An Early Christmas Present...

Merry Christmas to everyone who reads the blog, I hope you all have (or had) a grand day and you are feeling as great as I am.

Those of you who read the blog on a laptop rather than a phone might have noticed a rather curious stat on the 'Most Recent Orgasm' panel (top right of the page). It currently reads 24th of December for Mistress R's last orgasm, but also for my last orgasm and my last ruin. Now that doesn't seem right does it?

But it is! Because after Mistress came on my tongue last night, she teased me first to a ruin and then to a full blown orgasm. And it was A M A Z I N G !

I was wearing the Oxballs Ballstretcher, so my balls were really tight and Mistress was doing a wonderful job of teasing me. At one point when she was sucking my throbbing cock she was cupping my balls and applying light pressure (which felt fantastic, a little more pressure would have been wonderful too I think) until eventually she started to stroke me hard and fast to get me to the edge. 

I warned her I was close and she let go, but not soon enough and I leaked a few drops of cum. Mistress took hold of my cock and very gently massaged more cum out of my cock, before having me lick her fingers clean. She did this two or three times and it was hot as fuck, and not only that but it was so perfectly ruined that my cock stayed rock hard throughout.

Noticing this Mistress started to stroke me again, gently at first until she was sure that I wasn't about to explode... and then harder. I thought she was going to edge me again, and then I thought 'Is she going to ruin me again...?' cos I've never had a double ruin before. But as I approached the edge a second time Mistress pumped me harder and when I warned her I was close she kept pumping me hard and told me to cum.

Well, suffice to say that I blew quite a load, and again Mistress made me swallow quite a lot of it. 😊 

It was an awesome way to start Christmas, that's for sure. 

Hope yours is as exciting... 

Robert A

In the Middle of the Night... (Again)

You may remember the post I wrote a couple of weeks ago where I said that I woke up in the middle of the night feeling very horny... well last week that happened again. We had been out til late visiting relatives in the town where we both grew up. Since I don't drink and they have children it's generally always been the case that we go there, which isn't a problem but obviously by the time we drive home it usually means a late night.

I think we left their house about 1:15-1:30AM and so by the time we got home and sorted it was getting on for 2AM. Even though I had gone past being tired, I really wanted to go to bed because I knew if I didn't get to sleep soon then I would feel like crap on Sunday and we wouldn't get anything done.

Mistress decided she wanted to stay up for a while, so she went downstairs and I cleaned my teeth and went to bed. Of course I was wide awake, so I decided to read for a bit to try and help me go to sleep. I went straight to Literotica and read a few stories...

After the third or fourth story I started to feel tired and as I flicked off the light I noticed it was almost 3AM. Anything after 2AM is generally bad news for me, so I figured I wouldn't be getting up until at least 10AM and even then Sunday probably wasn't looking very 'productive'.

I fell asleep fairly quickly, but about 10-15 minutes later I was awake again and just like the week prior and the week before that I was hard as a rock and insanely horny. Which was kinda odd since it hadn't even been 24 hours since I had used my voucher and Mistress had allowed me a full orgasm!

I must have laid there for about half an hour, my cock getting harder and harder and feeling hornier and hornier. Not that I'm complaining you understand, since the last few months I have been heavily relying on cock rings to get and stay hard it is a wonderful feeling to be so fucking hard that you feel like you're going to explode any moment.

As I lay there half awake with my fingers curled around my throbbing cock, squeezing and very lightly stroking,  I once again fantasized about going downstairs to see Mistress. Like a fortnight ago though, there wasn't much point seeking permission to 'stroke' because I was getting so close to the edge from just the lightest of touches that what I really needed was permission to cum... and since I had that less than 24 hours ago I really couldn't see that request getting anywhere.

But still as I lay there my mind explored the possibility of going downstairs and kneeling in front of Mistress and begging to be allowed to cum again. I thought, what if I go down and ask to worship her gorgeous feet, maybe she would let me cum on them and lick them clean. It's been so long since I've got to cum on her feet properly... 

To be honest I was so horny I wouldn't have cared if she'd told me to ruin myself into my hand and lick it up*. In fact as my mind played out the possibilities I realised that I was so desperate that I would have done pretty much anything she asked to be allowed to cum and have her order me to clean up my mess.

* In fact I really hope one day Mistress does exactly this... the thought of that is so HOT.

By this time it was getting on for 4AM and I heard a noise downstairs. I figured Mistress was coming to bed and I suddenly realised I needed to go to the loo. I was still quite hard but managed to pee as I heard Mistress coming up the stairs and then I went back to bed. I lay down and my cock softened a bit, clearly the spell of ultra-horniness was broken and Mistress fell asleep as soon as her head hit the pillow anyway. I went to sleep a while later and woke up at 7:30AM. I stayed in bed for an hour trying to get back to sleep, but it wasn't happening. And as I lay there I replayed the previous night's 'events'... 

I thought again about how horny and desperate I was and for a moment I considered getting up and drafting a story based on what 'could' have happened if I had gone downstairs. I imagined different scenarios, culminating in one where Mistress told me if I really wanted to cum I would have to fit the largest butt plug we own, kneel in front of her and jerk off onto a large realistic dildo (which we don't own) and then suck and lick it clean. I may still write this story... but as we know, I really need to finish what's already been started before I start anything new. 

*I've since drafted five different versions of this story, I intend to write all five! 🤣

15th December 2024

This weekend was pretty good for us, we didn't do a massive amount, but we did drive around the local villages to look at the Christmas lights (which Mistress really loves) and we also had some pretty awesome sex! Both times Mistress came really hard and this afternoon she also got her small whip out so that she could whip my cock and balls while she was teasing me. That was awesome!

I wore the Oxballs Cocksling so my cock was rock hard and Mistress teased me wonderfully. The little whip still stings, especially when my balls are held so tight and she also used it on the head of my cock a few times too. Very intense, but it only made my cock harder.

It is quite hard to get to the edge with the Cocksling on, which is perhaps a bonus for some people... but I got there eventually. It didn't hurt that Mistress was kissing me after she sucked my straining cock and I love to kiss Mistress when her lips taste of cock, that's SO FUCKING HOT!

I also love that Mistress usually edges me at least twice now. In the past she tended to edge me and stop, but really that just made me not want to edge, since I knew it would be the end. But these days that's changed, which I really appreciate. Would be interesting to know how many times Mistress could edge me before I lost control, maybe one day we'll find out... 🙂

It's That Time of Year Again...

Hello readers... as you can see I have Christmassified the Blog Header once again, hope you like it. Of course I couldn't bring myself to cover up Mistress R's spectacular breasts.... 😊

I'm afraid, having re-read that story that I thought was almost finished, that it ain't as nearly finished as I thought. So that still needs work. On the upside I found two more stories that are mainly there, so that's four potential stories in the not too distant future.

I started writing a post last weekend, but that too is not quite finished, maybe I will find time to complete that later today. We'll see...

In the meantime, here are some new stories that I've added to the 'Stories by Other Authors' page recently...

  

'Gareth's Obsession' is now Officially Rated HOT!

It took a little while but I'm pleased to report that 'Gareth's Obsession' has now achieved the 4.5/5 rating necessary for it to be labelled 'HOT' on Literotica. That means I now have 13 'HOT' stories on there*, plus another 9 that are very close to that (at least 4.41). Thanks to everyone who voted for my story, and like I said before it shouldn't be too long before I have more to post. I actually found another pretty complete story in my desktop folder, so as soon as I get time I will finish those two up and get them posted.

*Actually I have another seventeen stories rated HOT on my old Malibuman666 account that I forgot about! 

In other news, you may remember in my last post I mentioned that Mistress had given me one of her special vouchers back in October that allowed me to 'ask permission' to orgasm in December and how it never occurred to me to use it when I was horny and desperate in the middle of the night on the morning of December the 1st! Well, that voucher has now been used...

Last night Mistress had a lovely orgasm on my tongue, but I wasn't feeling that great so we just cuddled afterwards. But this morning I woke up hard and when Mistress started stroking my cock it crossed my mind again. I was kind of undecided actually, and certainly not as desperate as I was last weekend, but after Mistress edged me and then gave my balls half a dozen really heavy slaps (which felt fucking INCREDIBLE) I soon started to reassess! 

