It's Getting Harder (In Every Sense of the Word)

Well it seems that I jumped the gun a little posting yesterday, since as soon as that went up Mistress and I had some more pre-dinner fun. I must say that since last weekends amazing Femdom Session I have been feeling so much more positive about things and resisting the temptation to touch my cock seems to be paying dividends.

Though I did wear my Oxballs Cocksling yesterday, which helps, I was so hard.. it felt amazing, and Mistress was clearly enjoying teasing me. With my balls held tight in the sling it felt so good when she licked and sucked them. Mmmmmmmmmmm!

Once she got me to the edge she kissed me while scratching my cock with her (very long, real) nails. That was so hot, not exactly 'painful' but deliciously evil and I loved it. After I had cooled off a little Mistress began the teasing again and soon I was begging to be allowed to worship her gorgeous ass.

I really can't over-emphasize this point... I cannot get enough of Mistress's GORGEOUS ass! It looks amazing, it feels amazing, it tastes amazing. I cannot imagine ever choosing an orgasm over being allowed to worship her ass, that's how much I love it. I am a very lucky man to have a wife with such a perfect ass, perfect feet, perfect breasts... just perfect all over. 

You know I would love to spend a half hour just kissing Mistress all over, every part of her gorgeous body, there's no part of her that I wouldn't want to kiss, even her armpits are sexy as hell. But her ass is the best. Oh my God, it is so perfect. I could kiss those cheeks for hours and lick her hole for another hour. If only she'd let me... 

Anyway.... so I woke up this morning, and immediately started thinking about yesterday. About Mistress standing over me as I reached up to caress her awesome legs and part her cheeks, while she slapped and stroked my cock. I was soon hard and I had to take my hands out from under the duvet to stop myself touching my cock. I remembered how, after allowing me to taste her ass three times I begged for even more and she said...

"You can't lick it any more, but you can look at it."

She sank down onto me and I felt my throbbing cock slip between inside her mouth as I had to fight the ache to worship her amazing ass one more time. That was tough, let me tell you. That was really tough. But I'm an obedient sub and I made it through.... haha.

Mistress continued stroking me to a second edge, which arrived dangerously fast I might add; that was very nearly an accidental ruin! And after that we lay in bed, holding each other, my cock still hard as rock until I removed the Oxballs (needless to say I had already made Mistress cum before she started teasing me - as it should be; she comes first after all).

So it got me thinking about the value of chastity, and how it's not simply just that being denied means you are hornier when you get to play with your partner. But it's also how it makes you feel closer to them and how it means you associate pleasure with your partner. That's a very powerful thing and it's well worth the effort of resisting temptation for. 

No Touching!

It's been almost a week since our first 'Femdom Session' in a very long time, and so far so good. As per Mistress's instructions I have not touched my cock, balls or ass at all, even though at times I wanted to and even though at times I almost did it without thinking Eek! Oddly enough, one morning I had a little lie in as I had to go somewhere on the way to work and as I lay in bed (Mistress was already up and working in an adjoining room) I fantasized about (for some reason) ringing* Mistress to ask permission to touch my cock. 

*If anyone under 30 is reading this, ringing someone is where you dial a number and actually speak to someone on the phone, a bit old fashioned perhaps but I can assure you texting Mistress for anything would result in being ignored or at worst a flat no. And rightly so.

I can't really imagine why that would ever happen because Mistress and I are rarely apart and even if we were I can't honestly imagine ringing her to ask permission... but anyway, I suppose the details are not that important. The finer points are somewhat hazy, but the upshot was that Mistress told me I could not touch my cock directly but that I could rub it through my boxer shorts if I really wanted to.

That made me quite hard and I definitely wanted to touch my cock at that point, but since I would have to get up and go and ask Mistress's permission (by which time I'm sure the moment would have 'passed') I elected not to bother. I think I liked it because it was Mistress granting permission but with a twist of 'control'. Another example which I may have used in a story before would be asking permission to cum on Mistress's feet (for example) and being told yes, but only if you ruin it.

