FEMDOM SESSION: 31st August 2026

While there have been some awesome and exciting moments over the last month (Mistress punishing me harshly for my unauthorised ruin and her abandoning my teasing after just a few firm strokes immediately spring to mind) there has been a lot of suckage too. For a start I stupidly cut my cock while 'manscaping' which meant it was 'off limits' for a week until it healed and even then it still hurt for a while. I did wonder about that because it didn't always hurt in the same place, but I guess the skin of the penis is very sensitive so a cut like could play havoc with nerve endings.

And then almost as soon as that healed I developed what I assumed was a UTI. At first it wasn't too bad and I carried on as normal while I waited to see a doctor, but eventually it got worse to the point that I needed to see a doctor urgently. It turns out it was actually a different (but related) kind of infection, that requires daily applications of cream and possibly antibiotics if it doesn't get better.

So as not to aggravate the situation, we have again avoided Mistress teasing me, but thankfully we have still managed to get Mistress to ten orgasms again this month, which means over the first five months of this chastity year we've averaged ten a month! That is really, really good, especially given the weather we've been having lately so I am hopeful that we can not just get into the hundreds by the end of March 2027 but maybe close to some of the really high numbers we managed years ago.

MISTRESS R's TOTAL ORGASMS SINCE 1st APRIL 2011 (1691)

CHASTITY YEAR #1 (117 ORGASMS: 1-117)

CHASTITY YEAR #3 (132 ORGASMS: 230-361)

CHASTITY YEAR #4 (125 ORGASMS: 362-486)

CHASTITY YEAR #8 (119 ORGASMS: 812-930)

CHASTITY YEAR #16 (50 ORGASMS 1642-1691)
APR 2026 -8, 12, 14, 22, 25, 26, 28. 30 (8)

MAY 2026 - 3, 7, 11, 13, 17, 19, 22, 24, 25, 27, 31 (11)

JUN 2026 - 3, 4, 8, 10, 14, 17, 19, 21, 28, 30 (10)
JUL 2026 - 4, 5, 7, 12, 13, 16, 19, 22, 26, 27, 30 (11)

AUG 2026 - 3, 8, 9, 15, 16, 19, 25, 26, 29, 31 (10)

Granted there's a long way to go, but it's looking really good so far. That would be amazing!

Anyway, as you probably know by now, Mistress and I like to have one extra-special 'Femdom Session' each month, and we've found through experience that there's no 'catching up' if one's lost. We've tried scheduling two closer together in the past and somehow it never quite works the same (albeit maybe that's about to change!) so it's important not to 'lose' any along the way.

Since today is the last day of August and we already have plans for next weekend, I suggested to Mistress that maybe we should still have our session, but just change it so that it's less about Mistress 'dominating' me (cbt, pegging, nipple torture etc) and more about me worshipping her gorgeous body instead.

After all this was something that Mistress had alluded to previously while I was worshipping her feet in another session, but which I seriously doubted she would ever actually follow through with. So maybe something positive might actually come from this unfortunate situation and if Mistress enjoyed herself then maybe she might want to do it again in future. I hope so, because the idea of never knowing exactly what a session is going to entail is exciting for me, just like never knowing if I will be 'unlocked' or not.

So we began our session as usual with me blindfolded and wearing ankle and wrist cuffs. Mistress came in and often she starts the session by using her foot to tease my cock and balls, but since she couldn't do that she rubbed them up and down the outsides of my thighs instead and then had me turn towards the bed.

Then she instructed me to move back a little and she gave me fifteen strokes of the whip and paddle. Straight off the bat I don't think she's ever given me a maintenance spanking in this position so already we were into something new. After that Mistress had me worship her feet for a very long time (still not long enough for me, obviously, since I never tire of Mistress's beautiful feet) while she played with her glass dildo.

This seemed to work out well for both of us, me for obvious reasons but also it seemed the more relaxed pace meant Mistress had more time to get turned on and really enjoy her toy. A few times she stopped to have me clean her dildo and I sucked as much as I could of it into my mouth, eager for every tiny drop of juice (and also to show Mistress what a good slave I am). 

As I eagerly kissed, sucked and licked her gorgeous feet Mistress teased me beautifully about how today everything was about her and about how badly I wanted to bury my face between her thighs and taste her gorgeous pussy. I was loving every second of it honestly and even though it must surely have been one of the longest foot worship sessions ever, I was almost disappointed when Mistress pulled her pretty feet away.

She told me to get on the bed and my ass got another dozen or so strokes with the paddle before she tied me down on my back. No sooner was I tied down than Mistress straddled my head and sank down onto my willing mouth. She was extremely slick and she tasted amazing, that glass dildo had really got her juices flowing!

Mistress made me beg her to remove the blindfold and I finally got to see her gorgeous body standing above me and wearing those cool crotchless panties from Ann Summers that really push her pussy lips forward and make them look swollen and enticing. She was also wearing a black PVC bra, a solid one. She looked absolutely incredible.

