Starting as we Mean to go On...?

It amazes me how many views my blog continues to get even when I fail to post for nine days. Thankfully, I now have something to post about. And since I’ve been so lax of late I kinda feel like this should be a decent post.

So, first of all the last week or two hasn’t been the greatest. For one reason or another I really haven’t been feeling ‘horny’ at all. A tell tale sign being no morning wood, which is very unusual for me, and most disconcerting. This may be partly because I got out of the habit of doing my ‘mobility’ exercises and my regular walking, and also more likely I have an infection which I am now half way through a course of antibiotics for.

Thankfully the last two mornings I have been back to my old self, which is awesome. As I say I’m half way through the medicine and also I’ve done exercise every day this month (and yesterday I did three, yes three walks! – insane!). Over the last 15 years I’ve endured a lot of physical pain (back, leg, foot) culminating in a major operation in 2007, but none of that bothers me like ED. Thankfully this hasn’t been a major problem this time, it just took me a longer than usual amount of time to get going. And now it seems to be sorted anyway.

This afternoon Mistress had her third orgasm since the start of our new chastity year, which is a reasonable start. It probably would have been four if I hadn’t had a stomach ache on Thursday night. And afterwards we cuddled up and started to kiss. Unlike last week, my cock started to harden straight away and in no time at all Mistress was sucking and stroking my rock hard cock.

It felt fucking awesome to be so hard so quick, and it was clear Mistress was enjoying herself too.  I teased her ass with my fingertips as she stroked and sucked and wondered if she might allow me to tongue her ass again. Mistress started stroking harder and faster and I could feel the pleasure building to an edge, before Mistress slowed down again. Then, before I could ask for permission to worship her gorgeous asshole, she got up on her knees and straddled me, sinking down onto my aching cock. It felt incredible being inside her super-tight pussy, and it wasn’t long before I was struggling to hold back from shooting inside her.

Any thoughts of begging for her to remove her bra were quickly banished as the last things I needed to see right then were Mistress’s gorgeous breasts. Mistress was plainly smirking at me as she watched me struggle, which only made it worse. I could feel my lips trembling as I bit the lower one and before too long I had to warn Mistress off.

“I’m getting close Mistress,” I said.

Mistress slipped off of me and knelt beside me.

“It’s time to stop then…” she said, before adding “…or is it?”

She lightly grasped my cock and settled down to stroking me again, again I reached the edge and I thought this would be the end. Mistress let go for a short time and then started stroking me again, this was so feeling fantastic and just what I needed to restore my faith in my previously lethargic cock. I really love it when Mistress edges me, stops and edges me again… so fucking awesome!

She started stroking faster and I warned her of yet another edge, this time she continued stroking and told me to cum, but just as I started to orgasm Mistress let go and then softly stroked the underside of my straining cock with her fingertips. It was one of the ‘best’ ruined orgasms I’ve had, leaving me completely frustrated as I leaked out a huge puddle of cum. I’m sure being edged a few times before being allowed to ‘cum’ made it so much better, the pressure was really built up and made it so much more awesomely frustrating…. 

With Mistress thoroughly satisfied and me completely ruined I can’t think of a better start to our sixth year of full-time chastity, and I think it’s a given now that Mistress will get to her 600th orgasm way before I got to my 100th. Which gives us more than a 6-1 ratio for the first five years, which is pretty good, and interestingly our last chastity year also had the exact same ratio. The previous year was 8.3-1, so there’s work to be done there! Hopefully Mistress will use her amazing ruining technique to good effect this year and will feel less inclined to let me cum properly.

There two other things that I was going to write about, but one of them has completely gone out of my head. However, the other one… is still clear in my mind’s eye.

You know how you get blase about stuff, and feel like you’ve seen it all before? Well, tumblr (of course) is the place to see stuff you never knew you hadn’t seen, and today was no exception. I was browsing my tumblr feed when I saw a clip of a guy, how can I say this… well there’s no way to say it other than to say it… pushing his balls into a girl’s ass.

I mean… I get why you’d want to stick your cock in a girl’s ass, but it had never occurred to me to even contemplate tying my balls and shoving them into a girl’s ass. I mean, who thinks of these things? Anyway, if you want to see a guy shoving his balls into a pretty girl’s asshole, then by all means visit my tumblr feed, because I felt utterly compelled to repost it. 

Well I still can’t think what the other thing was, maybe it will come to me later.

Seeking Reassurance...

