FEMDOM SESSION: 7th December 2019

Before I start this post, I'd just like to say it's good to see that Good Hubby is posting again, head over to his blog if you have a penchant for hardcore ball abuse, humbling, mallets and needle play... definitely not something I would indulge in, but interesting all the same!

So our last session was on the 29th of September, not sure what happened in October and November but we're here now and that's the main thing. Even more disturbing is that that post is still on the front page of my blog... indeed I have only posted four times since then and one of those was that fucking weird Dir En Grey video!

Hmm... it's a wonder I still have any readers left and yet I'm still averaging about a thousand page views a day. I guess it helps that I have a depth of content for people to visit over and over... anyway, thanks to everyone who still drops by despite my lack of posting, I will try and step it a bit, probably unlikely to get back to 3-4 posts a week like it used to be, but I will aim for one a week at least.

So given that our last Femdom post is still on the main page, it seems slightly 'pointless' to give you another minute by minute review of our session, but rather I will focus on some elements and give you some thoughts about them and our relationship as a whole.

You may remember from our last session that I elected to wait for Mistress with pegs on my nipples, which she left on for ages (in the process causing much pain, particularly when she hit them with the cockwhip). So this time I wasn't about to make that mistake again, but no sooner than the session started than Mistress put them on me anyway! She left them on me while I worshipped her feet and... I think she took them off before I got on the bed (unusually I am writing this more than 24 hours later and so the details are a little hazy to say the least). I remember they were on for at least ten minutes I should think and I definitely felt it when she yanked them off.

Speaking of the cockwhip, Mistress spent a lot of time whipping my cock and balls (although thankfully not too hard on my balls as I was wearing the Oxballs Cocksling!), she really seems to enjoy doing that and making them nice and red for her amusement... and I enjoy it too of course, not least because I know it makes her wet.

As ever Mistress looked gorgeous in the session, with her bright red lipstick (which she never otherwise wears) and her PVC bra and leather skirt. She also spent some time sucking my cock and licking my balls, while reminding me that touching myself can never feel this good - absolutely true!

As always Mistress exploited my weakness for her beautiful ass, and taunted me with it relentlessly... it is so long since I have worshipped her gorgeous hole and I think that this is in part because I have asked less because I was hoping Mistress was going to continue with the 'spontaneous' ass worship that started around the middle of the year... in reality the last time that happened was almost three months ago, so I guess I'll just go back to asking more often instead. Chances are the fact that I wasn't asking so often probably meant she wasn't so mindful of it and it just didn't occur to her to have me do it randomly. Pity because the two times she did were really HOT!

Oh, at the start of the session Mistress remembered she owed me two spankings, I can't actually even remember what they were for now - I had an unauthorised ruin the other day, but it wasn't that. While I'm on that subject, that really was a perfect ruin.... I warned Mistress that I was getting close and she stroked about four more times, long enough that I thought she was intentionally going to ruin me. But then she stopped and let go, it must have been at least ten seconds after she let go that I ruined, Mistress was most surprised, but took it in her stride and set about scooping up my cum and feeding it to me.

So I got one spanking at the start of the session and one after the foot worship, the first one stung, but at first the second one seemed like it wasn't going to hurt at all. I don't know whether I wasn't reacting enough the second time and Mistress hit me harder, but as it went on it quickly went from painless to painful, and I was glad when it was over... but as ever I took solace in knowing it would be turning Mistress on.

When Mistress had tormented me enough and had removed the pegs (a second time) and let me remove the Cocksling, she finally allowed me to worship her pussy properly and make her cum. Mistress was extremely turned on and I loved licking her and using my fingers on her, knowing that she would cum hard... and cum hard she definitely did!

Afterwards she stood over me and crouched down so that I could clean her pussy, she was absolutely dripping with delicious, thick pussy juice and I licked and sucked it all down. Mistress wasn't entirely satisfied though and had me get up and clean her from behind, while at the same time reminding me not to lick her ass until I had permission.

After that she had me down on my back again and she finally allowed me to tongue her ass while she stroked my cock and slapped my balls. It felt amazing to taste her gorgeous ass again and it's been quite a while since Mistress has jerked me off hard while allowing me to worship her asshole. This used to be how nearly every Femdom session ended, but since the chastity periods have got longer and longer it's quite unusual now, indeed the last time she did that was December 2015!

Because she knows how much I adore her perfect feet, and because she knows if I would have been given the choice I would almost certainly have elected to cum on her feet, Mistress rubbed my cum on them and had me lick it off. :)

And so my latest chastity period came to an end after 34 days, we both felt AMAZING afterwards and we are even thinking about trying to fit another one in next Sunday to try and make up some lost ground!

Mistress Finally Reached 1000 Orgasms!

It's been a long time coming, but finally Mistress R hit the magic number this afternoon. When I started this blog 8.5 years ago, I didn't know how long it would last, but I decided to be optimistic and leave room to count Mistress and I's orgasms in the 'thousands'. Of course, for me that's a very long shot... even if we ignore the fact that in recent times my orgasms have dwindled to much less than one a month and take the 8.5year average, it would still take me another 60 years to get there, and I don't think I got another 60 years in me somehow! 

But never mind that, the important thing is that Mistress got to her 1000th orgasm since our chastity journey started and I'm pleased to say she got there in style with a lovely, intense orgasm... her first for several weeks assisted by her favourite glass dildo. It was awesome for me too, to hold her and lick her as she came for the 1000th time. Especially when she looked down at me afterwards and told me to lick her dildo clean! :)

After I kissed her feet for a little while I presented Mistress with a card and a present to celebrate the occasion and we cuddled for a little while before Mistress asked if I wanted some teasing. I wasn't really expecting it as she teased me yesterday and took me so close to the edge that I dripped a couple of drops of pre-cum! I really thought I had ruined, but somehow it didn't go any further than that - which I couldn't believe.

Anyway, afterwards I thought I could have used my birthday voucher... last month Mistress gave me a 50th birthday voucher which allowed me to request an orgasm and also to choose where to cum. So today, as Mistress started to tease me I quickly decided to cash it in. My cock was rock hard as Mistress was sucking it and there didn't seem to be too much to be gained by dragging it out, I wanted to cum and I wanted to cum now (and for once I had the opportunity!).

Mistress was pumping my cock hard and I managed to get out that I wanted to use my voucher, Mistress asked me where I wanted to cum and I said on her feet. She let me get up on my knees while she lay back against some pillows and offered her feet to me, her legs spread as she let me watch her stroking her wet pussy as I jerked my cock hard until it erupted over her gorgeous feet. It had 'only' been 35 days, but it felt incredible, especially with such a gorgeous sight right before my eyes and once I had finished cumming, I bent down and started to clean Mistress's feet with my tongue.

It felt like the perfect time to cash in my voucher, with Mistress still basking in the afterglow of her 1000th orgasm, it couldn't have been more perfect really. I wonder how long it will take Mistress to get to 2000 orgasms? And will she get to 2000 before I get to 200? A current year ratio of about 23:1 suggests it could be closer than you might think!

I Really Like this Video...

It's not very often you get to see something that makes you go... 'Wow!', but this video from Japanese band 'Dir En Grey' certainly did exactly that. There are two versions of this video, this one and a rather rubbish 'edited' version that completely removes the amazing and very weird bit from '2:56 - 3:30'. I'm not going to pretend this music is easy to listen to or is going to be everyone's cup of tea, but this video inspired me to investigate the album and I must have watched it 7 or 8 times now....

Common Sense Prevails for a Change!

The legislation designed to 'age check' people accessing porn sites in the UK has been quietly dropped. While I'm sure some people will be unhappy about this as it was designed to protect young children in particular from accessing porn, it seems the Government has come to realise that the whole idea is fraught with insurmountable problems. Not least of which is the simple fact that it would take about five minutes for all the carefully constructed safeguards to be circumvented, and knowing that in advance it would have been a complete joke to go ahead with the proposals.

