that I think we would have got Mistress over the magic 100, let's hope this year we make it.

This graph is a bit misleading, because while it's true that we did only have two Femdom sessions during the last chastity year, they were in February and March of 2025, which is a lot better then having had two randomly spread over the last twelve months and hopefully signifies the start of regular sessions again. All being well we will be having our next Femdom session next Sunday and make it three months in a row.

This graph shows my total number of releases for each year, including full and ruined orgasms combined. 

This graph shows the comparison between ruins and full orgasms. While I am very happy to see the upward trend for the ruined orgasms I am pretty sure most of those ruins were accidental on my part as I cannot honestly recall Mistress deliberately ruining an orgasm in the last twelve months... which is a shame.

This graph illustrates the huge disparity between the number of orgasms enjoyed by Mistress and I, which is of course as it should be. This graph takes into account both ruined and full orgasms.

More important is the ratio between my 'full' orgasms and Mistress R's orgasms, we will look at this in more detail in the next graph.

Obviously it is desirable to increase the ratio between Mistress's orgasms and my own, and it's good to see that we have maintained that 10:1 target that I always had in mind when we first started out. As we can see here, even in a year with fewer MR orgasms than normal the ratio can still turn out very high if my full orgasms are restricted nicely (as was the case in 2023-24).

The following graphs are a bit more random, this one illustrates the number of orgasms Mistress enjoyed where I used her glass dildo while I was making her cum with my tongue.

This is the graph that I would really love to see change for the better. For the purposes of this graph I have only included times where Mistress has invited me to worship her divine ass completely out of the blue and not as part of other sexual activity. While of course I do love to worship Mistress's ass when we are 'in bed' there's definitely something about doing it half clothed, standing up, kneeling on the sofa (or wherever) that I really love. 

But honestly, I love worshipping Mistress's ass so much that I really don't care when or how, I just want it more often. Like every other day or so... 🙂

Unfortunately I no longer have the year by year data for this graph, but I am pretty sure that the last three years all of my 'full' orgasms have been handjobs where my cum ended up on my stomach. On occasion Mistress has scooped up my cum and smeared it on her feet or breasts for me to lick clean, but I am not counting those here. I truly hope this coming year I will get to cum on her beautiful feet at least once as that is something I really miss doing.

Well there we have it, another year of cage free chastity completed... it's hard to believe it's been so long since I asked Mistress to control me 24/7 and it's quite incredible that we've never even taken a break in all that time. Thank you to everyone who has followed the blog along the way, I appreciate you sticking with us when I wasn't really posting very often. 

This is Getting Silly Now...

Another fun day yesterday... at last it was Friday and the week was nearly at an end. But then Mistress told me last night that clocks go forward this weekend so we lose an hour of sleep. Bah! Like we had any sleep anyway.

So my chaotic story writing life continues. I now have two stories 90pc complete... one really good idea that's sort of 25pc complete and another brand new story that's 98pc complete!

This  latest one came to me yesterday as I was driving around and I ended up stopping and dictating it into my phone for about 20 minutes. Of course the phone wrote absolute gibberish but I manage to decipher it when I got home. Good job I did it the same day though... as I would have been confused!

This new story is kinda different again and is written in the first person, which I don't really do anymore... but the inspiration came from my own experience of driving around with nothing much to occupy my mind and inevitably thinking about Mistress's gorgeous body and in particular her perfect feet.

I was driving for about an hour with a half hard cock and thinking 'well there's not much I can do without calling Mistress and asking for permission' when I realised that this had the makings of a story. As it goes I don't think Mistress would have given me permission anyway, but since I've never asked her from a distance (or during the day for that matter; knowing my luck she'd be in a meeting) who knows?

Anyway, I didn't. But I did write the story... and it's almost there.

Meanwhile, last night Mistress and I went to bed for a while and Mistress had a lovely orgasm on my tongue, after which I got to worship those beautiful, sexy feet that I had been thinking about practically all day. Then Mistress told me to put a cock ring on and I grabbed the Oxballs Cocksling 2 again. 

I don't know, when it first arrived it seemed really good, but now it doesn't seem to work as well as I thought. I kept the old one, because I just expect everything new to be inferior now so I never throw stuff away immediately, and holding them up together you can see that the part that goes around your cock is larger than the older version, or it's already stretched... which is annoying. It seems to be made of squidgier material, which I didn't think was a bad thing but maybe that's why it's not as good?