And when Mistress started teasing my throbbing cock a second time I decided to strike while the iron was hot, or indeed while the cock was hard and requested permission to cum. Mistress asked me repeatedly if I was sure, and reminded me that I only get to use it once. I told her I was sure and she stroked my cock with her nails while she 'thought it over' for a minute.... then she told me to ask her nicely and then she told me okay, she would let me cum.

Again it was pretty intense, and Mistress wiped the cum from her hand on her left breast before allowing me to lick it clean. Then she had me clean her fingers. It was hot, but still a surprisingly small amount really (I later realised there was a pool of it on my stomach that Mistress probably couldn't see in the pathetically dim light of our pitiful bedside lamps, haha).

Also following my last post Mistress and I decided that we need to revisit our 'Chastity Contract' in the near future and try to make sure both of us are happy with the way things are going. Hopefully that will be done soon. I didn't want to rush into it and I have quite a few thoughts on it, but it's quite involved really and I want to get my thoughts down before we do that. I don't want to get into it too much now, but 'cageless' chastity is certainly a lot more complicated than 'caged' chastity (in my opinion)!

Finally this time, I'm happy to say that I have now lost 42lbs in weight since July (that's exactly 3 Stones in English!), which is great. I'm nearly as light as I have been at any time in the last fifteen years, although there's still plenty to lose. Maybe as much as the same again, which is a depressing thought... but at least it's going the right way. 

I still don't feel much different, honestly. I'm not miraculously charged with energy like you would perhaps think, but it is nice to be able to wear clothes that are somewhat normal sizes rather than trying to find 40" waist jeans to buy. Annoyingly I had a cupboard full of jeans, about seven pairs of 38", and when I tried them on they were all too big save for two pairs of 36" which fitted for about a week and then they started to feel baggy too. I've bought two new pairs of 36" which are better, but even those aren't really as tight as I'd like them to be, but I don't think I'm ready for 34's yet.

Of course, we now have Christmas on the horizon, which is a little worrying. But I feel like I am on top of it. There's no way I am going to put on a lot of weight over Christmas and I will be going to my slimming club on both Christmas Eve and New Year's Eve to make sure I don't put myself back so much that I get annoyed. I also plan to stick to the diet right up until Christmas Eve evening. This will be hard, of course, but I'd really like to be able to enjoy Christmas itself without worrying about it too much and the best way to do that is to keep on the straight and narrow as long as possible.

After Christmas I will be decorating Mistress R's office, so that should keep me off my backside and away from the chocolates. I'm actually quite pleased about that as I find the Christmas holidays a little boring if I don't have anything to do, especially if the weather is bad and you are basically stuck at home for 10 days straight.

You know, it's funny... I find it odd when people say 'You must be proud of yourself' for losing loads of weight. Well, yes I guess... but not really, because I should never have let myself get so fat in the first place. I mean it's backwards isn't it? People who don't let themselves get fat are the ones who should be proud of themselves. Right?

But whatever. Something had to change and it has, and that's got to be a good thing. And apparently I've stopped snoring, so that's definitely a positive for Mistress R! 🤣

Have You Ever Wanted to Cum So Badly?

I began writing a post a couple of weeks ago, but I never completed it (despite staying up til 2am trying!). Eventually I came back to it and tried to rewrite and finish it off, but then other things happened which needed adding to it and after a while the original post became such a garbled mess that I gave up completely. But I feel like there were important topics in that post and I do want to address them, so I'm going to try again.

But before we get into it, I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who read my latest story 'Gareth's Obsession' and also anyone who took the trouble to vote on the Literotica page. The rating has climbed up from 4.17 to 4.48 in the last couple of weeks and it's now so close to reaching 4.5 and getting a 'HOT' rating. Hopefully it will get there, but if not, well never mind. 4.48 is still a very good score.

Actually, I have started going through the writing folder on my Desktop and I've already pretty much completed a story that's been sitting there since Boxing Day 2022! It was so close to being done, I can't really understand why I left it there all this time. It's pretty short, so nothing like my last story... but maybe that's what I need to concentrate on for now, finishing what's already in progress and not getting bogged down in stories that take weeks to write. This story should be posted soon, I just need to give it one more read through I think.

Oh yes, long, mentally draining stories... that's how this post all started.

19th November 2024

Now I don't want to sound 'dramatic', after all writing is my choice and I do enjoy the creative process (and the ensuing feedback, good and bad) but I have to say in all honesty that the last few weeks have been a little challenging. It's been so long since I wrote a really long, involved story like 'Gareth's Obsession' that I'd forgotten quite what a mental strain it can be. In fact I distinctly remember writing one of my longer stories, many years ago, and it became so overwhelming that it really affected my mood in a very negative way.  

Thankfully once the story was finished and posted I could also see how ridiculous that was and after that I tended to avoid writing these really long, involved stories and instead concentrated on shorter stories that I could knock out pretty much in one 2-3 hour stint. Yes I would keep refining them for a couple of days until I was sure it was as good as it was going to get, but basically it was a short term commitment that didn't inflict too much mental strife.

I didn't know 'Gareth's Obsession' would turn into a 20,000 word story when I started it, and if I had I might not have got that far with it. I do like writing and of course there is a sense of achievement in finishing something of that scale, but the problem with a story like that is that it is always bubbling away in the back of your mind, even when you aren't actually working on it.

It's not simply the struggle of 'creating' a story and getting it just how you want it either, though that was bad enough, especially when I decided I didn't like the names I'd chosen for the characters and had to think of new ones that were suitable for each of them and that also worked with each other*. I mean the physical 'changing' isn't difficult, it's just find-and-replace, but trying to get them to settle into the story is not that easy once you're used to the originals and I changed three of the character's names several times until I was happy with them.

*One of my older stories had a couple in it called James and Janie, the feedback I got for that one was that the story was great but the names made it hard to read. Reading it back I could totally see what they meant, and I wonder if this was a case of me changing the names at the last minute and simply not seeing the problem before I sent it to Literotica? Could very well be...

But it's not just all that... there's also the simple fact that once you embark on writing a story like this you can't help but constantly have it in your head. Even if you're not actively working on it, your brain is still working away, and so apart from constantly thinking about the 'mechanics' of it all you're also dwelling on the 'content' endlessly too.

What I mean by that is, if you read a story like that and it takes up 20 mins, 30 mins of your time then hopefully it arouses you and you either get off on it (or not) and then you go back to your normal life and probably forget about it until next time you want to be stimulated. But when you are writing a story like that, there's no 'break' from it, because it's always in the back of your mind. So you are in this weird state of constantly thinking about cuckolding, chastity, humiliation, or whatever else the story involves even if it's only at a low 'background' level.

And then there's a whole other side to it. Obviously I have been writing my stories for a very long time (well over 25 years I should say) so you'd think this wouldn't be an issue any more, and I would probably agree with you, but... well, you'd be wrong. 

How can I explain this?

So obviously, I've been writing this blog for thirteen and a half years, and you know me/us pretty well at this point. However when you write about a topic like Femdom and Chastity, you obviously present it a certain way because that's what the audience is interested in. I don't mean I'm making stuff up that didn't happen, because I never have... but reading the blog I could see that if you met us you might be surprised how 'normal' or even 'vanilla' we are aside from indulging in 'orgasm control' and a very small amount of 'Femdom'. 

And that's precisely why it's never become truly 'comfortable' for me to write the stories I do knowing that Mistress is going to read them. Yes I feel incredibly lucky to have a wife/Mistress who is accepting / approving of my stories* and indeed she helps me to finalize them before publication by checking my grammar and making suggestions if she thinks dialogue is confused etc (which I appreciate very much as Mistress is an avid reader and is a great help in this regard). 

*Incidentally, Mistress also likes to read erotic stories, though they are mostly quite different to the ones I read.

And I still very much do want her to read them, but I still feel somewhat uncomfortable when I write a story and send it to her knowing what's in it. I mean, it's a bit weird... and while she knows I wouldn't ever want to be cuckolded in real life (for example), it's still not a 'comfortable' thing to admit to fantasizing about. And well, like in most of my stories, that's only the start of it... 