I do agree that children should not be able to access porn, but a program I watched not so long ago seemed to suggest that the legislation would have been ineffective because it only applied to sites like Pornhub and from what I saw most kids watch porn on Facebook and Twitter (neither of which would have been affected, and good look getting anywhere with moderating those fuckers). I'm afraid the truth is, the Genie is out of the bottle and it cannot be put back in, the internet is basically uncontrollable, and so prevalent has it become in our lives that any notion of controlling it or reigning it in is completely laughable.

And what I really didn't like about the Government's proposals was the idea that viewers should have to give their information to PornHub to prove their age. Have we learned nothing from Ashley Madison and other leaks? Wouldn't this data become a prime target for hackers eager to get information to embarrass and potentially blackmail Pornhub's customers?

So for once, common sense seems to have prevailed, even though I am sure there will be activists planning a march as soon as a window opens up for one... I sympathise with their ambitions to protect children from seeing the kind of porn we have these days, but these ideas were unworkable and would not have achieved anything except causing huge inconvenience to legitimate viewers and exposing them to data fraud.

Unfortunately as hard as it is for these people to accept, there is no 'plan of action' which will achieve what they want to achieve. The sad truth is with most of the UK having completely unfettered access to smartphones and people viewing that as a basic human right these days, there simply is no answer to this problem other than removing the tools to access the thing they want to see, and that is simply not going to happen is it?

This Comment Was Left on My Last Post...

Anonymous wrote: Oh yeah it was really awesome... You idiot, you've conditioned yourself into a completely screwed up mindset/relationship. Yes your wife/partner puts up with it because it makes you happy, no doubt tells you she likes it. But you really think she wouldn't prefer something more normal? Just a loving relationship without all the props and you acting like a simpering puppy. DO you think she really respects you? 

Why the fuck this person is reading my blog I have no idea. This really pisses me off because this is something that I have worried about time and again over the years, and time and again Mistress has assured me that she does NOT want to go back to a 'normal' relationship.

And yes Anonymous, I do think Mistress respects me.

This kind of relationship demands the kind of trust that 'normal' relationships can survive without, this kind of relationship forces both partners to commit to each other in a much deeper way than you will ever understand and along the way strengthens and intensifies the relationship. You obviously have zero comprehension of this lifestyle and the benefits it brings to a marriage, which is a shame because the last eight years have been the best of our nigh on 28 year relationship... still that's your loss not mine.

FEMDOM SESSION: 29th September 2019

Last night, as often happens, I went to bed before Mistress R. That was about 12:45AM I guess, and I went to sleep pretty quickly. About an hour (?) later, Mistress came to bed and there followed some very hot teasing, this culminated in Mistress turning over and pressing her ass hard against my throbbing cock as I held her. I woke up about another hour later and realised we were still spooning, this doesn't happen very often but I love it when it does.

The rain here was very loud this morning and woke me up earlier than I would have liked, and after half an hour trying to get back to sleep I finally gave in and got out of bed. Mistress got up not long after and we settled on starting our session just after 11AM.

Due to a mix up I didn't provide Mistress with any notes for this session, but it's not like there needed to be any to be honest. Mistress gave instructions that I was to fit the Oxballs Ball Stretcher and then whatever else I wanted. I was going to start the session with my red rubber blindfold on and my ring ended dildo in my ass, but when I went to put it in I realised I was a little sore so I ditched that idea and put clothes pegs on my nipples instead.

I wouldn't say that was a 'mistake', but I definitely came to regret it. Sometimes I put pegs on my nipples and I can barely feel them and other times it's much more intense. For some reason today it was more intense than usual. As I was kneeling and waiting for Mistress to come into the bedroom I was already wondering if it was a good idea, but I decided to go with it and when Mistress did come in she was quite surprised to see them.

Almost immediately she set about whipping them gently and teasing me about my decision, which made us both laugh (we don't often laugh in Femdom sessions, but this was pretty funny), before she set about my ass with her whip. I wasn't laughing then I can tell you! It felt very stingy, but thankfully I only had a towel infraction to atone for and no illegal cock touching; phew!

Suitably punished, Mistress got on the bed and had me get her glass dildo wet for her, then she told me to start worshipping her feet while she played with her toy. This is always one of my favourite parts of the session as I adore worshipping her feet and day to day it's often rushed, or slightly perfunctory as time gets away from us. And I love knowing that while I am submissively worshipping her beautiful feet, she is rubbing her glass cock all around her gorgeous pussy and enjoying herself as she verbally teases me.

I don't always get hard during this part of the session, but today I was ridiculously hard and I really loved it. I am often most affected by things Mistress 'says', like the other day when she talked about squeezing my balls really hard 'like she was trying to squeeze the cum out'... and today Mistress really hit some nerves when she said something like 'You don't even really care about your release any more, do you... you'd be quite happy for me to stroke and scratch and tease your cock and balls on and on, just so long as you could lick my pussy and ass'. That made my already very hard cock, throb like hell, I can tell you!

I was still aware of the pegs, but they weren't 'hurting' me, and once I had worshipped Mistress's perfect feet to her satisfaction and sucked her juices off of her dildo, she had me on the bed and tied me down on my back. She was soon straddling my face, trying her best not to knock the pegs off and allowing me to lick her delicious pussy while teasing me as to if I could guess what she was wearing. She lay on me and I could feel her amazing breasts against my skin and guessed correctly that she was wearing her cupless PVC body and her leather skirt.

Mistress started whipping my cock and balls and after a short while she stood over me and had me beg her to remove my blindfold. She looked incredible and after allowing me to drink in her beauty for a few seconds she was back down on my face, lower this time and her legs pressing on the pegs and pulling on my nipples. In fact every time she pressed her pussy or ass towards my face from now on the pegs got pulled and twisted (and she did it quite a lot).

Mistress whipped my cock and balls pretty much constantly, and when she wasn't doing that she was whipping the pegs and straddling my face, having me lick her pussy or teasing me with her ass but not letting me taste it (yet)… and every time her thighs pressed on those pegs again and again, until finally she whipped them a little too hard and the right one moved and started to really hurt. Mistress asked if I needed her to take them off and I finally gave in, it was just too painful now. Nonetheless, Mistress was very impressed that I withstood them on my nipples for nearly half an hour, but probably not as impressed as I was!

Mistress gave me one more taste of her delicious pussy before she left me alone for a little while, and almost before she reached the door I could feel my balls starting to sting as my cock softened a little and the ballstretcher started to do it's worst. It wasn't too bad, but I was glad when Mistress came back, untied me and told me to take it off. Then, finally I got to worship Mistress's beautiful pussy properly and she came really hard with my tongue on her clit and my finger gently probing her tight little ass.... sweet!

Once she had finished cumming, Mistress stood up and turned around, instructing me to lick her clean. Once I had done that I was ordered to lick the PVC sheet clean of her juices and then lie down on my back. Mistress straddled me again and asked me if liked what I saw. I looked up to see her gorgeous asshole peeking out from between her cheeks and her pussy still absolutely dripping wet.

Mistress asked me what I REALLY wanted to do right now and I told her I wanted to lick her pussy clean and then lick her ass. She sank down onto my face and I sucked the thick, delicious pussy juices that were dripping out of her and then she sank her ass onto my face as she started stroking my cock hard. I'm a bit hazy on this, sometime during the session she had sank down onto my cock, taking a few inches inside of her, and IIRC she did this again between ass worship sessions... after the third time she moved off me and knelt beside me stroking my cock and deciding if 70 days was long enough for me to wait.

Earlier in the session she had asked where, if the option was given, would I like to be allowed to cum. Last time she asked me this I said on her pussy and in the end she had me cum on her breasts unexpectedly late one night. I still wanted to cum on her pussy, but I also wanted to cum on her beautiful feet... I always want to cum on her feet, in fact if I was only ever allowed to cum on her feet I don't think I would be unhappy about that, it is after all the most appropriate part of his Mistress's body for a slave to be allowed to cum on. So I said either, and Mistress asked me if I would be equally happy with both? I said yes... although that's always a difficult call to make.