HOT! HOT! HOT! HOT! HOT!

I'm delighted to see that 'SubHub in Phoenix' has started posting again after a very long break in transmissions. SubHub has long been my favourite blog and he always posts very intriguing and exciting posts. His life with Mistress K is a bit more extreme than ours, a much more 24/7 WLM situation and while I'm not sure that would be entirely for me, some of the posts are extremely hot.

I'm sure you all follow SubHub anyway, but I just wanted to give them a shout out since you may not have realised that the blog is operational again. 

FEMDOM SESSION - 2nd February 2025

Long term readers will know that over the years Mistress and I have indulged in regular Femdom sessions which I often described in great detail here on this blog. This started way back in the 90s, then stopped altogether for several years before restarting in the 2000s, and since then we've had consistent years and inconsistent years... sometimes making it as high as 9 in a year, sometimes as low as 1.

Last year we managed just one, way back in March... but a few weeks ago, just before Christmas actually I think, Mistress and I were talking about our 'lifestyle' and our chastity contract and how we could improve it. In fact we were supposed to have a talk about this and then review our contract. As yet we haven't which is mainly because I wanted to think about what I wanted to say for a while... and also because Mistress suggested we make a real effort to start our Femdom sessions again.

Well I'm pleased to say that we've got one on the board for 2025 already at it was absolutely fantastic!

Despite the fact that we've been doing this for a very long time now, we both still get quite nervous about it, mainly because we both worry that it won't be as good as we want it to be, and obviously the longer it goes between sessions the more pressure builds to make it great. But I think we were both determined not to let our nerves get the better of us this time and as I prepared myself for the session I felt unusually calm about it all.

Mistress told me to wear a blindfold, a cock ring (I chose the Oxballs Cocksling) and our smallest glass buttplug (the one with the ring on the end). As it had been nearly a year since I had anything in my ass I thought it would be a good idea to try fitting the plug before I had my shower. It was actually quite difficult to get it in, but once it was it felt okay.

However when I came back from my shower to fit it again I applied more lube and then it felt far too easy and after about a minute I realised it was going to fall out in no time. I didn't really want that so I grabbed the ribbed glass dildo I bought (identical to Mistress's glass dildo) and pushed that inside me, before kneeling on the floor and awaiting Mistress's arrival.  

One of the things that has definitely been lacking from our 'lifestyle' over the past year is the feeling of being controlled. So I was very happy when Mistress came in and told me that 'things were going to go back to how they used to be, that I was not allowed to touch my cock, balls or ass without permission and transgressions would be punished during the next session. Furthermore if I went beyond simply touching and 'edged' myself or 'made myself cum' I would have to confess to her immediately. She didn't say what would happen in that instance... but I'm guessing it's not good.

Mistress enquired if I had touched my cock recently and I said I had, whereupon she told me lean forward onto my hands and set about 'correcting' me with her whip and paddle. I hadn't felt the sting of the whip (or the paddle) since our last session, and as I counted each stroke and thanked Mistress for it I concentrated on how wet it was going to make Mistress.

Before long Mistress was lying back on the bed, toying her pussy with her glass dildo while I enjoyed worshipping her beautiful feet. While I do worship her feet regularly (after each orgasm generally) it's not the same as kneeling at the foot of the bed and doing it for an extended period (blindfolded, cuffed and with a glass cock in my ass...) and I really loved it.

As I worshipped her gorgeous feet Mistress talked to me, teasing me about how badly I wanted to taste her pussy and ass and how she could get me to agree to just about anything to get my tongue where I wanted it (very true). She also reminded me that she could order me to worship her pussy or ass wherever and whenever she chose. I hope this wasn't just 'talk', it's been so long since Mistress had me randomly worship her gorgeous ass and I really miss that.

Soon Mistress had me on the bed and she quickly knelt astride my head before ordering me to lick her pussy. She tasted amazing and again I realised just how much I had missed having her on top of me like that. 