So a while back I made a post where I asked my readers to give me their opinions regarding whether they thought Mistress and I should have a break from our chastity play, given that we will soon be coming to our fifth anniversary. I got a couple of quite different responses…

First from Harry Haversackers who said: “On the topic of taking a break, I can only ask why you’d want to… CH and I have been playing with chastity and orgasm denial for roughly the same length of time that you two have been (Five years as of last October), and I can’t imagine taking a break… to do what? Have vanilla sex for a few weeks??”

And an alternate view from Peak who said: “I think the resumption of ‘normal’ relations is something you should seriously discuss with your wife. After five years you are both used to the lifestyle it generates. Equally it could also now be simply a habit. A month of so normal relations (and it may take a few weeks to really get back into it) would allow you both to reset the habit side at least. I’m sure within days you would find it strange and one or the other would want to switch back but give it a reasonable fixed time. After that you would need to discuss it again. You might find you want to switch back immediately, or for another fixed term. You might find elements you want to retain and other you want to stop or restrict. If nothing else you would revert with an eagerness for some elements that would make riveting reading!”

Thanks to both of my readers (sounds good doesn’t it… hahaha) for their comments, I do appreciate people taking their time to leave messages for me. Mistress read that post the other day, although I’m pretty sure she read it before any comments had been left, and she did remark to me that she didn’t know I wanted to ‘take a break’.

We didn’t really get into a discussion about it as it was a rather in-opportune moment, but nothing about her tone suggested to me that she was keen (or otherwise really) on the idea. The truth is it’s not that I want a break, but there is a lingering feeling that stems from when we first started this lifestyle (I refuse to word the ‘j’ word!) that I need reassuring sometimes that Mistress is happy with the way things are. I know that it’s been five years and you would think that if she was unhappy then she probably would have said so by now, and I hope that is true. It is also true that Mistress does seem to enjoy denying me now, and the uncertainty stems from a time when she was very indifferent about the whole idea. No, indifferent doesn’t cut it I’m afraid. Mistress definitely did not want a 24/7/365 chastity lifestyle and she said as much.

But, she changed her mind, and agreed to try, adding some of her own rules in the process (me not being allowed to ask for penetration, or begging to be allowed to cum). I’m quite sure she thought it would last a couple of months and then things would go back to ‘normal’. Of course it didn’t, and here we are nearly five years down the line.

I am perfectly happy of course, but I am mindful that unlike most fetishes this impacts on our life every single day. It’s true that Mistress is in complete control and she can do whatever she pleases, whenever she pleases (within reason) but still. I guess a lot of husbands may have some kink they like and their wives may indulge them (or the other way around of course, it’s not just men who are kinky) but this may only take a few minutes every so often and makes very little real impact on the everyday relationship.

Our situation is somewhat different of course and does have knock-on effects, like limiting our ability to have prolonged/vigorous penetrative sex when I am too ‘on edge’. I guess I just don’t want her to turn around one day and say that this ruined our ‘normal’ sex life, even though she seems perfectly happy with the way things are.

We have discussed this before, and she has definitely said that she doesn’t want to go back to a normal vanilla sex life, and I guess I should just leave it at that, but I still can’t help but worry about it sometimes. I just want to be sure that she is as happy as I am. Because I am very happy.

I'm So Close!

This is my second attempt at writing this post. My first was almost completed last night, when I caught the mousepad with my finger and abracadabra-bickety-bosh the whole thing was deleted. I was not happy, and since I can’t seem to find any way of stopping this happening (it wasn’t the first time by a long chalk) I have taken to writing in Word which has a lovely autosave, so even if I lose some of my post it won’t be all of it. Although knowing my luck it will autosave right after I cock it up again! Anyway, you didn’t come here to read about my inability to deal with first world problems, so I shall bore you with them no more!

Last night Mistress enjoyed her 100th orgasm of this chastity year. It was a lovely orgasm too, very fitting for the 100th of the year, and Mistress obviously enjoyed it enormously. After I had worshipped her gorgeous feet for a while and she had recovered, Mistress had me lick her pussy clean, before she started teasing me.

For those of you who don’t know, our chastity years run from April 1st – March 31st. This blog started in April 2011, just a couple of days after our full-time chastity agreement began on 1st April. All of which means this particular chastity year is drawing to a close, and with just 100 Mistress orgasms on the board so far, this is looking like it might possibly be the worst year since we started. Currently the least orgasmic year for Mistress was 2012-2013 with 112, so unless we score something close to a record month this month…

February was in fact the worst single month since the start of the blog, Mistress came just 6 times last month which is very disappointing. A lot of this was due to us both being ill, which is hopefully behind us now. Hopefully 2016-2017 will be better and Mistress will get into double figures every month. I know I shouldn’t get too hung up on the figures, and that quality is better than quantity and all that, but even so. I feel happier knowing that Mistress is properly satisfied.