Mistress stroked me harder and I still didn't know which option Mistress was going to allow, or even if she was going to edge me and stop. In the end Mistress crouched over me and stroked me hard, telling me she was allowing me to cum. She kept pumping as I spurted on her pussy and she even pushed the head inside her and let me shoot inside her a little bit as well. I tried to push deeper inside her but she backed away and then straddled my face, telling me to lick my cum off of her.

Believe it or not, this was the first time this year that I have felt Mistress's hand pumping my cum out. I have only been allowed four orgasms this year, the first one was in February and Mistress had me stroke myself to orgasm (on her feet), the second was in March where I was allowed to cum inside Mistress's pussy, the third was in July when Mistress had me jerk onto her breasts and then this one...

It felt really intense with her stroking it, I must admit it's kinda different when you aren't in control of it yourself, I think you tend to stop earlier when you are in control; but it's nice to be pumped a little beyond what is 'comfortable' if you know what I mean. :)

So that's it! Another awesome Femdom Session, which makes three since the start of our April-March Chastity Year (out of a possible seven) and six this calendar year, and I'm back to day one tomorrow morning.

Still Here...

Well, hey... it's been too long since my last post - but honestly I feel very uninspired to write at the moment. Hopefully this will change before long... things are progressing much as they have for a while, nothing out of the ordinary to report really, although Mistress has definitely been slapping my balls harder lately; sometimes it hurts and sometimes it just makes my cock throb even harder, but either way I really like it... :)

The other day she brought me to the edge by teasing me about how she owns my balls and how she can punish them whenever she wants, and the thing that really pushed me to (and almost over) the edge was when she looked down at me, my cock pulsing in her hand as she stroked it hard and teased me about squeezing my balls really hard 'like I was trying to squeeze the cum out'. Oh yes, that was fucking HOT!

Anyway, so since I was allowed to cum inside Mistress's beautiful pussy back in March I've only been permitted one proper orgasm, in the same period Mistress has enjoyed sixty orgasms! And to think I was only aiming for 10>1! :) Of course I have been ruined a few times as well, six in fact so that's pretty much bang on 10>1 :)

As yet this month there hasn't been any 'spontaneous ass worship' I hope Mistress hasn't forgotten about that...

Sorry this post is pretty short, I don't honestly know what else to tell you. Hopefully I will get inspired to write something soon, I did all those old stories and that was supposed to lead on to some new creative writing but it didn't end up panning out like that. Such is life...

We are supposed to have our next Femdom session on Sunday, if it happens I will write about that. If not, then I won't!

Awesome Teasing, Panties and Ball Slapping!

Things have been a little wearing of late, the constant warm weather is tiring and tiresome, and nothing seems to have been going all that well... so last night was a much needed shot in the arm for both Mistress and I and has made us both feel a lot better and more positive and even the weather seems like it might be on the turn at last! :)

So last night Mistress told me she was going to give me some teasing, and to be honest as I was getting out of the shower I was on the verge of suggesting we waited until tomorrow, but I could already hear Mistress in her dressing room and decided to let things happen and hoped it would work out well (I have been in pain with my back the last few days and a attempt at penetration didn't go well the other night, so I wasn't feeling overly positive to be honest).

I eventually came into the bedroom to find Mistress lying on the bed wearing her bra and some panties that I didn't recognize. As I started to kiss her and my hands moved down her back I realized these were the legendary (and bought so long ago that I'd forgotten about them) assless panties from Victoria's Secret!

Mistress had already had a couple of glasses of wine and was feeling very relaxed, which in turn rubbed off on my and my cock got hard very quickly, especially once Mistress slid over me and pushed her ass towards my face. I pulled the panties down slightly and (after pausing to ask permission) plunged my tongue into Mistress's delicious asshole.

The teasing continued for some time with Mistress allowing me to tongue her ass a few times before bringing me to the edge and then letting go. She finished off by standing over me and slapping my cock and balls a few times before settling down next to me.

Wow, well that was unexpectedly AWESOME!

But, that wasn't the end of it, I went to bed before Mistress and when she came up I cuddled her and she reached back and grabbed my cock, holding it tightly as I 'fucked' her hand a few times. I was feeling very horny after what had occurred earlier and begged her to slap my balls. Mistress obliged, bringing her hand down 5 or 6 times in rapid succession and wonderfully hard. If I hadn't been so turned on I don't know if I could have taken it, as it was it was right on the edge of being 'painful' but it felt absolutely incredible and for two or three minutes after she stopped slapping my cock was throbbing and on edge like I've never felt it before. I actually felt like I could have come from the merest stimulation, or even no further stimulation at all if I'd wanted to!

Eventually I kissed Mistress's shoulders and let her go to sleep, and turned over to go to sleep myself. That was quite something, maybe I should encourage Mistress to always drink before she teases me? I hope she lives up to her promise to wear her assless pants out some time soon and have me worship her ass on the way home, and I hope she brutalises my balls like that again soon too!
:)

Very true...

So Much for 10:1... That Ship Has Sailed!

It was always a long term goal for me that Mistress should have 10 orgasms for every one of mine, and while it took quite a few years to get there, just lately it's been completely blown out of the water. Right now, since the start of this Chastity Year (1st April) Mistress has had 48 orgasms, while I've had just 1 (full, non-ruined) one. Now obviously, it's possible that she could let me cum in a week or so and that might coincide with her reaching 50 herself, but even in that scenario it would only take it down to 25:1 and then it would start to build again... I could well see me finishing this year with 5 or less real orgasms to my name and her tally up over 120. Of course, the ruined orgasms keep on coming (another one this evening as it happens), and after a slow start it's noticeable that they now easily outnumber the real orgasms that Mistress is allowing me...

:)

This is an Outstanding Idea!

FEMDOM SESSION: 18th August 2019

Despite our best intentions, our last Femdom session was back in May, which means we've now missed out three sessions this year (April, June and July)… the Summer is difficult for us, we both hate the heat and laying on a PVC sheet when it's really warm is no fun. Even today, though it was cooler than it has been lately, it was still warm enough... indeed, this session was definitely not the smoothest one we've ever had, but despite that it was still fantastic and most importantly Mistress had an incredibly long and intense orgasm, which was even more incredible because - ah, wait, let's not spoil that just yet!

As ever we set a start time and of course (as it always seems to) it took me longer than expected to get ready, so by the time the start time was approaching I was rushing around trying to get my Cocksling on and make sure everything else was ready. In the rush I managed to not get the cocksling on right somehow. It felt right when I was soft, but when I got hard it hindered rather than helped, which has never happened before - at least not like it did today.

Mistress told me to surprise her, so I wore my blindfold and pushed the ring ended dildo up my ass before kneeling to wait for her. When she came in I confessed to two incidences of touching my cock without permission and Mistress whipped and paddled my ass (afterwards she said I seemed to not be taking my punishment very well, that I was wincing even though she didn't think she was hitting me that hard...). 

Thankfully, once that was over with she turned me to the bed and had me suck on her dildo to get it wet, then laid back and told me to worship her feet. Mistress talked to me as she played with her dildo, and occasionally had me suck on it again, allowing me to taste her delicious juices and teasing me about how much I love her pussy and how she knows I would suck and lick anything to get a taste of her.

As she teased me I could feel my cock getting hard, although it felt a little odd - but I thought no more about it. Then, as I was kneeling, worshiping her beautiful feet, the dildo just dropped straight out of my ass and while I tried to continue my task I reached back to pick it up off the carpet and struggled to get it back in again. Once it was in I moved onto all fours to stop it falling out again - I don't think Mistress noticed, she was too preoccupied with her dildo. :)

As I continued kissing Mistress's gorgeous feet, my thoughts drifted to the possibility that she might let me cum today, and maybe she would let me cum on her sexy feet and let me lick them clean. This is pretty much a 'constant' in my life now, I adore Mistress's pretty feet and I am often thinking about watching my cock spurt (or ruin) over them and how wonderfully submissive it feels to bend down in front of her and lick my load off of her toes and instep...