At this point I couldn't see her of course, but before long she removed the blindfold and stood over me looking absolutely incredible. She had on her PVC skirt and a cupless basque which gave me an awesome view of her sexy body from below. She began teasing (and whipping) my cock, which was soon very hard in the Cocksling. 

As I recall, during the last Femdom session we had I didn't really get that hard, mainly due to nerves I think... so this was a relief honestly, and it meant I could relax and enjoy what Mistress was doing to me. Apart from whipping my cock and balls, Mistress also used a hairbrush to scratch and hit my cock and balls and also teased me with a vibrating buttplug (though that was pretty ineffectual honestly - I've actually bought a new vibrating butt plug that is much stronger and also inflates, but we haven't tried it out yet and thought it best to try it out before we use it in a session).

Mistress looked incredible, as she always does in our sessions, and it made me remember all the things I love about her when she is in full on Mistress mode. Not least how much she obviously enjoys hurting my cock and balls, and the way she can't help but smile when I flinch as she whips my balls or removes a peg from one of my nipples.

Eventually Mistress re-blindfolded me, pegged my nipples and left me to calm down for a while and when she returned she had ditched the skirt in favour of her Ann Summers crotchless panties. I've mentioned these before, they somehow seem to push her pussy lips forward and look very hot on her... although they are a little bit restrictive in some ways. Mistress had me worship her delicious pussy then, and she had a nice orgasm on my tongue. She tasted so damned good, I loved every second of it... 

After Mistress came and had me down on my back again, I asked permission to clean her pussy properly. She straddled my face and I licked her clean, she was still extremely wet... I just love licking Mistress's pussy when she has cum, especially in a session like this when she's extra turned on.

And so we come to the final part of our session... the part where I finally got to worship Mistress's delicious ass. Mmmmmmmm!

Mistress teased me for a while, standing over me and giving me this amazing view of her perfect pink pussy and her tight little hole while she bent forward to suck on my cock. God that was incredible! 

Soon my tongue was pressed firmly against her asshole as she stroked my cock firmly. It wasn't as hard as I'd like, but I've always found it's harder to get fully hard after a long period wearing a cock ring and I am suffering a lot with numbness lately (a hangover from my back surgery years ago). Honestly I hoped losing all this weight would have helped more than it seems to have done, in the past I know there were certain weights where I could expect more or less 'reliability' but I'm way past all those points and apart from a period around Christmas where things improved quite dramatically, I'm still using either a cock ring, a ball stretcher or the cocksling for every teasing session.

Despite this Mistress soon had me on the edge and allowed me to keep licking her gorgeous ass as she pumped me over the edge... honestly before the session I had hoped that she would let me cum on her beautiful feet and lick them clean, but this was awesome too. Mistress made me lick her fingers clean and then scooped up as much cum as she could find and fed it to me, even some that had ended up on the black PVC sheet down between my knees. 

It was great to finally have another Femdom session, and I really hope this is the start of a new series of sessions. Because I hadn't had anything in my ass for so long before this session Mistress said she wouldn't use the strap-on on me this time, but since I had to switch out the butt plug for a larger one I'm hoping next time will be different. 

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year to all my readers.... I appreciate it's a bit late to be saying that, but I haven't posted since Christmas Day so ... Happy New Year! :)

 

Nothing much to report I'm afriad, but I'm happy to say that my story 'Gareth's Obsession' is still climbing and is now my 5th highest* rated story on Literotica! Good to know I haven't lost my touch... unfortunately no progress on my other stories lately, I've been busy writing posts for another (vanilla) blog that I write.

*Well, at least amongst the stories that were written as Robert Anthony, I changed my user name in 2011).

Plus I haven't been feeling that great lately, I think I caught a bit of a cold from my mother, but it's probably also just that 'January' feeling descending. Gloomy, cold days don't exactly inspire me to knuckle down and get things done, which is annoying since it's this time of year when I have the most free time.  