Mistress sat on my mouth again and allowed me to taste her delicious pussy, before giving me another pillow and propping me up a little against the headboard. Then she settled between my legs, with her feet up near my head. I could barely reach her feet with my mouth and my hands wouldn't reach either... so that was kind of torturous, but occasionally Mistress would move one of her feet closer so that I could kiss and suck on it.

Inbetween times I got to watch her use her glass dildo on herself, which was a truly beautiful sight. Mistress looked absolutely stunning today. She had her hair done a couple of days ago, and with her bright red lipstick and the look of pleasure washing across her face as she worked the glass dildo between her lips.... wow. Just gorgeous.

I really had no idea how much time had passed, but I was quite surprised when Mistress told me it was time to worship her pussy and make her cum. Not that I was complaining you understand, quite the contrary! Just a little surprised. Mistress got up and stood on the bed, telling me to take her panties off for her. I really loved that she had me do that. I carefully slid them down her legs and Mistress told me to sniff and lick them clean. Once I did that she told me to put them aside and I sank down between her legs and kissed around her pussy a little before starting to use my tongue. She was clearly very turned on and I really wanted her to enjoy it so I made sure not to rush at all.

Eventually I slid a finger into her pussy and teased her with it for a while before working it down between her ass cheeks. She was very wet and my finger slid easily between her cheeks, but as always I was super gentle and slow about introducing my finger to her ass. Mistress loves having her asshole gently teased while I lick her. Not penetrated, or maybe only very slightly, but really just circled. I love doing that especially since I know it usually makes her cum harder.

After Mistress came she pushed me back and then stood up on the bed to have me clean her. The juice was literally dripping down her thighs and I eagerly licked and sucked up every drop before licking between her legs and sucking every tasty morsel from her lips. Then she turned round and I spied even more juices dripping down the back of her thighs. She was so wet and just dripping pussy juice, it was utterly gorgeous to see (and taste) and I did my best to get every single drop before she had me lick the rest of her juices off the PVC sheet. YUM!

Mistress then told me to lie down and she stood over me again, facing away and exposing her beautiful pussy and ass to me. I noticed more pussy juice on the back of her thigh that I had missed and still more leaking out from between her pink lips. I asked if I could clean her some more and Mistress sat down on my face, allowing me to finish cleaning her properly before she asked me if I wanted to be allowed to worship her ass.

Well yeah, obviously I did! So after a little begging Mistress sank down onto my tongue again and allowed me to worship her asshole. It was so good, I absolutely loved it, but after just one round Mistress got off me and the bed and then told me the session was finished.

I didn't actually look at the time, but I wouldn't be surprised if it was nearly an hour because the foot worship was definitely way longer than normal. But anyway, it doesn't really matter, because I loved every second of it and I'm so glad we did it because as I said there really isn't ever any 'catching up' and I'm also really happy that it gave Mistress the opportunity to try something new where it was all about her without feeling 'guilty' about not giving me any teasing.

I really hope she will take heart from this session that I really do love it when it's all about her and that I love making her feel worshipped regardless of whether there is any physical teasing for me or not. And I really hope that in future she knows she can decide to touch me or not touch me or just touch me a little bit, whatever makes her happy. 

I am so happy we did our session today, sure it was different and it felt a little odd that things weren't following the normal patterns, but that has to be a good thing. And there's no getting away from the fact that Mistress's pussy was soaked, and that makes me very happy indeed.

My only slight complaint was that I would have liked to worship Mistress's delicious asshole for longer, but ain't that always the case? 🤣

A Rather Tall Lady and The Mystery Box Show

On Saturday morning I was at the supermarket when I spotted a woman about 50 (I guess, I find it hard to put ages to people, probably because Mistress looks way younger than she is), there was nothing particularly remarkable about her, she was blond, just kinda normal looking really and I probably would never have noticed but for the fact that she was easily six feet tall and had a very purposeful walk. 

Even then I probably wouldn't have thought any more of it except that her (presumably) husband was sort of scurrying along behind her carrying all the bags and he was barely any taller than me (1'm 5'8 on a good day 🤣). Of course me being me I couldn't help wondering if there was something slightly 'Femdomy' about this.... probably not, they are likely perfectly vanilla. But still... I kinda hope so.

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In case anyone is wondering what happened to the story I said I'd written about my last teasing, I've been trying to finalise it and I just can't seem to get it right. And to be honest I've not really been in the mood for writing the last week or two, so it may be some time before it appears, I really don't know at this point.

I received some nice feedback from someone through Literotica this morning, basically saying they loved 'How to Break Your Man' and to please write more like this and with 'regular frequency'. 

While of course it's pleasing that someone enjoyed my story and that they would like more, the idea that I can just shit out 50,000 word stories regularly rather displays a lack of understanding as to just how much time and effort goes into something like that. Next time I write a story like that I might log the time expended just to see what it actually takes. But even that won't include the amount of time spent 'thinking' about it in-between writing sessions.