Distractingly, Mistress also teased me about having me use a slender dildo and my tongue on her asshole while she fucked herself with her dildo, and made me promise to lick both clean for her. Then Mistress had me suck on her dildo one more time, which was much wetter now and tasted delicious, before she had me up on the bed and tied me down on my back. I wasn't hard at this point, but I knew that as soon as Mistress sat on my face and had me lick her pussy I would get hard pretty quickly. Mistress did indeed sit on my face pretty much straight away and I could feel my cock hardening, but it didn't feel right again. 

Mistress removed my blindfold and I looked up at her in her PVC bra and leather skirt. She looked incredible as always and she quickly turned around to present her pussy and ass to me. It was a gorgeous view, but my cock was just not working with the Cocksling. I was feeling a little frustrated to be honest, it felt like this was doomed. We'd missed the last two sessions, my dildo had already fallen out of my ass while I was kneeling down even though I used the tiniest amount of lube possible, and now the ever-dependable, ultra-reliable, 100% can't fail Cocksling was fucking with my ability to get hard! Urgh!!!!!!!!!!!

I asked Mistress to push down on the ring of the Cocksling, but (understandably) she didn't understand what I was trying to describe and while she tried, in the end she gave up and untied my wrist and told me to take it off. Guys, if you've ever tried a Cocksling then you probably will understand what I'm saying here; once you fit it you have to push it back to push your cock forward... it's the same principle as if you get hard wearing a chastity cage, it tends to just push your balls and the skin forward, so it feels like you are hard, but the hard on is 'internal' if that makes sense?

Anyway, once the Cocksling was gone that led to a whole new can of anxiety, since now I was quite stressed with it all and I had to get hard without any help at all! Thankfully Mistress did get me hard and within a few minutes she was pushing me towards an edge. I was hugely relieved that we'd got over that hump, but all of a sudden I had this huge pressure headache - it literally felt like my head was going to explode, I don't know if I was getting too hot or what, but I really did feel this enormous pressure in my head and I was quite glad when she let go of my cock for a while and the edge and the headache receded. I think Mistress might have straddled my face again and that gave me a chance to calm down and enjoy her beautiful pussy for a moment, and then after that Mistress knelt next to me and resumed stroking my cock  and slapping my balls (which felt fantastic as always)...

You know, a very long time ago I posted a link to an article somewhere (might have been Literotica) which was called something like 'It's Not About Your Dick'. I'll try and find it and if I can I will link at the end of this post because it's well worth reading, even if you aren't submissive... and I think over the last few months, as Mistress has incorporated her dildo into our sex life and come to appreciate the pleasure it can give her and perhaps that she shouldn't worry or feel any guilt about that and realised that I am totally happy with it... well that article has come back to me somewhat.

The truth is Mistress might occasionally want my cock inside her, but compared to my tongue it is somewhat limited in the pleasure it can give her. She can easily go months without my cock inside her and I feel like now I have accepted this much more so than I had before. It's not necessarily the easiest thing for a man to accept, and it did cause me a lot of unnecessary stress before - but I really don't worry about it now. Of course, if Mistress wants me inside her then I am happy for it, because I know it feels incredible, but I have accepted now that it really is a treat that Mistress can 'give' me but only when she wants to give it to me.

So, as I was laying there and Mistress was pumping my cock and slapping my balls repeatedly I wanted to cum really bad and not only that but I wanted to swallow every drop of it too. I think as I have accepted the fact that my cock is not that important to Mistress's pleasure, so I have accepted some other things too, things that are not always that easy to accept and even harder to admit out loud, even to someone you love and trust implicitly.

I watched Mistress licking and sucking on my cock and then as she pulled herself upright again I said, "You have made me your cumslut Mistress..."

She faltered slightly for a split second, but then ran with it and teased me about making me eat my cum everyday if that's what she wanted. My cock was definitely hard now, and I told her I would eat my cum every day for her if she wanted me to. That part of the session was super-hot for me, and I couldn't believe it when Mistress told me that it was time for her to leave me alone - the first half of our sessions always seems to go quickly but that was ridiculous!

Mistress attached clothes pegs to my nipples and reached down to make sure the dildo was still buried in my ass, then I begged her to let me taste her again - she had only sat on my face two or three times which is much less than she usually does. Instead of straddling me again, Mistress knelt on the bed beside me and used her fingers to scoop her juices out of her soaking wet pussy and feed them to me. She did this two or three times and then left me alone for about ten minutes.

When she came back I immediately noticed she had dispensed with her skirt and was wearing those Ann Summers crotchless panties that really push her pussy lips forward. She plucked the pegs off of my nipples and then untied me, telling me to take the dildo out of my ass and that it was time to pleasure her properly.

I was more than ready to bury my head between her thighs and make her cum, and thankfully I had cooled off a little while she had left me alone with my thoughts. Mistress was incredibly wet and my fingers slipped inside her so easily as I teased her clit with my tongue, she tasted absolutely incredible and I really was in Heaven and I just knew she would probably come quite easily, in fact I was actually a little cautious that I didn't make her cum too quickly and went pretty slow on her clit until I had my fingers nice and wet and started working them between her ass cheeks.

Everything was finally going spectacularly well, from a scratchy start the session had turned out great, but there was one more 'Joker' in the pack left to play. Just as Mistress started to cum, literally the very second she tipped over the edge someone started knocking at our front door. I could not fucking believe it. Hardly anyone ever knocks on our door, and I was screaming in my head at them to FUCK OFF! 

Knowing how sensitive Mistress is to any distraction I was really concerned it would put her off her stride, but thankfully she had already passed the point of no return and as I continued to lick her and tease her tight little ass with my fingers she had an incredibly intense and long lasting orgasm, which to me at least seemed like one of her best ever. Indeed, she was still coming when the person at the door knocked a second time... as Mistress finally pulled away she told me it was 'amazing' and I felt so happy that it hadn't been ruined for her. Obviously, we ignored the person at the door and thankfully they didn't knock again!

As I lay between her spread legs, I couldn't help but notice how pink and swollen Mistress's pussy looked, it was a gorgeous sight and just made me want to lick it even more! Instead Mistress stood on the bed then and had me lick her clean from behind and then she told me to lie down and stood over me once again. She reached down and started stroking my cock, telling me she was just thinking over whether I 'deserved' the pleasure of licking her ass again (for the third day in a row no less!). As my cock got harder and she started stroking me harder she told me in no uncertain terms to 'beg' for it. Oh I did love the way she said that... like she really meant it. :)

And of course I begged, like the cum-craving ass-slut slave that I now am, and I was rewarded with the taste of Mistress's divine ass on my tongue as she pumped my cock and slapped my balls again. I really thought she might let me cum, albeit I really wanted to cum on her feet or pussy if she was going to let me cum... but after sinking down onto my face three times she moved off and knelt next to me, stroking me hard and fast until I edged (no pressure headache this time thankfully!)... and then she let go and told me I would have to wait 'just a little while longer'.

If this post reads a bit negatively it isn't meant to, there were a few bumps in the road during this session, but Mistress's orgasm made up for all of those on it's own and the other 95% of the session was wonderful, I didn't even fit it in how amazing Mistress looked as she straddled my trunk, stroking my cock and verbally teasing me in her special (and super sexy) Mistress voice about how we really need to get my balls back in the ballcrusher as... "I'm sure we could push it much further!" Honestly, Mistress never looks more beautiful than when she's in full-on Mistress mode, she looks incredible.
:)

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Aha, after a little detective work I have managed to find the article I mentioned, here is a little sample and the link as promised....

1. IT AIN'T ABOUT THE DICK.

Every guy points to his JohnThomas and figures women will swoon. That his dick is the center of the universe and all he has to do is whip it out and holy fuck, the girls will go mad.

That ain't how it works.

Most women can get along just fine without your dick. In fact, most women can have better orgasms without you even in the room. Sure, keeping a hardon long enough for them to ride it till they're fulfilled, or sore or bored is nice. But there are a thousand ways to make a woman have a fantastic orgasm that have nothing to do with your dick.

Can we see a show of hands of all you women that only want a guy to stick his dick in you and hot damn, that's the center of the universe.

Any takers?