Anyway, back to last night. Mistress soon had me hard and after some lovely slapping, stroking and sucking she decided to straddle me and sink down on my throbbing cock. As usual Mistress was wearing her black bra, and as much as I really wanted her to take it off and show me her gorgeous breasts I knew it was a bad idea as far as making it last went, so I decided to content myself with squeezing them through the material.

Sometimes when Mistress rides my cock she gives the impression that she’s doing it for me, rather than for her own enjoyment, but last night she seemed to be enjoying it a lot. It felt great for me too, but the way she was angling her pelvis to get maximum friction meant that it wasn’t really that long before I had to warn her I was getting close.

I was certain she was going to let me cum inside her. Absolutely certain. Even though it’s only been ten or so days since I was allowed to cum on her beautiful feet, I was convinced of it. And when she straddled me I was even more convinced. So when I warned her that I was getting close I absolutely expected her to speed up and tell me to shoot my load inside her. I was so sure, I could almost taste the mixture of cum and pussy juice that would soon be coating my tongue when she lifted herself off my wilting cock and onto my face.

But instead, she slowed right down and simply ground herself against my poor edging cock, leaving me to fight the urge to cum. It was fantastic, I have never been so close to coming inside her but not allowed to do so. I don’t know how long she stayed there, it probably wasn’t that long, but it felt like a while to me. Then she lifted herself off and lay next to me before very gently sliding her fingertips along my wet cock. She pushed them into my mouth so that I could lick them clean and told me that that was all I was getting.

I couldn’t quite believe it. Even when she lifted off I thought she might grab my cock and stroke it hard, at least until I started to cum… maybe even longer. I just wasn’t expecting her to say ‘That’s it for today’.

As you probably know I am not allowed to ‘beg’ to be allowed to cum. And I didn’t, well… not really. But I did say… in a rather desperate tone of voice, ‘I’m so close’.

To which Mistress responded, ‘I know you are, but you love it when I’m mean to you, don’t you?’

All I could really say to that was ‘Yes Mistress’.

And it’s true, because as much as I desperately wanted to jump on top of Mistress and slam my cock into her pussy until I filled her with cum, I fucking love that she took me so close, and made it so hard for me and still left me denied. It was so incredible, I just loved it so much.

My cock throbbed against her for ages and I begged her to stroke it just a little more. Mistress reached down and gave me three more firm strokes which felt so fucking good I can’t even begin to explain, but then I had to content myself with cuddling my beautiful Mistress and feeling my cock throb and ache against her gorgeous, sexy body. 

The other day I made a post about the fact that we were coming up to our fifth anniversary of chastity, and asked if anyone had any thoughts about whether we should continue on or have a break from it for a month or so. I haven’t spoken to Mistress about that post and I don’t think that she’s read it, or if she has she hasn’t mentioned it. All I can say is really, if last night is anything to go by, I really have no qualms about continuing on for another five years. I hope Mistress keeps building on the idea of being mean to me and making it hard for me, because last night really was pretty amazing.

55 or 56 Depending on How You Look at It..

Last night I went to bed before Mistress R, but I didn’t really sleep, and when Mistress came to bed at about 1:30am I cuddled against her and felt my cock start to harden. Mistress barely touched my cock at first, but then she took my cock into her mouth and gently teased and bit my cock. She still wasn’t stroking me at all but I could feel myself getting more and more turned on. She gently stroked my balls and I could feel myself getting closer and closer to the edge, even with barely any stimulation.

The other day Mistress said that just because I had a voucher, it didn’t necessarily mean that the next time I came I would be allowed to cum where I wanted. As the voucher was valid for a month it might be that she let me cum again later in the month and that would be when I got to choose.

So I wasn’t actually expecting Mistress to respond to my warning the way she did. Suddenly she threw the covers back and turned the light on and asked me where I wanted to cum. I had decided long ago to cum on her feet because I have wanted to do that for so long. She lay back on the bed and stroked her pussy while I knelt on the bed and jerked my cock. As you can imagine it didn’t take many strokes before I was cumming, and soon Mistress’s beautiful feet were soaked in my huge load.

Mistress’s gorgeous feet looked so sexy covered in cum (what a pity we didn’t take a photo…) and I eagerly licked them clean before we settled down and went to sleep. I really loved cumming on Mistress’s beautiful feet, and seeing her touching herself while I was cumming was awesome too (what man in his right mind wouldn’t?).