In fact, I do think that plays on my mind quite a bit during the writing process and probably means I subconsciously hold back a bit with my stories when it comes to taking them to the next obvious step. I've often thought that my shorter stories read like the 'first chapter' of a longer story, where I set up themes I want to explore and 'tease' them without actually following through on them.

So if you read my stories, you'll probably notice where I often write about the 'wife' character telling the 'husband' character what they are 'going to make them do' rather than writing about them actually doing it. Sometimes I might have even worked around things I feel uncomfortable writing about directly, by writing about them in 'hindsight'. I think this is a kind of safety thing, where I'm keeping the story in the realms of 'fantasy' even if that's not how the story is intended. So the story generally ends before these things turn into 'reality', which is what I mean when I say that so many stories read like 'First Chapters'.

Honestly, this is probably a bit annoying for my readers and something I feel like I need to get over if I'm going to continue writing more regularly. I have several stories that could easily be continued, not least 'Girls Talk' (the one that I have received the most requests for more chapters for...) but also several others.

I feel like I'm not explaining myself terribly well here. What I mean is, while my stories are basically 'fantasies', they do represent the kind of stories I like to read and there's nothing in my stories that I don't think is 'hot'. I mean there's nothing in my stories that I put in solely for the readers enjoyment. And while I admit that I do write a lot about cuckolding and that's because it's very difficult to write multiple stories about chastity without progressing to that, I'm not going to pretend that reading about it doesn't turn me on.

For me cuckolding is an obvious progression of chastity in fiction because once you make the woman's pleasure all important, where is the most obvious place for that to go? She cheats with a guy with a bigger cock, etc etc... which leads to having him clean her, and eventually him and so on. All of which I like reading. And honestly if anyone can write 20,000 words about chastity without either going down the Cuckolding or Femdom (or both) route, then that's pretty impressive.

Sorry, I realise I'm babbling on here... 

So after all this playing on my mind for so long, on the Saturday night (the 19th, the day after Literotica published my new story) I went to bed about midnight, but Mistress stayed up much later. I read a couple of stories before I tried to go to sleep, and that on top of everything that had been brewing with 'Gareth's Obsession'... meant I didn't sleep well and I kept waking up. This carried on for quite some time, until about 2:30am or something, when I woke up yet again and very, very hard.

This happens now and again, and oddly usually when Mistress R stays up late reading and drinking wine. As has happened before I toyed with the idea of going downstairs and asking permission to stroke my cock. I never have though, which is frustrating because while I would love Mistress to be more 'spontaneous' about things like 'out of the bedroom' ass-worship, when it comes down to it apparently I am not 'spontaneous' either...

But actually, on this occasion I really didn't want permission to stroke my cock, because I was so 'on-edge' that I knew if I stroked more than about five times I was going to cum. So, after a few minutes of restlessness I got up and went to the toilet and then tried yet again to go back to sleep. But then a few seconds later I heard Mistress shutting off the lights downstairs and coming to bed. Oddly it was only the other day that I was thinking how often Mistress used to stay up late and then come to bed a bit 'tipsy' and start grinding her ass against me or even sucking or stroking me until I came. 

So when she got into bed I cuddled up against her and put my arm around her. I was still very torn about what I really wanted, and while I wasn't actually hard any more I still felt incredibly needy and I really, really, really wanted to cum. Not only that but I really wanted Mistress to make me eat my cum. And not just a little bit, but every last drop.

Now the thing is, as long-term readers will know, is that ever since we started 24/7/365 chastity back in April 2011, one of the stipulations Mistress made when accepting the role of 'cageless' keyholder was that I wasn't allowed to ask permission to cum. I believe I asked once about a week in and Mistress's answer was 'So you want to end chastity?'... I did not want to 'end chastity' then and I did not want to end 'chastity' now and so in all this time I don't believe I have ever asked for permission to cum (unless Mistress had given me one of her special vouchers - more on that later). 

In recent years I have told her how 'badly' I want to be allowed to cum, but that is not the same as asking permission as far as I am concerned. I think initially Mistress made this rule because she didn't want me 'topping from the bottom' (essentially) and I think it was a good rule. Whether it still is I'm not sure...

Anyway, the point is I haven't ever asked and so it was a massive thing for me to actually ask her this, so even before I asked I was already feeling quite nervous about it... 

Well that's an understatement, I was extremely nervous about asking her this. Despite this, as I cuddled against her I literally begged her to make me cum and told her how badly I wanted to eat my cum for her. Mistress reached back and loosely stroked my half-hard cock (I tell you these nerves were real and not helping at all!) as she did so I begged her to let me cum again. 

Mistress turned over and asked me if I really wanted to be allowed to cum. I said I did and she reached over to turn the light on. Then she pulled the sheet back and started to stroke me, I told her again how much I wanted her to make me swallow my cum, because I wanted her to 100% understand how badly I wanted this. In fact this is something that I'm pretty sure is in our (long neglected) chastity contract, but recently it has been very hit and miss with Mistress either only feeding me a small amount or not doing it at all (which honestly wouldn't bother me so much if I was coming every week, but of course it's usually not much more than once a month or so...).

Anyway, as I thought it didn't take many strokes to push me over the edge, I didn't even feel like I had got properly hard, which was weird considering my cock was like an iron bar about five minutes before - but like I said, I was extremely stressed about breaking this rule that had been in place for so long and just generally feeling weird about feeling so incredibly 'desperate' and craving the taste of cum so badly.

I mean, I'm used to being 'edged' and 'being close' but this was a totally different level of 'need' that only happens very occasionally to me. The feeling is actually very intoxicating and incredibly intense, and if I wasn't in 'chastity' I would 100% have jerked myself off in a heartbeat. But then if I wasn't in chastity I doubt I would ever experience this feeling... 

It was pretty intense and I felt super sensitive really quickly, but even though Mistress pushed her fingers into my mouth, aside from one tiny droplet of cum there just didn't seem to be any on her hand at all. I couldn't feel it on my skin either so either it flew off somewhere or maybe I had a 'dry' orgasm, which has never happened before I don't think, but can apparently be caused by stress - which would make a lot of sense here! 

So in the end I didn't quite get what I'd hoped for, but it certainly wasn't Mistress's fault, she told me the next day that she was going to feed it to me but it just wasn't there. I still felt weird about breaking this rule the next day but Mistress told me not to worry about it. I know she was being kind and didn't want me to feel bad about it and I really appreciated that she allowed me to cum this one time... because I really needed it. 

But the more I've thought about this since the more I realised that while I was truly desperate to cum in that moment, and while I can't fault Mistress for allowing me a once in thirteen years request... I think the reason I felt so odd about it the day after was simply that it made me question what up until that point had been a 'certainty'.

You see, cageless chastity is a whole different thing to the 'regular' kind. Not that I've ever had the benefit of a cage, but while it certainly has its inconveniences it does offer a certain amount of 'certainty', if we ignore the whole 'being able to pull out' or 'still possible to cum in the cage' arguments. I mean it does a lot of 'work', whereas when you are free it's really down to the person in chastity to be a) mentally strong and b) truthful.

I have wondered from time to time what would happen if one day, like on Saturday night, I was so insanely horny that I just couldn't stop myself from jerking off. I know that straight after I would feel like shit, but what would worry me more than anything would be confessing to Mistress what I had done.

Now you might think I would be worried because of how I thought she would react and you would be right, but you're probably wrong about the reasons for it. Obviously I don't know for certain how she would react, but my worry would be that she would be kind and say it didn't matter, that I'd done well to last thirteen years and everything that a loving wife would feel was the right thing to say. But... that would be the worst thing I could hear, honestly. I would be much happier if she was annoyed about it, because then I would know it meant something and I hadn't simply been chastizing 'myself' all that time.

Now, this isn't the same situation as her agreeing to let me cum on Saturday night, because I asked and she decided to let me - it's not the same because she could have said 'no' if she'd wanted to. (She also could have said 'You know you're not allowed to ask that' if she'd wanted to.) But it still fucked with my head quite a bit, and it made me wonder if I would change that rule if it was an option? 