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I'm not sure how, but I came across this YouTube channel called 'The Mystery Box Show' which is quite good. I've only watched two videos so far but they were both quite entertaining. as someone in the comments said 'Not sure if stand up or Ted talk, but good'... inevitably those will prove to now be the only two videos worth watching on the entire channel but still... worth a watch.

Both these videos are quite old, but it's interesting to hear people talk about their experiences. There are funny moments, but these aren't meant to be comedy, indeed the middle part of the second one is a bit sad, and the lady is clearly quite nervous, bur it's quite entertaining and interesting along the way.

Every Stroke is a Gift.

I decided that my last teasing was actually worth making into a short story, which is something I don't think I've ever done before. Sure, I have taken inspiration from real events and incorporated them into stories, but I don't think I've ever actually written a story that was 90% or more true. For once I'm actually excited (rather than apprehensive, as I often am) about Mistress reading this latest piece and that will be posted here (and on Literotica) soon.

As I was finishing it up it hit me that I really can't take anything for granted any more. Now that Mistress is getting more comfortable with being 'meaner'; not always teasing me after I make her cum and now giving me just a few proper strokes and then stopping like she did the other day made me think I really have to be more conscious of appreciating and extracting every last drop of pleasure from every stroke, every touch, every slap, every scratch... that she allows me.

I said the other day that I considered Mistress's punishment after my ruin last weekend a watershed moment for us and I still do, but I also genuinely think Mistress teasing me so lightly and then giving me just a few strokes and stopping like that was another one. It really brought home the level of control that she has now and more importantly that she's prepared to use it.

(Just thinking about that is making me feel light headed again....)

I couldn't have imagined her doing something like that a few months ago and while I'm glad she has increased the intensity of the punishments, so that I actually feel like I'm being properly 'punished', when I talked about being 'meaner' this is exactly the kind of thing I really meant; using frustration as a 'tool' to make me worship and want her even more than I already do.

Every stroke is truly a gift from my amazing Mistress and I should value them accordingly.

Things Have Definitely Changed, and I Love It!

When I came home tonight I was rather fed up, mainly because my lower back was hurting like hell, but I really didn't want my discomfort to get in the way of Mistress's pleasure, so after a warm shower we convened in the bedroom about 8:30PM. She looked gorgeous as always, even with her bra left on... and after a little kissing Mistress pushed me away and down between her gorgeous thighs.

Despite my backache I was more than ready for this; I'd been thinking about Mistress all afternoon and her pussy tasted so, so good. I licked her to orgasm and once she'd cum she pulled her legs back up to her chest, presented her gorgeous slit to me and said 'Now, clean me properly'. I really loved that, especially the way she said it and honestly if things had stopped there I would have been more than happy.

But luckily for me, that was only the start! 

Once Mistress was satisfied that I had cleaned her pussy properly, she pushed me back down the bed and told me to worship her feet. As you know, I adore doing this and I always hope Mistress well allow me plenty of time to do it for her. Sometimes she does, sometimes she doesn't, but today was definitely longer than average and I truly loved every single second of it.

Mistress's feet are so incredibly sexy and as I sucked her toes and kissed and licked her soles my cock started to get hard and I noticed that my backache had completely disappeared! Amazing. 😀

Since Mistress had allowed me what seemed like a bit longer than usual to worship her perfect feet, I again wondered if maybe she was planning on leaving me locked. Not so! I asked permission to be unlocked and Mistress granted it, telling me that I was free to choose a cock ring to wear.

I put the original (clear) Oxballs Cocksling on and got on the bed with Mistress. Within the first minute I had told her how badly I wanted to be allowed to cum, I find being ruined tends to reignite that need, but I don't think for a moment Mistress was planning to let me cum, especially given my unauthorised ruin the other day!

As we kissed, Mistress started to tease me very gently with her fingertips. It was maddening, but so hot and soon I was hard and trying to rub my cock against her fingers. She teased me about how frustrating it must be for me, and how if I tried to push against her she would just pull her fingers back. She also told me that I shouldn't even think about asking for anything more... this wonderful but incredibly frustrating teasing went on for some time, but of course eventually I begged her to touch me harder.

She dug her nails into my cock and started to stroke it, not too fast or hard, but definitely 'harder' than before, but then she sat up and said 'but I told you not to ask for anything more didn't I?' and gave my balls a few slaps before she continued. I had chosen not to put the cock whip out today because I think my left ball needs a little more recovery time, but her hand landed more on my right ball (which is fine) so it was no problem at all.

Then she made me beg her to stroke me harder, which I of course did. She curled her fingers around my cock and stroked me maybe 15-20 times (at the most). I was barely getting into it when I felt her fingers let go and Mistress told me that was it for today and I was locked back up. 

Oh my God, the frustration was exquisite. With her words and her actions Mistress keeps blowing my mind and I thanked her profusely for making this experience so incredible for me. But of course mere words cannot really convey how grateful I am to her. This again, like Sunday was another example of what an incredible Mistress she already is but also how she is seemingly becoming even more amazing. by the day.