I'm still losing weight, which is great... and I managed not to fuck it up over Christmas too, which was tough (honestly), but I'm very glad I didn't put half a stone on and then have to spend all of January losing the same weight again - which is what I was most afraid of. I've lost 49.5lbs since last June, which is still a pretty good going (just under 2lbs a week), and I've dropped two sizes in my jeans (and even they are baggy). So it's gone well, I just need to keep it up!

Well honestly I don't really have too much else to tell you at the moment. Hopefully in the next month or so I will get some writing done and maybe have something a little more exciting to recount. 

An Early Christmas Present...

Merry Christmas to everyone who reads the blog, I hope you all have (or had) a grand day and you are feeling as great as I am.

Those of you who read the blog on a laptop rather than a phone might have noticed a rather curious stat on the 'Most Recent Orgasm' panel (top right of the page). It currently reads 24th of December for Mistress R's last orgasm, but also for my last orgasm and my last ruin. Now that doesn't seem right does it?

But it is! Because after Mistress came on my tongue last night, she teased me first to a ruin and then to a full blown orgasm. And it was A M A Z I N G !

I was wearing the Oxballs Ballstretcher, so my balls were really tight and Mistress was doing a wonderful job of teasing me. At one point when she was sucking my throbbing cock she was cupping my balls and applying light pressure (which felt fantastic, a little more pressure would have been wonderful too I think) until eventually she started to stroke me hard and fast to get me to the edge. 

I warned her I was close and she let go, but not soon enough and I leaked a few drops of cum. Mistress took hold of my cock and very gently massaged more cum out of my cock, before having me lick her fingers clean. She did this two or three times and it was hot as fuck, and not only that but it was so perfectly ruined that my cock stayed rock hard throughout.

Noticing this Mistress started to stroke me again, gently at first until she was sure that I wasn't about to explode... and then harder. I thought she was going to edge me again, and then I thought 'Is she going to ruin me again...?' cos I've never had a double ruin before. But as I approached the edge a second time Mistress pumped me harder and when I warned her I was close she kept pumping me hard and told me to cum.

Well, suffice to say that I blew quite a load, and again Mistress made me swallow quite a lot of it. 😊 

It was an awesome way to start Christmas, that's for sure. 

Hope yours is as exciting... 

Robert A

In the Middle of the Night... (Again)

You may remember the post I wrote a couple of weeks ago where I said that I woke up in the middle of the night feeling very horny... well last week that happened again. We had been out til late visiting relatives in the town where we both grew up. Since I don't drink and they have children it's generally always been the case that we go there, which isn't a problem but obviously by the time we drive home it usually means a late night.

I think we left their house about 1:15-1:30AM and so by the time we got home and sorted it was getting on for 2AM. Even though I had gone past being tired, I really wanted to go to bed because I knew if I didn't get to sleep soon then I would feel like crap on Sunday and we wouldn't get anything done.

Mistress decided she wanted to stay up for a while, so she went downstairs and I cleaned my teeth and went to bed. Of course I was wide awake, so I decided to read for a bit to try and help me go to sleep. I went straight to Literotica and read a few stories...

After the third or fourth story I started to feel tired and as I flicked off the light I noticed it was almost 3AM. Anything after 2AM is generally bad news for me, so I figured I wouldn't be getting up until at least 10AM and even then Sunday probably wasn't looking very 'productive'.

I fell asleep fairly quickly, but about 10-15 minutes later I was awake again and just like the week prior and the week before that I was hard as a rock and insanely horny. Which was kinda odd since it hadn't even been 24 hours since I had used my voucher and Mistress had allowed me a full orgasm!

I must have laid there for about half an hour, my cock getting harder and harder and feeling hornier and hornier. Not that I'm complaining you understand, since the last few months I have been heavily relying on cock rings to get and stay hard it is a wonderful feeling to be so fucking hard that you feel like you're going to explode any moment.