I probably would honestly... because these days I am less concerned with being made to wait long periods of time. I am way more excited about the feeling of submissiveness I get from either being allowed to cum, or being ruined and made to eat my load. 

I mean, I'd still want Mistress to have a choice, including simply saying 'no', and maybe having asked I then wouldn't be able to ask again for a period of thirty days or something. I don't know...

I don't know, it just made me question everything that the last thirteen years had been built on, which is why I felt so weird about the whole thing. 

Anyway, about a week after this all happened Mistress teased and edged me, including allowing me to worship her gorgeous asshole. She left me so close to the edge that she ended up ruining my orgasm and feeding me my cum, all of which made me very happy* and then last night...

*I wrote about this in my last post on the 25th of November

30 November 2024

Once again I was very tired and I decided to go to bed earlier than Mistress, who stayed up for quite a while. Again I decided to read a Literotica story before I went to sleep, one I found a couple of days ago but hadn't had time to read because it's about 11,500 words! It's called 'Black Diamond' (I'll post a link at the bottom of the page - I've already added it to my 'Stories by Other Author's Page') and it's a well written Cuckold/BBC/Slutwife story with an interesting twist.

This took longer than I expected because it's so long, and I eventually clicked off my light at just after midnight. I didn't get hard while I was reading the story, but I enjoyed it. However, about half an hour later I woke up again and my cock was rock hard. I must have laid there for ten minutes sleepily debating whether to get up and go downstairs to ask for permission to stroke my aching cock, but once again I elected not to. One of these days... 

I eventually went back to sleep, and then sometime later I woke up again, suddenly wide awake - I'm not sure what time it was, maybe 1:30 or 2am. I heard Mistress coming to bed and I reached across to stroke her back as she got onto the mattress. Unlike last time Mistress moved straight towards me and cuddled me, and as I felt her gorgeous naked body pressing against me I felt myself getting very hard.

Mistress reached down and started stroking me, this time nice and rough, making sure I stayed hard. It felt amazing and for some reason even though I only came about a fortnight ago and was ruined a week ago I was convinced she was going to let me cum again. Mistress continued stroking me and rubbing my balls, bringing me closer and closer and closer to the edge. So close I could almost taste it...

But as soon as I told her I was getting to the point of no return she let go! I couldn't believe it. I mean, I don't really know why I was so convinced she was going to let me cum, and in a way I kinda loved that she didn't, but at the same time even though it hadn't been that long I was already feeling pretty desperate to taste my cum again.

We cuddled a while longer and then Mistress turned over and went to sleep. I also went to sleep (eventually!) and it wasn't until I woke up the next morning that I remembered the voucher that Mistress gave me in October which granted me permission to ask for an orgasm at some point during December. All this happened way after midnight on November the 30th so technically it was already December and I could have asked. Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamn!

Of course, it's only permission to ask, it doesn't guarantee anything and Mistress could have said yes, no or ruined me... but if I had it in my mind I would 100% have asked. Believe me. I really wanted to cum again.

Incidentally, after I asked Mistress to let me cum the other week I did suggest that we treat it as me 'using my voucher' earlier, but Mistress decided to let me keep it, which was very nice of her. 

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Have You Ever Had an Orgasm Headache?

Recently I experienced something called an 'Orgasm Headache'... or in my case perhaps more accurately an 'Edging Headache'. This is an intensely painful sensation that starts in your neck and travels up into the back of your head. In fact I would go as far as to say that it was perhaps the second most painful thing I've ever experienced after a ruptured disc in my back many years ago.

Looking online it seems there are two causes for this, one is to do with blood pressure and one is to do with the muscles in your neck and shoulders contracting as you approach orgasm. Well I went to my chiropractor and my doctor and I'm happy to say that the worst of it seems to have passed. My neck and shoulders are still very stiff, but thankfully that terrible stabbing pain in the back of the head during sex has gone.

I'm pretty sure it's not to do with blood pressure, though my reading was a bit high at the doctors so they got me doing that at home for a couple of weeks. But anyway, the blood pressure kind of 'Orgasm Headache' apparently comes on when you actually orgasm and hits suddenly, where the muscular variation builds as you get closer. I'm seeing my chiropractor again tomorrow and hopefully this problem will continue to recede, but at least I am able to enjoy sex with my wonderful Mistress R again!

Speaking of which, on Saturday Mistress and I retired to the bedroom for some R&R and while we were kissing before I went down on her my cock got very hard and as I knelt between her open thighs she reached down and stroked me. This felt so good, not least because I have not had the most responsive cock of late; in fact it's been quite a number of months since I've been teased without using a cock ring.

I had hoped that losing weight would have helped, and maybe it is helping, but it seems age and my nerve damage is working against me here. Still, feeling optimistic, after settling down between Mistress's beautiful thighs and licking her to orgasm I decided to try without the cock ring for a change, not least because I really miss having my balls slapped 'properly' and that's just too painful when they are trapped with a ring behind them.

At first it went well, and I got a decent erection, but unfortunately Mistress is used to being able to tease me very gently with a cock ring on with me still being able to stay rock hard. But in this instance that didn't really work and I quickly lost it. Mistress continued for some time, sucking and stroking me, without a tremendous amount of success, it must be said, until she stood over me and made me beg to lick her delicious ass. 

As usual, this did the trick and I was soon hard again, and of course I absolutely loved every second of it! Mistress rose up and made me beg a second time, before allowing me another bout of heavenly ass worship that left me teetering on the brink of orgasm. As Mistress moved to my side, I warned her I was close and she let go, moving to kiss me as I fought to keep control.

Mistress looked down at my throbbing cock and curled her fingers around it, stroking it very slowly and gently until my cum began to leak out. Mistress asked me if I thought was a 'ruin' or a proper 'orgasm' and we agreed that it was definitely ruined as I definitely hadn't enjoyed any kind of 'release' from it.

Then she said 'Well, you know what you have to do now..." and she scooped up my cum with her fingers and told me to lick them clean. 

It was truly wonderful! 😊

The New Story is Doing Quite Well on Literotica so Far...

It's been five days since 'Gareth's Obsession' went up on Literotica, and so far the results are positive. I've had three comments (all nice ones!) and so far it's scoring 4.38/5.0, which is great. Hopefully over time it will get to 4.5 and then it will get a 'HOT' rating. But we'll see what happens. 

It's been read 6,600 times in five days which is pretty good considering it's in the 'Fetish' section, which is not a popular section of the site... but it only has 68 votes so a few more 5's and it could easily go up.

I haven't started wrtiting anything else yet as that one took a lot out of me, but I will start thinking about doing something soon.

Gareth's Obsession (Written November 2024)

CHAPTER ONE 

Gareth sat with his head down, breathing hard. At 46 he was still in good shape, but there was no getting away from it, the gym just wasn’t as much fun as it used to be. In fact these days there was only one thing that kept him coming back… and she didn’t even know he existed. He lifted his head and glanced around the room; the gym was quite busy but he couldn’t see Amanda.

 

He dropped his head for a moment and then hauled himself to his feet. God he hated himself, why did he bother coming here just to catch a glimpse of her? She must be fifteen years his junior and so far out of his league it wasn’t even funny. Plus he strongly suspected she was seeing Alex, the scary looking personal trainer who worked there.

 

He looked around again and spotted his ‘nemesis’ in the corner. The guy was 6’3 minimum and built like a brick shithouse, no way did Gareth want to have a ‘problem’ with Alex! Sure, he seemed friendly enough day to day, but if he really was dating Amanda then he didn’t look like he’d take kindly to another man messing with his girl.

 

He watched Alex explaining to a short, slightly tubby girl  how to use one of the machines. She had obviously just joined the gym and nodded along enthusiastically as he spoke, but honestly seemed far more interested in Alex’s huge, veiny arms than the machine itself.

 

Gareth flicked his eyes around the room again and finally spotted Amanda. Oh shit… every time he saw her it was just like the first; she was simply ‘unreal’. Beautiful blue eyes, shoulder length blond hair tied back in a high ponytail and that incredible body tightly encased in Lycra gymwear… he could barely take his eyes off her.

 

He drank her in for a few more seconds before shifting his gaze, despising himself for being so creepy. He turned to walk away and almost bumped straight into Alex who was now standing close beside him.