As we lay there in each other's arms, my throbbing, denied cock occasionally brushing against her sexy thighs, I felt so unbelievably grateful to have her in my life and so excited to see where she takes me next. As Mistress is the quintessential 'bookworm' I sometimes imagine her idly rubbing the underside of my poor cock with one finger (or perhaps part of her foot) while reading an Agatha Christie or sipping a glass of wine, outwardly oblivious to my frustration yet inwardly revelling in it. Well, you never know...

I wish I could adequately explain to her how amazing she really is and how much I adore the way things are progressing for us. It is truly wonderful. Speaking of which...

Poppet Subslut19 August 2026 at 07:27

Hi RA - i meant to comment about your mistresses new 'mean' approach. It is weird isn't it that when we are treated 'meanly' by our Owner/Mistress we actually find that really exciting but that is not always understood as such by our Owners. i know mine will occasionally say something like 'how can you put up with..?' - to which of course the response is gladly, i love it. i am also totally with you on sweat and as for a sweaty backside - heaven! 

Poppet's comments are always greatly appreciated (and there have been many over the years) and I simply couldn't agree more here. When Mistress suddenly punished me the other day (without warning) for my unauthorised ruin I was a little... surprised/shocked by the severity of it, but also proud of her honestly because I think a few weeks ago she would probably have backed off when she saw my reaction. 

As I said before, I did not enjoy that at all 'in the moment', but honestly it has been constantly in my thoughts ever since and has made me feel even stronger about my amazing Mistress than I already did. Today, when I was sitting at my desk at work I was thinking about it and how it has changed my perception of her, because while I never have actually 'accidentally on purpose' ruined while being teased, it's always been in the back of my mind that if I did do that at any point any punishment I was likely to receive wouldn't really be 'that bad'. 

Well that's certainly changed, because I would not for a second willingly consider giving Mistress a reason to do that again. And that really has taken things up to a whole new level because now it's not just me feeling that I 'want' to obey her, but feeling like I am actually being 'dominated' which is a truly wonderful feeling. 

After all, you can't really feel properly 'dominated' without being at least a little bit scared of what might happen if you don't behave yourself and it really felt to me like a watershed moment and I hope Mistress feels the same too. I get that ceding more control to Mistress means that she will feel more empowered to take our sex life where SHE wants it to go, and honestly just thinking about that made me feel quite dizzy with lust for her. 

She has always been absolutely everything to me and now she is truly becoming a Goddess. 

No Sweat!

Mistress was a bit late home from work today so when I got home instead of just getting out the shower she had just finished working out and was wearing some really short, tight shorts and a vest top. I put my bag down and went to kiss her and she was all like 'Ooh, don't kiss me I'm all sweaty'... I don't know quite where women get the idea that sweat makes them unattractive to men, well maybe some men, I don't know... stupid men, perhaps. 🤣 

I really couldn't care less, I just see Mistress in these tight little workout shorts and all I can think of is ripping them down and worshipping her amazing ass. Maybe one day. Well anyway, I persisted and Mistress eventually let me kiss her and grope her wonderful ass. I even got to kiss her thighs a little bit, I loved that. I guess maybe we need to work up to sweaty ass worship! Hehehe.

Poor Mistress, she has to deal with ridiculous fucktards at work and then she comes home and has to deal with her sex pest of a husband. It's a good job she loves me isn't it? 🤣

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I wrote another story today, it's called 'Now Do You Understand?', and it's very different to anything I've written before (I think). How can I describe it? It's primarily a 'femsub' story but there's a cuckolding (or perhaps more of a 'cheating') element to it too, if that makes any sense. I know it probably doesn't, but it will when you read it. 

It's pretty short, well under 2000 words (1655 in fact) and it was very heavily inspired by an amazing 'My Pandora' femsub blowjob video I saw, that's definitely worth watching if you like that sort of thing! 

I don't know when I will be posting that exactly, it's pretty much finished I think, but I'd like Mistress to proof read it first. 

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Clearly Sunday's 'accidental ruin' punishment has been on my mind a lot today. How could it not be? I'm honestly still a little in awe of what Mistress did to me to be honest; it was easily the hardest she's ever whipped my balls and I wouldn't want to experience that too often I can tell you. Ouch!

But I accept that it was meant as a punishment and it was definitely deserved, but in future it might be good for Mistress to have a little target practice because my left ball really caught it ALL and it's been a little bit tender today! I still love that she did it though. It was just, WOW! Pretty painful, but still WOW!

And I will definitely be more cautious about edging in future!  

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If you haven't already read them here's a list of stories that I've recently posted. They can also be accessed from the 'My Stories' tab at the top of the page, or from the drop down menu if you're reading on a phone.

I've actually written part two of 'Selection Day', but I'm just not happy with it. I'm going to leave it alone for a bit and go back to it and see if I can make it work. If not, then I just won't post it... we'll see.

Definite Signs of Progress

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I'm Close... FUCK!

