Morning Hotel Teasing

Mistress and I enjoyed our wedding anniversary this week, and this year we decided to go away for a night to celebrate. To be honest we don't tend to go away very often, neither of us tend to sleep well away from home and this wasn't much different despite a good few drinks the night before! 

Mistress was already awake when I woke up at 6 and by the time I was giving up the idea of going back to sleep (about 7AM) she was already out of bed and half dressed. 

Pondering whether I could manage a swim before breakfast, I sat up in bed and then Mistress appeared in her underwear looking sexy and delicious. I thought she was just coming over to my side of the huge bed to kiss me, but instead she got on the bed and knelt in front of me. 

While I would have loved to rip Mistress's panties off and eat her to orgasm, I knew this wasn't on the cards (not least because I knew she was tired and also because I had forgotten to bring my razor so I was quite stubbly already)... but what happened next was quite unexpected.

Mistress sat back down on the bed and offered me her foot to kiss. Then she pulled back the covers to expose my cock and started using her feet to tease it. She continued until my cock was hard (this would have been amazing if we had had some lube with us) and then offered her foot to my mouth again. I could already taste the scent of my cock on her pretty feet which made my cock throb even harder.

Then she dropped her leg and sat upright, reaching forward and teasing my cock with her fingertips and long nails. Then she curled her fingers around it and started to stroke. It felt amazing, and the only thing that would have made it better was if she had been completely naked. 

Then she licked the fingers on her left hand and started to tease the head of my cock with them as she continued to stroke. This is a neat little trick that Mistress has picked up in the last year or so, which I really love.

As she stroked harder and faster I convinced myself she was going to let me cum. After all, we were on holiday, it was our anniversary.... she had to let me cum, right? 

Even so, when I felt the edge approaching I warned Mistress and she immediately let go, leaving my poor denied cock positively aching for release. 

Gah! I was so sure she was going to let me cum, or at least ruin it. 

But no. No cumming for me.

But as she sometimes likes to remind me, I wanted (and explicitly asked her) to be 'mean' about keeping me denied and frustrated so I only have myself to blame. This is 100% true, and I wouldn't change it for the world, or course. But even so... I would love to have felt myself explode, or even leak a nice load of cum for her to feed me. :)

After my swim I cuddled her from behind and told her I was so convinced she would let me cum. She said she 'thought about it', but then decided 'no'. Which I loved to hear, honestly. That it was a conscious decision on her part just makes my memory of that morning even hotter.

Mistress then said, I don't think we've ever done it like that before - which is true, I can't ever remember her sitting between my legs like that before and stroking my cock. It would be a great position for her to wrap her left hand around my balls too, and tug and squeeze then while she stroked my cock.

I hope that happens soon! 

Another Period of Chastity Comes to an End...

Earlier this evening my latest period of chastity came to a very hot close. It had 'only' been 34 days this time - quite brief compared to the previous two (62 and 67 or thereabouts), but somehow it felt longer. After Mistress enjoyed an orgasm on my tongue, I slipped the rubber cockring over my cock and balls and Mistress soon had me hard as a rock. Harder than I've felt for a good while I think, which hopefully is a sign that my weightloss is yielding some positive results!

Mistress and I kissed as she used her long nails to torment my cock before pumping me hard with her fist until I very, very nearly ruined. I knew it was touch and go, and when I looked down I could see one creamy drop of cum just hanging from the tip of my cock. Mistress rubbed her finger around my cock head and then pushed it into my mouth... that was so hot, especially when Mistress was kissing me and playing with my balls afterwards.

'I don't think that really even counts as a ruin,' she whispered and took hold of my cock again. I thought she might gently stroke me over the edge and then let go (although to be honest the edge had well and truly receded by then), but instead she stroked me hard and fast, bringing me closer and closer to the edge with her touch and her words. And when I inevitably reached that precipice for the second time to my surprise she didn't let go, but told me to cum and kept pumping until I came all over her hands, which she then had me clean with my tongue.