Get over it guys. It's an elective, not a required class. Hell, you can probably give a woman more pleasure with two fingers than with your cock. Even if you're hung like a fucking horse, two fingers can probably take most women further than a massive meatstick. And from what I've seen in life, a big cock can mean more pain than pleasure for a lot of women. Personally, I'm a big guy and I've got a good sized cock. I've had relationships where my dick was just too big for her so I learned a lot of workarounds. You have a million choices here guys. Use them.

https://www.literotica.com/s/it-aint-about-the-dick

Spontaneous Ass Worship (is so Fucking Awesome!!!!!)

As if last night wasn't awesome enough... a little earlier today Mistress called to me to come upstairs. When I got to the top of the stairs Mistress called me into her 'dressing room' and I found her standing in her underwear. She wanted me to see the lacey panties she had got from Victoria's Secret a (long) while ago, and that I had never seen her wearing. She looked gorgeous (obviously) and I told her so..

Then she turned away and told me she wanted me to lick her ass, and to move the knickers out of the way first. I was SO happy and I immediately sank to my knees and kissed down the small of her back as I slid the delicate material down. Then I planted several gentle kisses on her ass cheeks before using my hands to part them and expose her asshole.

SO. FUCKING. HOT!

And then for the next little while I tongued her delicious asshole, while my cock swelled in my shorts.

I absolutely loved it and I loved that it was so unexpected, this is exactly what I asked Mistress for and I hope she does this again and again because I simply cannot get enough of her gorgeous ass.

Wow, this weekend is just getting better and better and we are planning a Femdom session tomorrow as well!
:)

My 2 Stone Reward...

It's been a long time coming, but tonight I finally got my reward for losing two stones (28lbs) and it was amazing!

As you may or may not remember, when I started losing weight again Mistress gave me a reward scheme which allowed me to choose a 'toy' to play with every week that I lost new weight and specific rewards I could choose at every half-stone milestone. I actually hit two stone a while back and than went back up, and so we decided to scratch it and wait until I hit the 2 stone mark again, which I did about six weeks ago...

The last few weeks have been a bit shitty on and off, the weather has made us both irritable and not very keen to engage. Fans help but even then it's still less than optimal really... and I didn't want to ask for my reward when Mistress wasn't really in the mood to do it because then it would have sucked for both of us.

But Mistress suggested we do it tonight, and so we did.

The reward I chose was to watch Mistress masturbate, which I have kind of seen in our Femdom sessions, but it's not quite the same. This was much more relaxed and Mistress had me sit on a chair at the end of the bed to watch. Mistress had a thin robe on and her bra (damn it!) but otherwise she was naked and after she kissed me a little she sank back into the pillows and started to touch herself.

While it was lovely to watch Mistress playing with her gorgeous pussy, I felt a bit unsure about how much to engage with her as she was reading some porn while she touched herself and I didn't want to distract her. I elected just to rub her feet and legs for a while, but eventually she told me to sit back and start 'gently' rubbing my cock.

Strangely, this was the first time Mistress and I had ever experienced 'mutual masturbation', at least together... and it was great! As I watched Mistress fucking herself with her dildo and rubbing her clit I would start to wonder if she would make herself cum? When she came would she tell me to cum too... and if she did would she tell me to cum on her feet or her pussy, or in my own hand... and as my mind cycled through these possibilities my cock would get harder and I would stroke a little faster and then that thought would subside and my cock would deflate a little until the cycle repeated itself.

For about fifteen minutes I stroked my cock and watched as Mistress pleasured herself. At one point she pulled the dildo out of her pussy and had me suck it clean, it tasted delicious and I could tell the juices were from really deep inside her, they tasted stronger - still gorgeous, but definitely different. I loved that and it gave my cock another little boost.

As time went on I wondered if Mistress would make herself cum or would she eventually ask me to join in somehow... part of me really wanted to watch her make herself cum and properly see how her body strains and moves as she cums. When I'm licking Mistress's beautiful pussy I can feel her muscles tightening around me as she gets close and I know it would be lovely to see her legs trembling as she orgasms... but on the other hand I really wanted to move between her legs and taste her gorgeous pussy.

In the end she told me to do exactly that, so I had to let go of my poor denied cock and use my tongue to service Mistress's pussy instead. As soon as I was between her thighs Mistress ordered me to touch her ass as well, which I was only too happy to do. After a little while Mistress came pretty hard and then she lay back and relaxed as I kissed her pretty feet for a while.

When she got up she told me that I wouldn't be getting any more teasing as my cock had had enough attention for tonight, but she did let me lick her asshole clean of her juices before we laid down and cuddled for a little while. I have to say I really loved my reward and I will definitely be choosing that one again when the opportunity presents itself. I also have two 'toys' in hand as well. :)

It's Too Warm to Type...

Apologies for the lack of posting, I haven't felt particularly inspired to write anything of late - the weather here in the UK has been pretty wretched (hot and humid), indeed we had our hottest day ever recently and Mistress and I do not like hot weather at all, so we've been fairly grumpy in general and even with a fan sex has not been the best it can be of late....

Tonight was better, it is slightly cooler (but still warm enough) and Mistress had a lovely orgasm with her glass dildo inside her, my tongue on her clit and my finger teasing her ass... I loved feeling her cum and licking the glass dildo clean. :)

Afterwards Mistress gave me a wonderful blowjob with some added ball slapping while I teased her ass gently with my fingers. I was just about to ask if I could worship her gorgeous ass when she brought me right to the very edge (probably thinking about tonguing her ass didn't help!) so I had to forego that pleasure... to be honest I think if Mistress would have stroked me once more we might have had a ruin situation on our hands, it was very touch and go for a moment there, I can tell you!

So what else can I tell you? Well my tease 'Stroke for Beauty V' has been nominated for tease of the month at Milovana and it's currently tying for first place. No doubt it'll falter towards the end of the voting at the end of the month, but at least I got nominated this time. Just as well, because I think it's going to be my last tease for a while...

Oh yes, I can't remember if I mentioned it now, I think I did, but I recently bought 'Mistress T's: There is More to the Story' book. I'm sure an awful lot of you, if not a good majority of you must know who Mistress T is, there's quite a few of her videos on the video page, and as she's a bit older and comes across as quite intelligent I thought her book might be interesting. It was, but it wasn't really what I was expecting if I'm honest... I thought there would be more about the Femdom stuff and less about taking mind altering substances in the jungle, but it was still quite good.

I think the book gives quite a good insight into Mistress T's life so far, it's definitely more of an autobiography than a 'sex' book, I can't imagine it will give you much to jerk off to (if that's what you're expecting). Inevitably some of it is more interesting than other parts, it was enlightening to read her thoughts on having sex with a guy with a huge cock (not enjoyable and painful, basically) and also the trials of collaborating with other content producers. I was also surprised to read that she is prone to suicidal thoughts, as she comes across very mature and level-headed really..

I don't know if I'd exactly 'recommend' the book, but if you do buy it, just be aware that it's not going to be as 'titillating' as you might expect.

A New Record, 119 Days and Done...

Mistress and I were intending to have a Femdom session this morning, but unfortunately this was curtailed by the arrival of Mistress's period yesterday. The thing is Mistress had been waiting for the session to let me finally cum and she told me as much yesterday, adding... "I could still let you cum on my feet." Previously Mistress had asked me where I wanted to be allowed to cum and I had said I wanted to cum on her pussy, but I had been wavering from that and couldn't decide between that or on her pretty feet, so I presumed that today that's what would happen, but in the event it didn't work out like that.

Yesterday I worked hard all day building furniture and doing 'weekend' jobs, then Mistress and I watched a replay of the moon landing from exactly fifty years ago. That was really cool actually, I liked that they just played the footage as it was including Walter Cronkite's original broadcast, without feeling the need to interject 'modern' commentary. After that we watched a comedy video and then about midnight I decided to go to bed.

Mistress stayed up for a while longer, but I woke up when she came to bed. Sensing I was awake Mistress reached down and started stroking my cock. At this point I wasn't expecting any more than some teasing really, expecting to be told to 'wait until tomorrow'. But Mistress had other ideas and she turned her lamp on and then threw the covers off and started stroking me harder.