I’m looking forward to worshiping Mistress’s beautiful pussy today, the first time this year with empty balls! That’s quite an achievement though, 21st of Feb. I hope this is a sign of things to come.

Happy Valentine's Day Everyone!

This weekend has been super busy. Mistress and I took a drive up to Manchester to seeFaderhead on Friday night, then stayed the night in a hotel and watched another band on Saturday night (Millencolin) before driving home. Needless to say we are a little bit tired today…

Unusually we had our Valentines meal in the afternoon and exchanged gifts which this year included for me one of Mistress’s little vouchers… it says:

“Next time I allow you to cum, you may ask permission for one of the following:

To cum on my feet

To cum on my breasts

To cum on my ass

This is valid for one month from today’s date.”

So, I assume that Mistress is intending to let me cum ‘properly’ before March the 14th, though it doesn’t actually state that. Also the ‘ask’ was underlined, so I presume that means I can ask, but the decision will still be up to her whether I can cum there or not.

This is so hard, because I have been fantasizing about cumming on Mistress R’s gorgeous feet again for a very long time, but when it’s offered in such a way that I have to choose it over her breasts or ass… man that’s HARD!

Why I Love Ruined Orgasms..

After last night’s ruined orgasm, Mistress and I watched some TV and then as I had to get up for work in the morning I went to bed. I sort of dozed a bit and was aware of my cock getting hard again. It got harder and harder to the point that I seriously considered going downstairs and asking Mistress for permission to stroke. Just as I was thinking about this I heard Mistress coming up the stairs and going into the bathroom.

By the time she got into bed I had dozed off again and then I woke up as she pulled the covers back. I slid my arms around her and felt my cock slowly hardening against her stomach while we kissed. Ignoring my cock, Mistress turned over and snuggled against me, my cock squashed between our bodies.

I asked her if I could touch my cock and she said that I could ‘for a short time’. I was so hard and so close to cumming again, Mistress could have made me cum in well under a minute if she had wanted to. Needless to say, when I finished stroking my cock (very carefully it must be said!) it was even worse.

This perfectly illustrates why I love it when Mistress ruins my orgasms. If Mistress had allowed me to cum properly, none of this would have happened. I would have been drained and probably wouldn’t have got hard again until the next day. Despite what some people claim, I don’t really find ruined orgasms ‘painful’ at all. They are frustrating of course, feeling your cock getting harder and harder, preparing to expel the cum from your balls is a wonderful feeling… it builds and builds, so close and then… nothing. Just the sight of your cum slowly leaking from the head of your cock. And perhaps the taste of it as your Mistress feeds it to you from her fingers.

That’s something I miss when I’m not allowed to cum for long periods, because now I always have to swallow my cum when I am allowed to cum, I associate the taste with pleasure, so the hornier I get the more I literally crave the taste.

Of course there’s also the psychological side, the ‘power’ exchange, that Mistress gets to take me right to the edge as many times, and ultimately over it, but still denies me and keeps me aching for her.

And that of course is the best thing of all about ruined orgasms, that you don’t lose that horniness, the ache, the overpowering desire to cum… we all know how much it sucks to lose that feeling for the sake of a few seconds of intense pleasure. Of course, in the moment, right on the edge, when every fibre of your being is focused on cumming hard, barely any man would chose to be ruined, but deep down that’s what he’ll wish had happened afterwards.

Honestly, laying with Mistress last night, my cock throbbing against her gorgeous ass, aching for her to touch my cock and tease me again and of course knowing that shewas satisfied, was about as close to perfect as I can imagine. 

An Unexpected Ruining!

It’s been thirty two days since I was last allowed to cum, the end of last year in fact. It occurred to me today that since Mistress didn’t allow me to cum during our recent Femdom session, it could happen any day soon, since it seems unlikely (though not impossible) that she will wait until our next session.

It had been a week since Mistress had cum, mainly due to the rather sudden arrival of her period a couple of days after our session. As I moved between her legs my cock was achingly hard and it stayed that way for a good five minutes or so as I licked her delicious pussy. By the time Mistress had come however, it had softened somewhat. But that didn’t last long once Mistress closed her lips around it and it was soon once again desperately hard and aching to cum.

Mistress allowed me to gently stroke her asshole with my fingertips as she continued sucking and stroking my cock, I really badly wanted to ask her if I could lick her ass, but I was getting so close, I knew I would get too close too quickly and decided to wait and ask another day. Mistress kept stroking my cock really fast and then stopping just as I was getting to the edge. Then she would gently suck my cock until I calmed down slightly before repeating the process again.