Why do I feel like I'm making excuses here... oh yes, it's definitely the cock ring is too big, not that your cock is too small. 🤣

Anyway, it took me a while to get hard honestly, I think being overstimulated for so long today didn't help, but eventually I did and Mistress teased me beautifully. But oh no, disaster struck. Mistress took me to the edge, not even a hard edge, not even 'she took me to the edge and then gave me three more strokes' like she sometimes does... just a regular medium edge and I warned her I was close and she let go. I was good, until I saw (not felt, mind you) a trickle of cum appear at the tip of my cock.

I couldn't believe it. I felt absolutely nothing at all, just watched in horror as the cum slid down the side of my cock and pooled on my stomach. Mistress thought it was hilarious... and she chuckled to herself as she gathered up my cum and fed it to me. So now I am owed two punishments, one for touching my cock without permission (when I was pretty much asleep - honestly) and now a second accidental ruin!

F U C K

Ah yes, my punishment... last week I hurt my back and it's still sore now, I'm still taking shitloads of painkillers as well, and we both felt that paddling my ass while I was in that state was a bad idea. But still eventually my back will be good and then the ferryman will demand payment. I hope I don't accrue any more punishments in the meantime or I am going to be sore!  

Mistress and I discussed punishments, I even looked online to try and find things to suggest, but it was rather hopeless. Mistress didn't find any merit in making me walk on Lego or kneel on dry rice. And Vanessa's idea of wrapping my cock in duck tape was dismissed on the grounds that she didn't want to do anything that left me sore and unable to be teased (I have to say I agree, I don't mind having an achey ass for a couple of days but a bright red cock that needs cream on it every hour is not my idea of fun) and the other things I found that were supposedly 'punishments' weren't really applicable to a submissive pervert like me.

Make him eat your pussy every night for a week, make him lick your ass, pee on him... oh no, please Mistress, you're so brutal, I promise I'll never do it again. 🤣

So it's the paddle, and more worryingly the crop. Pray for me readers... pray for me! 

Too Many Ideas, Too Little Time...

Don't you just hate the first week back at work after time off? Yeah it sucks...

And it sucks even more when your back hurts, you've buttfucked your perfect weight-loss record into the middle of next week and you're struggling to get back on the wagon let me tell you! But maybe I just need to cut myself some slack... I've done well over a very long period after all, it's just that I am scared of going backwards. 

Anyway.... it's not the only thing I'm struggling with at the moment, the stories are giving me hell too!

First off, I all but completed 'Recruiting a New Pet Ch2', then I substantially completed another new story (and made notes for part two of that) and then last night I went to bed about 11:30 and fell asleep straight away. But not half an hour later I was wide awake with yet another story idea spinning around in my head. Aaaaaargh, for God's sake!! 

And of course this new one pushed all thoughts of completing the other two out of the way in an instant (though to be honest, it's one of those extra-spicy stories I feel awkward about writing... knowing that Mistress R will read it - but maybe that's why it feels so exciting?).

I felt so awake that I was on the verge of getting up again and writing it, but thankfully I dropped off and managed to sleep through until 6:30am this morning (a blessing honestly, as I'm sure I would have been up until 2am otherwise). Of course as soon as I woke up this morning the story returned along with a morning boner that just wouldn't quit... and so I spent the next 40 minutes mentally plotting the story and trying to keep my hands from touching my aching cock.

I'm starting to see how I came to end up with two 95% complete stories on my laptop for two years now... but I will try and avoid that scenario recurring. I'm already confused about what to do with this other story, I thought I was going to write it in the form of a letter, but now I'm not so sure... maybe I will start with the letter and then go on to explain from the woman's point of view. 

Maybe then I do a third chapter explaining it from the man's point of view? I really don't know.

The Power of Distraction...

Yesterday I did something really stupid. No, don't worry I didn't touch my cock again... I'm not that stupid! No, unfortunately I was supposed to sort out the garage while Mistress had lunch with her friend... and I did eventually do that, but as I entered the chaos that was our garage I spied the lawn edger and decided it would be a good idea to edge the lawn. I mean, sounds like way too much fun for the lawn if you ask me, but anyway...