 

“Steady on!” said Alex.

 

“Shit sorry, I wasn’t… looking…. where I was going.”

New Story is Finished!

My new story is done. Finally....! And it will be posted here soon. Mistress R has just spent the last hour reading and checking my work - which is much appreciated honestly, because I've spent so long on it now that I honestly can't see the wood for the trees anymore! She didn't find masses wrong with it, just a few punctuation problems and the like... all I need to do now is think of a good title. 

Obviously being that it is going to be posted on Literotica it needs a good title that gives a flavour of what it's about, otherwise how will all the 'rednecks' find it to leave their hilariously nasty comments? Quite why these people bother to read stories like mine when it's plainly obvious that they aren't going to like them I really don't know. At least they will have plenty to go at this time as there's just under 20,000 words to read.

In case you are wondering this is another chastity/cuckold story, with a bit of light Femdom thrown in here and there, but nothing heavy. I know I've written a lot of cuckold stories before, but I find it quite difficult to write a pure chastity story, adding cuckolding to the mix immediately gives you so much more to write about. But maybe next time I will try to write something different...

I have got an idea in mind, but I'm not sure it's really the basis for a story - maybe just a blogpost that someone might find useful...?

Okay, sorry to keep stalling you, I will get it done by tomorrow night at the latest. I'm sure I can come up with a satisfactory title by then.

My Story is Getting Closer...

I've reached that difficult stage of writing a long story where it's nearly finished and I start second guessing everything that I've done. I'm even wondering if there's enough actual 'sex' in the story... originally there was supposed to be another scene which was included but I left it out as it interrupted the flow of the main story. I don't know if that was a good idea or not... but on the other hand it feels like the final scene has more impact because of the long slow build.

I also find it quite hard to choose names for my characters sometimes, especially if I start writing with names that I then decide to change. I feel like in fiction, unlike in real life, characters need names that somewhat reflect their status in the story. So for example a 'submissive' male could be called Peter or James, but not Brad or Mike. 

Similarly an unattainable 'Goddess' type really can't be called Peggy or Betty, it's just not going to work. Or course you can take this too far, I've seen stories on Literotica where the 'submissive' male is called Cedric or something equally daft that means you can't even read it with any sense of investment. So it's a delicate balance, and one that I hope I have got right. But at the end of the day, there comes a point where you have to go with what you've done and for most people who read it as long as it's not obviously jarring they will just take it at face value. 

I've printed my story for the final time and I just need to go through it again with a fine tooth comb (and perhaps decided whether or not to write in the scene I left out) and then it will be time to post it up and start writing the next one. 

Progress on My Latest Story...

I know I said it was coming, I know I said it was close... but it's not quite ready yet. For some reason the last ten days I just haven't had the time to knuckle down and get it finished, but it should definitely be finished and posted by the end of the week. In the meantime I have added four more stories to my 'Stories by Other Authors' page, so if you like you could check those out while you wait. 

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Quick Update and A Hot Sunday Afternoon...

First of all I just want to give you a quick update on my new story. I've finished the first draft, and re-read it all and now I've printed it out (on 53 sheets of A4 paper!) to start fine tuning it. I didn't get time to look at it yesterday and I am very much aware that I need to keep the momentum going otherwise there is a serious risk of disinterest setting in. 

Also, I am very self-critical about creating things and if I dwell on it too much I know I will start picking it to pieces and want to change things and then before you know it I will convince myself it's absolute garbage - which I know it isn't, and I don't want that to happen. I think it's probably better to keep the rewriting to a minimum and to post it and move on. 

I re-read what I think is my 'best' story yesterday ('Girls Talk'), this is the one that has the most requests for more chapters and, like many of my stories, it deserves at least one more. I do have a tendency to write 'first chapters' rather than stories that are complete in themselves, which is a bit annoying honestly, as even I can see that most stories I write feel incomplete.

But I did notice a couple of small details that bugged me in that story, as I had duplicated them in my new story - I mean I seriously doubt anyone else would have noticed, but I still want to change them. Please don't laugh but one of them is that I gave a character in my new story the same car as one in that story... I mean who the fuck would worry about shit like that but me? FFS. 🤣

As my interest in writing has come back, so has my interest in reading stories by other authors, and I am still working on adding stories to my 'Stories by Other Authors' page. I want to do it nicely though and give each one a banner to click on rather than just a list of links. Currently you can access this page from the link at the bottom of the 'Stories' page (under the links to my stories), but when it is a bit more substantial in content I will put a link somewhere more convenient.

Last night I read a great story, which will definitely be getting a link, called 'Her Enthusiasm Made Me A Cuckold'. I just picked a story at random from the 'Loving Wives' section of Literotica and got lucky. The story starts out as a kind of 'wife watching' story and escalates from there. It was only posted a couple of days ago and apparently 'part two' is in the works. I thought it was really good and my cock was rock hard by the end of it (can't give a higher recommendation than that!).

Speaking of which, as I type this, Mistress and I have just got out of bed after a lovely bit of afternoon playtime. Mistress had a lovely orgasm on my tongue, and it was super easy to make her cum today. I mean I would have loved it to go an a bit longer honestly, she tasted so amazing I just wanted to lick her pussy all afternoon but that's just me all over. Always want to be putting stuff in my mouth. 🤣

The last couple of times I've used the Oxballs Cocksling and it's felt great. I don't know what happens with these things, but I haven't used it for ages because the last time I used it (in a Femdom Session, so not recently) it was very uncomfortable and honestly it felt like it was hindering rather than helping. Which I found kind of strange because over the years it's been very good and very reliable.

So I decided to try it again and it felt great, really easy to get on, comfortable and very effective at keeping my balls tight and my cock hard. Mistress teased, stroked and sucked me beautifully before making my day by having me worship her gorgeous ass. I wanted her ass so bad, and today I was definitely going to ask for it, but in the end she decided she wanted me to do it - which is obviously so much hotter. 

Mistress sucked and stroked my cock as I worshipped her delicious asshole and I gotta tell ya my cock felt huge and rock hard throughout. After the heavenly ass-worship Mistress continued stroking me and since I hadn't had to ask to worship her ass I decided to chance my arm and ask her to remove her bra so I could see her gorgeous breasts. The strap on the side nearest me had fallen down her shoulder anyway, so I mean... 

Mistress looked at me and thought for a second, said 'Not today' and replaced her bra strap.

I mean, was I disappointed - yes, obviously. But considering I just got to worship her divine ass, I couldn't be that upset about it... and secretly I kind of like when she tells me no anyway. That's kinda what got me in this whole mess isn't it - hahaha. 

Misress stroked me to the edge and then stopped and we lay in each others arms feeling very close and happy. But my cock just wasn't getting the message and it continued to throb, until I asked Mistress to please touch it some more. 

This is where the Oxballs really comes into its own, being able to be teased so lightly but still keeping me rock hard. It felt absolutely incredible and I could have laid there all day with my cock being gently stroked and scratched. But at the same time it also felt great when Mistress slapped my tight balls and cock... she really is amazing. 

First New Story in a Long Time...

I am excited to tell you that I am finally writing again and will soon be posting a brand new story which includes elements of chastity, cuckolding, cbt, Femdom, etc... all the stuff you would expect from one of my stories. Only it's a little different this one... and it's also very long. I'm still finishing up the first draft and still wondering whether to add in some extra scenes, but it's already 30 pages of A4 and it's only going to get longer. 

I'm wondering whether to post it in several chapters on Literotica or not. The good thing about doing that is that gives you a few goes at catching people's attention, but equally I have quite a lot of followers who will find it anyway. I don't know... I'll see how I feel when I finish it. 

And then of course there's the question of where to put it, since Literotica still don't have categories that my stories fit into easily. So there's either 'Loving Wives' (where it will get flamed and ripped to pieces but lots of views) or Fetish where it won't get as many views but the audience will be less hostile.

Decisions... 

Anyway, it shouldn't be too long... but don't be surprised if it doesn't appear until next week cos there's still a lot of work to do.

A Very Nice Surprise!

Perhaps I was a little hasty posting about yesterday's fun...