She told me how lucky I was to be allowed to see and suck on her gorgeous breasts as she continued stroking me hard and slapping my balls. I was very hard and Mistress was getting very into it and it started to occur to me that maybe I wouldn't be 'waiting until tomorrow' after all...

I carried on kissing and sucking on Mistress's gorgeous breasts while my hand slid down her back and my fingers teased her ass, it was super hot and Mistress was really pounding my cock. It was only a matter of time and I felt the edge approaching, I warned Mistress that I was getting close and she stroked me a few more times and I started to think I was going to cum, but somehow I held back and Mistress laid back on the bed, pushed her tits together and told me to cum on them.

I shot up onto my knees and stroked my cock, it was ridiculously hard... so hard in fact that it was almost like my cum was struggling to get out! I spurted a couple of times and kept stroking, but barely any more came out. I was still throbbing and rock hard as I stroked and it felt amazing, but considering I hadn't cum properly since March and hadn't been ruined for two and a half weeks, it wasn't the huge pool of cum you might imagine.

Mistress told me to lick her clean and I bent down and lapped my cum off of her beautiful breasts, it was super hot, and very unexpected! I held her for a little while, kissing her shoulder and back and eventually we both needed to go to sleep... it was pretty late by this time!

So there you go, my record has gone from 81 days to 119 (an increase of 38 days, about 47%) and the other thing that's changed is the number of orgasms Mistress had during my denial. The previous record was 24, that's now gone up to 40 (about 65%).

Oddly, I don't feel as 'drained' as I usually do at the end of this chastity period, I've read this before from people who have gone longer periods, that it doesn't feel like you're set back to zero the same and that's really great. Indeed, I woke up hard this morning and I certainly wasn't expecting that!

So that's my first orgasm of this chastity year, and my third this calendar year... I wonder when the next one will be?

Comments and Sketchy Scoring

I really do wonder about the comments left on Literotica, it's almost like they don't understand it's fiction/fantasy. For example, this comment left on 'Thirty Seven Days' yesterday:

"Leave you can get the cage taken off no need to stay with a whore other good women out there she is just a big slut get some balls get out any wife that could that to her husband is not much of a woman"

And that's not the only comment that treats my stories as if they are extracts from a factual diary. I don't know whether to be proud that they believe it's real, or pity their stupidity... or what.

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Last month I posted a tease to Milovana, which had an unexpectedly high score of 4.4/5.0 with one day to go before the scoring closed and the 'Tease of the Month' polls were announced. On that last day the tease dropped from 4.4 down to 3.8, in the space of about 8/9 hours. Prior to that the score had been 4.4 for about 4-4 days, having fallen from an initial score of 4.6. As a result, I went from being the top scoring 'Classic' tease that month, to not even qualifying for the polls.

Now, personally I don't think the tease particularly deserved 4.4 as that is a very high score, but what irked me is the way it dropped in the last few hours. It just seemed a bit odd to me, given that the tease had been viewed (and presumably voted on) thousands of times. It's a bit like when you post a story to Literotica, at first the votes can go up and down, but eventually it gets to a point where it stabilises as it requires a lot of votes to upset the average and push it down or pull it up.

I know there has been some dubious voting in the polls in the past and as only the forum members can vote and it's a very small number of votes cast, it's presumably quite easy to manipulate if you have a few fake accounts... but this must surely require much more effort and some technical knowledge to con the system that you haven't already voted. The alternative is to believe that hundreds of people all voted me down at the last minute, which doesn't seem terribly likely if I'm honest.

109 Days and Counting...

It's now been 109 days since my last 'full' orgasm and tonight after Mistress had cum again, she surprised me by telling me I needed a spanking. I thought Mistress would get the paddle or the whip, but she decided to use her hand instead. It was fairly gentle, but it was a nice surprise all the same and as soon as she'd finished Mistress surprised me again by turning me onto my back and straddling me and allowing me to look at her gorgeous ass as she got me hard.

Initially she was sort of resting on one knee with her other leg bent but after a while she kneeled directly over me so that her pussy was pressed against my chest. This gave me a perfect view of her sexy asshole and I used my hands and fingers to tease all around it as she continued stroking.

Soon she allowed me to lick her ass and this made my cock ever harder, and she also started slapping my balls as well. She allowed me to tongue her ass twice before she got off and knelt beside me, still stroking hard and fast and slapping my balls repeatedly. It felt great and it took a while to get me to the edge, but Mistress wasn't giving up.

I love that she gave me a spanking out of the blue, and teased me with her ass like that... it was so fucking HOT! :)

A Very Busy Weekend!

Mistress and I are in 'house' mode right now, buying carpets and furniture and generally investing in re-invigorating our lovely little house. So this weekend is a 'job' weekend, we have a long list of stuff to do and we're working our way through it. Which I really enjoy actually, as it gives you a feeling of accomplishment, whether it's staining a fence, defrosting the freezer or sorting out the DVD collection. Being as I've now lost two stone I also need to sort out my clothes as well...

Ah yes, I've decided to save myself the aggravation and money of going to Slimming World and instead weigh myself at the swimming pool I go to instead. All I got out of Slimming World really was being weighed reliably (home scales are useless in my opinion) and regularly, both of which can be done at the swimming pool as I go there 2-3 times a week. The machine gives me a little ticket to prove my weight loss/gain, and it costs 50p instead of £5.

When I made the switch, inevitably there was some lack of correlation, which meant the new scales seemed to weight me 2lbs heavier than the Slimming World scales. This was annoying, but a minor hiccup as the important thing is more that scales are consistent. As I'd only just achieved my two stone reward, I suggested to Mistress that we should cancel that and I would achieve it again using the new scales. Thankfully it only took one week and so the reward of watching Mistress masturbate is back on the cards again! Lucky me. :)

In between all these jobs, Mistress and I started watching 'Grand Hotel' which is an absolutely tragically brilliant show (it's 'Footballers Wives' level good/bad) and then last night Mistress and I managed to find time to go to bed... it was great, but I was so hot after worshipping Mistress's beautiful pussy (Mistress had a lovely orgasm with my finger teasing her ass and her glass dildo inside her while my tongue worked on her clit... and I got to lick her dildo clean afterwards which is always a delicious treat!). I put the rubber cock ring on as a precaution and Mistress got me hard, stroking me while kneeling next to me. I'd really liked to have kissed her, I LOVE kissing Mistress while she teases me... but since I was so hot already it probably wouldn't have helped and besides, it meant I got to look at Mistress's gorgeous body (except her breasts as she was still wearing a bra).

Mistress stroked me for a while before I asked if I could worship her ass. She told me to close my eyes and then straddled me and sank down onto my face. I fucking adore Mistress's asshole, it tastes so good and it always makes my cock throb. Mistress stood up and allowed me to open my eyes so that I could look up at her. I reached up and parted her cheeks to expose her pussy and ass before she sank down onto my tongue a second time.

I can never get enough of Mistress's ass, but after the second time Mistress moved off me and knelt beside me again, but this time on all fours and turned more so that I could still see her ass (cheeks anyway). She stroked me hard and fast but I wasn't getting anywhere near the edge, at least not until I reached over and stretched her cheeks so that I could just about glimpse her beautiful asshole again. That did the trick and Mistress edged me and then stopped stroking. :)

Later we watches a load of music videos on YouTube which is something we haven't done for a long while, and then I went to bed first (at about 1AM or something silly). I read Mistress T's book for a bit and then because I couldn't remember kissing Mistress good night I got up and went downstairs. I kissed Mistress good night and she commented that I was definitely looking thinner, which was nice to hear, and then I went back to bed.

A while later I woke up as Mistress came to bed and we cuddled as I caressed Mistress's amazing body. My cock was rock hard now and I asked Mistress if I could stroke myself. She let me stroke for about a minute and a half, in which time I got quite close to the edge, I was really, really hard as well... really throbbing, before she told me to stop and go to sleep. Which surprisingly I managed to do.

Bad Dreams...

When I woke up this morning and came back from the bathroom, Mistress told me she had had a bad night with one bad dream after another, I knelt down at her side of the bed and put my arm around her and kissed her and then kept kissing her, all over her breast, then down her side, the top of her thigh, up her back, down her back, all over her ass cheeks (I would have loved to do more than just kiss her ass cheeks, obviously!) and back up her back to her neck.