Our lawn is pretty small, so it wasn't a big job or anything. One edge has paving slabs and one edge meets gravel so it's really just the back and the right hand side that needed doing. So I started and by the time I was 2/3rds of the way round I had managed to fuck up my back. I couldn't really leave it half done though so I persisted and then spent an hour on the sofa with a heat pad before I eventually went out and sorted the garage. 

Predictably my back only got worse during the evening and today it wasn't much better. Actually standing up was better than sitting down in some ways and we had booked an Escape Room and a lunch out today which was probably a good thing really as we probably would have ended up doing nothing otherwise.

We both really wanted to have some bed-time this afternoon and as always I was super eager to taste Mistress's gorgeous pussy, but I was in two minds about whether I was likely to be able to ignore the pain in my back enough to enjoy any teasing that Mistress might have wanted to give me.

Well, as often happens actually, once I got my face down between Mistress's super-sexy thighs I soon forgot all about the pain in my back. It's amazing how that happens isn't it? And so after Mistress had her orgasm and I worshipped her feet a little while she hopped off the bed and then jumped right back on it. She said 'I want you to lick me properly clean...'

Talk about music to my ears! I slid up the bed as she put her hands on the solid wooden bead-head and leaned forward as I pressed my face between her legs from behind. I just love cleaning Mistress's gorgeous pussy and ass and her juices taste so amazing I wish she would do this every time.... so, so wonderful! 

Well after that delicious moment my back pain was well and truly forgotten and I was excited when Mistress asked if I was going to put a cock ring on. I quickly put the Oxballs Cocksling 2 on and slid onto the bed next to Mistress. We kissed and Mistress's fingers immediately started to gently tease my balls. 

I don't know what it is about this kind of super light teasing, but it seems to send me nuts almost immediately. I was rock hard and breathing heavy in seconds, I mean obviously cleaning Mistress first got my motor started but it's crazy how fast this seems to work on me.

Mistress kept this up a while before eventually sitting up next to me and giving my balls some playful slaps. Then she started to stroke my cock properly, which felt fantastic. I was so worked up that it wasn't too long before I felt the edge approaching and mindful of my previous faux-pas I decided to shoot the flare a little earlier this time.

A wise decision perhaps, but as Mistress let go she said 'Then that's all you're getting for today'...

While I of course respect Mistress's decision, my cock really didn't want to hear it and as I cuddled her my cock throbbed against her thigh, which (I noticed) she pressed firmly forward to make it even harder. As I lay there I secretly imagined her smashing her sexy thigh into my poor aching balls and that didn't help matters either - my cock was steel-hard for ages! And even when I pulled the Oxballs off it refused to calm down completely. 

🙂

Sadly as soon as I got out of bed the back pain returned, though it doesn't seem quite as bad. It's amazing what a bit of distraction can do... 

What Made You Think I Was Going to be Fair....

Every so often I come across a caption that really speaks to me. This is one such caption... if we're honest with ourselves 'fairness' is the absolutely last thing we really want.  

Speaking of which, another awesome post at SubHub's blog 'She Was Selfish'.

Oops, I Did it Again...

I didn't think it would happen so soon... I really didn't, but unfortunately I slipped up again!

I'm still not sleeping well, and this morning I had to get up early to go and get weighed. While I've generally been waking up before 7AM, this morning I woke up at 5:40... and I just knew I wasn't going to get back to sleep. I tried, but it just wasn't happening, and eventually I rolled onto my back. I was kinda half awake - half asleep, and I suddenly realised I was touching my cock. 

I immediately pulled my hand away, and the stupid thing is it wasn't even as if I was hard and desperate for attention! So of course I had to tell Mistress R today (as per our new rules) and so I have to wait and see what punishment she decides to administer. I really can't believe it, I thought it would be months until I had to confess to anything and so did Mistress...

At least it wasn't a conscious decision, that's all I can offer by way of excuse, but still...

The good news is that today I finally made it to 4 stone (56lbs) lost, which made me very happy and took a lot of pressure off because I really needed to achieve that before things get too relaxed this week while we are off work. I've already booked next week off to give myself an extra week to get back on track.