As I lay there half awake with my fingers curled around my throbbing cock, squeezing and very lightly stroking,  I once again fantasized about going downstairs to see Mistress. Like a fortnight ago though, there wasn't much point seeking permission to 'stroke' because I was getting so close to the edge from just the lightest of touches that what I really needed was permission to cum... and since I had that less than 24 hours ago I really couldn't see that request getting anywhere.

But still as I lay there my mind explored the possibility of going downstairs and kneeling in front of Mistress and begging to be allowed to cum again. I thought, what if I go down and ask to worship her gorgeous feet, maybe she would let me cum on them and lick them clean. It's been so long since I've got to cum on her feet properly... 

To be honest I was so horny I wouldn't have cared if she'd told me to ruin myself into my hand and lick it up*. In fact as my mind played out the possibilities I realised that I was so desperate that I would have done pretty much anything she asked to be allowed to cum and have her order me to clean up my mess.

* In fact I really hope one day Mistress does exactly this... the thought of that is so HOT.

By this time it was getting on for 4AM and I heard a noise downstairs. I figured Mistress was coming to bed and I suddenly realised I needed to go to the loo. I was still quite hard but managed to pee as I heard Mistress coming up the stairs and then I went back to bed. I lay down and my cock softened a bit, clearly the spell of ultra-horniness was broken and Mistress fell asleep as soon as her head hit the pillow anyway. I went to sleep a while later and woke up at 7:30AM. I stayed in bed for an hour trying to get back to sleep, but it wasn't happening. And as I lay there I replayed the previous night's 'events'... 

I thought again about how horny and desperate I was and for a moment I considered getting up and drafting a story based on what 'could' have happened if I had gone downstairs. I imagined different scenarios, culminating in one where Mistress told me if I really wanted to cum I would have to fit the largest butt plug we own, kneel in front of her and jerk off onto a large realistic dildo (which we don't own) and then suck and lick it clean. I may still write this story... but as we know, I really need to finish what's already been started before I start anything new. 

*I've since drafted five different versions of this story, I intend to write all five! 🤣

15th December 2024

This weekend was pretty good for us, we didn't do a massive amount, but we did drive around the local villages to look at the Christmas lights (which Mistress really loves) and we also had some pretty awesome sex! Both times Mistress came really hard and this afternoon she also got her small whip out so that she could whip my cock and balls while she was teasing me. That was awesome!

I wore the Oxballs Cocksling so my cock was rock hard and Mistress teased me wonderfully. The little whip still stings, especially when my balls are held so tight and she also used it on the head of my cock a few times too. Very intense, but it only made my cock harder.

It is quite hard to get to the edge with the Cocksling on, which is perhaps a bonus for some people... but I got there eventually. It didn't hurt that Mistress was kissing me after she sucked my straining cock and I love to kiss Mistress when her lips taste of cock, that's SO FUCKING HOT!

I also love that Mistress usually edges me at least twice now. In the past she tended to edge me and stop, but really that just made me not want to edge, since I knew it would be the end. But these days that's changed, which I really appreciate. Would be interesting to know how many times Mistress could edge me before I lost control, maybe one day we'll find out... 🙂

It's That Time of Year Again...

Hello readers... as you can see I have Christmassified the Blog Header once again, hope you like it. Of course I couldn't bring myself to cover up Mistress R's spectacular breasts.... 😊

I'm afraid, having re-read that story that I thought was almost finished, that it ain't as nearly finished as I thought. So that still needs work. On the upside I found two more stories that are mainly there, so that's four potential stories in the not too distant future.

I started writing a post last weekend, but that too is not quite finished, maybe I will find time to complete that later today. We'll see...

In the meantime, here are some new stories that I've added to the 'Stories by Other Authors' page recently...

  

'Gareth's Obsession' is now Officially Rated HOT!

It took a little while but I'm pleased to report that 'Gareth's Obsession' has now achieved the 4.5/5 rating necessary for it to be labelled 'HOT' on Literotica. That means I now have 13 'HOT' stories on there*, plus another 9 that are very close to that (at least 4.41). Thanks to everyone who voted for my story, and like I said before it shouldn't be too long before I have more to post. I actually found another pretty complete story in my desktop folder, so as soon as I get time I will finish those two up and get them posted.