It was lovely and I think it made Mistress feel a little bit better. 

Ruined 101.

Well, it's day 104 and I'm still denied. At least I'm pretty sure it is, I've been having a bit of a nightmare trying to get the days right for some odd reason, but I'm pretty sure this is right. I last came on the 24th of March, so:

25-31 March = 7 days
1-30 April = 30 days
1 - 31 May = 31 days
1-6 June = 6 days

Which I make 104 days.

So on what I thought was day 100, but was actually day 101... Mistress ruined me again. It was so weird feeling like I was going to cum after all this time, even though I should have known deep down that Mistress was going to ruin me. Watching the cum leak from my cock I felt like my head would explode, such was the tension... and then Mistress used her fingers to gather up the cum and feed it to me.

We lay there for a few minutes, it was quite warm, too hot to cuddle really... and as my cock started to wilt, another glob of cum formed at the head of my cock. Mistress noticed it and laughed and told me that I needed a tissue. I guess she figured the moment had 'passed' and that I wouldn't want to swallow it. But I really don't want her to 'let me off' like that, so I asked her to feed it to me. So she again used her fingers; scooped it up and offered it to my mouth.

No idea when I'm going to be allowed to cum now. In a way it's nice to get past the 100 mark as it was almost like a 'milestone' that maybe meant Mistress felt she had to wait for it, which was why I kinda thought she would let me cum on the day (or the day after as it turned out - imagine if I'd got it wrong the other way and she'd let me cum on day 99!). But now, it's passed, so it really doesn't matter if Mistress lets me cum tomorrow, in three weeks or in September...

Getting Closer and Closer to the 100 Day Mark..

It's now 97 days since my last orgasm, and on top of that Mistress has now cum 33 times since the last time I did. Pretty amazing, neither of us ever really thought it would get so high... it's pretty warm today (not as bad as yesterday) and I thought I might struggle to get hard, but as soon as I started remembering yesterday, well let's just say I didn't have to worry about that any more!

Needless to say Mistress had a lovely orgasm on my tongue before she teased me to the edge, and as I kissed her pretty feet I was able to look up at her beautiful, wet pussy, glistening just a few inches away. Perfect!
:)

A Fantasy Finally Realised...

For as long as I can remember I've wanted Mistress to tell me to lick her ass. But more than that, I've wanted her to tell me out of the blue... when we're not in bed, when we're not in a sexual situation at all, I just wanted her to come up to me and say 'I want you to lick my ass', pull whatever she's wearing down and bend over in front of me. I have wanted that for so long, and today it finally happened.

Several months ago I got to a weight loss milestone, 1.1/2 stone (21 lbs) and that earned me three rewards off of Mistress's list. I had the first two ages ago, one of them was licking Mistress's ass while I was being teased and the other was 20 balls slaps, but the third... I kept hanging on to it, kept trying to find a moment where I could ask her to let me lick her gorgeous ass out of bed, but then there never seemed to be a good time and I would resolve to just accept that it would happen while we were in bed, and then I'd change my mind and so it went on.

A couple of weeks ago I told Mistress about this and explained that what I really wanted was not to ask her at all, I wanted her to 'tell me' at a moment of her choosing. As much as I love licking her ass when we're in bed, I wanted it to be an event in itself. One thing I've always fantasized about is Mistress using my tongue at a moment's notice, just calling on me to show my devotion to her body, without hesitation and without expectation of any reciprocation.

This applies equally to worshipping her delicious pussy of course, but in this instance the 'reward' presented me with an opportunity to try and make this happen, and hopefully it would make Mistress comfortable with the idea and hopefully she would do it again.

So earlier Mistress and I were on the sofa and she started kissing me and rubbing my cock through my pants until it was tenting nicely. After a little while she got up and said she was going to get a shower and I thought that was that. About an hour or more later Mistress suddenly walked up to me (I was sitting on the sofa using my laptop at the time) and said 'I want you to lick my ass'.

Well, my laptop was discarded in seconds as Mistress pulled down her shorts and panties and knelt on the sofa while I sank down onto the floor on my knees. Finally, this was happening! I buried my tongue in her ass as licked her while she leaned on the back of the sofa. It was so fucking hot, I absolutely loved it and my poor 96 day denied cock was rock hard... after a few minutes (which passed way too quickly for me) Mistress turned around and allowed me to kiss her mound before she pulled her shorts back up.

As much as I desperately wanted her to touch my cock, I'm so glad she didn't because this wasn't supposed to be about that, it was supposed to be me showing her how much I worship her and how I am always ready to worship any part of her body whenever she wants me to. Mistress said she loved it and I really, really, REALLY hope she will make this a regular thing for us, because I absolutely LOVED it.

Afterwards I spent at least twenty minutes worshipping Mistress's beautiful feet while she read her book. Obviously it wasn't quite as special as what had gone before, but I still really loved getting to worship her feet properly rather than for just a minute or two, I love to really absorb myself in submissive worship like that - I find it very relaxing and it makes me very happy. :)

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Sorry, Today is Day 91 not 101!

Apologies for the second post, I've made a total hash of this... so first of all I wrongly thought that today was day 101, when in fact it was day 91, and secondly I thought my previous record was 91, when in fact it was 81. So I have exceeded my previous record by ten days, but I am still nine days short of the magic 100. Of course it will be up to Mistress if she wants to deny me for another nine days or not, and also whether she wants to punish me for failing to keep count properly (as required by the recently signed Chastity/Femdom contract...

The Effects of Chastity

I noticed a thread at Chastity Mansion where people were invited to vote in a poll that asked 'After some time in Chastity, do you...'

A - Get more and more horny?
B - Get bored?
C - I don't have time to get bored.
D - I can go long periods without activity and that's okay.

Options C ad D got zero votes, while A got 62.5% and B got 37.5%.

One poster really hit the nail on the head for me when he said: Yeah if nothing happens it is boring, it's not the lack of access that makes chastity exciting it's holding on to that frustration high because of the lack of access. If there's nothing to excite you then it's boring and possibly building resentment.

It's the teasing that keeps it working, it is so important to remember that. Without teasing, chastity won't work for long. The more you tease the more he'll want you and that's what it's all about isn't it?

One Hunded Days of Denial

The other day Mistress asked me how many days it had been since I had been allowed to cum properly and I told her it was up to 95 days. Mistress was impressed, and she commented that she never thought she would let it get that high. Well, five days later and I still haven't been allowed to cum - yes that's right, today marks 100 days since my last proper orgasm. I can hardly believe it myself to be honest... and still I'm not sure when I will be allowed to cum and if I even really want to (not that I get a vote in that obviously).

It's an odd thing, you'd think I would want nothing more than to cum, and I do... or at least I definitely will when I'm approaching the edge, especially if Mistress is going to let me cum on her pussy or on her feet and make me clean it up. Truth be told I think I want that more than the orgasm itself, which makes me wonder if Mistress couldn't have me ruin onto her and clean her without resetting me back to zero...

It's almost hard to get my head around how long 100 days is, but it's actually 101 days to our 26th wedding anniversary, and that seems a long way off, that's some perspective right there!

Aroused...

We watched 'Aroused' on Monday, and it was okay... turns out I didn't know as many of the pornstars as I thought I did, out of sixteen I only recognised five or six. The documentary is presented in a very kind of 'arty' way, its aim is to present the women in a different light and I guess it achieves that, but it all felt quite 'surface level' somehow. Overall I think 'After Porn Ends' was more interesting, and the second one was definitely the best one of the three.

Today Mistress and I went for a long walk this morning and then this afternoon we went to bed for a while. As ever I warmed Mistress's glass dildo for her but she didn't ask me to use it. But after she had cum she picked it up and pushed the tip into her wet pussy and had me suck it a couple of times, and actually before I slid down between her gorgeous thighs she had me suck on it a little bit then too. I enjoyed it. A lot. :)

Mistress hasn't surprised me with my 1.1/2 stone reward yet, but she did let me lick her delicious ass again today while she was stroking and edging my cock, I really loved that, I can never get enough of her ass. She still didn't let me cum though, it's 95 days now... maybe she wants to get me into three figures? I must admit, while I really want to cum and lick it up I'm also slightly dreading going back to zero again... still it's going to happen sooner or later (presumably).