It was so damn good! That was my third 'full' orgasm in this chastity year (Apr/Mar); no ruins as yet, but hopefully some will come along. Last year they were split 50/50 (five of each altogether). I hope at some point I get to cum on Mistress's feet or pussy too, it seems a very long time since I was allowed to do that.

The dieting is going well, I've lost 28lbs in ten weeks, which is better than I expected honestly. But while this is really positive, the reality is there is still a long way to go. I'm hoping that by Christmas I will be back to where I was the last time I dieted properly (probably 2017 or 2018) and by Spring the lightest I've been since the early 2000s. 

I don't know why, but I feel it is 'easier' to stick to it this time somehow. Previously the novelty has always worn off fairly quickly, but ten weeks in I have been absolutely rigid on sticking to my targets, with no sneaky cheats at all. I think the fact that I have been losing so much so quick has helped keep me focussed and enthused.

I've also started reading some Literotica stories in a bid to try and inpire myself to finish all those stories sitting rotting on my desktop. Perhaps I will share a few of the best ones I've found in the next few days...

A New Tease for Milovana

 

Way back in July I created a new tease for the Milovana website. And after a long and protracted battle that tease was also voted the 'Classic Tease of the Month' (by just one vote!). Annoyingly I've been waiting to share it with you here for the last few days because the Milovana website has been down and so I couldn't access it to share the link and nor would that link have been any use if I had been able to. 

You can play the tease by clicking on the banner above. 

Perilously Close!

This afternoon Mistress and I retired to the bedroom for a little while, which came as a welcome break from the week of decorating that lies ahead of us. Mistress had a lovely orgasm on my tongue and then after I slid the cock ring on she soon had me rock hard. We kissed as she teased and stroked me, and she also rubbed the skin behind my balls which felt amazing!

After a while she started to suck my cock as I fondled her ass and then she got up onto her hands and knees and swung her leg over my head. Ooooooooooooh! Seconds later she was standing over me, stroking my cock as I begged to be allowed to worship her delicious ass.

She sank down, stroking my cock hard and I eagerly lifted my head to meet her ass as it dropped, my tongue already seeking it's target. God it felt amazing, massaging Mistress's amazing ass with my tongue as she sucked and stroked my cock. Just thinking about it now brings a smile to my face... but soon Mistress lifted off and stood over me again, while I used my hands to spread her cheeks and gaze at her pink hole. She continued stroking me, and then asked if I wanted more.

Even as I was begging for me I knew I wouldn't last long. But I wanted more so badly... sigh. Mistress sank down and my tongue moved quickly, but it was no good I was getting seriously, perilously, close to the point of no return and I had to tell Mistress. She stroked my cock a few more times as she lifted off, which almost, almost pushed me over the edge - I mean, seriously I do not know how my cum stayed in my balls. It must have been  a case of one more stroke and it would have been game over. Seriously! 

Oh well, at least when I'm swinging from my ladder tomorrow fighting with pieces of wallpaper I will have something to occupy my mind. I really hope I get another chance to worship Mistress's gorgeous ass before the end of the week. It's just SO. FUCKING. HOT! 

Three Posts in a Day, What the Hell is Going On?

So I just noticed that the blog finally passed the four million views mark. That's pretty crazy... and it only took thirteen years - haha! But actually, we lost well over a million when I moved the blog to fetblogger and then came back, so it's actually five million... who'd have thunk it? 

Well it's been a journey of discovery, I'll say that... and there's obviously been times when there's been more to write about and times when there's been almost nothing to write about. I very much hope we can resurrect our Femdom Sessions again (at least we've done one already this year, even if it was a little rusty) and I have to say that today I do feel a little more enthusiastic about the blog again (probably something to do with the AWESOME sex we had this morning, hey?).

Thanks for sticking with us through the lean times and hopefully there will be more to come through the year. 