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Too Hot to Handle

After I finished writing that last post, Mistress and I settled down on the sofa together to watch our new favourite programme 'Too Hot to Handle', Judge us if you must, and you should because it is shite, but after the depression of the latest 'Temptation Island' we needed something dumb, fun and full of cum (so to speak).

During the show Mistress sat with her bare feet in my lap and after it ended and there was no distraction I continued to caress them and admire how beautiful they are. This went on for a few minutes and I started getting hard, and then very hard. But Mistress had already told me she would be wanting 'attention' later so I was in two minds about whether I should ask for permission to touch myself (especially since last time I asked when we were downstairs she said no). I dithered for some time until my cock got so hard that I really wanted to and then just as I was about to speak, she pulled her feet away and said 'Right, it's time to clean the bathroom'.

Bollocks. But still, she might have said no anyway.

So in the end Mistress ended up doing a workout and I cleaned the bathroom, and then we went to bed, where I had to fess up to some bad behaviour. Y'see, the last two nights I have not slept well and lying alone in the spare bedroom it's a lot harder to keep my hands off my cock than it would be if we were lying next to each other.

Last night we went to bed as late as we could to try and let the house cool down, but even then I couldn't get to sleep (I finally went off about 3:15 and woke up at 7:20AM. So in between going to bed and falling asleep I was constantly thinking about Mistress's gorgeous body and in particular her amazing ass. 

It's weird, for months I have been completely fixated on her beautiful feet, and don't get me wrong I still am massively obsessed by them, but right now if she told me she was letting me cum and offered me the choice of where to shoot, I don't know what I'd say. For a very long time it's been a slam dunk, don't even bother asking me because we both know it's going to be on your feet, but right now, I might just say on her ass.

It's been a long, long time since I came on Mistress's gorgeous ass and the thought of erupting between her cheeks and licking my cum off her delicious asshole is so fucking tempting. It would be hell not choosing her feet if that was an option, but at the same time, I REALLY want to lick my cum off her ass.

So as I was saying, I had a confession to make... 

I set up the fan in the bedroom (full blast, still not enough!) and Mistress came in wearing a robe which covered up her gorgeous body. She told me to 'assume the position' and then straight off gave me fifteen hard spanks with the black side of the paddle. It was quite painful, but I knew I deserved whatever she wanted to give me so I tried to take it as well as I could. I was glad when it stopped though.

She put the paddle down and peeled off her robe. She looked fucking amazing, no bra, but some lacy panties which she then took off before climbing onto the bed, standing in front of where I was kneeling. I looked up at her gorgeous breasts (I know I don't rave about them like I do about Mistress's perfect feet but I really should because they really are stunning). She pulled my head between her legs and I kissed around her pussy for a while, my cock starting to harden again.

Mistress pulled away and lay down on the bed against the headboard. She looked truly magnificent and she suggestively wiggled her finger to indicate that I should come closer. 

"Bring that cock to me," she said in that amazing voice she has. 

As we kissed she reached down and started to gently tease my cock, that felt sooo good, before eventually pushing me away and telling me it was time to worship her pussy and make her cum. It was very warm and the fan wasn't really doing much but I was so happy to be back between Mistress's amazing thighs and tasting her that I really didn't care too much.  

After Mistress came she stood up again and had me lick and suck her pussy clean before sitting down and telling me to worship her perfect feet. I really enjoyed that; I can simply never get enough and Mistress allowed me to worship them for a decent amount of time (I mean never long enough for me, I would have been there all night) which I really appreciated.

Eventually Mistress pulled her pretty feet away and gave her approval when I asked if I could be 'unlocked'. Then she crawled across the bed to select a cock ring for me (one of the Oxballs Cockslings) I think it was the black one without the ballstretcher and then grabbed the lube and the cock whip before settling herself between my legs, facing me.

This was a wonderful surprise, I absolutely love it when Mistress sits like this and I can worship her feet while she teases my cock. The only problem is I don't know whether to kiss this foot, that foot or watch her stroking me and touching her breasts. What a wonderful problem to have though..

She dragged her nails up and down my balls a few times and then wrapped the cock whip around my cock, pulling it tight and making my cock really hard. It felt amazing, and I dutifully worshipped her left sole with my lips and tongue - absolute Heaven!

Mistress applied a little lube to my cock and then wrapped her feet around it, stroking it a while before telling my to thrust up against her feet. It was a little awkward but I did my best and then Mistress curled her fingers around me and started stroking me properly. I reached the edge and Mistress let go, then pulled her feet away from me and got up on her knees.

I had already told her earlier how I had been dreaming of her amazing ass when I touched my cock and I had intended to ask her today if I could worship her ass, but given that I had been punished I was in two minds about it. However, Mistress got up and straddled my head, facing my feet, her awesome ass on display, so naturally I begged to be allowed to taste it.

She quickly shut down the idea, but said that I could look at it while she stroked me. I reached up and parted her cheeks, honestly it was sexy as hell, but kinda torturous at the same time. I wanted so badly to taste her wonderful asshole.