*Actually I have another seventeen stories rated HOT on my old Malibuman666 account that I forgot about! 

In other news, you may remember in my last post I mentioned that Mistress had given me one of her special vouchers back in October that allowed me to 'ask permission' to orgasm in December and how it never occurred to me to use it when I was horny and desperate in the middle of the night on the morning of December the 1st! Well, that voucher has now been used...

Last night Mistress had a lovely orgasm on my tongue, but I wasn't feeling that great so we just cuddled afterwards. But this morning I woke up hard and when Mistress started stroking my cock it crossed my mind again. I was kind of undecided actually, and certainly not as desperate as I was last weekend, but after Mistress edged me and then gave my balls half a dozen really heavy slaps (which felt fucking INCREDIBLE) I soon started to reassess! 

And when Mistress started teasing my throbbing cock a second time I decided to strike while the iron was hot, or indeed while the cock was hard and requested permission to cum. Mistress asked me repeatedly if I was sure, and reminded me that I only get to use it once. I told her I was sure and she stroked my cock with her nails while she 'thought it over' for a minute.... then she told me to ask her nicely and then she told me okay, she would let me cum.

Again it was pretty intense, and Mistress wiped the cum from her hand on her left breast before allowing me to lick it clean. Then she had me clean her fingers. It was hot, but still a surprisingly small amount really (I later realised there was a pool of it on my stomach that Mistress probably couldn't see in the pathetically dim light of our pitiful bedside lamps, haha).

Also following my last post Mistress and I decided that we need to revisit our 'Chastity Contract' in the near future and try to make sure both of us are happy with the way things are going. Hopefully that will be done soon. I didn't want to rush into it and I have quite a few thoughts on it, but it's quite involved really and I want to get my thoughts down before we do that. I don't want to get into it too much now, but 'cageless' chastity is certainly a lot more complicated than 'caged' chastity (in my opinion)!

Finally this time, I'm happy to say that I have now lost 42lbs in weight since July (that's exactly 3 Stones in English!), which is great. I'm nearly as light as I have been at any time in the last fifteen years, although there's still plenty to lose. Maybe as much as the same again, which is a depressing thought... but at least it's going the right way. 

I still don't feel much different, honestly. I'm not miraculously charged with energy like you would perhaps think, but it is nice to be able to wear clothes that are somewhat normal sizes rather than trying to find 40" waist jeans to buy. Annoyingly I had a cupboard full of jeans, about seven pairs of 38", and when I tried them on they were all too big save for two pairs of 36" which fitted for about a week and then they started to feel baggy too. I've bought two new pairs of 36" which are better, but even those aren't really as tight as I'd like them to be, but I don't think I'm ready for 34's yet.

Of course, we now have Christmas on the horizon, which is a little worrying. But I feel like I am on top of it. There's no way I am going to put on a lot of weight over Christmas and I will be going to my slimming club on both Christmas Eve and New Year's Eve to make sure I don't put myself back so much that I get annoyed. I also plan to stick to the diet right up until Christmas Eve evening. This will be hard, of course, but I'd really like to be able to enjoy Christmas itself without worrying about it too much and the best way to do that is to keep on the straight and narrow as long as possible.

After Christmas I will be decorating Mistress R's office, so that should keep me off my backside and away from the chocolates. I'm actually quite pleased about that as I find the Christmas holidays a little boring if I don't have anything to do, especially if the weather is bad and you are basically stuck at home for 10 days straight.

You know, it's funny... I find it odd when people say 'You must be proud of yourself' for losing loads of weight. Well, yes I guess... but not really, because I should never have let myself get so fat in the first place. I mean it's backwards isn't it? People who don't let themselves get fat are the ones who should be proud of themselves. Right?

But whatever. Something had to change and it has, and that's got to be a good thing. And apparently I've stopped snoring, so that's definitely a positive for Mistress R! 🤣