In the meantime, earlier today I published another 'tease' on Milovana. Right now it's had just over 1800 views and is scoring 4.2/5.0. You can check it out here:

Goddess Alexis' Edging School - Tease #70534 - Milovana.com

Because the traditional style of tease has fallen out of favour they are now only doing the 'Classic Tease of the Month' competition if there are at least five published. My previous tease won 'TOTM', but admittedly against some pretty weak competition (and they still haven't added my 'TOTM Winner' sticker either!). But whatever... I know it won. And there was plenty I didn't win that I thought I should have so I'm taking it as a win!

I guess I should at least try and do a new style tease, it seems that they are capable of some pretty clever things - but I hate trying to learn how to use new technology, always have done. I once bought a new drum machine and then used the old one for another year because I couldn't be arsed to work the new one out. 

You know, a while back I got a PM from someone on Milovana begging me to make new 'map/rooms' style teases (like the ones I did years ago), they even said they could raise a decent amount of money to pay me to do it (like a Patreon kind of thing).

Which is all well and good, but those teases were extremely time consuming and took a lot of concentration to create and check. So while an easy £200 or whatever might sound tempting, if it's going to take me 15 hours to piece it together, that ain't all that great is it? 

Plus since the old 'Flash' tease engine is no longer available I would have to learn how to use the EOS editor first. And, well... the problem with getting paid is that people expect a lot for their cash don't they, and I wouldn't be able to 'create to order'. Years ago I tried to write a book within the parameters set by Femdom Cave and it really didn't work.

So we'll see. But don't hold your breath.

A Lost Comment... That Deserves Some Attention

I don't know exactly what happened, but on the 9th of April locoesclavo left a comment on my post "Another Year of Full Time Chastity Ends...". This is visible to me in the back pages of the blog, but not publicly visible for some reason. I only realised when I went to answer it and realised it wasn't in fact there. I don't really get this since if a comment is deleted it would still be 'there' but with 'this comment has been deleted' underneath it - unless I double delete it. But I certainly didn't do that.

Anyway, since locoesclavo left such a long and interesting comment it seemed only fair to post it here and to respond to it...

"Hello, I think I've said it before, but I love your statistics and graphs. Always within the world of orgasm control, numbers have excited me. Because it is incredible the feeling you experience on a weekend in a cage, or when for the first time your orgasm is delayed for a couple of weeks, but only when you see the numbers on the table, after a considerable amount of time, like a year, that one understands the magnitude of the effort that goes into trying to live this as a lifestyle. That is, 5 full orgasms in a year. It's a lot. A lot of sacrifice, effort, self-control. I really congratulate you, especially considering that you haven't quit for 13 years."

Thank you locoesclavo. It's still quite... alarming (haha) to think that is has been thirteen years since I was free to jerk off whenever I wanted. Of course, at some point it just became 'normal' I guess, like any lifestyle choice. But yes I guess many couples who try this might slip back into 'normalcy' or take breaks... especially if the Mistress misses having penetrative sex. 

That was always one of my concerns really, but since Mistress was the one who made the rule that only she could initiate penetration right when we started and indeed as a 'condition' of her taking on the role of full time chastity Mistress, well, I guess it was taken out of my hands. Of course it took a long time for me to really believe it, since... you know - male ego (haha). But by now I think it's pretty clear that Mistress enjoys my tongue way more than having my cock inside her.

"I don't usually differentiate a full orgasm from a frustrated one, although I understand that they are different sensations. In your table, however, you can see if you add the two types, the total also falls over time. 10 orgasms of both types in a year, less than one a month."

To be completely honest with you, even the full orgasms are kind of 'frustrated' since they are usually so overly intense as to almost be painful. But, there is definitely a difference between them in how you feel afterwards. After a full orgasm I definitely feel quite drained for a time, whereas with a properly ruined orgasm after a short while it's like it never happened. 

