The other day (I (think) I mentioned that I'm really not hung up on 'records' as such, like I'm not aiming for any particular number of days in chastity or anything. But I still couldn't really let today pass without noting that I had reached a new record of 150 days without a proper orgasm. Of course every day is a new record now, since I've never, ever gone this long before... and on Sunday when she'd finished teasing me, Mistress asked how many days it had been and when I told her it was 148 days she said 'Now you're locked back up... maybe for another 148 days!'.
She didn't mean I was 'locked up' for another 148 days, she was inferring that she might not let me cum for another 148 days, but even then she quickly clarified that she was only joking and that she wasn't committing herself one way or another. This is perfect, because the more I think about it the more I see the flaw in the idea of committing to 'permanent' chastity.... for one thing, it takes away some of Mistress's control (after all she can easily enforce 'permanent' chastity simply by not allowing me to cum, she doesn't need to commit to it or actually say anything), and while it's hot to think about that kind of thing, and while I hope she does keep me denied for a VERY long time (even permanently) I still want there to be uncertainty when she edges me. I still want the possibility of a real orgasm to be there, even if I don't actually want it to happen.
Read that again, what a bizarre statement? 🤣
Why? Because more than ever I am reluctant to return to zero. Every morning I wake up rock hard and aching for attention (which is a challenge in itself since I am not allowed to touch my cock without permission) but I love it. Still, as we know, it simply isn't up to me and whatever I may want Mistress will decide when and if I eventually have a proper orgasm or not - which is exactly the way it should be.
Last night Mistress read one of my stories and gave me some corrections to apply. I was far too tired last night to concentrate on doing it and I probably won't get it done tonight either, but it will be coming soon. The other story I'm still not quite satisfied with, so it may need more work before it's ready to be published. At the moment it seems to be a bit disjointed and contradictory. Hopefully I will get time to sort it some time, though I'm not quite sure when as we have a busy Saturday ahead of us this weekend.