She semi-edged me (pretty much there without waiting for me to tell her, possibly a good call today!) and then moved to kneel next to me. As she moved a voice screamed 'Noooooooooooooooooooo' like a man falling off a cliff. I'm not even joking. God I love her ass.

I thought that was it, but Mistress stroked me some more and I told her that I was conflicted about where I would choose to cum (given the choice). For months and years it's always been her feet, but I really, really, really want to clean her ass now. Mistress teased me about this as she stroked me to a second 'almost' edge and then told me I was locked back up.

God it was so fucking good. Mistress and I haven't had the best of weeks and we really needed this to feel properly connected again.

Conclusions...

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Spanking Chart and Peaks & Troughs...

I came across these two charts while reading an old post on the 'Evolving Your Man' blog and thought someone might find them useful...

I do like that blog, but I sometimes come away from reading it slightly depressed. I get that the whole point of the blog (now at any rate, I'm not sure it always was) is promoting the idea of women taking a lover and making their locked husband's into cuckolds, but what really depresses me about it is that I can't honestly argue with a lot of the things she writes.

Love Is A Choice But Attraction Is Not: It Is Time For You To Reignite Desire And Intimacy

Not that I am fearful of Mistress taking a lover, but at the same time I never want her to feel taken for granted or that our marriage is 'functional'. I also never want her to feel that my attraction to her has diminished, ever! It is something that I feel incredibly strongly about. Perhaps too strongly sometimes. 

Yesterday I felt quite emotional for some reason (and this was before I read this article), but that has kind of just reignited it all over again. Of course I could just decide to not read this blog, but no, I'd rather feel too much sometimes than stick my head in the sand.

As Mistress and I discussed yesterday, there are peaks and troughs in any relationship, and thankfully our troughs are fairly shallow. We have very little to worry about, we own our own home, we have no children to fret over or provide for (probably a big part of where marriages can become functional if I'm honest), we are both employed, we are both fairly healthy, etc etc. 

We both hate the hot weather so that is an issue at the moment, and we feel limited in what we can do together when it's 28 fucking degrees again at the weekend. We'd love to go out somewhere and be together looking round an old house or something, but it's tough this year. And sleeping apart sucks too. But then the other night it was a bit cooler and I almost suggested we try it, but then in the morning it was clear that Mistress had slept very badly so one of us would have ended up in the spare room anyway.

The thing is... I do sometimes just feel so in love with her, like a teenager with his first girlfriend, quite honestly. I want to touch her all the time, to the point where I feel like I'm being annoying, but I can't help it. And I love that I can still feel that way, but at the same time I feel kind of silly. Like I 'shouldn't' feel that way, not at 56 and 34 years into a relationship. 

I try to tell myself, no, it's not you that's wrong. It's wonderful that you still feel this way. Think of all the women in the world who's husbands barely acknowledge them, let alone try to make them feel desired or loved. Which I realise makes me sound like a massive self-congratulatory prick if you take it that way, but that's really not how I meant it.

I still look at her just the same as when we first met. She is so damned sexy. I know very few people ever really believe they are as hot as others see them and it's a real shame. Regardless I feel compelled to try to convince her day after day. I truly want her to feel sexy and powerful, because that's how I see her. Just knowing what she could make me do if she really wanted to leaves me feeling quite... heady! 

Honestly all I ever wanted when I was a teenager was to find my 'person', be with them forever and make them feel completely safe and loved. That didn't work out with my first girlfriend for many reasons, but also (in hindsight) I'm pretty sure she wasn't over her previous boyfriend. Despite that initial failure I never really wanted to 'bang chicks', I wanted a special bond with someone truly worth it and I am so thankful that in the end I got exactly what I wanted (and it only took two goes!).

Oh and in case you're wondering, I genuinely don't feel like I missed out on 'sowing my oats' as they say. I think I was way too scared of getting a girl pregnant to go around dispensing my jizz left right and centre (even if there had been a queue of willing receptacles - which I certainly don't recall there being!), and since I've never really drunk much either I was never really the type to throw caution to the wind. I may have regrets about the past but that isn't one of them.

It never occurred to me at the time that forming a deep bond like that was probably the best way to lay the foundation for the kind of sex life I would later crave. Not that I wanted a 'Femdom' life when I was 22 years old, I was happy to have hot vanilla sex, doing the kind of things you do when you're young - banging all night and going to work on two hours sleep. It was great. I wouldn't swap it for what we have now though, honestly.

I wasn't ignorant about Femdom, even then though, I remember seeing some 'German' porn on VHS when I was 15 or 16 and I liked it a lot. I just didn't think that was something people did in real life. It took me several years to bring this idea up to Mistress and after some initial hesitation she was okay with it. It was very much restricted to occasional 'sessions' though and the rest of the time we were pretty much vanilla.