As far as the story goes... I really haven't had time to do anything to it the last couple of days and I'm not entirely sure when I will get time to finish it. I was expecting it to be done any time, but it might not be this week now. Last time I read it it felt 'off' somehow. I don't know if it's because I'm trying to write it in a slightly different style, adding in some humiliation for example, but whatever it is, it definitely needs more work. Maybe I should get Mistress to read it as it is and see if she has any advice? 

'Danni and Mike: The Anniversary' is still climbing on Literotica albeit very slowly. It's now up to 4.4 / 5, but I can't see it climbing all the way to 4.5 so maybe I have to accept that story isn't good enough to be labelled 'HOT'. 

Sunday Morning Teasing...

So it seems that 'Danni and Mike: The Anniversary' hasn't quite hit the mark like the previous four stories I posted to Literotica and it's currently sitting just under the 'HOT' threshold on 4.4 / 5. Still a jolly good score, but not quite there. It has risen about 0.3 over the last couple of days so it's heading in the right direction, and I guess I should be happy with that.

I was planning to follow that up with 'Danni and Mike: Danni's Game', but instead I've been working on 'Recruiting a New Pet - Chapter 2' (with outlines for chapters 3, 4 and 5!) since what started as a pretty short, almost throwaway tale of Goddess Cora and her nervy young pet has become my new highest scoring work on Lit (currently a fairly staggering 4.74 / 5!).

Part two takes a surprising direction, honestly I was struggling to see how to continue the story without it being a little underwhelming, but I've come up with something and I'm quite pleased with how it's going so far. Of course, writing sequels to new stories isn't really helping me get the backlog of ideas down, and I'm still coming up with new ideas to add to the pile. All I need is a few more hours in a day so that I can turn these ideas into finished stories!

After a week of poor sleep (I notice the moon was full last night and I believe that can have something to do with it) Mistress and I have been quite tired the last few days. And yesterday we had to get up early to go out for the day and then in the evening we were out late visiting Mistress R's cousin and her adorable new puppy.

We were both hoping to sleep in this morning, but once again I woke up early. I thought about just giving up and getting up, but I felt so groggy and tired I decided to just lay quietly for a while longer. Unfortunately for me when I am tired like this my foot and leg hurts a lot due to nerve damage from a back operation many years ago. It's like numbness, but it hurts if that makes sense.

Anyway, I kind of dozed for about an hour I guess and by then I was really starting to ache all over, not just my leg/foot and I really needed to get up and get some painkillers to take the edge off. I rolled onto my back and realised that Mistress was awake too. She moved towards me and I felt her hand move across my stomach and just rest there.

To be honest I was half excited / half worried that she would want to tease me because there was zero sign of morning wood today. After a little while she moved her hand away and then put it back again, this time just brushing against the tip. I tried to relax and my mind meandered first to that super memorable Saturday night teasing from last weekend (wow, was that really only a week ago, it seems like it's burned so hard into my memory from repeated viewing) and then to another favourite memory of mine... 

It's a good couple of years ago now, but one time I was downstairs and Mistress called me upstairs, I had no idea why... when I got up there she undid her jeans, pulled them down, turned around and told me to worship her ass. That was so fucking hot. It's something Mistress has rarely done, maybe only two or three times ever, but I LOVED just being told to do it and then sent away again.

Well this seemed to do the trick and I was soon surprisingly hard! 

Mistress started to very gently tease my cock and soon I was breathing heavy and pushing against her hand, desperate for more (but secretly wanting her to keep it light and frustrating). It felt so incredibly good. Eventually though I started to go off the boil, but given how tired I am at the moment I was happy to have got where I did in the first place. 

Seems to be the way of it at the moment, it's not that I can't get hard, but the numbness eventually takes it's toll and that's where the cock ring / cocksling / ballstretcher comes in handy, just to keep things going. Especially with this kind of super frustrating teasing. I do love it like that though, Mistress teasing me so lightly... I can't believe it's taken me forty five years to realise just how amazing that kind of stimulation really is!    

Mistress was feeling too achy and tired herself to enjoy my tongue this morning, but hopefully later we'll both be feeling more awake and up for it.

R.A.N.P. - 2 is quite far along and I should expect it to be finished in the next 2-3 days (at the most), so look out for that soon.