FEMDOM SESSION: 16th June 2019

Since Mistress and I signed our new contract things have been going really, really well. I've only forgotten to put her towels out once (and got my ass whipped for it) and I've worshipped her gorgeous feet every single day. And we've still only missed one Femdom session out so far this year, which is a huge improvement on where things have been the last couple of years.

As usual Mistress gave me instructions on how to start the session and so I was blindfolded, wearing the Oxballs Cocksling (such an awesome bit of kit, I only wish I was getting sponsored by them!) and with a glass ring-end dildo in my ass. Mistress asked me if I had anything to confess besides my one towel infraction, and despite the answer being no she still decided to give me a fifteen stroke 'reminder'.

After that she had me worship her feet while she started rubbing her dildo against her pussy while she laid back on the bed. Of course, being blindfolded I wasn't able to see any of what she was doing and as she rightly said, even if I wasn't blindfolded she would still have told me to keep my eyes focussed on her feet.

As I kissed her feet Mistress teased me about wanting to watch her masturbating with her dildo (which will be happening pretty soon since I have now got my two stone reward!). She said that maybe she would have to tie my hands to make sure I didn't touch my cock while I was watching her, but said that I would still have to lick all her juices up and clean the dildo for her. Good to know! :)

Mistress had me get on the bed, but told me to stay on my hands and knees while she paddled my ass a little more for being 'distracted' when I should have been focussing completely on worshipping her feet. Fair enough I suppose... I certainly was a little distracted hearing her talking about tying my hands and all that...

Then Mistress tied me down and stood over me. She asked me if I wanted to be allowed to see her, and when I said I did, she said 'what if being able to see me meant you wouldn't be allowed to cum today?' I hesitated for a moment, but eventually said that I wanted to be able to see her and Mistress reached down and removed the blindfold. She looked amazing, with her cupless PVC top and leather skirt.... especially from that angle her breasts look absolutely incredible.

Up until this point I'd only got hard briefly while I was worshipping Mistress's gorgeous feet, but as soon as she sank down onto my face and I got my first taste of her delicious pussy, my cock got very hard very quickly! And Mistress was soon at it, slapping and whipping my cock and balls, over and over, then sliding down onto me and taking me inside her for a short while, riding my cock before more slapping and whipping while teasing me with her asshole, pulling her cheeks apart and stretching herself, knowing how much I want to tongue it....

At one point Mistress knelt beside me and allowed me to suck on her gorgeous nipples, then she lifted her foot up and placed it against my cock and balls. She said she loved how her foot looked against my very red cock and balls and I told her how much I wanted to feel her feet crushing my balls. Mistress smiled and commented how much I had loved the ballcrusher and how she was sure we would be 'using that again'. Me too, but I'd still love to feel her crush my balls under her foot, and especially with the ballstretcher on, that should make it really easy.

Then she put on her exfoliating glove and stroked my rock-solid cock with it, which felt really good, but quite intense, before more whipping, slapping and riding. And all too soon we were half way through our session! Mistress blindfolded me again and pegged my nipples, then left me alone for a few minutes with the dildo still inside me and the Cocksling starting to sting as my cock started to gradually soften.

When she came back she used the cock whip (I think) to swat at the pegs, which I wasn't expecting and which was quite painful, before she plucked them off with her hand. Then she straddled me again and removed my blindfold, presenting me with her strap-on right in front of my face. She ordered me to suck it and pushed the rubber cock into my mouth, which I willingly sucked before she got up again and released me from the restraints. She told me to remove the Cocksling and then told me to get up on my hands and knees again.

It seems like it's been a really, really long time since Mistress had fucked me properly and I really needed her to do it this time. It's just one of those things that niggles me if it doesn't happen for a long time, so I loved that she did it. It felt pretty good too, not uncomfortable at all really, but still very intense. Mistress slapped my ass with her hands as she fucked me and then once she'd pulled out she got on the bed in front of me and (having dispensed with the condom) had me show my appreciation with my mouth.

Then it was time to use my mouth again, as Mistress allowed me the privilege of worshipping her gorgeous pussy until she came. It was the first time in a session that she'd had me use her glass dildo as I licked her and combined with my finger teasing her ass, Mistress came very hard indeed, which of course made me super happy.

As soon as Mistress stopped cumming she ordered me to clean her dildo and I lovingly sucked every drop of her gorgeous juice of the glass cock, before lapping up the remainder from the PVC sheet. Then Mistress stood up on the bed and had me lick her clean too, even her ass... before she had me lay down on the bed again.

As she stood over me and started stroking my cock again I reached up and used my hands to part her cheeks so I could again look up at her beautiful pussy and ass. I begged Mistress to let me lick her ass some more and she let me do it again several times, which I really, really loved. As always, Mistress stopped me before my lust for her ass was completely sated... but she knelt beside me stroking my cock and slapping my balls as she slowly brought me closer and closer to the edge.

Once I reached the edge, Mistress told me that I wasn't going to cum today, even though yesterday she kind of hinted that she was going to let me, even asking me where I'd like to be allowed to cum. So now it's 93 days since I've been allowed a proper orgasm, and also Mistress has had 29 orgasms since my last orgasm, which is another record (up from 24) and who knows how many more she might enjoy before allowing me to cum properly... maybe I won't get to cum until our next session in July? Of course I love being kept chaste, but at the same time I am really craving the submissiveness of cleaning up my load from her body with my tongue... which is why I love that it's not my decision any more.

After our session, Mistress and I watched a fairly risible documentary on BBC3 about 'Sugar Babies/Sugar Daddies', which 'shockingly' revealed that in these scenarios women are expected to have sex for money. No really. One particularly ridiculous interview involved a woman who agreed to persuade a female friend to have a threesome with her and the guy she met online who then cheated them of the promised payment, the presenter completely failing to pick up on the fact that the woman was distraught not because she had sex but because she didn't get paid. If she'd have said she was a prostitute and she didn't get paid, well... shocker. But because she found this guy on a Sugar Daddy website it's somehow the website's fault, even though it says you aren't supposed to use the site to meet people for one off experiences for money. And, to be fair, when the owner of the site is put on the spot he rightly says, don't use my site - go and be a prostitute if that's what you want to be. And, as he says, Bumble and Tinder aren't for prostitutes, but is there prostitution on those platforms - of course there is! It wasn't the first time this woman had done it either, and the first time she did get paid and she thought it was wonderful, again, seemingly oblivious to the fact that she'd sold sex for cash like a prostitute.... the mind boggles.

The whole documentary seemed to be determined to out the whole scene as a front for 'prostitution' and awfulness, but it all fell rather flat. She tried to contact the guy involved in the non-payment scam, which it turned out he had done several times, and then when he texted her back 'Who is this?' she was completely shocked and appalled. As if that was an outrageous reaction to have to some random woman leaving a missed call on his phone... She also met a girl who had seven Sugar Daddies and was raking in thousands of pounds a month, for 2-3 times a month meetings (which obviously include sex).

Then the presenter (inevitably I suppose) created her own profile on the site and tricked a guy into meeting her. He was offering her £250 for sex so she met him in a café or somewhere similar with a view to going to a room in hotel. She talked to him for a while and then obviously needing to extricate herself from the situation fled to the toilet to talk to the (hidden) camera about how scared she was and what an awful situation she was in. So she went back out and told the guy that she was sorry but she couldn't do it and offered to pay for the hotel room and the guy was perfectly fine about it, told her not to be silly, kissed her on the cheek and told her if she changed her mind to call him.

THE BASTARD!

I guess we should have known better really, BBC3 is notoriously overdramatic about these sort of things, next up we are going to watch 'Aroused', another documentary about porn stars (and unlike 'After Porn Ends' most of these I've actually heard of...) so that should/might be interesting..

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