I haven't had masses of male friends over my lifetime, partly because I've been working in the same company since I was sixteen, but the people I have come into contact with just confuse me, honestly. I may have mentioned this before but I was friends with a guy for many years who was very successful in business and kept himself in great shape, but his attitude to his wife sucked. Like I can't remember exactly what it was but for some reason his wife thought she needed to go to an ER (I think she had an eye infection or something) and she was hoping he would drive her there, and he didn't really want to. That wasn't the only memorable instance of his inattention either

And my other friend, who is also my business partner now, he has a wife and three children (he's about ten years younger than me) but even years ago it just sounded like they were already 'functional' (as that post puts it). Sometimes I just want to slap him hard and say 'what are you doing?' Yes it takes two to make a good marriage, but make a fucking effort. But of course I can't. It's not my place to meddle in other people's lives and maybe they are happy co-existing without any deep feelings.    

It just confuses me. That's all. This person is supposed to be everything to you, but you don't want to drive them to the ER? Like, are you for real? Mistress would NEVER have to ask me to drive her to the ER, or anywhere. I would want to. I don't want her sitting in a waiting room for hours on her own, what am I gonna do while she's there? Go fishing? No, I'm going to be worrying about her. 

Is it me? I don't understand other men. I'm sure there must be lots of decent, intelligent men out there who think the same way as me, but I don't think I've ever met any. Perhaps I should be charitable and think they just don't like to appear that way outwardly, because maybe they think it makes them look 'weak' or something. I don't know.

Whatever, I know I can't solve the rest of the world's problems and I shouldn't worry about it. But I can't help but wonder if the first answer to that blogpost isn't 'take a lover to make you feel desired again', shouldn't be 'men wake the fuck up and do something!', is it that hard, really? Surely the bar is so low that even the smallest effort would be noticed? 

Sorry, I didn't mean to bore on about this so long, it just frustrates and annoys me. And I hate that I feel silly because I adore my wonderful Mistress and I want her to feel it every day. 

Thank God for Mistress Scarlet's blog, who posts regularly and usually puts a smile on my face. 

Her latest post 'Tease and denial is so easy, yet DEVASTATING for the enduringly denied male' is short but sweet. I just love how much she enjoys being cruel and heartless to her husband, if Mistress could feel just a tiny fraction of that I would be so happy. 😊

*****

I wrote this post on Monday, but I delayed posting it because Mistress was stressing about potentially having a shitty week at work this week and I didn't want her to read this while that was still going on.

In the meantime Literotica have continued to publish my story and the comments have started to become more mixed. I'm surprised it took this long honestly, but as the story has developed and become more 'extreme' so the scores have tapered off a bit and the reactions more mixed.

It makes me second guess my decision to keep pushing the story further and further, especially knowing what's still to come. It also reminds me of Mistress's somewhat negative reaction to the story when she proof read it for me. And I'm left feeling that maybe I have been a bit too open and unguarded when exposing my inner thoughts. Especially when you get comments like this one;

Sissyjackie2008 (on the 13th Aug 2026)

"This story reminds me of the first time I sucked a cock in front of my wife. The emasculation was so humiliating, but erotic as she watched in amusement."

No disrespect to Sissyjackie2008, but it does make you wonder what the actual fuck I wrote and whether I should just keep the crazy shit inside my head inside my head? 

I feel like I have retreated into my shell a bit the last few days too, which leaves me feeling a little deflated. On the one hand I want to be open and honest with Mistress about everything because she is my everything, but I can't help feeling that deep down maybe she would prefer it if I didn't.

Three Things (Written August 2026)

It was a few days before my 40th birthday and my gorgeous wife Leigha told me she wanted to do something really special for me this year.

“I want you to write down three naughty things you’ve always wanted me to do…” she said. “…and I will make two of them come true’.

I must admit I was a bit taken aback by this as I have always been more, ahem… ‘adventurous’ in bed than Leigha and, not wanting to get my hopes up and be disappointed I asked her rather sceptically ‘are you sure?’

She smiled at me and slid down the bed, wrapped her lips around my cock then sucked and stroked me hard until I erupted all over my stomach.

I tentatively asked her again the next day, but she was adamant. Even so, when I finally gave her the piece of paper a couple of days later (folded up so she couldn’t see what I’d written) I checked a third time. She didn’t seem quite so adamant now, possibly realising that there was more than one thing I might come up with that she might find a little distasteful. 

But she was unwilling to back down and now it was too late to set any boundaries, I’d already chosen what I’d chosen and if I had to change it now it would feel really shitty. But we both knew that there was going to be at least one thing on that list that she didn’t want to do, because I’d tried before. Many times.

When I first handed over my list she asked me what had taken me so long?

Well, see there were many things that I ‘could’ have put on that list, but I knew this was my one chance to make at least one of my fantasies come true, so I thought it over long and hard and eventually came to the conclusion that, okay if I put that one thing down that I knew she wouldn’t want to do, then clearly she ‘had’ to do the other two. Right?

Even so, my heart was beating hard as I left the piece of paper with her and went about my day.

Leigha didn’t say a word, but I definitely detected a shift in her demeanour during the course of the day and I wondered if she was regretting getting herself into this position? Which of course made me feel kind of bad, because now that I’d had time to think about it maybe it was a bit pig-headed of me to choose what I did. Then again, she suggested it and it was supposed to be my birthday treat! Gah!