"I don't remember if I've told you before, but I've always seen you as a bit of an inspiration on this topic. In my case, after many twists and turns, and some failed attempts, in February 2023, my wife and I made the decision to start a new attempt to control orgasms as a lifestyle. At the beginning, with certain conditions it was fun, hard to endure without a device, but very enjoyable. However, over time I feel that it becomes difficult but in a different way. I feel that, although I have a good number of orgasms, the lifestyle becomes more boring, making the effort of holding on from one orgasm to the next very difficult, I wonder if it is worth it."

Well, everyone is different of course, but I wonder if people who are orgasm-driven are the ones who get the most from chastity? Of course there is this idea that the woman uses the cage to 'control' the man and this somehow makes him into her perfect husband. As if some women don't use sex to 'control' their man anyway? 

For me, and I suspect for many men who enjoy this lifestyle it's almost the opposite. I like being desperate to cum, I like being edged, and while in that moment I want it to happen, basically I don't. At the same time I absolutely love making my Mistress cum, and while I'm sure lots of men enjoy their wife's orgasms, I think you probably enjoy them even more when you yourself haven't cum for a month or four.

But yes, I understand why you might get bored. Especially if you are only having sex once every three weeks. To be honest I would not think that is sustainable. If you are only having sex once every three weeks then I don't honestly think this is the right lifestyle for you. Effectively you are being 'locked and left' which is probably why you feel like it is not worth the effort. I wouldn't either. 

When I first got into this lifestyle I read something somewhere about a man who was trying to interest his (disinterested) wife in locking him up to put some spice into their non-existent sexlife. Her attitude was kind of like 'Okay, why can't you just lock your cock up yourself and I won't touch it just like I don't touch it now'. He was at his wits end trying to make her see the difference between being 'positively frustrated' and 'negatively frustrated'.

There are so many ways your wife could do this (verbally and physically) without having to let you inside her or having full sex. But she has to be on board and 'interested'. If she's just going along with it as a way to keep the sex limited to once every three weeks then I think you'd be better off keeping this as a fantasy. This is supposed to make you feel closer, if it doesn't (and I suspect for you it probably doesn't) then it's never going to work long term. 

"It should be noted that my Lady, unlike yours, does not like BDSM or Femdom. So it is a vanilla marriage with the condition that I do not masturbate and I only have to finish with her permission when we make love . Her libido is also quite low, which led her to agree with orgasm control, as a way to control that we make love only when She proposes it, once every 2 or 3 weeks."

Yes, exactly... it sounds like you are giving up a lot for very little in return. 

And honestly, most of the time our relationship is pretty vanilla too. Yes Mistress slaps/whips my balls sometimes and uses her nails on my cock now and again. And yes in the past we have had specific 'sessions' which are femdom in nature. But day to day, it's really not like that. I can't even remember the last time I had a butt plug in my ass... 

Not to sound like a broken record but one of the reasons our lifestyle works is because I love making Mistress cum and she loves me making her cum. She has never come through penetration anyway, so prefers my tongue (and that was always my favourite thing to do anyway). So we are very fortunate in that our 'tastes' line up very well.

"Here comes the question. How do you manage to endure the meanwhile when nothing happens in the middle? In these 13 years, were there moments where you asked yourself if it was worth the effort?"

Yes of course there have been times when I've seriously considered a break or stopping completely. I don't think it would be normal to go that long and never feel differently. Mostly this has been times when things have not been going so well for us, which thankfully has not been all that often. We are very lucky that for the most part our marriage has been very strong and quite 'uneventful' (I mean that in a positive sense). 

I think over the last 30 years the longest we've gone without any sex at all was maybe two weeks and mostly it's 1-3 times a week, so honestly it's hard for me to answer your question since my concept of 'the meanwhile' is quite different to yours. If I was regularly going three weeks between sex I would not be doing this though, I can tell you that much.