Finally she moved up the bed to kiss me and stroked really hard and fast. I warned her that I was getting close but she didn’t let up. I warned her again and she told me that I had permission to cum. It never even entered my head that she would ruin it, but as soon as I started to cum Mistress let go and just traced her fingertips down my cock as we both watched my cum leaking from the tip of my cock.

After a while Mistress ran her finger up my still hard cock and collected some of my cum on her finger before offering it to my mouth. After I licked it clean and swallowed my cum she collected some more from the base of my cock and had me swallow that too. I love it when Mistress ruins my orgasm like that, I hope eventually she will feel more confident about doing it and less concerned about asking if it was ‘okay’. And then maybe she will ruin me more often and let me cum properly less often too. 

FEMDOM SESSION 21st January 2016

As you may or may not know, usually our Femdom sessions take place on Sunday’s. But we are away this weekend and then next weekend most likely Mistress will be on her period and the following weekend we are going out to dinner with friends etc… but Mistress and I want to make sure we don’t end up missing out sessions this year, so we decided to have it on a Thursday instead.

It does feel kind of weird doing it in the week, rushing after work etc… but once the session started I completely forgot about it and concentrated on Mistress’s gorgeous body! 

I was a little bit grumpy last night, and tonight when I got home. I can’t help but feel that Mistress used that as an excuse to whip me rather harshly, I mean okay I missed the towels one day, but that was all, no touching my cock! It was rather stingy, all thirteen strokes of it! Hmm.

After that Mistress had me turn and face the bed and had me start worshipping her beautiful feet while she played with her glass dildo. I was wearing the Oxballs Cocksling and soon found my cock getting very hard as I listened to her sliding the glass cock in and out of her pussy. When she was satisfied with my foot worshipping (which seemed quite a long time, but I love it so I’m not complaining), Mistress finally allowed me to look up and watch her using the dildo on herself. My cock was throbbing again and Mistress ordered me onto the bed as she slid back towards the pillows.

I knelt on the bed, my cock as hard as hell, and watched as she continued to play with her pussy with her fingers. I love watching Mistress touch herself, it’s so fucking hot. I wish I got to see her do it a lot more, I’d love to see her get herself off… that would be awesome. 

It was really frustrating not being allowed to touch either her or my poor throbbing cock, but soon Mistress had me tied down to the bed, whereupon she started stroking my cock. The next quarter of an hour was a cycle of Mistress sitting on my face, teasing me with her gorgeous ass, stroking and slapping my cock and riding my poor cock.

At some point she also picked the cock whip up off the bedside cabinet and teased me with it, rubbing it over her beautiful, exposed breasts and then her pussy. Mistress was wearing my favourite outfit again today and she looked stunning. I couldn’t help but think how hot her beautiful tits would look sprayed with cum… 

As Mistress rubbed her pussy with the cock whip, it made me wonder what it would be like for Mistress to have her pussy whipped. This thought was soon banished from my mind as Mistress started using the cock whip on me. Mistress seemed to be whipping me a bit harder than usual, though it could be that it was because the ends seemed to be hitting my cock rather than the middle of the tails. I must say it caught my by surprise to start with, but I actually kind of liked that it stung a bit more, as sometimes I’ve thought Mistress was a bit gentle with it.

Mistress didn’t plug my ass this time, but she did peg my nipples and left me to stew for a little while, with my cock still massively hard in the Cocksling. When she came back it was still fairly hard, and the Cocksling still felt quite comfortable. Mistress had removed her split PVC skirt, leaving just the cup-less PVC body… she looked amazing.

She plucked the two pegs off, bringing a couple of winces of pain from me, then untied me and had me remove the Cocksling. She stood on the bed and pulled me close to her, rubbing my face against her delicious pussy. Then she lay down on the bed with her legs spread and told me to ‘eat her pussy until she came’.

Mistress had a nice orgasm and then had me lick her clean. There wasn’t ‘rivers’ of pussy juice like there sometimes is, dripping down the backs of her legs. But there was some very creamy juices which I licked up and could feel as the coated my face. Mmmm!

Then I was ordered onto my back again and Mistress stood over me once more, her pussy was still dripping wet and her asshole was absolutely coated with pussy juice. Mistress teased me a while before allowing me to tongue her ass a few times. It was very hot, with her stroking me hard and fast as I licked her asshole clean.

After the third time, Mistress lifted up and simultaneously let go of my cock. No I wasn’t getting to cum today, so I go into tomorrow denied, and carrying a 26 day load.