After a good night's sleep, Mistress and I headed to the bedroom a couple of hours ago and happily Mistress had a nice orgasm with my tongue on her clit and my finger teasing her ass. I just love making her cum like that, and I think her pussy tastes gorgeous anyway, but when she cums it suddenly tastes even better, which is why I never want to stop! :)

Afterwards I slipped my cock ring on and Mistress soon had me rock hard with her fingers. There are pros and cons with the cock ring, but one big pro is that it does mean Mistress can tease me with gentle, frustrating touches that probably wouldn't be enough for me to stay hard otherwise. And I really love it when she does that.

Anyway, once Mistress tired of teasing me with her fingers she stopped kissing me and took my cock in her mouth, while I slid my hand down to touch her ass. It wasn't long however before Mistress got up on her knees... at first I thought she was just uncomfortable and was manoeuvring herself into a more comfortable position, but then she stood up and swung her foot over me, placing it on the bed so that she was right over me.

I reached up and parted her cheeks, exposing her gorgeous ass and then Mistress made me beg to worship her asshole. She sank down, stroking my straining cock as my tongue eagerly lapped at her. Then I felt her bend forward and take my cock into her mouth, which again feels fucking amazing.

She did this twice, making me beg for her ass each time... then the third time, I knew I was getting close, but I still wanted to worship her ass some more, if only for a few seconds before I had to stop. At first I didn't think Mistress heard me as she continued stroking, but then when I rather panickily warned her again she told me she was going to let me cum.

I returned my attention to her ass as I felt my cock start to spasm. I love coming like that and it was very, very intense. Mistress pulled her ass away and continued milking the cum out of my throbbing cock and then when I couldn't take any more she brought her hand to my mouth and had me lick it clean.

It seemed like there was an awful lot of cum, considering it's only been about three weeks, but I'm not complaining - I love it when Mistress makes me eat my load. 

Morning Hotel Teasing

Mistress and I enjoyed our wedding anniversary this week, and this year we decided to go away for a night to celebrate. To be honest we don't tend to go away very often, neither of us tend to sleep well away from home and this wasn't much different despite a good few drinks the night before! 

Mistress was already awake when I woke up at 6 and by the time I was giving up the idea of going back to sleep (about 7AM) she was already out of bed and half dressed. 

Pondering whether I could manage a swim before breakfast, I sat up in bed and then Mistress appeared in her underwear looking sexy and delicious. I thought she was just coming over to my side of the huge bed to kiss me, but instead she got on the bed and knelt in front of me. 

While I would have loved to rip Mistress's panties off and eat her to orgasm, I knew this wasn't on the cards (not least because I knew she was tired and also because I had forgotten to bring my razor so I was quite stubbly already)... but what happened next was quite unexpected.

Mistress sat back down on the bed and offered me her foot to kiss. Then she pulled back the covers to expose my cock and started using her feet to tease it. She continued until my cock was hard (this would have been amazing if we had had some lube with us) and then offered her foot to my mouth again. I could already taste the scent of my cock on her pretty feet which made my cock throb even harder.

Then she dropped her leg and sat upright, reaching forward and teasing my cock with her fingertips and long nails. Then she curled her fingers around it and started to stroke. It felt amazing, and the only thing that would have made it better was if she had been completely naked. 

Then she licked the fingers on her left hand and started to tease the head of my cock with them as she continued to stroke. This is a neat little trick that Mistress has picked up in the last year or so, which I really love.

As she stroked harder and faster I convinced myself she was going to let me cum. After all, we were on holiday, it was our anniversary.... she had to let me cum, right? 

Even so, when I felt the edge approaching I warned Mistress and she immediately let go, leaving my poor denied cock positively aching for release. 

Gah! I was so sure she was going to let me cum, or at least ruin it. 

But no. No cumming for me.

But as she sometimes likes to remind me, I wanted (and explicitly asked her) to be 'mean' about keeping me denied and frustrated so I only have myself to blame. This is 100% true, and I wouldn't change it for the world, or course. But even so... I would love to have felt myself explode, or even leak a nice load of cum for her to feed me. :)

After my swim I cuddled her from behind and told her I was so convinced she would let me cum. She said she 'thought about it', but then decided 'no'. Which I loved to hear, honestly. That it was a conscious decision on her part just makes my memory of that morning even hotter.

Mistress then said, I don't think we've ever done it like that before - which is true, I can't ever remember her sitting between my legs like that before and stroking my cock. It would be a great position for her to wrap her left hand around my balls too, and tug and squeeze then while she stroked my cock.

I hope that happens soon! 

Another Period of Chastity Comes to an End...

Earlier this evening my latest period of chastity came to a very hot close. It had 'only' been 34 days this time - quite brief compared to the previous two (62 and 67 or thereabouts), but somehow it felt longer. After Mistress enjoyed an orgasm on my tongue, I slipped the rubber cockring over my cock and balls and Mistress soon had me hard as a rock. Harder than I've felt for a good while I think, which hopefully is a sign that my weightloss is yielding some positive results!

Mistress and I kissed as she used her long nails to torment my cock before pumping me hard with her fist until I very, very nearly ruined. I knew it was touch and go, and when I looked down I could see one creamy drop of cum just hanging from the tip of my cock. Mistress rubbed her finger around my cock head and then pushed it into my mouth... that was so hot, especially when Mistress was kissing me and playing with my balls afterwards.

'I don't think that really even counts as a ruin,' she whispered and took hold of my cock again. I thought she might gently stroke me over the edge and then let go (although to be honest the edge had well and truly receded by then), but instead she stroked me hard and fast, bringing me closer and closer to the edge with her touch and her words. And when I inevitably reached that precipice for the second time to my surprise she didn't let go, but told me to cum and kept pumping until I came all over her hands, which she then had me clean with my tongue.

It was so damn good! That was my third 'full' orgasm in this chastity year (Apr/Mar); no ruins as yet, but hopefully some will come along. Last year they were split 50/50 (five of each altogether). I hope at some point I get to cum on Mistress's feet or pussy too, it seems a very long time since I was allowed to do that.

The dieting is going well, I've lost 28lbs in ten weeks, which is better than I expected honestly. But while this is really positive, the reality is there is still a long way to go. I'm hoping that by Christmas I will be back to where I was the last time I dieted properly (probably 2017 or 2018) and by Spring the lightest I've been since the early 2000s. 

I don't know why, but I feel it is 'easier' to stick to it this time somehow. Previously the novelty has always worn off fairly quickly, but ten weeks in I have been absolutely rigid on sticking to my targets, with no sneaky cheats at all. I think the fact that I have been losing so much so quick has helped keep me focussed and enthused.

I've also started reading some Literotica stories in a bid to try and inpire myself to finish all those stories sitting rotting on my desktop. Perhaps I will share a few of the best ones I've found in the next few days...

A New Tease for Milovana

 

Way back in July I created a new tease for the Milovana website. And after a long and protracted battle that tease was also voted the 'Classic Tease of the Month' (by just one vote!). Annoyingly I've been waiting to share it with you here for the last few days because the Milovana website has been down and so I couldn't access it to share the link and nor would that link have been any use if I had been able to. 

You can play the tease by clicking on the banner above. 

Perilously Close!

This afternoon Mistress and I retired to the bedroom for a little while, which came as a welcome break from the week of decorating that lies ahead of us. Mistress had a lovely orgasm on my tongue and then after I slid the cock ring on she soon had me rock hard. We kissed as she teased and stroked me, and she also rubbed the skin behind my balls which felt amazing!

After a while she started to suck my cock as I fondled her ass and then she got up onto her hands and knees and swung her leg over my head. Ooooooooooooh! Seconds later she was standing over me, stroking my cock as I begged to be allowed to worship her delicious ass.

She sank down, stroking my cock hard and I eagerly lifted my head to meet her ass as it dropped, my tongue already seeking it's target. God it felt amazing, massaging Mistress's amazing ass with my tongue as she sucked and stroked my cock. Just thinking about it now brings a smile to my face... but soon Mistress lifted off and stood over me again, while I used my hands to spread her cheeks and gaze at her pink hole. She continued stroking me, and then asked if I wanted more.

