A Good End to a Shitty Week!

This has been a somewhat shitty week for me (and even more now since I’ve just had to start this post again from scratch since my laptop decided to highlight and delete the whole fucking thing and then Blogger decided to autosave right after), and this reached it’s absolute nadir on Thursday night.

It started well, Mistress had a lovely orgasm and then after I’d kissed her feet for a while it was my turn. Because I lost weight this week (4.5lbs in fact – good start, even more than last time) I got to choose a reward ‘toy’ to play with in this session. I chose the cock-whip, albeit it wasn’t my first choice… I actually wanted to choose the blue G-spot massage dildo, because as far as I recall we only used it once. It was sent to me by Love Honey for review, and we used it one time (as far as I remember it was great) and then it lived in the drawer for the next six years.

So that’s what I wanted to choose, but because at the exact moment Mistress asked me to choose what I wanted I wasn’t in the mood to get into a discussion about whether I could choose that or not (since I want to use it on her, not her on me) so I just played it safe and picked the cock whip. I’ve since ironed this out and so next week I will be choosing the blue glass dildo (assuming I lose at least 0.5lbs of course) and Mistress also told me that I am allowed to choose her favourite glass dildo too if I want to. Well I definitely will choose that at some point because I don’t remember ever using that, it usually only comes out during our Femdom sessions and then Mistress is in control…

So where was I, oh yes… it was my turn. Except, it wasn’t happening. At all. I couldn’t relax, couldn’t bring to mind any erotic filth to stimulate myself, nothing, total epic-cock-fail! I tried slipping the cock ring on, I don’t really like resorting to it, but it usually works and a hard cock with a cock ring on it is better than a useless soft one. Well, not this time… a cock ring can only do so much and it didn’t have anything to work with. So in the end I gave up and took it off, and since I was now feeling even more miserable than before I thought I might console myself somewhat by worshipping Mistress’s pussy just a little more… but she wasn’t having that either!

Friday was a complete ball-ache and I came home feeling very tired and generally hacked off, so I declined Mistress’s offer to try again in favour of waiting until Saturday… it was probably a good move.

By Saturday things were better and Mistress had a VERY hard orgasm under my tongue, that always puts me in a good mindset, but is no guarantee of anything so even though I didn’t really want to I slid the cock ring on anyway. Thankfully my cock was responding well and Mistress soon had me hard. She knelt beside me stroking my cock for a while before she started bringing the cock-whip into play.

While she was doing this I was gazing lovingly at her body and gently teasing the crack of her ass with my fingers. Mistress was wearing her bra (as usual) which denied me the sight of her gorgeous breasts – let’s pause for a moment here and consider Peter’s comment from the other day…

“Hi Robert, I think your Mistress is particularly evil if she denies you the sight of those beautiful breasts so often that she's offering you to see them as a 'reward'... I feel sorry for you my friend, that's verging on mental cruelty!”

I agree with Peter, I did ‘once’ say that I kind of like it when she wore her bra and denied me seeing her breasts, but if I’d known it would become ‘normal’ I would have kept my mouth shut!

Anyway… Mistress started talking to me about where I might want to choose to cum next time she allows it, and this kind of verbal teasing is always good for me. The other day I had been fantasizing about cumming on her beautiful pussy and licking it clean again, and I think if she’d allowed me to cum right then that is what I would have chosen. But this is always a headfuck, because I’ve only cum 5 times in the last 8 months and so the decision is HUGE every time.

As Mistress was stroking and whipping my cock, images of her cum spattered pussy filled my head and my fingers delved a little deeper between her cheeks. I wanted to lick her ass, badly! I asked Mistress if I could worship her ass and she smiled, paused for a second and then said ‘Do you really want to do it?” I begged her to let me.

‘Well okay… but if I let you then after that your teasing will end, do you still want to do it?”

I begged again and Mistress stood over me, her hand still stroking my cock firmly. I slid my hands up her beautiful legs and parted her ass cheeks. Her ass is so fucking hot, I love it and I couldn’t wait to taste it.

Mistress invited some more begging, which I was happy to go along with and then she sank down towards me and gave me a close up of her sexy ass before telling me I could proceed.

Mistress’s ass tasted divine and as I probed and licked she pumped my cock hard, which felt amazing. She allowed me to worship her ass three times, and made me beg for it each time – it was wonderful. The last time Mistress was pumping my cock really hard, but oddly I wasn’t getting anywhere near the edge. As much as I love to be edged, sometimes it’s nice to be stroked really hard and fast and not have to worry about telling Mistress to stop – especially when I have my tongue in her delicious asshole!

True to her word, after the final time Mistress moved to my side and said: “I’m going to give you a choice now, you can either have 5 ball slaps, 5 hard strokes/squeezes or 5 strokes with the cock whip and then your teasing will be over for today.”

To be honest I probably would have chosen the slaps, because I LOVE have my balls slapped hard when I’m really turned on… but I’m not sure if Mistress remembered that I can’t take it anything like as hard when I have the cock ring on, so as a precaution I went with the strokes/squeezes – which were very enjoyable all the same.

Once she’d completed those, Mistress decided to give my balls a ‘bonus’ slap and I was glad I hadn’t chosen five of those!

Which reminds me, you know that GIF I posted the other day…

Well Mistress saw that and said she’s willing to give that a try, so I’m looking forward to that. So many times I thought about buying that ball-press thing, but because of my hyperseal I’ve always shied away from it. Hopefully this will provide a similar kind of ‘pressure’ without the rigmarole of setting it up, and maybe if it goes well that’s something I could look at getting in the future. Given the lack of use our toys seem to get I'm always wary of investing in them, especially if a similar sensation can be had another way, and if this works it's far more likely to become a regular occurrence if all Mistress has to do is wrap her hands round my balls, rather than having to dig out and set up an actual toy.

Having said that, I saw this the other day…

Which looks pretty neat. I’ve found a place that sells them and they’re quite inexpensive, so that might be worth a try. There’s a silicon version on Love Honey, but I’m not sure if it would be as good. There’s three sizes available so it looks like I need to do some measuring to make sure I get the right one.

Also this looks really cool too…

I’d love to look up and watch Mistress riding my face, I bet that would be amazing. Looking at some reviews it seems people consider them expensive for what they are, although the reviews are universally excellent. Also some of them have an unpleasant tasting plastic, but there is a silicone version on Bondura which might be okay...

Although it looks like it could do with being a bit longer. Maybe keep looking for a better one, but I think the idea is awesome!

Well, it's nearly Tuesday again... hopefully the scales will be kind to me and we can finally get to use that G-spot dildo again.