"Anyway, thanks for staying here. And I hope your wishes come true (but be careful, lest your Mistress end up taking all your complete orgasms to exchange them for ruined orgasms, hahaha)."

Thanks, haha. Well that's completely up to her to decide... if she feels guilty she knows all she has to do is offer me the choice of a real orgasm or the chance to worship her ass. We both know which one I will pick, every single time. 

Fifty Day Release.

Last week my most recent period of chastity came to an end after 50 days. I've been feeling very 'off' lately and so I've been using a cock ring for several weeks now. I haven't cum with a cock ring on for a very long time, so I'd forgotten how intense it was... 

Mistress kindly allowed me to worship her gorgeous ass while she stroked me to the edge... and then she let go. And just when I thought she was getting off me it seemed that she suddenly changed her mind and planted her delicious ass back on my face and started stroking me hard again. I tongued her ass for as long as I could... I wanted to make the most of this - but as the orgasm hit she lifted away slightly and I was bucking uncontrollably anyway. But God I loved it while it lasted.

Of course the cock ring initially stops your cum 'exploding' out like it usually would... so Mistress kept stroking, so it was kind of ruined that way. 🤣 

As my cock softened a little and the cum started to flow, Mistress scooped it up with her fingers and smeared it on her beautiful toes. I can't tell you how much I loved cleaning my cum off of her gorgeous feet. That was SO FUCKING HOT. And it's been sooooooooooo long.

It's hot here in the UK today, and so Mistress and I decided to have some fun before the house becomes a sweat box. Mistress even removed her bra and so I got to see her in all her amazing glory, I mean you can see above how amazing she is.... just beautiful.

As I kissed the insides of Mistress's silky smooth thighs her hand slid down between her legs and I watched for a moment as she gently teased her clit. God that was so fucking hot. But soon I moved closer and started to lick her... she always tastes amazing and I just never want to stop. I adore making her cum, but even just the taste... I love it so much. 

After Mistress had a very hard orgasm, I slipped the cock ring on and Mistress got me hard very quickly. I think I am getting better actually, but I'm not ready to lose the cock ring just yet. Mistress teased me so good, and I wanted to cum so bad - it's always worse when you've recently cum I find.

I told her how much I loved eating her ass and cleaning my cum off her feet as she stroked my rock hard cock. And I told her how much I love that she makes we want to cum but doesn't let me.

Even once she'd edged me my cock stayed hard and Mistress played with it, gently at first, eventually holding my cock while I fucked her hand. Then she slid down the bed and started sucking me (while I gently teased her ass)... that felt incredible, I just love the warmth of her ass on my fingertips too. 

Eventually she sat up and let me caress her amazing breasts while she stroked me hard. She even got a couple of ball smacks in there too... so good, but evnetually of course I got to the edge again and this time she let go and laid down beside me. 

What a brilliant way to start a Sunday! 

Another Year of Full Time Chastity Ends...

Our thirteenth year of full time chastity has finally come to a close and I thought I would share with you a couple of graphs representing our relative orgasm stats. Not much point doing the other graphs this year as you know we've just had the one Femdom session and I haven't cum anywhere except on my own stomach and Mistress's hands the last two years (hopefully that will change this coming year though...). 

Despite our best efforts (a run of 10 in March) we just failed to get Mistress back into the hundreds, but we came very close and this marks a significant increase over last year's lowpoint. And when you consider Mistress had 98 orgasms to my 5 (full orgasms) that's still nearly a 20>1 ratio -  almost double our original target!

As you can see from this second graph, I have enjoyed a total of ten orgasms, 5 ruined and 5 full in the last year. This is the lowest combined total since we started. While I'm happy with 5 full orgasms, I would like a few more ruins (preferably on Mistress's beautiful feet or pussy)... in fact I would be happy to give up full orgasms for more ruined ones, but I guess I will have to wait and see what Mistress decides.