Even as I was begging for me I knew I wouldn't last long. But I wanted more so badly... sigh. Mistress sank down and my tongue moved quickly, but it was no good I was getting seriously, perilously, close to the point of no return and I had to tell Mistress. She stroked my cock a few more times as she lifted off, which almost, almost pushed me over the edge - I mean, seriously I do not know how my cum stayed in my balls. It must have been  a case of one more stroke and it would have been game over. Seriously! 

Oh well, at least when I'm swinging from my ladder tomorrow fighting with pieces of wallpaper I will have something to occupy my mind. I really hope I get another chance to worship Mistress's gorgeous ass before the end of the week. It's just SO. FUCKING. HOT! 

Three Posts in a Day, What the Hell is Going On?

So I just noticed that the blog finally passed the four million views mark. That's pretty crazy... and it only took thirteen years - haha! But actually, we lost well over a million when I moved the blog to fetblogger and then came back, so it's actually five million... who'd have thunk it? 

Well it's been a journey of discovery, I'll say that... and there's obviously been times when there's been more to write about and times when there's been almost nothing to write about. I very much hope we can resurrect our Femdom Sessions again (at least we've done one already this year, even if it was a little rusty) and I have to say that today I do feel a little more enthusiastic about the blog again (probably something to do with the AWESOME sex we had this morning, hey?).

Thanks for sticking with us through the lean times and hopefully there will be more to come through the year. 

In the meantime, earlier today I published another 'tease' on Milovana. Right now it's had just over 1800 views and is scoring 4.2/5.0. You can check it out here:

Goddess Alexis' Edging School - Tease #70534 - Milovana.com

Because the traditional style of tease has fallen out of favour they are now only doing the 'Classic Tease of the Month' competition if there are at least five published. My previous tease won 'TOTM', but admittedly against some pretty weak competition (and they still haven't added my 'TOTM Winner' sticker either!). But whatever... I know it won. And there was plenty I didn't win that I thought I should have so I'm taking it as a win!

I guess I should at least try and do a new style tease, it seems that they are capable of some pretty clever things - but I hate trying to learn how to use new technology, always have done. I once bought a new drum machine and then used the old one for another year because I couldn't be arsed to work the new one out. 

You know, a while back I got a PM from someone on Milovana begging me to make new 'map/rooms' style teases (like the ones I did years ago), they even said they could raise a decent amount of money to pay me to do it (like a Patreon kind of thing).

Which is all well and good, but those teases were extremely time consuming and took a lot of concentration to create and check. So while an easy £200 or whatever might sound tempting, if it's going to take me 15 hours to piece it together, that ain't all that great is it? 

Plus since the old 'Flash' tease engine is no longer available I would have to learn how to use the EOS editor first. And, well... the problem with getting paid is that people expect a lot for their cash don't they, and I wouldn't be able to 'create to order'. Years ago I tried to write a book within the parameters set by Femdom Cave and it really didn't work.

So we'll see. But don't hold your breath.

A Lost Comment... That Deserves Some Attention

I don't know exactly what happened, but on the 9th of April locoesclavo left a comment on my post "Another Year of Full Time Chastity Ends...". This is visible to me in the back pages of the blog, but not publicly visible for some reason. I only realised when I went to answer it and realised it wasn't in fact there. I don't really get this since if a comment is deleted it would still be 'there' but with 'this comment has been deleted' underneath it - unless I double delete it. But I certainly didn't do that.

Anyway, since locoesclavo left such a long and interesting comment it seemed only fair to post it here and to respond to it...

"Hello, I think I've said it before, but I love your statistics and graphs. Always within the world of orgasm control, numbers have excited me. Because it is incredible the feeling you experience on a weekend in a cage, or when for the first time your orgasm is delayed for a couple of weeks, but only when you see the numbers on the table, after a considerable amount of time, like a year, that one understands the magnitude of the effort that goes into trying to live this as a lifestyle. That is, 5 full orgasms in a year. It's a lot. A lot of sacrifice, effort, self-control. I really congratulate you, especially considering that you haven't quit for 13 years."

Thank you locoesclavo. It's still quite... alarming (haha) to think that is has been thirteen years since I was free to jerk off whenever I wanted. Of course, at some point it just became 'normal' I guess, like any lifestyle choice. But yes I guess many couples who try this might slip back into 'normalcy' or take breaks... especially if the Mistress misses having penetrative sex. 

That was always one of my concerns really, but since Mistress was the one who made the rule that only she could initiate penetration right when we started and indeed as a 'condition' of her taking on the role of full time chastity Mistress, well, I guess it was taken out of my hands. Of course it took a long time for me to really believe it, since... you know - male ego (haha). But by now I think it's pretty clear that Mistress enjoys my tongue way more than having my cock inside her.

"I don't usually differentiate a full orgasm from a frustrated one, although I understand that they are different sensations. In your table, however, you can see if you add the two types, the total also falls over time. 10 orgasms of both types in a year, less than one a month."

To be completely honest with you, even the full orgasms are kind of 'frustrated' since they are usually so overly intense as to almost be painful. But, there is definitely a difference between them in how you feel afterwards. After a full orgasm I definitely feel quite drained for a time, whereas with a properly ruined orgasm after a short while it's like it never happened. 

"I don't remember if I've told you before, but I've always seen you as a bit of an inspiration on this topic. In my case, after many twists and turns, and some failed attempts, in February 2023, my wife and I made the decision to start a new attempt to control orgasms as a lifestyle. At the beginning, with certain conditions it was fun, hard to endure without a device, but very enjoyable. However, over time I feel that it becomes difficult but in a different way. I feel that, although I have a good number of orgasms, the lifestyle becomes more boring, making the effort of holding on from one orgasm to the next very difficult, I wonder if it is worth it."

Well, everyone is different of course, but I wonder if people who are orgasm-driven are the ones who get the most from chastity? Of course there is this idea that the woman uses the cage to 'control' the man and this somehow makes him into her perfect husband. As if some women don't use sex to 'control' their man anyway? 

For me, and I suspect for many men who enjoy this lifestyle it's almost the opposite. I like being desperate to cum, I like being edged, and while in that moment I want it to happen, basically I don't. At the same time I absolutely love making my Mistress cum, and while I'm sure lots of men enjoy their wife's orgasms, I think you probably enjoy them even more when you yourself haven't cum for a month or four.

But yes, I understand why you might get bored. Especially if you are only having sex once every three weeks. To be honest I would not think that is sustainable. If you are only having sex once every three weeks then I don't honestly think this is the right lifestyle for you. Effectively you are being 'locked and left' which is probably why you feel like it is not worth the effort. I wouldn't either. 

When I first got into this lifestyle I read something somewhere about a man who was trying to interest his (disinterested) wife in locking him up to put some spice into their non-existent sexlife. Her attitude was kind of like 'Okay, why can't you just lock your cock up yourself and I won't touch it just like I don't touch it now'. He was at his wits end trying to make her see the difference between being 'positively frustrated' and 'negatively frustrated'.

There are so many ways your wife could do this (verbally and physically) without having to let you inside her or having full sex. But she has to be on board and 'interested'. If she's just going along with it as a way to keep the sex limited to once every three weeks then I think you'd be better off keeping this as a fantasy. This is supposed to make you feel closer, if it doesn't (and I suspect for you it probably doesn't) then it's never going to work long term. 

"It should be noted that my Lady, unlike yours, does not like BDSM or Femdom. So it is a vanilla marriage with the condition that I do not masturbate and I only have to finish with her permission when we make love . Her libido is also quite low, which led her to agree with orgasm control, as a way to control that we make love only when She proposes it, once every 2 or 3 weeks."

Yes, exactly... it sounds like you are giving up a lot for very little in return. 

And honestly, most of the time our relationship is pretty vanilla too. Yes Mistress slaps/whips my balls sometimes and uses her nails on my cock now and again. And yes in the past we have had specific 'sessions' which are femdom in nature. But day to day, it's really not like that. I can't even remember the last time I had a butt plug in my ass... 

Not to sound like a broken record but one of the reasons our lifestyle works is because I love making Mistress cum and she loves me making her cum. She has never come through penetration anyway, so prefers my tongue (and that was always my favourite thing to do anyway). So we are very fortunate in that our 'tastes' line up very well.