A Wonderful Sunday Treat for Me!

Earlier today Mistress and I spent a little time in bed together, which was quite wonderful from my perspective. Mistress had a lovely orgasm on my tongue and then just as I was expecting to worship her feet a little bit she got up and told me to move down the bed and get on my knees on the carpet. She moved to the edge of the bed and I took great pleasure in licking and sucking Mistress's delicious pussy clean. 

Once I had done that Mistress got off the bed and told me to put the 'bed back'. What she meant by that was to move the pillows back to their normal positions, rather then piled up so she could lean back against them. Once I had done that I was about to ask Mistress if I could be unlocked when she told me 'You are unlocked and you can choose a cock ring'.

I grabbed the basic Exact-fit ring and slipped it on and then got on the bed. Mistress got on too and instead of laying down next to me as she usually did she knelt upright, leaning forward to kiss me as she started playing with my cock. 

Almost immediately she stood up and stood over me, facing my feet. My hands drifted up the backs of her gorgeous legs and parted her ass cheeks slightly. I begged Mistress to allow me to worship her delicious ass and she said I needed to beg louder if I wanted it.

I begged louder and Mistress soon sank down, my cock getting harder as my tongue touched her ass. Mistress pumped my cock and slapped my balls hard, it was wonderful. Mistress kept slapping and stroking, making me beg twice more for what I wanted so badly.

Alas, after third time she got off me and stroked me to the edge, stopping when I got there and laying down next to me. I thought that was it but Mistress reached down and teased my cock so gently, it was maddening (but I loved it of course) and then she started stroking me hard again, digging her nails in and slapping my balls some more.

Once I edged a second time she told me I was locked back up. I was just over the moon that I got to worship her incredible ass, honestly and told her so. We cuddled for a little while and then she got up on her knees, she looked amazing and I asked if I could be allowed to see her gorgeous breasts. I know I have a very quiet voice, and Mistress must have misheard me because the next thing I know she got off the bed and stood by it waiting for me to kiss her ass.

I was a little confused but I wasn't going to pass up the opportunity to kiss Mistress's amazing ass, so that was a nice little unexpected treat, even if I didn't get to see her beautiful breasts! Maybe next time?

Later I remarked that I didn't get to worship her pretty feet, so Mistress had me do it downstairs while we were watching TV together, that was a nice treat too. Her feet are so fucking sexy, I love them so, so much. But you know that already.

*****

I've just finished another short little story, which I will probably post here soon. I don't have a title for it as yet, could be 'Three Things', could be 'Birthday Treat'... maybe something completely different. It's nothing 'spectacular' but I kinda like it. It's a little different.

Not IMHO Your Best Work...!

The 7th part of 'HTBYM' has been published on Literotica this morning and within the first hour I received this comment:

billy2002 has commented on your story How to Break Your Man Pt. 07

“The Dean part of the chapter was not, IMHO, your best work. It seemed to be, let’s just get rid of Dean quick. I loved that Amy reconnected 😂 with Rick. I hope the next guy Amy finds is more the man she and Rick need.”

I actually agree with this to a degree, I think the second half of the story does feel a little rushed and the last couple of chapters even more so. But I thought that even when I was writing it and I tried to slow it down, but I couldn't really work out how to do it without just filling it with padding that people would want to skip, especially on repeat reads.

It's difficult because at the start there's so much to say, but once things get rolling the focus changes. It becomes more about 'what happens' rather than the tension between Amy and Rick we see at the start. So yeah, I get it and I would totally understand if someone told me they like the earlier chapters better. 

There's also this feeling when I am writing big stories, that I want to get it finished before it ends up being filed away in the 'Story Ideas' folder for years! Anyway, I'm still pretty happy with it, and nobody's 'paying' to read it. 

Funnily enough when I was getting close to finishing this I did wonder about maybe getting it published by Femdom Cave or something (if that still exists) or self-publishing it through Amazon or something. But then I thought, okay, let's say some people buy it, how much money is that actually going to generate? Not a huge amount, but probably enough that I would need to declare it for tax purposes.

Do I really want the aggro of explaining where £200-300 came from? Do I really want to have to fill in tax forms every year because I have this random income? No. So I decided to just put it on Literotica. After all, I'm not doing this for money, my only concern is that at some point some asshole uses my text to create a 'product', I've already noticed some authors complaining about this on Literotica, but I really don't know what can possibly be done about that. In a way it's flattering, but still very annoying I'm sure.

At the moment, all the parts except 'Part 5' have 'HOT' ratings, which is great! The only thing is that as yet it doesn't appear on my author page, I assume this is because it is only partly published. If you view the page as 'Newest First' it's not there at all, but if you change it to 'alphabetical' order then the first part is there.

It's so long since I published a multi-part story like this all in one go that I can't really remember how it works. Anyway, I'm sure they know that they are doing.

Literotica is Halfway Through Publishing 'How to Break Your Man'

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