"Here comes the question. How do you manage to endure the meanwhile when nothing happens in the middle? In these 13 years, were there moments where you asked yourself if it was worth the effort?"

Yes of course there have been times when I've seriously considered a break or stopping completely. I don't think it would be normal to go that long and never feel differently. Mostly this has been times when things have not been going so well for us, which thankfully has not been all that often. We are very lucky that for the most part our marriage has been very strong and quite 'uneventful' (I mean that in a positive sense). 

I think over the last 30 years the longest we've gone without any sex at all was maybe two weeks and mostly it's 1-3 times a week, so honestly it's hard for me to answer your question since my concept of 'the meanwhile' is quite different to yours. If I was regularly going three weeks between sex I would not be doing this though, I can tell you that much.

"Anyway, thanks for staying here. And I hope your wishes come true (but be careful, lest your Mistress end up taking all your complete orgasms to exchange them for ruined orgasms, hahaha)."

Thanks, haha. Well that's completely up to her to decide... if she feels guilty she knows all she has to do is offer me the choice of a real orgasm or the chance to worship her ass. We both know which one I will pick, every single time. 

Fifty Day Release.

Last week my most recent period of chastity came to an end after 50 days. I've been feeling very 'off' lately and so I've been using a cock ring for several weeks now. I haven't cum with a cock ring on for a very long time, so I'd forgotten how intense it was... 

Mistress kindly allowed me to worship her gorgeous ass while she stroked me to the edge... and then she let go. And just when I thought she was getting off me it seemed that she suddenly changed her mind and planted her delicious ass back on my face and started stroking me hard again. I tongued her ass for as long as I could... I wanted to make the most of this - but as the orgasm hit she lifted away slightly and I was bucking uncontrollably anyway. But God I loved it while it lasted.

Of course the cock ring initially stops your cum 'exploding' out like it usually would... so Mistress kept stroking, so it was kind of ruined that way. 🤣 

As my cock softened a little and the cum started to flow, Mistress scooped it up with her fingers and smeared it on her beautiful toes. I can't tell you how much I loved cleaning my cum off of her gorgeous feet. That was SO FUCKING HOT. And it's been sooooooooooo long.

It's hot here in the UK today, and so Mistress and I decided to have some fun before the house becomes a sweat box. Mistress even removed her bra and so I got to see her in all her amazing glory, I mean you can see above how amazing she is.... just beautiful.

As I kissed the insides of Mistress's silky smooth thighs her hand slid down between her legs and I watched for a moment as she gently teased her clit. God that was so fucking hot. But soon I moved closer and started to lick her... she always tastes amazing and I just never want to stop. I adore making her cum, but even just the taste... I love it so much. 

After Mistress had a very hard orgasm, I slipped the cock ring on and Mistress got me hard very quickly. I think I am getting better actually, but I'm not ready to lose the cock ring just yet. Mistress teased me so good, and I wanted to cum so bad - it's always worse when you've recently cum I find.

I told her how much I loved eating her ass and cleaning my cum off her feet as she stroked my rock hard cock. And I told her how much I love that she makes we want to cum but doesn't let me.

Even once she'd edged me my cock stayed hard and Mistress played with it, gently at first, eventually holding my cock while I fucked her hand. Then she slid down the bed and started sucking me (while I gently teased her ass)... that felt incredible, I just love the warmth of her ass on my fingertips too. 

Eventually she sat up and let me caress her amazing breasts while she stroked me hard. She even got a couple of ball smacks in there too... so good, but evnetually of course I got to the edge again and this time she let go and laid down beside me. 

What a brilliant way to start a Sunday! 

Another Year of Full Time Chastity Ends...

Our thirteenth year of full time chastity has finally come to a close and I thought I would share with you a couple of graphs representing our relative orgasm stats. Not much point doing the other graphs this year as you know we've just had the one Femdom session and I haven't cum anywhere except on my own stomach and Mistress's hands the last two years (hopefully that will change this coming year though...). 

Despite our best efforts (a run of 10 in March) we just failed to get Mistress back into the hundreds, but we came very close and this marks a significant increase over last year's lowpoint. And when you consider Mistress had 98 orgasms to my 5 (full orgasms) that's still nearly a 20>1 ratio -  almost double our original target!

As you can see from this second graph, I have enjoyed a total of ten orgasms, 5 ruined and 5 full in the last year. This is the lowest combined total since we started. While I'm happy with 5 full orgasms, I would like a few more ruins (preferably on Mistress's beautiful feet or pussy)... in fact I would be happy to give up full orgasms for more ruined ones, but I guess I will have to wait and see what Mistress decides. 

Our First Femdom Session in nearly two years!

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Don't You Just LOVE January?

I'm being sarcastic of course, January sucks major ass in every possible way. But we've just gotta get on with it haven't we? After all what's the alternative, curl up in a corner until February... if only. 

It's a funny thing getting older, and it ain't exactly fun. I remarked to Mistress earlier today how one of the things about getting older is how easy it is to hurt yourself without even trying. I was just standing by my car the other day and my knee went too far the wrong way for no reason at all. Rather painful and so ridiculous! 

Also , it feels kinda like I'm reaching the age where I'm moving to a different part of my life. I recently disposed of my guitar and amps because it finally dawned on me that after ten years of not actually doing anything musical that maybe I'm not actually going to 'make it' as a rock star. Well maybe I knew that already since I cut my hair off nearly 25 years ago... plus now my guitar playing is so terrible it's just not worth even bothering.

But I didn't realise quite how inactive I have been on the writing front. I mean I know I haven't posted anything for a long time and I know I come on here every so often telling you that I have stories to write, etc etc... but I just clicked on my 'Stories' tab and I see the last story I posted was in January 2021.

Three years ago! 

There was a flurry of productivity in 2020 with the furlough and being at home with little to do (that seems a long time ago now, hey?), and two in 2019, nothing in 2018... you would be forgiven for thinking my writing is as dead as my musical career.

But actually I do still have things going on, I just don't seem to be able to finish them. It's annoying. I hoped to finish at least one over Christmas and it didn't happen (again)... I just always seem to have something else I need to do (I am still writing a non-sex blog which takes up a lot of my time) and as always I need to be in the mood for being creative.

But at least me and Mistress R are still continuing our 'chastity' lifestyle (with a little Femdom thrown in). This afternoon Mistress had a really nice orgasm on my tongue and then she proceeded to tease my cock with her hand and the cock whip. That felt fucking great, I gotta tell you. Especially the harder hits to my balls - felt like her hand but I think it was the whip. Either way I loved it!

Obviously I wasn't allowed to cum. But I wasn't expecting to. So maybe January isn't 100% terrible after all. 🤣

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year everyone, I hope you all had a great Christmas and New Year. I have to say I'm not a great fan of the time between Boxing Day and New Year because while on the one hand I never have to work I always feel like once Christmas is over with I just want to crack on with the New Year along with all that entails (eating better, organizing myself and just generally making a fresh start). So now that 2024 is here I actually a feel a lot better and I'm almost looking forward to going back to work tomorrow.

Well, almost. Hahaha. But no, I am looking forward to getting back into a routine and going to sleep before 3am... and getting up before 10am! Although I won't be saying that tomorrow morning I assure you. I think the thing that frustrates me is that I get all this time off work and yet I don't seem to ever manage to put it to good use. Maybe I should just accept that I need one week a year when I can totally turn off and just relax. 

No movement on the story front unfortunately (see my comments above), but I did get another idea, so now I have seven on the go instead of 6, can we call that progress? Not really. But then again this is the thing, to write and/or be creative I need to be feeling good, not tired and slothful, so maybe I need to look at Christmas differently instead of being annoyed with myself that I 'wasted' the time off.

On a more positive note, I managed to lose 12lbs before Christmas and I only put 5lbs back on (which I figure can be gone in 7-10 days) so that worked out very well. Also I'm heading into 2024 with just 8 days on the board, Mistress having given me an amazing orgasm on Christmas Eve while I worshipped her delicious ass. Wow that really was a great early Christmas gift. Mistress even floated the idea of a Femdom Session in December, it didn't actually happen but at least the idea isn't dead and is something we can work towards getting back on track in 2024.